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-gaby

Chapter 10

Paul's POV

50 years.

50 motha fucken years, since I've seen Liz.

I'm old as fuck, but don't look like it. I couldn't stop phasing. As long as I knew she was still alive, I wouldn't stop phasing. It took everything I had to not go back running to her. But I had to refrain myself. We couldn't be together. Period.

All these years, I've spent in South America. I've had to be moving, so people wouldn't realize I didn't look any different as the years passed.

The one and only person here in South America that knew of what I was was Esperanza. I had tried dating her when she had turned twenty, but it didn't work out. She had wanted to take a step further, to have sex, but I just couldn't. She had asked why, and I never gave her the answer. On one of those arguments, I accidentally phased in front of her. I had to tell her about La Push, the pack, and vampires. She freaked, but agreed to keep my secret. When I finally told her my whole story, she slapped me. She couldn't believe I had left the love of my life for changing into something different. I deserved it. She had almost convinced me to go back, but I couldn't.

We became close friends. Never more than that. She found her other half, had children, and grandchildren. She had the life I always wanted for Liz and I. I had told her that, one day, and she told me it was my entire fault, that I easily could've gone back, and looked for her. But I couldn't. I had no freakin balls. Its not that I wouldn't be welcomed back, it's the fact that I might've seen Liz, and I would've lost it. I promised myself, that if I ever saw her again, in the future, I would get down on my knees and beg for her forgiveness.

I knew she wouldn't forgive me. And again, I knew it was my fault. And I've accepted that.

Jared and I have kept in touch. That fucker's already a great granddad. He's happy, and I'm happy that my best friend is happy. Many times when talking to Jared on the phone, Kim has gotten in and talked shit to me. I let her. At the end, she'd call me an idiot and try to convince me to go back.

Esperanza has done the same. She never stopped trying to convince me to at least call her.

Talking about Esperanza, I was at her door. It was the 5th anniversary of Emiliano's, her husband, death, and I went with her every year to cemetery.

I knocked and waited.

She opened the door, with a sad smile.

"Hey Paul."

"Esperanza." I said going to hug her. I knew she needed it.

"Let's go." I said, taking her to my car. She was quiet the whole way there. When we got to the tombstone, she asked for a couple of minutes alone, like always. I wandered off, to the lake that the cemetery had. I just sat on the bench in front of it. After a while, Esperanza came and sat next to me. We stood silent for a while.

"Go back to her." She said, breaking the silence.

"What?" I said confused.

"Liz" she simply said.

I felt like my heart was being squeezed. Hearing her name broke me a bit more.

"We've talked about this before, Esperanza." I said, looking away.

"Paul, look at me." She said.

I turned, and looked into her wise eyes.

"You miss her Paul. Just go back to her. You're hurting yourself." She said. I shook my head about to say something, but she cut me off.

"You know I'm right Paul. You're being and idiot; you still love her, and always will. But have you ever stopped to think about how she's taking your absence? Because I know for a fact, that as much as you've been moping and hurting, she's probably having it worst." She said, looking back out to the lake.

"You're right." Very right.

"I remember when I met Emiliano," she said, her eyes glazing over. I knew she was remembering her past. "I knew I liked him the very instant we started talking." She said. "Remember that fight we had had when he had thought I was cheating on him with you?" she said, coming back to the present. I remembered that fight well. "Yeah," I said. Her eyes became distant again, "I knew he was wrong, and I wasn't going to go kiss his ass. But the time we spent apart was hell. And I realized at that moment, that I was falling for him, hard." She said.

"You do know where I'm going with this right?" she said. I shook my head. "You guy's shouldn't leave each other for a silly misunderstanding, or because one's different from the other." She said. I looked at her, understanding what she was trying to say.

"Esperanza, I think you're right." I said, my heart speeding up.

"Of course I am, so now, you're gonna go home, and pack you're belongings, and you're gonna get that cute butt of yours back to La Push." She said smiling.

"You're right and you're coming with me." I said.

Esperanza and I were on the plane back to La Push. Jared said he had kept my house in a good shape, knowing I would come back. I called him the night before leaving, and he was ecstatic. Kim was happier than I have ever heard her. She said the Cullens were back in Forks and Liz with them. She promised not to say anything to her or anyone else. Only Jared and her knew about my return.

"Paul!" Jared screamed once he saw me at the airport. "Jared, I've missed you." I said, giving him a brotherly hug. "Me too, and everyone else." He said, looking me in the eyes.

I noticed how old he looked. But he had a twinkle in his eyes that showed he was a happy man. Kim came to his side, and when she saw me she hugged me as hard as she could. "Oh Paul, we've all missed you." She said.

"This is Esperanza you guys, a friend I made in Ecuador." I said. She smiled and shook hands with them.

Once at my house, Esperanza settled down in the guest room and I checked to see if al my stuff was still there.

For some reason I had the sudden urge to go to Port Angeles.

"Hey Esperanza?" I yelled upstairs.

"Yea Paul?"

"I'm not sure why, but do you want to go to Port Angeles?" I asked. She nodded and went to change her clothes.

When we arrived. We went to a little coffee shop and drank a bit.

When I was eating my bagel, my chest started hurting, and for a second I thought I was having a heart attack.

"Oh shit," I said, holding my chest, struggling to breathe.

"Paul are you okay?" Esperanza said.

"I'm not sure, let's go home." I said.

I got up and Esperanza tried to help, but I knew she couldn't really help with her old fragile body. We walked a block, and the pain started lessening. Out of no where, I heard a piano playing. The song was beautiful, and I instantly recognized it. It was Liz's favorite song. "Let's go this way," I said to Esperanza, she nodded. My heart started beating so fast; I thought it was going to jump out of my chest any minute. I stopped where I heard the piano playing. The name of the restaurant was Durata Dell'amore. Fancy name. My breathing started getting faster and faster, I couldn't understand why I was feeling this way. I walked a little more, until I was in front of a window, and inside was a young woman playing the piano. For some unknown reason, my heart ached.

The song finished, and I could hear the girl's heart beat go really fast, too fast for a human. And I saw the person I would least expect to see.

Edward Cullen.

When I thought the name, his head turned toward me. And his eyes widened. He looked down at the girl, and back at me. I saw the girl hold her chest, and look up at Edward. I still couldn't see her face. And as if she had heard my thoughts, she turned her face to me.

My heart literally stopped.

Liz.

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-gaby