Chapter 10! Sorry for the wait!

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Oh, And on a side note. I just wanna dedicate this chapter to everyone in Haiti. It just breaks my heart to see everything that's going on there. I pray that God looks after everyone there and helps them rebuild their lives

10: The Beginning Of What Never Will Be


I bit my tongue slightly. I didn't meant for it to come out so bluntly.

What I wanted to do was drop a hint or something. But I realized there might not be enough time for any hints to be dropped. So, I blurted it out,

Regretfully so, But I did

I twirled my hair around my fingers waiting for a reaction. Some kind of sign that he had processed what I had said. A No.

Maybe A Yes.

I kept you eyes fixated on John as I gave him a small grin. I thought that maybe, In my crazy little fantasy world. He would smile and pick me up. Call everyone we knew. Kiss until the sun came back up. Him to smile wider than he ever had before.

Instead I saw his eyes start to well over with tears.

"Babe" I sighed quietly and buried my face with a pillow "What's wrong? I thought you'd be happy"

"I-" His voice broke. He shut his eyes as I looked at him confused as ever.

"What is it?" I rubbed his back gently and pressed my lips against his forehead

"I know you only wanna get married, Because of.." His voice continued to fail him. I had no clue what was making John so emotional. Until I realized what he was thinking.

"Because of what? The Cancer?" I asked softly. He nodded and took in a shaky breath.

"Baby." I said shaking my head " That's not why I wanna get married. I wanna get married because I love you. Because even though all this.." I stopped to word myself carefully "All of this stuff is going down. I just want you to know that I really really love you baby. And I don't want Leah coming into this world with her parents being boyfriend and girlfriend."

"But when Leah comes" His eyes welled up again "You're goi-"

"Don't say that." I said " That's not necessarily true babe." I stopped and held his hand in mine "I don't think you know how sorry I am that I'm putting you through all this"

"Stop" He said shutting his eyes again. But I swallowed hard and continued "It kills me to see you so upset because of me. You deserve so much better and still you've never given up on me." A tear spilled down my cheeks.

"Leanne.."

"No, Baby. You do deserve more than I could ever give you. And I wanna thank you for always being there for me. And John. Oh God. I am so sorry babe" I felt my heart swell as I spoke.

John. Clearly to overwhelmed to speak. Pulled me into a hug. After a good 10 minutes he stood up and reached his arms out for me to grasp. I looked at him confused

"Well" He started to smile "Don't we have a wedding to plan?"

Matt POV

"Really John? That's awesome!" I said and grinned even though he couldn't see me

"Yeah. So. I need your help planning this thing! Leanne wants to do everything but I assured her I would take care of everything. I have no clue where to start!"

"Well a venue would be helpful" I smirked quietly.

"Gee thanks Einstein." John chuckled through the phone "I started the invitations."

"Cool so who made the cut"? I laughed

"Well basically everyone I can remember. But Umm There is one request Leanne did have for you.."

"Okay. Shoot"

"Matt who are you talkin' to?" A familiar voice echoed through the house

"She doesn't want Jeff there. Point blank"

My eyes widened. I knew Leanne and Jeff had a rift. But Leanne could forgive anyone eventually. The fact that she didn't want her "best friend" at her wedding, especially considering the circumstances was beyond me

"Matt? You got it?"

I swallowed hard as Jeff entered the room "Yeah I'll tell him." Jeff glared at me as I shut my phone closed.

"Tell who what?"

Eve POV

"Maid of honour?!" I shrieked as Leanne giggled

"Well Duh! Who am I gonna ask? Matt?"

"Well come on! Your getting married sweetheart! You know what that means right?!" I asked with a mile wide grin. Leanne looked at me puzzled.

"What?"

"WEDDING DRESSES DUH!" I cried out and smiled.

Though inside I was ripping apart. Knowing deep inside this trip we we're about to take would be the last shopping trip we ever took.

Ever.

End Of Chapter!

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