Author's Note: Okay so the beginning part of this (the first paragraph) sorta explains what Kurt did about Carole and Finn, knowing they wouldn't realistic let him drop off the face of the earth, sorry if it seems weirdly said.
Also I'm not the biggest fan of this chapter, but its necessary.
Disclaimer, seriously if you think I own Glee I need you to put down your laptop/tablet/phone/any other device you're reading this on, take ten steps back and go outdoors and walk, you've been locked in cyberland too long.
Kurt flopped on the couch, opening his laptop. He had an hour before he had to leave for Untamed and he wanted to order flowers for Carole. It was something he did every couple of months, he knew how she fretted so the flowers were his way of saying he was still alright, all he did was sign his name, but it was enough. He also knew that was the only way his old friends kept from finding him and pestering him, Carole would tell Finn who would tell someone else from their old crowd until it got around to them all and they all knew he was fine. Even Rachel stayed off his back, after the first couple months she took the hint that he didn't want to talk, or sing or do anything at all and she backed off. Even changing her morning coffee stop when she realized just seeing her was painful for Kurt.
Once the bouquet was ordered Kurt shut the laptop, his eyes stung as he thought about his stepmom, he wasn't daft, he knew his father's death hurt her too, and Finn, but it was different for them, they still had each other, Kurt didn't. They might have became his family, but it was always because Burt was there. Burt was the only one he had left and once he died Kurt was alone.
Kurt looked to his pictures on the table and wall, they held pictures from graduation, from winning regionals, sectionals, even Nationals the one time they did. Of his friends and family, and they were painful to look at. He grabbed his phone, turning away from the pictures. "Chase speaking, what's up?"
"Hey, its Kurt, is your offer still up? I could use some fun after tonight's shift." Kurt said easily, he's been trying to distance himself from Sebastian since the man's confession, but he needed to have some fun.
"Mmm yeah, my place?" Chase asked, his voice getting low.
"Perfect. See you tonight." Kurt hung up, refusing to feel guilty over calling Chase and not Sebastian, it was a free country, and they weren't dating.
Kurt was energetic when he changed back to his normal clothes, eyes going to Chase who was already dressed. "Are you ready?"
"For you? Anytime." Chase offered his arm and Kurt took it, laughing a little when he was pulled from the dressing room to the almost empty bar. They were halfway down the block when Kurt was stopped. He turned, guard up, it wasn't everyday you get stopped three in the morning in New York, to see Sebastian.
"I take it you didn't want me to walk you home tonight?" Sebastian asked, his stomach twisting at the sight of Kurt holding on to someone else.
Kurt noticed the hurt expression but acted like he didn't for anything to work between him and Sebastian they had to keep all emotions out of it. "Nah I think Chase can take care of that, you should head home we both know you need to get up early."
Sebastian let his eyes linger on Chase for a second before nodded, he and Kurt had a casual sex thing, if Kurt wanted sex with other people it was okay, he had to act like it was okay. So with that thought he forced a smile and turned, preparing himself for the long walk in the cold, that always seemed so much shorter and warmer when Kurt was with him.
Kurt pulled his clothes on quickly, giving Chase a forced smile, "Thanks for that."
Chase lifted up on his elbows, he was used to Kurt leaving after they climaxed, he was fine with it. "So what's going on between you and the guy from Untamed?" Kurt didn't answer, buttoning his shirt with skilled fingers. "Fine let me guess. He's a friend who has amazing sex with you. And both of you want to be something more, but you don't like the whole being tied down business."
Kurt rolled his eyes, tying his boots before standing, he wasn't going to admit how right Chase was. "Nothing is going on between us. I'm a stripper, he's a rich trust-fund baby. He's made me into his project. I hate it, but I'll take free food, and clothes, where I can get it."
"That's not all and you know it. I see it in your face Kurt, he's not just 'free food and clothes' to you. I could tell when we were in bed too, how many times did you almost say another name?"
Kurt glared, pulling on his coat. "Good night. I'll see you tomorrow."
Sebastian stopped outside the coffeeshop, tilting his head, will Kurt even want him to come in today? It sure didn't seem like it yesterday. He didn't care, he promised he wouldn't let Kurt push him away and he needed his morning coffee, especially since he spent the night tossing and turning and thinking about Kurt, he hated feeling like this. "Hey Kurt, a peppermint mocha if you can."
Kurt turned, making the coffee, he was hoping he could avoid Sebastian, at least today. "4.45. Would you like a pastry too?"
"Only if you split it with me babe." Sebastian said leaning on the counter with his most flirtatious look, "Come on no one else ever comes in when I'm here, and Lisa is giving you that look again."
Kurt sighed, he knew she was, but he was trying to ignore it. He grabbed a muffin and making himself a mocha before walking around the counter to his and Sebastian's table. "No Blaine again today? I'm starting to think he hates me."
Sebastian shrugged, "He overslept and you know how long it takes to make his gelmet."
"Don't be mean Sebastian." Kurt sipped his drink, this was awkward, maybe he should fake needing to use the restroom until Sebastian left.
Sebastian shook his head, "I think we should get lunch today. The deli across the street from campus?"
"Sounds good. I don't have any classes today, so what's a good time for you?" Kurt replied, he knew that Sebastian wanted that, that he needed to talk, and after all he reasoned, it was a free meal.
"One. Its after my last class. "
Kurt threw his trash away, following Sebastian to his apartment, he knew this would happen, he knew things would be awkward between them, but he didn't know it'd be this bad. Sebastian shut the door, pulling Kurt with him to his room. "So did you fuck him?"
Kurt looked straight in the man's eyes, Sebastian couldn't make him feel guilty over it. "Yes."
"Was he better than me?" Sebastian asked, it felt like he just got stabbed in the chest. Kurt shrugged, looking away, he heard the pain, clear as day, in Sebastian's voice, and he didn't want to hurt Sebastian more. Sebastian grabbed Kurt's chin, making him look at him, "Tell me. Was he a better fuck than me?"
"It's none of your business." Sebastian was way better than Chase, but no matter what Kurt said the damage was done.
Sebastian nodded. "Okay. Fine."
Kurt pulled Sebastian to him, "You were better. But I can't get too used to you."
Sebastian took those words, turning them over in his head before he decided he didn't care about any hidden meaning at this moment, as long as he was the best Kurt had in his life. With that thought he kissed Kurt, "I'm going to make sure you remember I'm better. Than that Ken wannabe, or any other guy you may ever have."
Kurt was taken by surprise but it was better than Sebastian screaming so he happily went along with the man, pulling their clothes off with a hunger they always tried to fight. Their lips colliding every so often, their hands like fire on the other's bodies, their senses running high. Sebastian sunk his mouth over Kurt's cock, swallowing it whole. He wanted Kurt to remember this, to remember him, forever. All too quickly they both climaxed, Sebastian pulling back with a satisfied smirk. "I'm pretty sure that's the first time I made you cum without penetration."
Kurt rolled his eyes, climbing out of the bed. "Well I want a milkshake now. You have ice cream and milk right?"
"Of course. Oh come on why are you getting dressed? Blaine is going to Jordan's today after his last class, he said he won't be home until six." Sebastian stood, taking a wet wipe to himself, "We can go in the stark naked. Please? It might mean more sex."
Kurt giggled dropping his boxers, "Fine. Come on."
They left the room going straight to the kitchen. Kurt stopped dead in his tracks at what was in there. Sebastian quickly stepped in front of Kurt blocking him for the most part, "Blaine. What happened to Jordan's?"
Blaine was still looking at Kurt, "I uh-"
"Oh god. I'm going to get dressed. Sebastian! You should too." Kurt ran back to the bedroom, hastily throwing his clothes back on, he wasn't expecting Blaine there, Blaine wasn't supposed to know they were having sex. When they were both dressed Kurt turned to Sebastian. "I'll see you tonight."
"Oh no, you can suffer with me." Sebastian said, pulling Kurt back to the kitchen, "I want strawberries in my milkshake."
Kurt rolled his eyes, pulling out the makings, "Blaine?"
"No I'm good. Um, I'm guessing you didn't get my text Seb?"
"My phone is on vibrate, what was your text?" Sebastian wasn't letting things feel awkward between him and Blaine, or him and Kurt.
"That Jordan had a last minute engagement and we changed our plans for tomorrow instead." Blaine looked at Kurt again who was busy making a milkshake, "You know Kurt maybe I will take a milkshake."
Kurt nodded, adding more icecream to the blender. He blended it before pouring it into three separate glasses and sitting next to Sebastian. "So I'm guessing you overheard us? We aren't exactly quiet."
"I did." Blaine was blushing again, "I'm sorry. But I have to know, what exactly is going in between you two?"
Sebastian looked at Kurt, "Friends with benefits as of now. And we'd like to keep it between us."
"I understand completely. So did you two have any other plans? I can leave if you need me to."
"Yes." Sebastian said quickly, earning a smack from Kurt.
"No ignore your roommate I'm completely free until I have to get ready for work. Movies and junk food that I definitely shouldn't be eating?"
"Sounds good." Blaine stood, grabbing a box of cookies, "You know it makes sense. You're both hot and you know you have that no attachment thing going on. Anyways, there's a new action movie we can find on Netflix. I'll get it set up, you two gather junkfood."
Kurt turned to Sebastian, "What are you thinking? This was supposed to stay between the two of us and that's it!"
"And Blaine is my best friend, he won't tell anyone. You know he won't. But that's not what your worried about is it? You're worried about having to admit there is more than just sex going on here. That's what this is isn't it?" Sebastian whispered.
Kurt shook his head, grabbing a bag of chips and walking away from Sebastian, he wasn't doing this, not with Blaine close by and listening in, he wasn't doing it ever because he couldn't admit those things. Not to Sebastian or himself. He took his seat on the couch, curling his legs infront of him and sipping at the milkshake, hopefully Blaine could forget he ever heard them.
Blaine watched Sebastian wash the dishes by hand, frowning a little, "What are you doing?"
"What do you mean? I'm washing dishes."
Blaine shook his head, "No. I mean with Kurt."
Sebastian shrugged, pulling the plug in the sink before pulling himself up on the counter to watch Blaine, "I'm having sex with him, I'm being his friend, I'm buying him meals. I'm starting to like him more than a friend, exactly what are you looking for Blaine?"
Blaine frowned, that's what he was afraid of. "Your starting to like him and he-?"
"Turned me down. I'm going to try again, I have one more dinner and I talked to his boss at the club, he's going to be off for Valentine's day and I'm going to do my best to make him mine." Sebastian jumped off the counter, pulling a beer from the fridge. "You don't mind staying at Jordan's that night right? You two are becoming something so it shouldn't be that big of a deal."
"Of course not. I'll even go with you to find a decent outfit for yourself. Where you going now?" Blaine asked, watching his roommate chug the beer down.
"I'm going to pick Kurt up. I don't like him walking home alone. See you later."
Author's Note: So Sebastian is scheming ways to make Kurt his and his only, Kurt is completely against that, enough to have sex with Ken-wannabe who I'm allowed to hate on, he's my creation. And Blaine found out. That's what you missed on Glee.
The flowers to Carole is something I thought of when trying to decide why they were all letting him be on his own and not being down his throat with support.
Oh warning, I'm going down to my father's friday and staying til god knows when (At least monday) and he lives in the country, horses, pigs, dogs, pool, more land than necessary, two campers, an unused chicken coup, his house, an empty trailer, broken cars that he needs to junk so he can buy me a real one, but no internet. And horrible cell reception. Oh best part? His town his one store in it. And its basically a gas station without the gas pumps. His closest neighbors are a mile and a half away, he has an old cemetary two miles past his backyard, (I fucking hate cemeteries) and he's trying to convince me to stay down there, telling me I can get a job in town (meaning the town next to his) But he's a truck driver and a vehicle is a necessity down there, he refuses to get me one without me having a license, guess what I don't have? You're right! A license! *more complaining here*
Anyways, lets respond to reviews, I could spend all day saying all the bad things about where he lives. And him.
(thank you mylisa777 for telling me the reviews didn't show up!)
Mylisa777 Renting out a movie theatre? How old is she turning? Yes he definitely looked at me. I've played back the night multiple times and his hazel eyes met my... I think they grey that day, eyes. Chord was there (he's hotter in person omg) and they sung heroes together. It was wonderful, and I'm an idiot and tried recording it and hit the stop button halfway in. You've been reading my fics for a while would I really write bad times?
Scifigleek14 Yeah Seb, listen to her... him? *Checks bio* her!
Melissamiaer902 Threatening to shank someone is now classified as adorable? Good to know. Of course I'll make things right, don't want to make our boys be in pain emotionally... Or do I?
Tpring2tpring2 Thank you so much dearie, here's your update!