Sorry for the long wait!

9000 words… I had so much I wanted to write, and I couldn't find the right place to split this chapter, so it's going to be my longest chapter ever. I hope you're going to like it.
It contains lemon (like some of you have requested) and I have actually wanted to write lemon with the two characters for some time, but I had to get a way of bringing them together – while writing it I got a great idea, so there might be a lemon in the next chapter too.

Enjoy!

Raditz sat at a rock and watched his nephew kill the creatures on planet GL-45. He only joined Gohan on the purginmissions to make sure he returned to Planet Vegeta and remembered to eat. He sighed. It had been two days since Gohan had last eaten, and he had patiently waited for the hybrid's power to fall due to hunger. He got of the rock in a small leap, not quite accustomed to the low gravitation – normally he wouldn't pay it any attention after a couple of hours, but by constantly sitting still while watching Gohan hadn't given him the opportunity yet.

"Gohan," he called, but his nephew didn't respond in any way. "Gohan, take a break. You have to eat." It was like a spell had been cast – just like all the other times Raditz interrupted Gohan's purging. "Come on, it will only last a couple of minutes." He turned around slowly, showing his back to the unmoving half-saiyan. While making sure the paralyzer was ready Raditz took out the supplybox from Gohan's pod to give it to him. As soon as the box came into his sight Gohan jumped towards Raditz, screaming and powering up. "Shit!" He threw the food away and pointed the gun at his nephew, but it was too late.

Gohan kicked the gun out of his hand and landed a fist in his face before jumping a few feet away. Raditz got into a defense stance and cursed inwardly for not making sure to get accustomed to the gravitation before agitating Gohan. He knew it would end up like this, it always did – he just couldn't bring himself to paralyze Gohan and give him nutrition through liquids every time he had to eat. He knew he had to do it now, but the gun had landed some hundreds meters away and Gohan was in the way. When Raditz slowly started to walk around his nephew he was met by a kick to the ribcage and another blow to his head, which broke the scouter he was wearing. Now the only way to communicate with Planet Vegeta was to be in the pod, but that wouldn't be possible if he didn't make Gohan calm.

"Gohan, it's wasting more of your time to fight me than eating would." His comment had the exact opposite effect of what he had expected. A loud roar sounded from Gohan as he leapt towards his uncle with fists ready to strike. "Oh, for the love of…" Raditz shouted as he met Gohan's left hand just in time to not be hit for the third time in the head.

He expected Gohan to jump back again, like he had done the other times, but it didn't seem to be his nephew's plan to back down now – if he even had a plan. As he deflected blows and kicks, Raditz noticed how Gohan no longer seemed to recognize what happened around him and he tried to get around the furious young man so he no longer was in front of the paralyzer. Twelve minutes later he had finally made a 180-degree turn and was now closer to the gun than Gohan. Slowly, to not raise suspicion if his nephew snapped out of his rage, Raditz began to move closer to the gun by letting himself be pushed backwards by some of the attacks. When he was a few feet away from his target he let Gohan punch him in the face so he could fall down and grab the gun. In a swift movement Raditz turned around and fired it, making the needle hit Gohan in the arm he had lifted to land the next punch. He then quickly rolled to the side to not have Gohan land on top of him.

"Ouch…" He got up from the ground and examined the damage. Two broken fingers on the right hand, several bruises and open wounds down his arms and legs and he was sure his left cheek would swell. He was grateful Gohan had been starving, otherwise he might be dead. He looked down at his paralyzed nephew and was met with flaming eyes. "Sorry Gohan," Raditz said as he lifted the young man over his shoulder and brought him back to the pods, where he sedated and fed him. He then put Gohan into his pod and made sure he wouldn't be awake before the pod was opened again – just as usual. "I better finish this quickly," he said and looked down at the most severe wound on his right arm. It was already infected by the microbes living in the atmosphere.

He looked at the young saiyan in front of him in disbelief. The private was young enough to be his grandson and he dared deny him access to a pod? "Do you even know who I am?"

"Yes sir, you are Burdock, father of Sergeant Raditz and Former Ambassador of Planet Earth Kakarrot." It sounded like a record being played.

"I didn't mean to have you tell me what my sons are. It seems you're unaware of my own military degree. I demand you, as major to give me passage." He was only going by the book to get a pod in order not to get his family in trouble – the part that already wasn't. His computer had told him that contact to Raditz' scouter had been cut, and therefore he had replayed the last ten minutes it had filmed, to make sure it just wasn't a bug in the system. The last image had been Gohan's fist, which explained clearly why the scouter had stopped sending back info.

"I'm sorry sir, but I am not allowed to give access to pods to former majors."

"Now listen, you punk, I may have been forced to leave the military, but I have at least served my planet and king by completing missions, not just by standing in a doorway! I won't ask aga…" Burdock was seconds from snapping but never made it that far as two MPs grabbed him by each arm and started dragging him out of the spaceharbor.

"Please leave, sir," one of the MPs said, "unless you have missions, you cannot be given access to a pod."

"So my achievements don't count? All the missions I have accomplished… The sacrifice I made by fulfilling my mission instead of seeking medical treatment, so now my leg is always hurting… None of it matters?" Burdock felt resentment filling him. He had even written the log of his youngest son's child purge and done it without demur! "My son is alone with my grandson, Gohan. You must have heard of him! I can't get in contact with my son, and I fear the worst has happened. Just let me borrow a pod for a week!" He didn't care about his pride anymore in this matter. He just wanted to make sure his son and grandson were safe!

"Sorry sir, but no. I would personally let you take off, but I can't let you." The MP, who had been talking looked at the other, who nodded and walked out of earshot. "I am a friend of Raditz, and I am truly sorry for not being able to help you. If I hear anything, I will contact you immediately!"

Burdock put his hand on the MP's shoulder. "Thank you," he said and took off after receiving a nod from the younger man. He decided to visit his daughter-in-law and Daisia and have a talk with them. He couldn't go with this knowledge alone, but it wouldn't be wise to tell it to Raditz' mate.

Daisia opened the door a couple of seconds before Burdock touched down in front of it. He looked at bit surprised by her action, but didn't mention it. She made space for him to come inside, feeling a nervous rush throughout her body. He hadn't visited them since he told them about Gohan's breakdown, and she hadn't seen him since two weeks ago in front of the spaceharbor. After closing the door she followed the older man into the living room, where Chi-Chi was sitting in the couch, clearly exhausted by her unborn son's activity.

"Burdock, how nice to see you," she said and sent her father-in-law a weak smile, "I hope your visit isn't because of Gohan causing trouble once again."

Daisia could see a sudden tension in the older saiyan's jaw while his shoulders dropped. Chi-Chi had clearly hit the nail on the head. "I'm sorry, Chi-Chi, but... The last video Raditz' scouter send was of Gohan attacking him. I don't know what has happened afterwards." The normally composed man closed his eyes and took in a deep breath, clearly to calm himself down. "I don't know if we will ever see them again."

Both Daisia and Burdock fought the urge to cover their sensitive ears as Chi-Chi started to cry. Slight panic seemed to manifest in Burdock's eyes and Daisia decided to do something she never thought she would do: throw a person out of what she had come to see as her home. "I think you should go." The other saiyan looked at her with surprise. "This is not what she needed to hear, so leave and let me handle it." Burdock was about to protest, but a loud moan of sorrow from Chi-Chi stopped him and he let Daisia walk him out of the house.

They had just sent each other a nod for goodbye when suddenly Goku popped out of thin air. "Father, are you here to help?" He looked flustered, even slightly panicked.

"Help?" Burdock said and was clearly as puzzled as Daisia felt.

"Chi-Chi! She is about to give birth; I can sense it in her ki!" Goku had just finished the sentence when all three saiyans heard a painfull scream from inside the house.

The usual alarm for incoming pods had sounded several minutes ago but no one had left dock 7. Two of the guards on duty had decided to check out if the alarm had been false and were now making an emergency call to the medics. One of the pods was open and inside was a heavily wounded Raditz, who needed medical attention right away, which meant the closed pod had to contain Gohan; none of the guards wanted to handle him without a medic nearby to paralyze and sedate him.

"Shouldn't we get him out?" the youngest asked.

"Can't you see how infected his wounds are? They were at Planet GL-45, its atmosphere contains numerous bacteria and viruses, and we won't know if any of them might start an epidemic." The oldest guard had dragged his younger colleague out of the dock as soon as he had seen the infected wounds on the unconscious sergeant.

"But…"

"Shut up! We have to wait for the medics, understood?" He had just sent the young guard a stern gaze when a team of ten medics came.

"Both of you need to stay until we have examined you," one of the medics said while the others got into the dock, "if Sergeant Raditz has taken back some of the dangerous microbes and you have gotten some of them inside your body we will have to isolate and treat you."

The two guards send each other a worried gaze. "Do you see now why I dragged you out?" the oldest asked. The young saiyan, who had turned paler, nodded silently.

Inside the dock the medics had gotten Raditz out of his pod with some difficulties. None of them were saiyans themselves, so they had to be five to get the big man out of the small cabin. While six of the medics started to check his numbers three of the remaining four was about to open Gohan's pod. Two of them had a paralyzer ready and the third held a syringe with sedatives in it. They looked at each other, making sure they all were ready. Slowly they pressed the command for opening the pod and took a step back.

"Uuugh…" Slowly he raised his hand to grab his head. Never before had he felt so bad, it was like his head was about to explode alongside the rest of his body. He had never felt like this before; it was like his blood was too thick to run in his veins but his heart kept pumping faster and faster to squeeze it through the tight pipes. With great effort he finally opened his eyes and was met by several starring eyes. He took his time to look around and realized he was inside a pod in the spaceharbor. As slow as possible, to not put too much strain on his painful body, he grabbed the side of the pod and got himself out of the tiny cabin. He had just set a foot on the floor when the leg gave away underneath him and he stumbled to the ground. A bunch of hands grabbed his soar body and turned him around. Too weak to hold his own head he let it drop to the side and starred right at his uncle.

Yellow and green pus was slowly dripping from the badly infected wounds all over his body. His tail looked almost rotten with big patches of bare skin, where the fur had fallen off. The left cheek wasn't there anymore and Raditz' teeth were visible through the hole. He felt his throat start to contract and bile started to fill his mouth. He tried to swallow, but couldn't and instead he started to spit it out. It was black with small bubbles of gas leaving it with a low sizzling. A moan of pain escaped him when he for the second time spit out some of the black bile. People around him were talking, and each time some bile left his mouth hysteria seemed to grow. For the first time he wished they would use sedation on him.

A couple of minutes went by with more bile coming out of his mouth, each time a less dark color, and then he saw his uncles was lifted onto a medicbed and was driven away. Once again he moaned, desperate to not be left alone in this hell of pain. Turmoil suddenly erupted around him, and he tried desperately to move his head to see what was happening, but he couldn't – it felt like the blood had started to clog in his neck and made it unable to move. It sounded like a quarrel was going on, why couldn't they just be quite? He wanted to sleep now; he couldn't even feel his feet anymore. Perhaps this was punishment for what he had done? A slow, painful death? He didn't care. If this was what he should go through to finally get out of his misery, then he would gladly do so.

"Gohan." He opened his eyes, not even aware of when he had closed them. They had started to blur, but he willed them to focus on the person in front of him. A pair of black, worried eyes was looking at him. Who was it? "Gohan, you have to fight, okay?" He closed his eyes again. NO! He didn't want to fight. "Gohan!" The panic in the voice made his eyes shoot open. "Hey, stay with me, okay? Keep your eyes open, it's going to be all right." His eyelids started to feel like they were made of lead and he began to close them once again. "No, no, no, don't close your eyes. Gohan, stay with me! Gohan…" He felt something warm and soothing at his cheek and slowly opened his right eye to watch the figure by his side. "That's right, just stay awake, okay? I'm with you now, it will all be fine soon, I promise." The feeling of his blood clogging his veins had started to spread from his feet and fingers to his legs and arms, and the heaviness of his body made him feel so weak and tired. Without more strength to fight the pending darkness he let his eye close once again. The last thing he heard was a desperate yell: "GOHAN!"

Goku paced forth and back in the living room. Chi-Chi looked briefly at him before she returned her attention to the baby, who was feeding at the moment. "Calm down, Goku. You can't do anything about it. If a person can get to Gohan, it's Daisia."

"I know," he huffed and let himself fall into a chair. He looked at his wife and their nine days old son, named Goten. The little boy looked exactly like he had done when he was a kid, and his father had seemed quite nostalgic when he held his youngest grandson even though he tried to hide it. "It's just…" He scratched the back of his head and tapped at the floor with his foot. "I had no idea what had happened, and now you tell me not to go see our son. I can feel both his and Raditz' kis, and they're not very high."

"But you can't get to them," Chi-Chi said and sent him a short glance. "And I'm happy you didn't fly off as Daisia when I asked you to stay. You have no idea how long they will keep them isolated. If you had been there, I would have to be all alone." Goku could see how brave his wife tried to be, but he knew how fragile she felt at the moment. It had been the same when Gohan was born – she acted like she could handle everything in the world while she was falling apart inside.

"I know Chi." He got out of his seat and sat down in the sofa beside her. "I promise I will stay until Daisia is out again, but I have to get on with the tasks I have been given by the Supreme Kai." Chi-Chi just nodded without looking at him. Their son had just let go of her breast and was now snuggling a bit in his mother's arms before he started to snore contently. "I have to do it for Goten's sake. I have had a lot of time to think, and I've decided to do anything to make sure Goten won't be put through so much trouble as Gohan has been."

Chi-Chi looked at him; this time she was smiling. "You don't have to explain it to me, Goku. I'm certain you're doing all you can. For all of us." He leaned forward, making sure he wouldn't wake up Goten, and kissed his beautiful wife. Yes, he did it for them.

Daisia looked out of the window and sighed. It had been three days now, and they would still not let her see Gohan… or even Raditz! She and Goku had both sensed something was wrong as soon as Gohan and Raditz' kis were close enough to feel. They had been way too weak for comfort and without saying anything she and the former ambassador had headed towards the front door. If not Chi-Chi had called out and made Goku explain, he would probably had taken off alongside her. In the end, he hadn't showed up; Chi-Chi had probably talked him into staying with her, which had saved Goku from the horrific sight Daisia had been greeted by. Just outside the spaceharbor she had seen Raditz being rushed towards the hospital. He and the medics with him had been surrounded by the isolationshields used for situations like these. He had looked horrible; parts of his body, face even tail were gone and the parts remaining were filled with open, pus-filled wounds. She had shaken the shock off of her and headed towards Gohan's ki, afraid what would meet her. To her surprise there had not been a single guard or soldiers all the way to the dock, where she had met the first two. They had told her to stay with them, telling her they might be infected and thereby infect her. After a couple of minutes talking back and forth, where Daisia had argued it wouldn't make a difference whether she waited outside with them or got to Gohan, she had gone into the dock and left the fuming guards outside. One of the four medics had left Gohan to tell her to get out. She had argued with her as well and finally the medic had let her go to him.

He hadn't looked as bad as Raditz, but the black pools of bile by his side showed her, that he was infected too. She had rushed to his side and tried to talk him into fight, but he had seemed so unwilling… When he closed his eyes for the last time, she had felt like she could die. His ki had fallen to such a low level it was barely detectable and she had let the medics push her away so they could work with him with more ease. After what felt like an eternity a medicbed finally showed up and they all rushed away with him. She had begged for them to take her with him, but they had told her to stay in the dock with a medic. He had done a quick examination and told her she would need to be isolated for a week to make sure she hadn't been infected. The two guards had been examined later and hadn't needed to be isolated.

And here she was… Alone, in an isolated room, next to Gohan, who's room was between her own and Raditz', and yet she wasn't allowed to see him. She pushed herself away from the wall and walked to the intercom beside the door. Seconds after she had pushed the button a medic answered her call. "Yes?"

"Can I go see Gohan, please? There's even a door between our rooms, I won't need to go into the hallway for heaven's sake!" She tried to remain calm but didn't succeed. She just wanted to make sure he wasn't half-eaten like his uncle had been… that was a lie, she just needed to see him! She hadn't seen him more than two times for several months and now he was so close and yet she was denied to visit him!

"You can't."

"Why?" She clenched her fist and told herself smashing the intercom wouldn't help her situation.

"If you get inside his room your isolation will be in vain and it will have to start all over. You can see him when he's cured."

It seemed like the medic was about to hang up, but Daisia quickly said: "I don't care if it has to start over! I can even take a month of isolation if needed, please just let me see him!"

The medic looked at her silently for a while. Then the intercom suddenly went black. Daisia started to curse and stomped her right foot into the floor, making a nice bulge. She was about to do the same thing to the wall when she heard the sound of the door into the sterilization room just outside her door. Soon the door in front of her was open and the medic she had been talking to entered.

"I will have to give you some information before you can see him, and I doubt my superior agrees with my decision about letting you meet him. Therefore I will give them to you in here instead of using the intercom." He pointed at the two chairs near the window and Daisia followed him and sat down. "We have made Gohan's room kidampening, but not as much as the cells at the barrack, so I can't guarantee your safety if he gets one of his fits." She nodded and tried to ignore the anger she felt at all the people treating Gohan like some animal. "You have to bring this with you," he said; it was first then Daisia noticed the tiny object in the medic's hand. "If he starts to act up, you just have to point it at him and push this button then return to your room and call us via the intercom." She nodded as she reluctantly took the paralyzer from the medic. "I will go outside now and in a few moments the door will be opened." The medic got out of his chair and left the room. Soon after she heard a buzz from the door just in front of her. Slowly Daisia got out of her chair and walked towards the door. With her hand above the button to open it she took in a deep breath. Then she pressed the button and walked into the room with confident steps.

She had only taken a few steps when she stopped abruptly. Gohan stood before her with eyes she couldn't decode. At least they weren't empty like they had been the first time she saw him near the harbor or looked painful like the last time she saw him. "How are you feeling?" she asked carefully. Burdock had told her how quiet Gohan could be before he would suddenly start a rage. She was certain the purging had been too hard on his sweet nature and hoped she could somehow reach him.

After a couple of seconds in silence Gohan shrugged. "Better I guess. It was you at the dock right?"

Daisia took a step forward without noticing it as she smilingly said: "Yes, you recognized me?"

Gohan snarled and started walking towards her. "Why wouldn't you just let me die? Do you know how long I've been waiting to die?" He grabbed her shoulder and started to shake her violently. "Do you?" His eyes were now burning with anger.

"I couldn't let you die Gohan! You just got a babybrother, six days before you got back, don't you want to meet him?" she tried a bit desperately. She couldn't tell him why she hadn't wanted to watch him die, not like this. To him they were still friends, she was certain of it, and she didn't want to confess her love as the reason to why she wouldn't let him die. Not when he expressed a deathwish like he had just done.

"You're not part of my family! I have told you before, so stop meddling in our business. Just leave me alone." He pushed her away and ignored her low hiss when her left shoulder got bruised by the wall.

Daisia grabbed her slightly hurting shoulder and looked at him, anger starting to build up inside her. How dared he! She had risked her own health and perhaps even life to get to his side, and this was how he treated her! Oh why did she have to fall in love with an unstable hybrid? "I won't! And you know why?" she asked when he slowly turned around and looked at her. "Because I love you, that's why! Don't you ever dare treat me like I shouldn't care for you! You were the first person to ever treat me with kindness and now you just tell me to scram. What's wrong? This is not you Gohan." She watched several emotions flicker in his eyes: surprise, denial, hope and last anger and loneliness.

"You're right. I'm not Gohan – can't you see it?" He sat down at the bed and hammered his fist into the mattress. "How should you, you're just a filthy half-ape like everybody else."

Daisia felt the tickling in her hand before she realized she had slapped him. "That's enough!" For the first time in years Daisia felt a tear roll down her cheek. "I never thought you would speak like that. What's the matter with you?" She took a step back when Gohan got up and started to walk towards her.

"What's the matter with me? What's the matter with you? Is it because you haven't purged you can live with yourself?" He grabbed her throat and lifted her off the ground. The shock made her lose her grip on the paralyzer but it seemed like Gohan was too agitated to notice. "Is it because you haven't tried to kill an innocent? If you had, you would know how easy it is, and how hard it is to live with yourself afterwards." Daisia grabbed Gohan's arm and found one of the pressurepoints she had been taught about. As soon as she pressed at it his lower arm and hand turned numb and Daisia stumbled to the ground.

She looked up at him. His eyes were burning with selfloath and underneath there was a hint of loneliness. Slowly she got up from the floor and laid her hand on his cheek. "You're too hard on yourself. Your grandfather told us why you and Raditz had to go on the first mission; I know you did it to take care of us. Don't blame yourself like that." Gohan looked at her and it looked like he was begging her to keep on telling him not to be so hard on himself. "Saiyans have always purged, no matter how barbaric it might seem to humans. I know Chi-Chi would never hate you for what you have done, nor would your father." At her last remark Gohan took a step backwards and his gaze went stern.

"You don't know my parents then. You may think you know my mother after living with her, but my father would never accept what I have done. He will hate me, I'm sure he just won't show it to not hurt my mother." He walked to the window and clenched his fists.

Daisia walked slowly towards his tense figure and laid a hand on his back. "I'm sorry Gohan. I… I just hate seeing you like this." He turned around towards her and looked at her with his stern eyes. She looked into them for a long time before she said: "Do you remember when we met in front of the harbor? Raditz was furious because he had told me not to go see you." He nodded slowly and stiffened a bit when she laid her hand at his cheek once again. "When I promised to visit you again I never imagined it would be at the hospital while I was held in isolation too." She looked down at his still clenched fists. Slowly to not startle him she took one of his hands with her free hand. "You're not in pain, are you?" He shook his head no and relaxed a bit in his shoulders and hands.

His eyes were no longer full of selfloathe or anger, only loneliness. They stood and looked into each other's' eyes for several minutes before Daisia slowly leaned forward and kissed his cheek. "I have missed you so much," she whispered and leaned her forehead against his. Gohan had closed his eyes and had tensed his jaw but he didn't push her away. Minutes went by where none of them said or did anything before Daisia said: "Can you remember why you jumped towards me outside the harbor?"

Gohan shook his head but kept their forehead pressed against each other. "I'm not sure. I think it was because you were the first I recognized who wasn't pointing a paralyzer at me or making sure to get me off planet to act like a killingmachine all the time."

Daisia was glad he had his eyes closed. She was sure he wouldn't be happy with seeing her smile like she did; to hear him talk almost normally made her happy beyond belief. She leaned a bit backwards before letting her lips touch his. It was like she had hit a button. Gohan laid his right arm around her waist and let his left hand grab the back of her head. His lips were hard at first but slowly they got more and more soft. Daisia let her hands rest against his chest, afraid he would become scared if she wrapped them around his neck even though she wanted badly to do that!

Heavily breathing she broke of the kiss and was about to kiss his neck and face but he got ahead of her. Daisia leaned back her head and exposed her neck completely to him, sighing contently by the feeling of his lips against her skin. While his lips still made her neck burn his left hand started to travel down her back and cupped her bottom like his right hand had done just a moment earlier. She started to unbutton his shirt but let her hands retreat when she more felt than heard the low growl from Gohan. He started to kiss her lips once again while his hands moved from her bottom and to the front of her blouse. Slowly he unbuttoned it before starting to do it on himself. Daisia was so close to him she could feel his hands tremble and she broke of the kiss as she grabbed them.

"If you don't want to, then don't," she said while looking into his eyes. She started to button his shirt up again while planting swift butterflykisses at the side of his neck. While doing so she caught a glimpse of his upper torso where several starformed scars showed the heavy use of the paralyzer against him. Daisia slowly took a step away from him and bend down to pick up the paralyzer she had dropped earlier. She could see how Gohan stiffened and betrayal started to shine out of his eyes. Without looking at him Daisia walked to the table near the window and put down the small gun. She turned around and looked at him. She walked to him but stopped a foot away, not wanting to get too close if he felt trapped. "Raditz told me a long time ago I only could go see you, if I had one of those pointed at you the whole time. Even the medic, who let me in here, gave me one. Just in case." He was trembling when she put her hand at his cheek once again. She felt like it was something she should do to keep on showing him her love. "But I would never use something like that against you."

A low gasp escaped her when Gohan grabbed her around the waist, this time his arm was lying against her naked skin, and pulled her towards him for at mindshattering kiss. This time she couldn't help herself and she threw her arms around his neck while her tongue finally got entangle with his. She felt his arm start to move down her back and began to purr involuntary when his hand swiftly brushed against her tail. A shiver ran down her spine when his hand stopped moving downwards and instead started to brush her tail with even movements and it made her push her body even closer against his. His other hand moved up her arm and started to touch her breasts lightly before starting to fondle them more confidently. Daisia broke off their kiss and moaned quietly while tugging at Gohan's trousers. His movements came to an abrupt halt and she let go off the fabric instantly keeping her eyes shot to not look at his face. A moment went by until she suddenly felt his hand leave her breast and instead in a swift moment rip off both their trousers. She took a trembling breath and let her tail sneak around him to let it run up and down his back; its sensitive tip felt every scar from battle and from the paralyzer.

Her body felt even hotter when it was pressed against the cold wall; the front of her body was completely engulfed in Gohan's heat and it made her shiver when he grabbed her thighs and wrapped her legs around his body seconds after pushing her against the wall. Daisia pressed her mouth against his neck to muffle her loud moan when Gohan slowly pressed his throbbing erection inside her. She felt his burning hands on her hips and how he made them join even further. Only a single thought could manifest in her head; she was certain this was happiness. Her arms tightened a bit around his neck when he started to move, making the warm feeling in her core start to spread throughout her entire body. His smell was filling her nostrils, her skin felt like it would set on fire by each touch of his; all her senses were focused on him and it made her even more lightheaded when his breath hit her neck before he started to kiss it.

"Gohan," she whispered and lifted her head to give him better access, not noticing the hesitation he began to show. Daisia began to move against him, trying to get him further into her trembling body; he responded by setting an even higher pace, making her low moan turn into screams of pleasure. Her hands found their way into his shirt and the feeling of the smooth skin on his shoulders made her instinctively dug her nails into it to put her own mark on the man she wanted so desperately to become hers. The triumphant feeling of doing so had only started to manifest itself when a low roar sent a shiver down her spine. She suddenly felt Gohan's hand close around her throat while he pulled her arms and legs away from his body.

The pain by her collision with the wall just below the window was nothing against the dread and panic rising in her when she turned and looked at the furious man in front of her. His teeth were barred as he walked towards her, snarling. It was easy to see he had got into a fit and wasn't aware of what he was doing. Desperate to get away from him Daisia pushed all the buttons at the door and threw herself through it when it finally opened. As soon as she was inside her own room she closed and locked the door holding back a sob when the sound of Gohan's fist ramming against it made her stomach clench in fear. What had she done?

There was no sound in the room except Goten's quiet snoring from his crib. Goku looked at the peaceful boy and clenched his fists; he would do anything to make his oldest son just as happy. He looked at his father and brother; Raditz was only marked by the infection by a minor scar at his cheek where the newly grown skin had closed the wound. Truth to be told he hadn't felt any urge to meet them while being back for a short amount of time. He had decided not to confront them about what had happened while he was gone; they couldn't change the past and a confrontation would only rip his family apart.

"Where's my son now?" He knew they were aware of the fact that he could feel Gohan's ki wasn't on the planet. Even though he had decided not to take a confrontation about the last half year Goku was fuming on the inside by the fact that he woke up this morning to the lack of Gohan's ki. They hadn't said a word except their greetings, but he was certain they had known Gohan had been scheduled to be sent off. And they hadn't said a word!?

"We don't know." Burdock's eyes were firmly closed and his voice was filled with regret. "It was only because I went to the barrack to see to him I was told he was on a mission. Apparently he chose to take a solo mission late last night."

Raditz got out of his seat with a determined look. "If he acts like he has done on all our missions he won't stop purging to eat or sleep. I should be in a pod on my way to him instead of just sitting here!"

Goku looked at his brother, who started to walk towards the door. "Raditz, stop." He got out of his seat and looked back and forth at his brother and father. "None of you have to meddle in this anymore. You have shown you cannot take care of Gohan so I will go. I only ask of you to take care of Chi-Chi and Goten while I'm gone. I entrust you with the people most important to me. Don't let me down again." Before Raditz or Burdock could say anything Goku instanttransmitted himself to a well-known mini-planet.

"Ah, welcome Goku; I have been wondering how long it would be before you decided to visit me again." King Kai got out of the car, which he had just parked in front of his house. "I believe you've come to ask of Gohan's whereabouts?"

Goku nodded. "I have, but thinking of what happened last time I asked for help, I'm sure you can't tell me right?" He knew he shouldn't get his hopes up high. Even from here he couldn't feel his son's ki…

King Kai bowed his head and shook it no. He wanted to, he really did! But he couldn't. The Supreme Kai had finally found the last, but most important, task for Goku, and he would do anything to have it altered – he had even begged Kibito to talk to the Supreme Kai and have him change his mind, but it had been a lost cause. "Wait here Goku. I will be back in a moment."

Goku looked at the bugman, who disappeared into the small house. Bubbles had just left the house and was now trying to get his attention with all his might, but Goku had too much on his mind to pet the jumping monkey. He had been completely dumbfounded when Burdock had told him that even he and Raditz hadn't known of Gohan's departure. His son had gotten out of the hospital the day before, and Goku had decided to go meet him today. He had a hard time believing his caring, happy and sweet son should have turned into some kind of madman. But unfortunately it seemed to be the truth.

King Kai came out of the house, worry clear in his face. "Goku, you need to go to the planet you were at before going back to Planet Vegeta. Then the Supreme Kai will help you find Gohan."

Goku looked doubtfully at his former master. "Are you sure the Supreme Kai is going to help me? So far it hasn't felt that way…"

"He will lead you to the last task before introducing you to the namekian. You will meet Gohan either during the task or at the planet with the namekian. I don't know if the first or second is the case," King Kai lied. He knew telling the truth wouldn't make it easier on Goku.

The ground was purple and only small blue plants were scattered around him. It seemed like a barren planet, but there had to be some kind of life or he wouldn't have been send to it. He took in a deep breath and used his ability to feel kis for the first time in weeks – for some reason he had unconsciously stopped using it. He had yet to realize he had done so in order to not be so conscious about Daisia on the opposite side of the hospitalwall after she had been forced to flee the room due to his rage.

A small group of kis near him had just caught his interest when a familiar ki suddenly popped up just beside them. He furrowed his brows. What was he doing here? He got into the air and flew towards the cluster of kis.

Goku ignored the frightened, small alien-people, who ran around and screamed in fear. They had started to do so when he had instanttransmitted himself to the spot his own ki-signature had been put on just seconds before. He could feel Gohan was getting closer and once again wished he could have gone to the planet without letting his son know he had arrived. He needed some time to think, but if he ended up arriving on a half-purged planet because he had been sitting down to think he would never forgive himself.

He still couldn't believe what Kibito had told him the Supreme Kai had said he should do. I have one last task for you, and then you will be shown directly to the namekian you seek. You have to go to the next planet, like you have done before. There you will meet your son and you will have to do what you have been told from the start you might have to do. Kibito hadn't said it directly but Goku knew, what he meant. King Kai had even said so before he started those missions: "I can't guarantee you won't be forced to harm or perhaps even kill a saiyan."

He would talk to Gohan and together they would find a solution, just like they always did! Gohan's ki came closer and he prepared himself for what might meet him. Chi-Chi had told him stories, but it couldn't be that bad. The fist, which hit his right cheek, was so unexpected Goku fell to the ground by the impact.

"What are you doing here?" Gohan snarled at him. He looked at his son and couldn't believe his eyes. Never before had his features been so harsh, his entire posture was completely changed from the last time he saw him. Before Goku could manage to get up he had to roll to the side to avoid his son's foot, which would otherwise have hit his stomach. "Did you come to play nanny like Raditz? To make sure I eat and sleep? Why won't all of you just leave me alone?" Goku leapt off the ground and landed a few feet away from his agitated son.

"No, Gohan, listen to me!" He grabbed Gohan's left hand before it hit his head and deflected the right a fraction of a second later. "Calm down, I need to talk with you."

"Why don't you just use the paralyzer like everybody else? Huh? Still want to play the understanding and loving father?" Goku punched Gohan in the stomach and tried to fixate his arms with no luck.

"What do you mean? Gohan, listen! I need you to listen to me."

"Why?" Gohan yelled after throwing yet another punch at his face. "Just to hear you say all the stuff I already know? How much you and mom hate me for doing this? Just go away!"

"I don't hate you! Gohan, stop!" His desperate yell was only answered by a snort from Gohan. After deflecting punches and landing a few himself to try to get Gohan calm enough to talk, Goku screamed without thinking: "I'm here to kill you!"

Gohan stopped the fight immediately and looked at him with questioning eyes. "Why haven't you done so earlier?" Before Goku managed to say anything, his son continued: "Ever since my first mission I have tried to get out of this miserable life, but no one has helped me! Why haven't you come to do it before now? Do you know how much blood I have on my hands?"

Goku closed his eyes and shook his head no. He slowly opened his eyes again and looked at his son. His haunted, broken son. "I'm sorry Gohan, I had no idea what was happening. I… I just wanted to-"

"To save the day like you always do," Gohan spat and shot him an angry look. "Then why didn't you come save the people I have killed?"

"Gohan, I didn't know what was going on! Of course I would have helped you, I still want to. But not by killing you, even if you think that's the best way out." He could see the will to live had left his son's eyes, but Gohan hadn't been pushed so far so he would take his own life. But it did seem like it was only a question of time before it happened.

"Then why did you say you're here to kill me?" Gohan almost seemed disappointed and Goku could feel how his son started to power up, like he wanted to fight him once again.

"Because the Supreme Kai has told me to do so in order to get to the namekian. But I'm sure we can find a way out of it, I just need you to listen and talk with me! We have to find another way." He looked carefully into his son's eyes and hoped to see something else than the emptiness he was met by.

"Then do it."

"What?"

"Do it! Don't deny the disgust you feel knowing how many innocent your own son has killed! Just act on it. Kill me!" Gohan tried not to sound too desperate. He just wanted to die; it tortured him to see all the people around him pretend not to care about his actions when they filled him with so much self-hatred. He had tried to let go of his human side in vain, and he could feel how his sanity was slowly fading away. If his death could even be beneficial, then maybe his parents would someday think of him without disgust and hatred.

When he could see his father's hesitation Gohan decided to push him into the act. All the inhabitants in the city had run into their tiny, turquoise houses, but they would not serve any protection. His first kiball destroyed the nearest house completely, leaving nothing but a few burning walls behind. The second wasn't so powerful and only made a hole in a house, from where he grabbed two of the crying and screaming aliens. While looking his father dead in the eyes he threw one of them into the air and let a couple of kibeams shoot through its body. Goku's eyes grew large in horror when Gohan grabbed the other alien's head and squeezed it until the skull broke and braintissue were splattered on his arm.

"Gohan, stop!" Goku sounded desperate but he just grabbed a third alien from the house after he had shot one, who had tried to escape. He threw the alien at the ground, beside the two already dead, and started to stomp on it, making a painful scream replace its cry of panic. "STOP!" His arm was grabbed and he was pulled away from the bleeding yet still breathing alien. His father looked at the tortured creature and shot a single beam of ki through its heart before looking at him. "Why did you do that?"

"Because that's what I do," he said and hit his father's arm, breaking it in the process. He flew to another house and punched a hole in the wall where he pulled out an alien, who was desperately trying to put down a baby before being pulled completely out of the house. Gohan grabbed the baby and threw both the aliens at the ground. He made two kiballs and pointed them at the crying aliens before looking at his father.

Goku shook his head. "Gohan, stop," he begged. He would never have thought he would see his son act like he did.

"Then stop me." Gohan let go of the kiballs and the two aliens were pulverized. He watched his son grab yet another alien and quickly snap its neck before throwing it at his feet. "Or they will all end like that." Gohan grabbed an alien more and held it by the neck. His son suddenly stood before him with fewerhot eyes. "Weren't you here to stop me?" Goku closed his eyes to not get blood in them when Gohan punched his hand right through the alien's body. He took the dead alien and put it carefully down before looking at his son. "What's stopping you?" Gohan was once again next to the house and pulling out a couple of aliens. "Why don't you just do it?" Goku wasn't sure if the desperation in Gohan's voice was something he only heard because he wanted to. "You can get everyone back, just do it!"

Goku got up and watched how his son started to look like a maniac while killing more and more aliens. His arms felt like they were made of lead when he started to lift the left. It took all his willpower to form a kiball and he had to do it three times before he could keep it instead of letting it disappear as soon as he had made it. He let go off it and watched the scenario in front of him in slowmotion.

As soon as the ball had left his hand Gohan had dropped the alien he was holding and turned towards him. He closed his eyes and leaned his head slightly back. He looked… peaceful. Goku watched his son's armor begin to redden around the hole in his chest while he slowly fell towards the ground. Seconds went by before Goku could move. He took a single shaking step before he fell to his knees. For minutes he watched the unmoving body of Gohan until an alien fearfully walked to it and started to punch and kick it.

"Get away from him!" He flew to his son's side and pushed the alien away. "Don't touch him!" Goku brushed away some tears before slowly laying a hand above the hole in Gohan's chest. The blood had almost stopped flowing and his son's body was already starting to get cold. "Are you happy now!?" he yelled at the sky before his entire body started to shake when he let the tears start to flow.

Whew… This is the first time I have cried while writing! Even though I got the idea of letting the Supreme Kai have Goku kill Gohan as the last mission it was really hard to write it. I hope you won't hate me!