"Why didn't you text me back?" Zack asked.
I raised my eyebrows. "Are you serious? Dude, you've been ignoring me for three days! For no reason!"
"Oh, Have I?" Zack asked, acting confused.
"Yeah, you have. You think I'm just gonna run right back to you when you decide you're bored enough to wanna talk to me?"
"No, that's not what I thought. Look, I'm sorry I havn't been talking to you." He said, looking at the ground.
"Why were you ingnoring me, Zack? I thought we were becoming good friends, what did I do wrong?" I asked.
Zack lifted his head to look at me. "You didn't do anything. It's just, you're spending so much time with Jack and Matt, it just seemed like...you didn't wanna hang out with me anymore..." He trailed off.
I tilted my head to the side. "So you were jealous?"
"No, not really...well, a bit..."
I sighed in frustration. If he felt I didn't have time for him, he could have said something. Yes, I was hanging out with Jack and Matt, but that dosn't mean that I didn't want to talk to Zack. Cause I did. A lot. I thought that Zack was so special. He was different then any other guy I had met. But now...He just seems like every other guy. He's jealous and possesive, and can turn on you in a second. I thought I had Zack figured out. Apparantly not.
"You had nothing to be jealous of, Zack." I told him, while rubbing my head. "And if you wanted to hang out, all you had to do was come and hang out with us. It's that simple. Why would you ignore me? That's not how you solve a problem, especcially not the problem you were having. And you know what? You really hurt me. I was so upset that you wouldn't talk to me, because I thought we were friends. Really good friends. You were special to me, Zack. After only knowing you for a few days, I already realised how special you were. But now I don't think so. I'm sorry Zack, but maybe..." I trailed off.
"Maybe what? Maybe what, Rocket?" He asked, a look of pleading in his piercing hazel eyes.
I bit down on my lip, as tears threatened to come to my eyes.
"Maybe we shouldn't be friends anymore." I whispered.
"No, I'm sorry Rocket, I shouldn't have ignored you, I was wrong and stupid. Please, let's start over. Don't do this." He pleaded, his face showing his sadness.
"No, Zack. I didn't want any drama on this tour, I can't take it." My shut my eyes so I didn't have to see the sadness on his face.
He grabbed my hands and clasped them tightly.
"Rocket, I made a mistake. Don't do this." He sounded like he was fighting back tears.
I don't know why, but my heart felt like it was breaking in a way. My head knew this was the right thing to do, but it's like my heart wanted Zack. For the past three days, my heart had felt heavy because I wasn't around him. It's like I needed him. I knew that I shouldn't let myself get that way. I needed to stop myself before I went too far.
I pulled my hands away from Zack.
"I have to do this." I whispered. "I'm sorry." I turned and walked away from Zack, ignoring him when he called my name. "This is for the best." I thought to myself. But if it was for the best, then why did it hurt so much?
*
I was lying down in the van, with my earphones in, trying to block out the world.
The guys had asked me what was going on, why I was so upset after returning from the shop. I didn't tell them, I didn't even tell Kelan. I just didn't wanna talk about it. I was still telling myself that cutting Zack out of my life was the best thing to do, but I couldn't get rid of the aching, empty feeling in my heart. It wouldn't go away, and it was eating away at me. A tear escape from my eye, and I wiped it away furiously. I didn't want to cry over something so stupid.
Someone jumped over the seat and crouched in front of me. I didn't acknowledge them, untill they pulled the earphones out of my ears. I opened my eyes and saw Ash sitting in front of me.
"What do you want?" I muttered.
"We're at the hotel, we've gotta go check-in." He replied.
We had decided on getting a hotel in Florida cause we were there for two days. I sat up in my seat and grabbed my bag with my stuff.
"Okay, let's go." I whispered. Ash gave me a sympathetic look. "What happened Rocket?" He asked, while rubbing my arm.
"Nothing. I just did what was best for me." I replied.
"But then why are you so upset?"
"Cause sometimes the right thing isn't the easy thing." I replied. Ash pulled me into a hug and rubbed my head.
"It'll be okay Rocket. If it was the right thing, It'll all work out." He assured me.
I wrapped my arms around him tightly, and finally, I let the tears flow from my eyes.
"But what if it wasn't the right thing?" I asked through tears.
"It'll all work out Rocket. Everything happens for a reason." He replied, while rubbing my back. Ash let me cry on his shoulder, and I felt better after I stopped.
"Thank you Ash." I whispered.
"I'm always here for you Rocket, never forget that." We sat in silence for a minute, while I rested my head on his shoulder.
"Do you wanna tell me what happened?" He asked.
I took a breathe, and decided I probably should tell him.
"I told Zack that we couldn't be friends anymore. He had been ignoring me for the past few days, and I...I just thought it'd be best if we just weren't friends."
"And now you think it wasn't the right decision?" He concluded.
"Yeah. I just don't think I should be so upset if it was the right thing to do." I wiped my eyes on my sleeve, and brushed my hair from my face.
"Well, maybe you should give it a few days, if you still feel hurt, then maybe it was the wrong desicion." He tried.
"Maybe. I just didn't want drama, and Zack was just causing drama."
Ash nodded. "Just give it time, it will work out for you Rocket."
"Okay. Thank you Ash, I love you."
"Love you too. Now lets go inside, I'm sure the guys are worried." I gave Ash a peck on the cheek and grabbed my bag. "Oh, and Ash. Please don't tell anyone about this. I don't wan't them to worry." I said.
Ash nodded and stepped out of the van. I followed him out, and locked it behind me.
Ash wrapped his arm around my waist and led me to the brightly lit hotel.
When we walked in, we saw the guys standing around in the lobby.
"There you are, what took so long?" Oli asked when we walked up to them.
"Sorry, I couldn't find the keys." I lied.
"Well can we go now, I'm tired!" Ben complained.
I nodded, and Ash let go of me so he could help bring the luggage into the elevator. I pick up the last bag and stepped into the elevator. Just as it was closing, I saw the All time low guys walk into the hotel. The last thing I saw before the doors closed, was Rian comforting Zack, who looked like he was really, really upset.
My heart felt like someone had stabbed me. I didn't wanna see the pain Zack was in. As we travelled up to our rooms, I let my mind wander, and I wondered why Zack was so upset. I wondered why I was so upset. We had only known each other for a few days, and we just weren't friends anymore. Why were we making such a big deal?
Then I randomly thought of a song lyric, that made everything make sense. And at the same time, it made everything confusing.
I thought of You me at six's song 'Fireworks.' And the first line:
'If it hurts this much, then it must be love.'
What if the song was right? What if I was hurting so much because I was falling for Zack?
A/N Told you I'd update more! So, did Rocket make the right decision to ignore Zack? And is she really falling for him? DRAMA! I shall update soon, cause my exams are done. Hopefully I'll have more written for Sunday/Monday. So, tell me what you think, pleeease! :') oh, and i'm not considering times when albums came out. in this, all time low have the one album, but you me at six have two. it dosn't really matter to me about the times of albums and shit like that, its just about the story. just to clear that up. untill next time dearies!