She was standing in front of the recording studio of Hollywood Arts. Jade told her he was there. He would always come here when he was upset. And right now, he must be. Tori was hesitant to knock. She knew he was there. She could hear him struggle to play something on the piano. She heard him groan in desperation. There he was. Her best friend. The person she let her frustrations out on. The guy who protected her from harm since day one. The talented young man without who she would never had joined Hollywood Arts. Without him, she never would have met Cat, Jade, Beck and Robbie. Without him, her life would still be empty. She felt sorry for everything she did. She felt guilt building inside her. He suffered because he cared about her. Tori was scared. She was scared of loosing one more person. She was scared that she would loose someone she loved. She was insecure about this, no matter what the others said.
She finally got herself to open the door. He was sitting in front of the piano. He tried playing with one hand. He turned around, hearing the door open. Then he saw her.
"Hi." She greeted nervously. He didn't respond instantly. His expression was a combination of surprise, relief and guilt.
"Tori? What…" he failed to find the words he needed. She walked towards him and sat down on a chair close to the piano.
"I wanted to talk to you." She said; her voice a bit calmer than before.
"O… Okay. What about? Did something happen again?" he mumbled. God dammit! Why is it so hard to talk to her! He thought.
"No. Nothing happened. I just need to talk to you." She said and glanced at his bandaged hand. "I heard about your hand. I'm sorry." She apologized.
"It's nothing. You should see the locker." He joked, trying to ease the atmosphere. She gave him a small smile in return.
"Not only for that. I'm sorry for yelling at you yesterday. I'm sorry that I let everything out on you. You don't deserve me treating you like this."
"You don't have to apologize. I shouldn't have pushed for answers the way I did. I should have given you more time. I am the one who should apologize. And I will. I'm so…"
"Don't you dare." She cut him off. "If you hadn't been there; If you hadn't confronted me, I would still be sitting in my room by myself, avoiding everyone and everything. I'm sure you know that Cat came to my place yesterday."
"Yeah, I do."
"Well, she would never had come by if you didn't call me out yesterday. I would never have opened up to her. I would never have talked to everyone. And now, I am talking to you. I'm sorry for saying what I said. I was simply overwhelmed with everything. First dad died. Then I almost lost mom too. And in the end, I was scared that I would loose you." She explained, tears slowly rolling down her cheek.
"Tori, I…"
"Please, let me finish. You don't know how scared I was that I would loose you. Do you even know how much you mean to me? Without you, I would never be in this school. Without you, I would have left the first day here. Without you, I wouldn't have met everyone who matters so much to me. Cat, Jade, Beck, Robbie, all of them, who I love more than they possibly can imagine, I met because of you. You have been with me since day one. You never turned your back on me. You never allowed me to doubt myself. You never allowed me to fail. You always pushed me to be better than before. And now you are the rock that kept me from truly falling apart." She explained. He just looked at her, speechless. She got up. She walked over to the window, looking at the school.
"After our argument. After I talked to Cat. I remembered everything you did for me. I remembered how you were the first who talked to me when dad died. How you explained everything to the others because I couldn't. You tried to cheer me up. You tried everything. And I appreciate it. I didn't show it then. I couldn't show it then. But it mattered. Everything you guys did for me mattered. Especially you." She turned around to face him." You cared the most. I noticed that you called me more often than anyone. You sent the most messages. I noticed how you would try to talk to me about anything. How you tried to get my mind of everything. Thank you for that. Thank you for everything." She walked over to him and threw her arms around his neck. She then pulled him closer and kissed him. He was taken aback, but kissed back after a few moments. She pulled away after a minute. She looked him in the eyes.
"I love you."
He was surprised. Shocked. He looked at her. He saw the smile on her face. His expression changed. It slowly went from shock to happiness. He hugged her tightly. He didn't loose her. He didn't ruin it. For the first time for him, something went right. He looked her in the eyes, never letting go of her.
"You really mean that?"
"Yes. I do."
"Does this mean that… you know… you and I?"
"Does this answer your question?" she leaned in and kissed him again. She felt him smile under the kiss. He backed away for a moment. He looked again in her brown eyes. There was new strength within them. New hope. Hope that everything would be alright. He knew she would need time to get over everything. She would need support. Beck's, Robbie's, Cat's, Jade's… His support. He knew they would be there. And he would too.
"Tori."
"Huh?" she looked at him, as he gently took her chin in his good hand.
"I love you too." He said and kissed her again.
