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Live. Laugh. Love.

Shut up! Shut up!

I got up quickly and I found myself on the floor.

What the hell am I doing down here? It all came back to me. Ashley was drunk last night and came to my damn dorm because her damn girlfriend got her drunk.

Why didn't she just stay with her then?

Ugh.

I reached up to turn my alarm clock off and I looked down at Ashley. She was sleeping with a smirk on her face and her mouth slightly open.

She's kind of cute.

Ugh you got to stop this Spencer.

I got my clothes and went down the hall to the showers to take a quick shower before classes started. I should of got Ashley up before I left but I'm sure that she ain't going to be to happy when I tell her that we have class.

I stood in the showers which felt like forever. I swear I had the weight of the world on my shoulders and it was weighing me down. I hate feeling like this. I just want to go to class and have my friends. Not worry about people maybe hating me or other people falling for me.

When I stepped out of the shower Ashley was standing there in front of the mirror.

I did not hear that bathroom door open.

Ashley glanced at me through the mirror and I looked directly at her. What was I suppose to say to her?

"Thanks for helping me last night. I'm sorry if I caused you any trouble." Ashleys face was down towards the sink telling me this and I had the urge to hug her.

Is that bad?

"Why did you get drunk? You know you could of got caught last night Ashley."

"I know. Rachel wanted to have some fun and I just wanted all my thoughts to go away."

"What thoughts?"

"Of you." We both look up at eachother and hearing that from her made my heart hurt.

This sucks.

I quickly looked down and I started to walk towards the door.

"It didn't work." I stopped before I walked out. She continued.

"I tried everything but nothing gets you out of my head Spencer. I know you don't like me but I can't help how I feel about you."

I turned around to look at her with the towel wrapped around my body.

"I'm sorry Ashley. I'm sorry." I quickly walked out of the bathroom and I made it to my room.

xxxx

I was late for class but when I walked in Ashley wasn't in there. I kind of figured she wouldn't be here in the morning. I'm sure her hangover is pounding right now.

"Hey did you see my sister last night? She was with us at dinner but then she went to go hang out with Rachel." Kyla leaned over to me while we were working on some paper for class.

I didn't want to tell on Ashley so I told Kyla that I didn't see her.

Class went on and when it was over with I walked to my next class but I was stopped by the one person that I was hating the most right now.

No not Madison. Even though she's definitely at the top of the list.

Rachel.

"Where's my girlfriend?" I thought she didn't want to be out. She said that pretty loud there.

"I don't know Rachel. Shouldn't you know that?" I gave her a dirty look at walked away not wanting to be by her right now.

"I know you know where she is. She went to your room last night didn't she?"

"Rachel you need to stop this shit alright. Whatever you're thinking isn't going on. Ashley and I are just friends and it's going to stay like that. If you have a problem with that work it out with Ashley, because I'm getting tired of this shit." I turned back around to leave.

I was so done with all of this.

xxxx

"Let's a movie in your room tonight?" Jake and I was sitting in the dining hall that evening with the girls. Ashley hasn't showed her face at all today for classes. She must of been feeling horrible to not come to all of her classes.

I looked down at my food and was picking at it because I wasn't that hungry.

"Hey you with me?" I looked up at Jake and gave him a smile.

"Yeah sorry. A movie sounds good to me." Jake kissed the top of my head and I leaned against his shoulder.

What the hell was wrong with me?

I swear Ashley won't get out of my head.

Maybe a movie tonight with Jake will be good. It will get my mind off of Ashley and onto Jake. Jake is a sweet guy and will do anything for me.

xxxx

"What movie do you want to watch?" We ended up going back to Jakes room because when we got back to my room Madison and Aiden were in there. Lets just say that I was not going to have a double date tonight with them. That's a big HELL NO!

"What movies you got?"

"Hmm lets see. Transformers, Spiderman 3, 30 Nights of Days, all the Bourne Movies."

I swear typical guy movies there. He needs some new movies that's for sure.

"Let's watch Transformers." He smiled at me and put the DVD in. I sat back on the bed against the wall. Jake came over and sat next to me taking my hand in his. I looked down at his hand and I looked up at him. His face was inches away from mine and made it even less as we sat there.

The next thing I know we are kissing. It started out slow and he was treating me good but then he started leaning me against the bed. I didn't mind making out but I started to notice that he wanted more. His hands were going under my shirt and then it landed on my belt.

"Jake maybe we should watch the movie." I told him as he was kissing all along my neck.

"Mmmm you taste so good Spencer." I tried to get out from under him but he was to heavy for me. He wasn't letting me go anywhere.

"Seriously Jake we need to stop." I started to push against his chest for him to stop but he wasn't listening to a damn word I was telling him.

His hands were everywhere that it was really starting to scare me.

"JAKE!" I screamed.

"Shut the hell up!" Jake slapped me clear across my face and I was now in shock he just hit me. This asshole just slapped me and he thinks he going to rape me. He has another thing coming. So I did what any girl would do to get out of a situation like this. I kneed him in the growing.

"Ugghhh!" Jake rolled over off the bed and onto the floor. That son of a bitch was not going to take advantage of me. I got off the bed and before I got out of that room I looked down at him and I kicked him in the stomach.

"That's what you get for thinking you can take advantage of me. Stay the hell away from me!" I left the room and I got the hell out of the dorm.

I could not believe that just happened. He was not going to let me get up. He hit me clear across my face which still hurts like a bitch but I wasn't going to worry about that right now. I just want to go to my room. As soon as I got outside something hit me. Something made me feel sick to my stomach. I leaned over to the bush and I threw up. Of course following that the tears started. I didn't want to cry because that wasn't me. I know I act like I can be a tough ass but I'm far from being one.

I stood there by the bush leaning over making sure that I was done with being sick and then I felt a hand on my back. I jumped up fast at the touch and Ashley was standing there. Ashleys face expression changed in a second of seeing my face. I quickly whipped my face of tears and then flinched at my touch againt my mouth. He hit me pretty good.

"What the hell happened Spencer? Why are you crying?" Standing there in front of her made me have so many thoughts run through my mind. I didn't want her to know about Jake. I didn't want anyone to know what he did to me or even attempted to do to me.

So instead of explaining myself I told her there was nothing wrong.

"Your lying." Ashley stepped in front of me stopping me from leaving.

"Just drop it Ashley. I don't feel well that's all."

"Then why is your lip bleeding?" Ashleys eyes were furious and I knew exactly how she felt.

I just want to put it all aside and move on.

That's all I want.

Ashley took a step closer to me and I had nowhere to go. I was backed against the bush wanting to get away but something told me that I shouldn't run anymore.

Ashley grabbed a hold of my hand and I didn't deny her touch.

xxxx

Frank let us out of the gate that night and I was really glad. A walk would do me some good.

Ashley never let my hand go the whole way out to the boulder. As soon as we got there I sat down on the ground bringing my legs up to my chest while wrapping my arms around them. Ashley stood in front of me pacing back and fourth. I know she wanted to ask me a hundred questions why I was acting the way that I was but she seemed like she wanted to cool down first.

No more then 2 minutes later she was sitting in front of me looking directly at me.

"Can you please tell me what happened tonight Spencer."

Everything started to replay in my head and I sat there with my mouth shut along with my eyes.

"Jake and I were sitting in his room about to watch a movie." I paused to regain my composure.

"Well we were just having a good night all together and then he started to kiss me." Ashleys head shot down to the ground apparently liking the fact that I was telling her all of this.

"I didn't think that anything was going to happen like this." My voice started to crack and Ashleys face shot back at me. Like she was trying to figure out what had happened or if she really didn't want to know.

"Jake started to get aggressive. He wanted more." Ashleys eyes started to water along with mine.

"I told him to get off of me. I told him to stop!" Ashleys mouth was clenched together in anger and I knew exactly how she felt.

"When I yelled at him to stop he did but only for a short time to tell me to shut up and then he slapped me." Ashley shot up from her sitting spot and continued to pace back and fourth.

"Did he rape you? DID HE?" Tears were falling like nothing down my cheeks and Ashley was in front of me in seconds.

"Shhh Spence. Shhh. I'm sorry." Ashley was whipping my tears away and compared to Jakes touch it felt really good.

"Now tell me Spencer. Did he rape you?" Her voice became soft and mellow for my benifit. I shook my head at her with my eyes closed tight.

"He tried to but I kneed him and I left the room after kicking him in the stomach." Ashley drew a smile on her face the first time that night and I think I liked it so much more better then when she's mad.

We sat out there for the next hour not really talking. Instead Ashley held my hand and I leaned my head on her shoulder. I could of sat there forever.

(A/N: Nice guys never stay nice. Aint that the truth. Well all the ones I've run into that is. OK well tell me what you thought of this chpt!! Be sure to tell me how it is because I want nothing but the truth! Soo please leave the love!!)