Chapter 10! I should go over the 1500 words with this chapter.Enjoy this one.
MPOV
How could I have been so stupid? How could I have let her go? How could I have not found her?
Where is she?
I was worried about her when she didn't come to her room after I had been waiting for over an hour and a half. I searched everywhere I could think of but I didn't find her anywhere and it kept me up all night. I didn't do anything but be in her room afterwards and looking at her room, her pictures.
I could note she was a family person because there were several pictures of her and her siblings and parents. I could see her smiling genuinely in every single one of them. Her smile was the biggest in one of the most current pictures with her sister. The girl was a few years older and judging by the ring on her left ring finger, she was married and she was also highly pregnant. In one of the bottom corners was a date and it dated back to three weeks back. I had to smile at the picture.
I took it with me as I sat in the chair next to her vanity table. I was looking at it until I fell asleep.
I woke up when I heard the door bang against the wall the next morning. Looking into the hallway, I saw a flare of red rushing away. Putting the picture back on the vanity table, I ran after her.
I had to follow her up the stairs and saw she was about to run into my mother's room when I caught up with her.
Not allowing her to run into the room, I took her wrist and pulled her into my own room.
I pushed her against the door the second it closed and pinned her to it by taking her wrist and keeping them in one of my hands.
"America." I growled. "Do not run away."
"I don't run away!" She bit back.
"Yes, you do!" I retorted. "Don't do that."
"Is that an order, your Majesty?" She asked.
"Stop that! Stop pulling away from me! You said you love me, why don't you show me that?" I asked.
"Because I can't! Your fa-"
"My father will do nothing!" I cut her off. "I won't allow him to! America, if you really love me, why don't you fight to be with me?"
"I'm afraid." She admitted.
"America, I just told you that my father won't-"
"I'm not afraid of your father, Maxon. I'm afraid of us!"
"Afraid of us?" I ask with a confused tone. "Why?"
"Maxon, if I allow us to happen, I will have to let you go in a few months and I don't want that." She explained. "I don't want to start a relationship when I know that we won't be able to go past a few months."
"That isn't true. America, I will talk to father, alter the rules- I'll have you be my girlfriend, my wife, my partner in everything. I will have you as my Queen, as the Queen of Illéa. I will have you."
"Maxon,-" She started. "Do not make promises you cannot keep. Do not speak of your wishes when you know they won't come true."
"No, I will-"
"No, you won't. You can't." She took her hands out of mine and put one on my cheek. "There is no chance for us, Maxon. As much as we both wish it."
"You're saying goodbye." I realized.
"I have to." She said, tears forming in her eyes. "I have to say goodbye because I can't be around here- around you- when I know that you will marry someone else, move on from me and fall in love with another. I will not be here to see that."
"Don't, please don't."
"I have to, Maxon." She said, letting her tears fall
"Can I request one last thing?" I asked.
"What?"
"One last kiss." When she opened her mouth to argue, I cut her off before she could begin. "Just one kiss, America, one."
"One last kiss." She agreed.
She didn't have the chance to say anymore because I crushed my lips to hers, much like I had done the first time we had kissed. I placed a hand on the small of her back and pushed her closer to me. I asked for entrance which I was easily granted. I pushed her against the door again, with me pressed against her.
Neither of us wanted to break the kiss, yet we weren't able to go any further. The way we were now was how I wanted to remember us. Loving each other passionately.
Having to pull back because of lack from fresh air, I leaned my forehead against hers.
She pecked my lips one more time before pushing me off of her.
"Goodbye, Maxon. Have a happy life."
With that, she dissapeared.
From what I heard, she stayed a week longer to remain with the Selected Girls while the Italians were here as our guests. I heard that she got aquainted quite well with Princess Nicoletta and her cousin. She was a guest of my mother and on the videos that were shown I could see how she looked like a goddes.
With her blue gown and her hair in an updo, she looked like a true vision. I wish I was there to see it.
Weeks past without her and yet each week I saw her.
A lot earlier than planned, the Charity had started. I saw how she travelled to Whites to begin her travels across the country.
Every week a video appeared of her in the Report. Part of the video was a video diary in which I could see she was tired. Than there was video footage of her explaining everything to a group teenagers and afterwards she was dancing and messing with a group of dancers and afterwards she was standing on a big stage with some performers and coaching them along with my aunt Adele.
Every video also included her training with the Fighters of each Provence and attending Charities in each Provence.
Afterwards she worked her way down in the country and by now she was Ottaro, four weeks later and nothing had changed in the Selection except for a few rebel attacks and Marlee 'leaving' after her being caught with a guard.
That would be the first week without Natalie as well. Now, only Celeste, Kriss and Elise were over along with a girl from Bankston, Arya.
She would be the next to leave, I thought.
Four videos had been shown and in every video you could see that her bags underneath her eyes were growing bigger. Fatigue was catching up to her and quick.
Now, we were in the Report and we were watching the video of the week.
Like every video it opened with a Video Diary.
"Hello everyone. I have been awake for exactly two minutes now but I knew that if I didn't make the video now I wouldn't make it at all." She said. "This morning, Eli and I have arrived in Ottaro. Adele will join us in two days but like every week she is with her children in Hondragua. This week we have to combine three Art Academies. Like every week I'm very curious as to what the people here are going to come up with to raise money. My favorite idea so far was the exhibition and workshops in Columbia, our last stop. I liked how they included everyone in their idea so I think it will be hard to top that but I am keeping an open mind."
"A lot of people have asked me about the Marlee and Carter situation and I will not give any comment about it. Marlee was my friend and I did not know that she was having a relationship with a guard so I don't see what I can say about it. All I can say is thank you for being so kind to show mercy to her and Carter though. I know an act like that would've been punished by death but the Royals didn't kill them and for that I'm thankful."
"Now, why don't you guys see how everything went this week?"
With that a video was shown of her greeting her fans in Ottaro. She came off the plane wearing sunglasses and her hair in a ponytail. Her outfit consisted out of a loose dirty brown shirt with black leather pockets and details with black jeans and black heeled ankle boots. She looked beautiful.
Descending the stairs, she bypassed the car waiting for her and went to the people waiting for her.
Seeing that she was heading for them, they started yelling like crazy and started calling her name. Putting her shades on top of her head, she smiled at them all and started taking pictures with them and laughed.
Afterwards there was footage of her and Eli arriving at the Art Academies. She was seen talking with them and planning with Eli. There was even footage of her standing on a stage with some performers and acting crazy with them. I saw Performers praising her and Adele and Eli as well in front of the crowd.
That was a first.
That night, I slept with dreams of America dancing like she had in the video just for me.
Hey, I was still a man after all.
Could you blame me for having a dream like that?