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I'd like to start off by saying that if you do not care what I have to say and you will not reply to me after reading this than you may leave now. This is not a story update but rather an author's update. Now if you have a strong love for this story and would defiantly reply to me after reading my feelings on this topic, congratulations! You have made my top ten favorite people list:)
If you have been following my story from the beginning, you would know that I am not the best updater. I don't write consistently because I often forget or cannot come up with the motivation to continue. I strongly apologize for those of you who absolutely love this story and have been waiting for me to update to see what happens. I have a busy schedule and wish I had more time you this.
Now, school has started. Sports and weekend activities have started and I just don't have any time anymore! It's overwhelming how much I do. Now, this weekend I was sick. So I was at home in bed and I got an email from fan fiction about a new follower. This reminded me that my lovely readers were due another chapter. Now I will share a shameful secret with you: I forgot what my story was about. *Gasp! Crazy, I know. But I totally forgot what I had written about! So, sense I am a logical human; I simply went back and read my story from the beginning to the current chapter.
May I say, from the start I knew what I wanted to happen to the story and what I wanted it to be about but, IT'S ALL WRONG! I have no idea what I was thinking as I wrote those chapters. I do like them; they just aren't what I had expected. They story doesn't flow. Here are a few sample examples as to why this story frustrates me:
First, why is Mo so dramatic? Seriously, in the movie she is intelligent, down to earth, and cares about her friends and family. In my story I made her seem like a total giddy, gossiping, deceiving, drama queen. That's just not right, so I am sorry to any characteristically correct Mo lovers out there.
Secondly, I really wanted this story to be about friendship and romance while maintaining a hilarious environment. That didn't happen. I bounce back and forth from Ray to the band too much. Now, being about keeping Ray a secret from her friends, I'd think Stella would spend time with them separately. But, her friends play a huge role in her life so gradually they all start finding out about Stella's romantic side. I just don't think I achieved the effect that I wanted.
Third, What is with that scene between Stella and Ray on the couch in my last chapter? Do you enjoy reading that stuff? I have no idea how I wrote that. I will admit I don't have the most innocent mind ever, but why in the world would I come up with that in my story? Honestly, what did you think of it?
Fourthly, I found so many spelling and grammar mistakes it was laughable. I apologize to those of you who care.
My overall point, I have no idea how to continue this story! I just didn't leave myself room for more. I know this sounds disappointing, but I might just leave it as is and un-continued. Awful, I know. I've waited so long not posting anything else so I could make myself finish this. It's to the point where it's no longer enjoyable writing this story. Now, if enough of you will just die if I do not finish this story than I will try my best. But, if it doesn't matter, I will drop it right now and start something else. I have many other ideas for other stories. I guess my problem was that it was my first multi-chapter and I'm not experienced yet. I will probably stick to more one and two shots after this. And next time I do write a multi-chapter, I will probably try to write the whole thing first before I upload and disappoint all of you.
So pretty, pretty, pretty please, please, please let me know what your thoughts on this story are. I am super sad right now. This whole thing just disappoints me and I hope somehow, some of you can find a light and bring me back some hope as to why or how this story should or would continue. Thank you my darlings for your time. Hugs and Kisses! Love, Shelby3