CHAPTER 10

Usagi couldn't concentrate at the meeting. Not only was he depressed, but Aikawa's words kept on ringing in his head. When he got home, he ate the lunch that Misaki made him then he turned the TV on and smoked his cancer sticks, thinking.

Will it really help me? Misaki is worried about me...I don't want to keep making him worry...

Usagi exhaled a whole heap of smoke.

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When Misaki's classes were over, he couldn't help being relieved. He had been so worried and all he could think about was getting back to Usagi and being there for him.

I hope Usagi-san is ok...

He smiled when he saw the red shiny sports car. He bid farewell to his classmates and got in. "How's your day been, Usagi-san?"

"I'll do it" Usagi said.

Misaki's eyes widened with surprise, "W-What?"

"I'll do what Aikawa-san said. I'll do it" Usagi answered.

"U-Usagi-san...are you sure?" Misaki asked.

"Misaki, I know we both said we'd wait until I was ready again...but I want to be ready now. I want to get better. I don't want to make you worry so much. When I'm with you, I should be happy...but instead I feel miserable all the time- that has to stop, I want it to stop..."

He sighed and smiled at the boy, "I don't care what happens to me, I won't reject Misaki again like before. If I do reject you, Misaki, you have my permission to sell every one of those bears."

Misaki stared at him for a moment then a big smile graces his lovely lips, "Ok. Let's try it. And don't worry, I'll help you and guide you through every single step. You're not alone, Usagi-san"

"I know...I have my Misaki" Usagi agreed.

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When they got home, Misaki asked with a blush, "So...so um, do you want to do the blindfold sex now...or, um-"

Usagi blinked with surprise and laughed. Misaki glared at him angrily, "W-What's so funny?"

"Oh, nothing...it's just that, for once, you actually asked if I wanted to have sex with you"

Misaki blushed, "I-I just want to get it over with!"

Usagi chuckled softly, "Yes, my love, whatever you say." He put his arms around Misaki, holding him close, "And in answer to your question, I would like for us to do the blindfold sex tomorrow night...and I want it to be like the night of my birthday, when you first tried it"

Misaki's heart skipped a beat. "R-Really?"

"Yes" Usagi whispered and he tilted Misaki's head upwards so their lips could meet for a kiss, "But this time, it will be perfect."

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So, the next day, Misaki put those words into actions. He pushed Usagi into his office, "Stay in there until I say so! Work on your deadline or something!"

Usagi smiled, "Yes, Misaki"

"G-Good, S-So get to it then. See you later!" Misaki said, blushing, and closed the door on Usagi then walked off. The first thing he did was go and shop; he bought roses then cooking ingredients then he came back home. When he arrived back at the penthouse, he put the roses onto the coffee table for the time being, and then started cooking dinner. And his thoughts were only of his Usagi-san.

Misaki was so nervous and scared. He hoped against everything that everything would work out and that afterwards, Usagi would go back to normal.

I...I hope tonight goes better than the first time; I don't want to be rejected again. I want him to smile and be happy and enjoy being with me...not think about other people...not reject my touches because of anything or anyone else...no, h-he has to accept this time. I want to make love to him...I want to make him happy...

When everything was ready, he grabbed the roses then went to Usagi's office. He opened the door and said, "Usagi-san, you can come out now...were you able to do any work?"

"Surprisingly...yes" Usagi answered and he got up, closing his laptop. He looked towards Misaki and smiled, "You look so beautiful..."

Misaki blushed, and held out the roses, "H-Here..."

"Thank you, Misaki, they are lovely" Usagi took the roses, smelled them then said with a loving smile, "But they could never compare to the scent and the beauty of my Misaki."

"D-Don't be a perv-" Usagi suddenly dropped the roses and pulled Misaki into his arms, inhaling his scent. Misaki's heart skipped a beat at those words, "U-Usagi-san! What are you doing?"

Usagi's tightened his grip around Misaki's waist, "Sorry...I think I'm a bit nervous..."

"Oh..."Misaki's face softened, "Then...will you be ok? M-Maybe we shouldn't do this-"

"No, we are going to do this" Usagi answered firmly, "I need to..."

"O-Ok..."Misaki replied.

He's nervous too then...of course he is...

Misaki let him hold them then, after a while, he turned around in Usagi's arms and wrapped his arms around Usagi's neck, gently kissing him. "I love you, Usagi-san. Everything is going to be ok." Usagi stared at Misaki with unreadable emotions swimming in his lavender eyes. Misaki smiled, confidence filling him.

I can do this. I won't let him be sad anymore.

Misaki then got out of the embrace. He picked up the roses then he took Usagi's hand, leading him downstairs.

Usagi smiled as he saw what beauty Misaki had turned the downstairs into; the lights were off, replaced with candles that were shining brightly on the table. A red tablecloth was on the table, with all of Usagi's favorite foods. "Oh, Misaki..."

"Um...let's just eat or it'll get cold" Misaki said, blushing. Usagi obeyed the boy's words and took a seat at the table. Misaki put the roses in a fresh vase and set it at the table then he sat down with Usagi and they started eating their meal together.

"Is it...to your liking?" Misaki asked nervously, watching Usagi.

"Very. Thank you Misaki" Usagi answered.

Misaki blushed and continued eating.

This is awkward...

Usagi and Misaki were both really nervous. They wanted tonight to be perfect...but it was hard to forget the true motive of tonight. They knew what was coming next and it made them nervous. It was hard to enjoy the meal like normal. Misaki waited until they both had finished the meal then he got up and said, "U-Usagi-san, let's do it now"

Usagi stared at Misaki with fear in his eyes, yet they were also somewhat determined. He smiled sadly and agreed, "Yes." Then the two lovers got up and silently went into the nearest bedroom.