I'm so sorry I couldn't update. If you shall know I had a flight to California to see my fiancée who currently lives there. And I didn't have free time. It was his birthday (November 13th) and I decided to stay a little longer. Enough about me without further ado ... lets welcome...
Chapter 10
"Oh," was all I could manage to get out.
"Lay,"
"Yes," I forced out.
We sat in silence for the next twenty minutes. By the look on John's face, I could tell the silence was killing him.
"Are you okay," He blurted out.
"Its overwhelming but its fine. Congratulations, I wish you the best."
I knew I was being a complete idiot but I couldn't help but feel jealous ... Liz was going to be the one to carry his first child..that was supposed to be me not her! What have I done so wrong to deserve this. I honestly think God hates me first be takes my mom the he gives that woman John's baby. Wtf .. I would have been better off dead at least I would have to deal with this. I would have been at ease with my mom's company. It feels like I'm just being placed on this earth to be tortured. He makes fall inlove then give his soon to be ex wife John's baby. I'm gonna end this RIGHT NOW!.
"I'm going for a drive, I'll be back" I said grabbing my car keys and phone.