I can't believe him! He breaks my heart, pulls me away from another guy, and tells me he loves me? It's not fair! I'm tired of this. He doesn't understand that everything he does just puts another gleaming silver knife into my heart, tinting it red. I wished he loved me, in spite of the situation I wanted his lies to be the truth, I wanted to be kissing his lips again, to be holding his hand. But he stole himself away, putting my life into chaos. Bringing back the memories of high-school. Being lied to, and talked about behind my back. But did anyone care? No! And I was broken, but I kept myself together. Dan was cracking my broken bones back open. Starting from the inside, he's pulled me in, my guards falling down like they were forced with gravity. He has to be lying he just has to be. Why would HE love someone like me. He was just as shallow as those other guys. And I thought he was different. I was so close to what I always wanted. It was so cruel. As I pondered this and many other ideas I heard a gentle knock at my door. The tapping gradually got louder until it became a long rap, ringing in my ears. My footsteps were silenced by the plush carpets as I walked slowly towards the door. The knocks were now loud bangs and I heard someone say my name. No, not someone. Dan. Dan was saying my name. I felt sick to my stomach, did I really want to open the door? My emotions swirled in dizzying circles in my mind as my fingers closed around the cold metal door handle.

"What do you want-" I began to say as I flung open the door. Then I saw him. His eyes red and the pale skin around them puffy and raw. His lips tender and pink from biting them so much. His cheeks moist with new tears, following the trails made by previous ones that had spilled. His hands jammed in his pockets and his head held low. It was a sad sight to gaze upon. It made my heart ache to see the pain in his eyes. "Oh, Dan!" I let the words escapee from mouth.

"W-we ne-need t-t-to talk." Dan said in between breaths. I opened the door a bit wider so that he could come in. He shuffled in and I closed the door quietly behind us.

"Dan. I need you to be honest with me, okay?" I said softly.

"I HAVE been honest to you, Sky." He replied as he sat down on the couch. Sky. It felt so good to hear my name from his lips again. But it hurt to hear it surrounded by more lies.

"Dan. You and I both know what's going on. You have been lying to me." I said.

"You think YOU know what's going on?" Dan gave a short sarcastic laugh. "You know NOTHING!" He began to shout. "NOTHING!"

"I know what I need to kno-" I started.

"NO YOU DON'T!" Dan said in fury.

"Dan, please don't shou-"

"Skylar. Stop." He said coldly. I remained quiet and pondered his outburst. " I need to tell you about a girl. Her name is Lana." My insides began to twist and dread filled me with a dead weight.

" Are you telling me this Lana girl," pain flashes through his eyes when I spoke her name. "Is your girlfriend?!"

"No but-" Dan tried to say.

" But you like her, huh? Well fine with me! I knew I was just a toy to you. An accessory to the crime of you stealing my heart! Well just go be with LANA!" I spat out. Dan's eyes started to water. "I hope you guys just go and get married and you just rub it in my face! And then you can never use Lana because she is so much better than me. Well I don't even care. Just leave and go see your precious Lana-"

"She's dead." Dan interrupted.

"And you can- wait what? Lana is not alive?" I paused. Regret filling my head. Guilt boiling my stomach.

" No. Lana is dead. She got hit by a car..." He trailed off.

"Dan. I'm so sorry! I didn't know! I -I-I" my body started convulsing with sobs. I fell to my knees weeping about what a terrible person I was. To hurt Dan like that, to not trust him. To say those awful things. I hated myself. Suddenly a pair of hands picked up my tiny, weeping frame and laid my on the couch with a tender care. " I'm so sorry." I whispered, but Dan held a single finger to my lips. Stroking my side as I wept, Dan managed to calm me down.

"Lana was my girlfriend. We had dated through most of high school. She always knew how to cheer me up and make me laugh. She loved all of my favorite bands. She would never argue. She was beautiful, gorgeous really. And I loved her with all of my heart. I loved her so much, that I was going to propose. So I bought her the best ring I could and I told her to meet me at the place we met, on the park's hill. So I waited and sure enough, I saw her. She waved and smiled at me as she hurried across the normally quiet street. But before I could scream her name, a car that unexpectedly was speeding along and crashed right into her. I ran to her broken body. Her eyes were glazed. Her face was bloody. Her heart was still." Dan paused, a single tear glistening on his check. "Sky I really loved her."

"No Dan. You still do." I whispered.

"You're wrong again Sky. I love you." He said as he pushed a strand of my hair behind my ear. "Sky, when I met you I saw pieces of Lana in you. But only the positive. You were the new and improved her but completely different. You are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen and there is not one thing I'd ever change about you. When I met you, I heard Lana's voice in my head. 'I like that one happy' she seemed to say. Finally I found someone I could be with. I only dated Mallory because she lied to me about who she was and I just thought having a girlfriend would end my loneliness. But I felt more alone than ever. You've been the light in my darkness Sky. I never wanted you to go." Dan said pitifully.

"Then why did you say those things to me Dan?!" I screeched in spite of the situation.

"Because I couldn't bear to let you go." He replied.

"So you let me go because you couldn't bear to let me go?" I asked in confusion.

"Yes. See, if you haven't realized, I do not live in Florida. I live in Britain. And you live in Florida. I would have to leave you! And I knew I loved you but I was stupid enough to think that if I hurt you enough, you would never love me and I could just move on. I can't move on from you. My life is a mess not having you by my side. I want you next to me every moment. Seeing you with Anthony tore me up. I couldn't stand to see the way he held you. My jealousy took over and I attacked. I just wanted you the whole time. Every single moment." Dan said with emotion as I sat there stunned.

Suddenly words tumbled from my mouth like a waterfall.

"Dan I love you too! I just went with Anthony because I was alone, I felt so alone. I've been in love with you since your first video and I've waited years to meet you. All of my dreams have come true in one weekend. It would be selfish of me to ask you to choose between me and Britain-"

"I would choose you." Dan interrupted.

"Dan! I couldn't ever ask something like that. It doesn't matter that you are the only one I see. When I look into your eyes I get lost in a dream. You keep me grounded and I'd do anything to keep you. I'm sorry I can't express how much you mean to me, I've never been good with words-"

"Who says we have to use words?" Dan said and he pulled me onto his lap. In a sudden fury his soft lips attacked mine, sending my heart into over drive. My fingers griped tightly around his hair and my lens curled around his waist. His arms locked around my back and I knew Dan was my drug. He took me to a high I was addicted to. My excited lips ran swiftly over his and my heart's pace quickened. His tongue lightly pressed against my lips, and I left my mouth fall. They intertwined and twisted as my vision blurred. Dan was mine. I was Dan's. I was fueled onward and we slipped into the euphoria again. His lips against mine.

He slowly pulled away.

"I love you." We whispered in unison. His kisses became gentle and worked their way down my jaw to my neck. Our limbs relaxed and I loosened my form so I was laying in his lap. His fingers traced patterns along my cheek and my waist.

"One more thing that needs explaining." I said.

"What now?" Dan said with a laugh.

"You said I was your girlfriend." I whispered, embarrassed.

" Skylar, I know I've never formally asked you and I know I love you, so will you be my girlfriend?" Dan asked.

I looked deep into his chocolate eyes. My heart filling with a burning passion and love. His sweet scent wafting above me. His careful hands now placed in mine. I saw the boy who I was so madly in love with. The one person I would do anything to please. The one person who gave everything for someone like me and still loved me. With these thoughts,and many others I made my important decision. Looking back into those beautiful eyes, I whispered softly.

"No."