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Chapter 10 - Its good to talk

It was 3am and I was wide awake staring at the bright ceiling again deep in thought. Harry was sat in a chair next to me looking extremely uncomfortable but sleeping soundly and blissfully unaware of reality for a while. No matter how hard I tried sleep evaded me and I was painfully aware of the ache in my stomach that wouldn't go since Harry had told me about losing our baby. I was angry with myself for letting such a thing happen especially when the chances of conception were so low for us in the first place. I slowly turned on to my right side to get a better view of Harry sleeping, he was so positive that we would get a second chance in the future to be parents but I wasn't so sure. I felt like a failure knowing that I couldn't give him what he wanted and it was only now that our chances were low did I realise just how much Harry wanted a child, he may have tried to convince me that everything was going to be okay but his eyes told me differently. His mouth fell open slightly and his head lolled to one side causing him to jerk awake suddenly before closing his eyes again and falling back to sleep.

If truth be told I was glad it was just the two of us now after all of the visitors that had wanted to see me earlier. My brothers along with their families were the first in to see me, Fred and George tried desperately to cheer me up with silly jokes and tricks, Percy tried to distract me with boring work reports that he was getting behind on and Bill didn't know what to say to me. After they left the team came in and for around ten minutes the room was full of tears and apologies, Gwen blaming herself the most. I told them over and over not to blame themselves but Katie and Ali also felt they could have done more; I didn't blame it had all happened too quick from what I had been told. Neville and Luna came in next with Albus and I'd felt the calmest I had since all of this had happened as they spent half an hour with me talking it all through. Albus always had a calming effect on me and so did Luna, they left promising to visit again tomorrow just leaving my parents to see me. Ron and Hermione joined them as my mother cried more so over the fact I was infertile, she kept saying she couldn't understand it what with her having so many children. Ron had to remind her a few times to be quiet and think of my feelings at this precise time but she still shook her head with disbelief every few minutes. My father was as ever the sympathetic one and pulled Harry into a hug the moment he walked into the room.

Ron and Hermione were the last to leave after making sure Harry had eaten something and was going to be okay for the night with me on the uncomfortable chair. Harry merely shrugged and thanked them profusely for all they had done, he did look slightly relieved however when they had left. And so now the silence was ringing in my ears as my thoughts turned back to what could have been for me and Harry.

"Will you stop staring at me," Harry smirked with his eyes still closed.

"How did you know I was staring?"

"I heard you move onto your side."

"You were fast asleep," I frowned.

"Only a light sleep," he sighed finally opening his eyes to look at me. "Can't sleep?"

"No," I grumbled. "And it's too quiet in here."

"Our flat is quiet Gin," Harry said.

"Yes but we hear the occasional boat going up and down the river through out the night," I replied.

"Well you'd better get used to it Gin you have at least a week in here."

"Not if I can help it," I mumbled.

"You have to do as the Healers say," he said.

"I just don't understand why it has to be a week."

"Because you have been through a lot and they want to make sure you are well enough before you are discharged."

"I'm sorry," I sighed. "Why don't you go home and get some sleep Harry, you looked very uncomfortable there and I'll be ok you know," I smiled now.

"I'm not leaving you tonight and this chair is fine," he said fidgeting again to get comfy.

"You could have fooled me," I said with a roll of my eyes.

"Ah you're awake Miss Weasley I have you medication," a Healer said upon walking into the room.

"Do I have to take it?" I asked pulling a face of disgust remembering the taste from earlier.

"Yes you do and no cheating this time I want that full cup drunk."

I looked at Harry who was smirking at me and my scrunched up nose. I opened my mouth and took five large gulps as quickly as I could so that I wouldn't taste how revolting it was until it was all gone.

"Merlin what on earth is in that stuff?" I grimaced.

"All the ingredients to make you better," the Healer said before walking over to the door. "Stand up Mr Potter for a moment." Harry did as he was told as the Healer pointed her wand at the chair and turned it into a luxurious recliner chair along with blankets and pillows.

"Wow thanks," Harry beamed. The Healer merely smiled in return before leaving us alone again.

"I'll trade you," I said dryly to Harry. "This bed for that recliner."

"Oh no," he said getting comfortable already. I watched him fall to sleep within minutes of settling down and decided sleep wasn't going to be my friend tonight as I lay staring at the ceiling once more.

I awoke a few hours later to an empty room and pain in my stomach. I looked at the clock on the wall which read 10.03am, I attempted to stretch whilst wondering where Harry was but it was no good the pain was getting worse. I fumbled around on the blanket by my leg and found the small remote and pressed the red button fetching a Healer in at once.

"Good morning Miss Weasley."

"Morning," I answered groggily. "My stomach hurts."

"Okay well you were due more potion at eight but we thought we would leave you to sleep for as long as possible," the young girl smiled at me.

"Have you seen my boyfriend anywhere?"

"He's gone to have a coffee and some breakfast, speaking of which."

"I'm not hungry," I cut her off and she frowned at me.

"Well you have to eat something," she replied.

"Fine maybe some toast," I said.

"And would you like some tea?"

"No just water thanks."

The young Healer left me and I sat myself up a bit more with my hip aching now and my wrist throbbing, I knew I was feeling childish but I wanted Harry back with me to make me feel better. The Healer was back within five minutes and I greedily took my potion this time not caring about the fowl taste of it anymore. She left me with my toast which tasted like cardboard so I settled for sipping water every few moments for something to concentrate on whilst the pain subsided.

"Hey your awake," Harry smiled as he walked into the room twenty minutes later. I nodded at him relieved to be pain free again.

"You've been a while."

"I know I went to get some breakfast whilst I waited for you to wake, you were fast off when I left," he explained. The door opened again and in walked Hermione carrying Hugo and Ron carrying Rose.

"Good morning," Ron smiled upon seeing me sat up and sipping water.

"Morning, "I smiled back. "How are my two favourite children doing?" I asked causing Rose to giggle. She wriggled out of Ron's arms and climbed onto Harry's lap to get closer to me.

"Hi darling, how are you getting on with your new brother?"

"Fine," Rose beamed.

"If only she were telling the truth," Ron sighed.

"What do you mean?" Harry frowned whilst placing an arm around Rose and looking absolutely adorable with a child in his arms.

"It's nothing Harry just a few teething problems," Hermione rolled her eyes at Ron and sat in the empty chair to my left while Ron sat beside Harry.

"Hello Hugo," I cooed over my youngest Nephew.

"So how are you feeling today Gin?" Ron asked.

"Okay at the minute but I've just had some potion so that's helped," I replied.

"What's hurting you the most?" Hermione inquired.

"My hip and stomach," I sighed. "I can't understand it though I thought they took everything away during the operation so why is my stomach still so painful."

"It will be all of the trauma Ginny you've been through a lot and that Bludger was going at the speed of light when it hit your stomach," Hermione said. I nodded taking in her words.

"I didn't expect you both here so early," I confessed.

"We wanted to see you before the crowds come, Hermione wanted to talk to you both about something," Ron said looking significantly at his wife. Hermione shifted in her seat to get comfy still holding Hugo.

"You did?" Harry said.

"Yes well I'm not sure if you remember Harry but when we were dancing at the wedding we were talking about a few things that were concerning you," Hermione began. I turned to look at Harry and he blushed under my stare.

"Go on Hermione," I encouraged eager to know what they were talking about.

"You said something to me Harry and I was about to answer you when my waters broke, something about the ring being cursed."

"What ring?" I asked dumbly, all of that business seemed months ago not days.

"The engagement ring you found and Hermione where exactly are you going with this?" Harry asked sitting up more in the recliner chair with Rose still on his lap.

"You said something along the lines of you thought it was cursed because you had never had the chance to propose and you seemed to be having some bad luck-"

"Hermione please don't tell me your excusing Harry's behaviour on a cursed ring," I said.

"Oh she is doing Gin; she's even been in our library for hours on end researching it. Just like the good old days eh Harry, well apart from the fact we have a new born son and a one year old daughter," Ron grumbled.

"How do you know it's cursed?" Harry asked.

"The Snatcher could have cursed it before you realised he had took it, I mean it would make sense wouldn't it, failed proposals, unable to conceive and when you do you loose the baby, arguments, kissing Cho," Hermione stopped here and I looked down at my water at the mention on Cho's name, another name was in my head as well who could have been sent to cause Harry and I trouble. I looked at Hermione and she nodded once at me as if confirming she knew my train of thoughts.

"Hermione the ring can't be cursed I had it checked by some of the best Aurors in the country," Harry frowned.

"Some curses go unnoticed Harry," Hermione said.

"But what a strange curse to put on it," I frowned also.

"Not really if you think about it, it's just a simple bad luck spell obviously directed more at Harry as he purchased the ring and intended to give it to you."

"No I don't believe it Hermione," Harry said.

"I didn't at first mate but Hermione said there's a really quick and easy spell you can use on it to see if it's cursed," Ron backed up Hermione.

"What if it is just bad luck," I sighed looking back down at my water. "What if Harry and I just aren't meant to marry or have children." I knew they were all looking at me with pity but I kept my eyes down. Hermione stood and walked round to Ron and placed Hugo in his arms, she walked back round and sat back next to me taking my left hand in both of hers.

"Ginny look at me," she said and after a few moments I did. "You and Harry are meant to get married, why else was he so excited when he first picked out your ring and brought it. Why was he so heartbroken when he realised he had lost it, he wanted that ring on your finger more than anything and all of the pitiful excuses he's come up with over the years just do not make sense. I truly believe the ring was cursed when Harry found it again and that's why all of these things have happened to you, I know your hurting and so sad that you've lost your baby but I don't think this will be your only chance to have children. I can't express to you how sorry I am that we are sat here with two beautiful children, one a new born and the both of you are sat here mourning the loss of your child, it may have only have been the size of a peanut but he or she was yours and you didn't deserve this to happen to you."

"Hermione don't be sorry for making my brother happy and having children, you have no idea how grateful I am that you are in my life and how much joy your children bring to me and Harry," I smiled, I was fighting back the urge to cry and so was Hermione.

"But I still feel bad Ginny this should have been your time now," she sighed and I let the tears start to fall.

"I know," I cried. "It's all my fault." I knew I was repeating myself but I didn't care I needed to cry and get this out of my system.

"How is this your fault?" Hermione asked as she moved forward and put her arms around me so that my head was resting against her chest gently.

"Because I lost the baby by doing that stupid trick, I should have known I was pregnant I was feeling under the weather but I just put it down to too much alcohol."

"You weren't to know you were pregnant Ginny and you cannot go blaming yourself for this happening do you understand? It will take you months to get over this if you do," Hermione said tightening her arms around me.

"I could have given Harry a child and I managed to mess it all up," I continued to sob.

"I have you Gin and that's all I that I need," Harry said calmly. "And you need to stop worrying over silly little things."

"Like what? I asked pulling away from Hermione to look at Harry.

"Chantelle," he smiled and I stopped crying at once.

"What do you-"

"I know your worried about me running off with her Gin," Harry said.

"Hang on let's get this straight," Ron began. "I was the one to tell you she was worried Harry; he didn't figure it out all by himself."

"But I thought only you had guessed how it worried me," I asked Hermione.

"Ron's not as daft as he'd like you to believe he actually mentioned it to me first," Hermione smiled.

"Anyway getting back to what I was saying," Harry said sounding slightly annoyed that they'd interrupted him. "I'm not going to leave you Ginny, not now and not," he covered Rose's ears for a moment, "bloody ever, do you understand? I love you and you should know how much I do Gin I tell you enough don't I."

I nodded feeling ashamed he did tell me once if not twice a day he loved me and sometimes more, my water seemed very interesting again and I wondered when they had planned this little meeting to have a chat with me. I didn't have the energy to argue my points to any of them and knew somewhere deep down that they were right, I just needed time to get my head round it all. Harry stood while still holding onto Rose and bent over to kiss me softly on the lips for a few long blissful moments.

"So come on Ginny tell me what else is bothering you," Hermione said once Harry had sat back down.

"Not much," I shrugged.

"Gin I have known you for longer than I care to remember and know when you are lying, your my best friend-"

"Hey I thought I was your best friend," both Ron and Harry said in unison causing Hermione to roll her eyes and tut very loudly.

"Ronald you are my husband and best friend, Harry you are my best friend and I love you but Ginny is my best friend also and we're very close," Hermione explained in a tone normally reserved for five year olds. "Maybe best friend isn't the right term, you're like a sister to me and I care for you deeply so please tell me how I can help."

Encouraged and overwhelmed by Hermione's honesty I decided I should open up, she wasn't going to back down until I did. "You want to know what really goes on inside of my head." I asked.

"Yes it will make you feel better I promise," she smiled. I took a deep breath.

"When Harry didn't propose after the first couple of years I didn't panic too much I just thought he was planning an extravagant proposal but then it never came and the longer it went on the more pressure I started putting on myself. I wondered constantly if you were waiting for someone better to come along or if you were having second thoughts all of the while and then I realised that within time I no longer cared about getting engaged just only why you hadn't asked me. I was constantly teased by the team for a few years until Gwen told them all to leave me alone and I know they only did it out of fun but it still hurt me. They all adore you Harry but none of them could understand it either I think so in the end it became something of a taboo subject. Plus trainings been ridiculously brutal for the last couple of years and I love the team I really do but I hardly eat or some weeks have time to see Harry let alone family.

After the first year of coming off the contraception potion I began to have my doubts about us having a child but I was too scared I think to talk to you about it because I didn't want you to leave me. And then I felt pressure also from my mother to be giving her more grandchildren but now I feel like a let-down because it's me who's the problem and I can see she can't quite understand it all.

And I am worried about you and Chantelle Harry your very close to one another and every time I see her talking to you I just want to hex her to oblivion. She just seems to have been around a lot lately and most of the time I'm too busy to supervise it which I know sounds ridiculous but I'm jealous because she sees you more than I do.

When I found the ring and you told me about Cho I was gutted Harry, more than you'll ever know. It knocked my confidence, me of all people," I smiled. "Loud, outgoing, confident Ginny Weasley. I've never expressed to you how I feel and really thought because I could see myself I was a different person and I don't want to be timid and quiet anymore."

"You're not quiet and timid with the team," Ron said after I took a breath.

"That's because I see them every day and you're not allowed to be quiet where Gwen's concerned. I think I've just let everything spiral out of control," I confessed.

"You put too much pressure on yourself Gin and you can't please everyone," Hermione said.

"I had no idea so much was going on inside that head of yours," Harry said with a sad smile.

"Your busy too Harry how were you meant to have guessed."

"Because I'm your boyfriend and I should have realised a long while back that you were trying to take on too much. Merlin Ginny I love you and I hate seeing you laid here in this awful bed and I hate seeing you so sad for everything you have had to go through recently and all of those worries you've been keeping bottled up. I've let you down."

As if on cue Rose jumped off Harry's lap and ran round the bed to her mother so that Harry could get closer to me. He stood over me looking down whilst tucking my hair behind my ear, I reached up and took his hand in mine.

"You haven't let me down, you could never do that," I whispered. We looked at one another for a few moments before I pulled him to my level for another kiss.

"I'm going to make this up to you," he murmured against my lips.

"You don't have to do anything apart from love me," I sighed with a smile.

"I can do that Gin loving you is as easy as breathing, I adore you." We kissed again until Ron cleared his throat rather rudely and was told off by Hermione for doing so.

"So the ring?" I asked watching Harry sit back down with a glare at Ron.

"Harry will you let me perform the spell on it later to see if it's cursed?" Hermione asked.

"I guess so," Harry nodded.

"So if it's cursed will you finally ask me to marry you?" I teased Harry feeling the mood need to be lifted.

"Maybe," he responded casually.

"Actually I don't want you proposing just because you think the curse has gone and that I want you too. You have to want to," I said.

"You'll never win with her mate you should know this by now," Ron said to Harry who was rolling his eyes at me.

"Knock Knock," my father said entering the room with my mother.

"Hi," we all smiled at them.

"How are you feeling darling?" my father asked.

"Better," I smiled feeling the most relaxed I had in weeks. Thank Merlin for Hermione and her caring, understanding ways.

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