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ALL MISTAKES ARE MINE!
My Roommate's Twin
Chapter 10 - So That's How It Is.
It was the day of the party and I was sitting down on the couch at the living room wearing a tight white cock-tail dress with high black stilettos waiting for Ney who was still getting ready inside her room. We were going to meet Tany up at a restaurant beside the place and go in together. I was still reflecting over the notebook Tany told me to read yesterday, it was clear enough that she had feelings for me. Deep feelings but the question is, do I feel the same? Yes, I love spending time with Tany but I can't just let go of Ney either. It's not easy okay, things like this were never easy. I stare at the ceiling, floating in my own little world when I hear a door opening. I turn my head around, ready to complement Ney for looking good when I am left awestricken and jaw-dropped. Ney looked absolutely gorgeous in that green strap-less dress, it brought out her eyes and made her hair balanced with the texture. She was truly a beauty and I couldn't help but smile wide at the thought of her.
I got up, fixed the folds of my dress and walked up to her, making sure to place a soft kiss on her cheek before combing her hair in an adoring way.
"You look amazing Ney-Ney" I cooed, admiring the view as I saw her cheeks tint pink. Ney smiles and whips my hand away from her hair as she shyly covers herself. I laugh at how she was acting.
"Oh please, just admit it, you like it when I complement you" I teased, rolling my eyes as I give her a pinch in the cheeks. She squeals and jumps away from me before sticking her tongue out.
"No I don't" she says, shaking her head with a smirk.
I smiled before coming in close to her. "Oh really? Then you're okay with me not complementing you anymore?" I ask in a mischievous way waiting for her reaction.
Ney bites her lip before groaning. Score.
"Fine fine, thank you for the complement Santana, and for the record, you look just as amazing as I do" she replies, offering me a wink as I blush furiously, just like she did a few minutes ago.
We stay there for a while before Ney takes my hand and walks us to the door, sending shy glances to each other from time to time as we go down the elevator in pure silence. I was flustered because this was the very first time Ney and I would be going out not as best friends but as a legit couple.
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What is the difference between fairytales and novels? Simple, Fantasy and Imagination. That's how I see it.
Fairytales have a way of doing the impossible, it is true when they say these stories talk about dreams coming true. It's a way of showing that there is a part of us who wants to be like other things but can't because of certain reasons, fairytales are a way of showing us that imaginations and dreams can become something real if you just believe. Something we read to get away with reality sometimes.
Novels are stories that contain a deeper meaning, they are real, they show what can happen if we do things, this are the things that tell us ''you, you can't do this'' it's all about fighting for what we want and believe in. Novels are stories that inspire us, move us. This are the things we need in our everyday lives. Novels speak for those who cannot. We read things to learn and see them.
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Meeting up with Tany, I could barely contain my eyes from growing wide. She looked absolutely breathtaking-and no offense to Ney, but she glowed like a fallen angel. Tany was wearing a dark blue dress that hugged her figure so well, she had black boots on and her make-up really gave her credit. I was more at awe at her beauty because even if I knew she was sad, she was smiling at something she was seeing, she didn't even know we were at her presence until Ney walked closer and yelled out her name. Tany whipped her head from where she was staring at and waved politely at Ney-like nothing ever happened.
"Hey guys" she greeted, standing up from the stoned-stairs she was sitting on, a smile spread across her lips.
Ney brings her in a hug and sighs. "I'm sorry" she says, apologizing, leaving me yet again from the conversation as I gulp and look down, my heels being the most interesting thing to me right now.
I hear a few words being said but I don't want to intrude by eavesdropping so I wait patiently until I feel Ney come to me and intertwine our hands. I raise my head and smiled before turning to Tany who was fixing something inside her purse.
"Tany, you look great" I say, hoping she wouldn't ignore me. I wanted to say more, that she looked heavenly, godly even but Ney was here and I didnt want to cause a problem.
Tany doesn't make eye contact with me but nods her head and licks her lips. I sigh, knowing I have to apologize sooner or later because what I just said was probably the most degrading thing ever. The reason why I never did … I don't know.
"So, shall we? I wanna get my drinking on!" Ney exclaims, fist pumping the air as I chuckle-surprisingly along with Tany. We look at each other with wonder before turning away at the same time again.
I didn't notice Ney watching us like a hawk as she tugs on my hand and leads the way to the doorsteps of our friend, Clair's apartment. I glance through the corner of my eye at Tany who takes hesitant steps up the way. Feeling guilty, I leaned close to Ney and asked,
"hey, is it okay if I lead Tany in? We both know Clair's place anyways. She looks lost"
Ney looks at me with something in her eyes before smiling a smile I've never seen in a long time. "Uh-you know what, I'll do that, you go ahead" she suggests, making me frown. I wanted to do something to make it up to Tany-I would do anything so I raised my right hand up and chuckled.
"No it's okay, I kind of owe her something so I'll be right behind you okay?" I said, before letting go of her hand and walking back to Tany, seeing her eye me with confusion and shock.
I stop before her and waved awkwardly. "Hi, so umm… I know you don't want to talk to me but is it okay if I lead you in?" I ask, hoping she'd say yes. I missed her so much.
Tany frowns then crosses her arms together, brushing me off as she walks past me and catches up to Ney instead who's already going inside the apartment after knocking on the door, the music blaring away. I sigh and rub my forehead as I quicken my steps and reached out for Tany's hand that was now hanging loosely to her sides. I feel her hand stiffen as she snaps it away from me and shots a glare, possessively covering it like I was going to rip it away from her arms.
"Sorry… I just wanted to-"
"-Whatever you're trying to do. Stop it. I don't want to hurt Ney's feelings so can you just leave me alone?" she hisses, cutting me off as I stare blankly at her.
"But didn't you just write th-"
"what I wrote is how I felt for the past other days, today's a new day and what I'm feeling now is absolutely nothing for you." she barks back, the words hitting right through my chest. Guess I deserved that. Tany takes a step closer to me and points her index finger against my shoulder-a pretty hard point. "I've been thinking… and I realized I don't want you to step in the way with me and Ney's relationship. We fought enough and I don't think you're worth risking our sibling-ship since you don't care at all. Or at least, it seems you don't care" she says, shaking her head in what seems to be disappointment. "Look Santana, my feelings for you are slowly going away because I realized that I don't want to fight with Ney. She's my sister, I love her. Althought what I wrote on that notebook seemed like I would do anything to get you, things changed and I started to think of what you told me …. those hurtful things you told me"
I winced at the memory, mentally slapping myself.
"No one has ever hurt me that much Santana, no one has ever told me those mean things and you know what? I don't need a person like that in my life" she ends just as Ney comes to my side, an eyebrow arching up.
"Guys? what's going on?" she asks, intertwining our fingers again, yet I feel a little bit cold with her touch. I was breaking inside, I didn't want Tany to think of me that way. Who would've have thought her feelings would change after one night? But still, it hurt more than it did. I wanted to cry, I wanted to fall down on my knees and beg for forgiveness but Ney was there, and I didn't want her to suspect anything so with all the power I can muster, I willed my tears away and smiled-hoping it didn't look broken.
"Nothing" I replied, knowing Ney didn't quite believe us as I frown forms on her lips. She averts her eyes to Tany and semi-glares.
"Are you guys okay?" she asks another, the question being more asked to Tany rather than me as she cocks her hips to the side and crosses her arms. "Is there something going on?" she adds, pressing it further.
Tany turns to Ney and breaks the anger from her eyes. "No, it wasn't anything serious Ney. I promise" she says, smiling brightly as she spins around on her heel and gasps. "Wow, this place is rocking! How come I didn't hear the music earlier? It's loud!" she yells over the music… the music that I only noticed now, I guess Tany's words and the beating of my heart was way louder than Rihanna's We Found Love song.
Before Ney could say something again because I'm pretty sure she doesn't believe a single word we said, Clair appears out of nowhere with a bottle of beer in hand. I couldn't help but roll my eyes at the typical-drunk-Clair.
"Yo guuuys!" she shouts, stumbling with her feet as a guy comes out of no where too and presses himself against her, rocking his hips like a horny teenager. Clair giggles before slapping him away. "Not now Mike, I'm kind of-urr what am I kind of?" she slurs as Mike dances away in the crowd, occasionally humping a random person. I chuckle yet again and greeted Clair as she smirks and tips her bottle to me.
"why hello sexy ladies-" her eyes moved to Tany and the smirk only grew bigger. "and new sexy lady" she adds, eyeing Tany up and down as Tany waggles her eyebrows suggestively, making something in my stomach drop. Did that just happen?
"I would love to try you… but I promised Mike…" she pouts, playing with the bottle as she still doesn't stop ogling over Tany's gorgeous body-when the smirk comes back. "Unless you're up for a threesome?-"
"-Oh God, Clair no. Do not even think of having sex with my twin sister" Ney cuts in, nose scrunched up in disdain as she protectively tugs Tany close to her. Only Clair's sex haze would get rid of Ney's thoughts from everything else. Clair's sex ideas are crazy and no- I don't mean the threesome becoming the crazy thing. If you ask me who did the most sex positions and sex ideas I would definitely answer Clair.
"And why not? I know you know having sex with me is ahh-maaa-zing" she sing songs, swaying her hips. I blush because yeah-okay fine, Ney and I may have had sex with her before-not together though. God no. I had sex with Clair first before she did. Clair was hot and she made me really horny that night, and I got to admit, sex with her is absolutely great.
Ney flushes before clearing her throat. "Yeah yeah, exactly the point. You're too scary and I don't want Tany to experience th-"
"-the best sex she's ever going to have?" she finishes for Ney, chuckling at the tomato face she was sporting.
"Wow, so you're that good huh?" Tany decides to join in, eyes actually widening as Clair waves the statement off.
"Puleassee, I am the sex goddess, ask Santana yourself"
Shit. Not so good, to tell you the truth, Ney thinks I only made out with her but never sex and as for Tany-well, she knows now.
Both Ney and Tany whip their heads towards me and in any other day, I would laugh my head off but now was probably not the time.
"You had sex with Clair?" Ney asks.
I shrug my shoulders because when Ney told me Clair was her first girl, I couldn't help but get angry and just tell her we made out, never had sex.
"Uhh-well, maybe once-"
"-or thrice" Clair corrects, winking at me.
Okay okay, she may have or may have not been my sex buddy. She's that good okay?
"Santana!" Ney and Tany gasps at the same time, not even noticing they were having the same expressions. I didn't even know why Tany cared.
I nervously looked around my surroundings before spotting the kitchen, I jump in my spot and point towards it.
"I'm just going to… get us uh-some drinks! See you later!" I said in a rush, turning around to push myself against the crowd to the other side, ignoring the calls Ney shouted out.
Most Embarrassing moment ever.
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I'm currently waiting by the kitchen bar for our drinks when I spot Tany talking intensely with someone. I quirk an eyebrow when the guy behind the counter hands me a tray with 3 glasses of beer. After I thanked him, I slowly moved closer to Tany's direction, watching her interact with a brunette who was really making her laugh. As I was about to get even closer to them, Clair and Ney hops in front of me all of a sudden, completely drunk already. Ney was holding Clair's shoulder for support as a few hiccups come out of her mouth. Clair did so bad with giving her a lot of drinks in a matter of 5 minutes.
"Drunk already?" I ask, feigning shock as I watch Ney take a long sip from Clair's bottle of -something.
"What is this?" Ney slurs loudly, ignoring my question as she gestures towards Clair's hand. "that has to be the most fucking amazing beer I've ever drank" she exclaims, spanking Clair in the back as the said girl tumbles down in a fit of laughter, Ney joining in as she uses me instead for support this time. I roll my eyes but smile nonetheless.
"You guys are insane" I stated with effort in my voice as the party goes to an even more full swing of music. Ney helps the fallen girl up before grabbing the glass from my tray, gulping it down at once.
"Baaabe" she says, rolling her tongue out. "Clair's gonna introduce me to someone, I'll be back alright?"
I nod and give Clair a pointed look. "Don't you dare have sex with my girlfriend" I say seriously, a bit scared of leaving them alone.
Clair giggles before nodding enthusiastically. "No worries tities. I aint that mean to ya" she replies, nudging her chin as she and Ney start to walk away, but not before my girlfriend leans back to me and says, "don't you dare have sex with my twin" which surprised me a lot.
I whipped my head to her just as she and Clair disappeared against the crowd, her eyes watering with something I don't know. I wasn't sure if I heard her right but did she really think… think that? … really?
But before I could ponder more on the 'out-of-no-where' warning, Tany's obnoxious laugh fills my ears and I avert my eyes once again at her and a brunette sitting on a couch, talking animately -their bodies way too close for comfort. I frown and strut my way towards them.
They still haven't noticed me as I watch brunette-girl 'secretly' trail her fingers up and down Tany's arm. I'm pretty sure there's a scowl in my face as I cock my hips to the side and rest my free hand to my waist, the tray still hanging above my palm. I wanted nothing more than to ask this girl who she think she is to even touch Tany, let alone trail her damn fingers but then I stopped myself because one, Tany isn't my girlfriend nor is she my property. She's single which means she can do anything she wants…
But damn, I can't stand this right now.
"Hey man-hands" I call out, over the loud music, glad they both turned their heads to me. "Keep your hands to yourself" I growled, glaring at her wandering fingers as I set the tray down on the table. I held Tany's glass and softened my face.
"Hi uhm… here, your drink" I said, reaching it out for her with a smile. Tany stares at it for while before looking away and pretends to fix her hair instead. I frown and was about to try again when freaking brunette girl snatched the glass from me.
"Wow, I'm parched. thanks for the drink stranger" she says, smirking smugly as she took a sip of Tany's drink. Mind you-it's Tany's drink. not hers.
I didn't even try to hide my obvious dislike to the girl as I sent her an evil glare. "that wasn't meant for you dipshit. It was supposed to be for Tany" I corrected with venom in my voice. Tany still hasn't moved her eyes from where she was looking at-which was opposite to me.
Brunette doesn't even care as she shrugs her shoulders, takes a few more sips and turns her attention to Tany. "I'm sorry… want me to get you one?" she asks in a sickeningly sweet tone, the green monster firing inside of me as I notice Tany shake her head and offer brunette a smile.
"No, it's alright Jenny"
Wait, brunette is Jenny? Jenny is brunette? Jenny is the brace-face who creeps out on Tany when she was young? This is … wow. I was completely mind-blown as I stare agape at Tany-wanting an explanation. Wasn't she weirded out by this Jenny girl? It said so in the notebook.
Jenny quirks an eyebrow before brushing her brown hair away. "I'm really sorry" she mumbles like a baby, a baby in which I want to scold to right now. "You just looked so beautiful, my throat went dry and I needed a drink to cool me down"
Oh hell to the no… she didn't just-but she did, and Tany just had to smile, giggle and look away all flustered. Is this seriously happening?
Brunette bracey-facey smirks and reaches out to touch Tany's pale cheeks, rubbing them softly. "Aww, aren't you so adorably cute when you blush? I swear, you have to be an angel sent from heaven" she gushes, flipping her hair in an exaggerated way.
I bite my lower lip and frown. I thought of Tany that way, not her. I thought Tany was angel-sent, not her. I thought she was adorably cute when she blushes, not her. I thought Tany was so beautiful she could leave my throat dry, not her.
This felt so degrading because it wasn't me who was making Tany feel good, it was her. It was a girl who truly liked Tany from the beginning, I just had to go and mess it up.
I cleared my throat and tried to fix myself up as I grabbed my own glass and turned back to Tany.
"Here, you can have mine if you want." I say, offering it to her. I was desperate, I needer her to respond to me… and not in a negative way-I have enough of that already.
Tany doesn't even mind me though. She doesn't even react. Nothing. And all I want to do right now is cry because this is too much.
I choke in a sob and forced a smile on my lips as I got up. Jenny's probably confused right now at what's going on too, but I took a deep breath and pushed everything away.
"I'll see you around then" I said, nodding more to myself than to anyone else.
Only Jenny responds to me as she rolls her eyes and waves me off in a rather rude manner.
Nodding for probably more than a normal record time, I walk away and push my tears away from threatening to fall.
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This is weird. Like completely, I'm just leaning against the wall on probably the best party New York holds staring at Tany and Jenny who are getting a bit handsy than 30 minutes ago, they're already having eye sex and I'm starting to wonder when one of them is going to push through and start a make out session. I groan when now, they're still staring at each other, totally not speaking but touching everywhere-oh god, just… just get on with it before I melt away in my sorrows!
It's freaking frustrating how I'm even so bothered with this! I should look for Ney, have some fun with her and probably have an amazing night after but no, my body doesn't want to move and I'm stuck here like a predator watching it's prey about to do something.
I'm only relying on hope that Tany's giving her the lustful eyes because she's drunk and not because she's actually interested in her. I'm just… I don't know how to feel anymore. Tany just forms this war inside my head and I can't fight because I don't know who's side I'm on.
I bite my lower lip and bow my head down, suddenly tormented by everything. I close my eyes and turn to the only person who could help me with situations like this.
"You know, Santana" Mom said in a quiet voice, we were at my room and she just finished reading my bedtime story when I blinked a few times and pushed the drowsiness from my eyes. I looked up to her from below, smiling wide because I just love her so much.
"Yes Mommy?"
Mami leans closer and stares at me deeply, rubbing my forehead with pure adoration. "You're going to become a really beautiful girl one day"
I giggled and nodded enthusiastically, completely agreeing with her. "Just like you right?" I ask, titling my head as I grinned with a few missing teeth. Mami laughs and chokes a sob. I immediately frown and tugged on her wrist to catch her attention.
"Mami? What's wrong? Are you crying?" I ask, pushing myself up with the use of elbows as I reach out to touch her cheeks. "Don't cry…" I hushed sadly, feeling my eyes about to water. "Tana doesn't like it when you cry"
Mami chuckles through sobs, taking a few deep breaths before covering my tiny hands with hers. She stares at me with eyes that seemed to darken with something. I used to ask myself why Mami turned up so sad after her daily check-up with the doctor.
"Okay Honey, I'll stop now" she whispers, kissing my hands. "I just… remember that I love you forever okay and no matter what happens… you are my greatest treasure"
"And you are mines too… with Papi of course" I laughed, wrinkling my eyes.
"Santana, YOU are the treasure of your own heart too, alright sweetie?"
I didn't understand, was she trying to tell me that I treasure my heart? Love it? love myself?
"Uhmmm okay Mami"
"Did you know Santana… I'm so scared right now" she suddenly says, eyes wandering around my room frantically as I scrunch my eyebrows, confused.
"Why are you scared? You're an adult!" I gleamed, waggling my feet in excitement. Mami was afraid of something too?
She turns to me and smiles sadly. "Because there are things even I can't fight against"
"Really?" I gasped, covering my mouth in such a child-like manner. "But Mami isn't Papi there to protect you? He's your knight!"
That's when she actually smiles-the sadness flew away at the mention of my father. "Why of course Santana! That's why I married him, he protected me. he made me feel safe, he scared me, he made me happy, he made me angry, he made me cry both happy and sad, he made my heart flutter and made it damper too he-" she stopped once she realized she's been rambling non-stop about father with love-sick eyes. Mami lets out a girly giggle and glares at me playfully. "Now look what you've done. I'm mumbling about your father again"
I smile because I could never get bored with her. "I love it when you talk about Papi like that"
Then Mami turns serious again. "Baby, make sure you meet someone who loves you for who you are not who she wants you to be" after that being said, Mami slaps her cheeks and shakes her head. "Dios mio! What am I doing? Giving love quotes to a 5 year-old? Get your head out of the fairytales Mami-mio"
Oh I remember that moment clearly, it was funny to think about it now, knowing my mom already started giving me advises at the age of 5. I laughed, thinking about it before looking up to not only feel my soul freeze and melt away but also hear the shattering of my… my something. Tany was openly making out with Jenny, it was passionate and full of power, I now by the way Tany's hands grip unto both sides of Jenny's face-holding it with a firm grip as she basically devoured the brunette's lips.
Then something salty comes entering my mouth and that's the only time I noticed that I'm actually crying right now. I blink away the tears and wipe them using the back of my hand, coughing out something that was stuck in my throat.
And as if fate decided to cause me problems, Ney jumps out of nowhere and envelopes me in a hug, pressing kissed all over my face as I try to react but no, my body and mind can't seem to cooperate.
"Why so stiff babe?" she asks, burying her face on the crook of my neck as I circle my arms around her, needing comfort. I was terribly sad and even if Ney and I are kind of in a relationship doesn't mean we're not friends anymore.
"Sorry, I'm just… not in the mood" I admit, glancing up to see Tany still making out with Jenny, this time with hands groping certain areas.
Ney sways with me, trying to cool my thoughts because she knows, she knows how to calm me down. I go along with her and stare at the floor this time, biting my inner cheek when a question from Ney completely shocks me.
"It's Tany… isn't it?" she asks softly, gripping to me tighter. I stiffen and popped my lips together.
"W-What're you-"
She shushes me and combs my hair in a soothing way, the loud noise of the party disappearing as it's only us in the room. "-Shh, it's okay San…I know"
"You know?"
Ney nods and I feel her body quivering, which only meant one thing. I tried to pull away but she didn't let me, so I turned my head and looked at her through the corner of my eyes. She was crying.
"Ney-"
"I see the way you look at her" she says, cutting me off. "It started ever since you spent time together. When I confessed to you a week ago, I dismissed the thought of you liking her because I knew you'd get confused and have mixed feelings. I thought… making you mine would help you get rid of her in your heart but it only deepened. I have my own observations too you know."
Observations? Was there something I-
Ney lets go all of a sudden and hands me a paper.
"Even if it was for just a week, I-" she was stifling her cries. "I enjoyed every moment. I only wished I wasn't too late because, because I lost you already San…. you already fell for her deep and I-I, I still want to be your friend." she ends, smiling brightly. "Bestfriend" she clarifies before taking off somewhere else.
I scan the area, it was too loud. I can't read this with so much people and insane music pumping up. So I pushed myself off the counter and walked up the circular stairs of the large apartment. I entered a vacant room and sighed in relief when no one was having sex in her-that would be awkward. I took a seat on the edge of the bed and opened the paper-pads of paper.
Sunday
So glad I was able to tell Santana how I really felt. The pain was killing me,watching her stare at Tany with loving eyes and absentmindedly comb her hair when they cuddle and watch movies together. I don't know if she knows it, but Santana's got it bad for my sister. When I confessed last night, I couldn't help but not tell her about what i saw. I'm pretty sure she'll think of something else and get away from me. Selfish, I know… but what can you do when you find out the person you've been crushing on ever since you met her actually has a crush on you too?
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OHHH SNAP. Ney liked Santana before Santana started liking her? Even when they used to hate each other Ney was actually crushing on Santana? Now that's some gossip.
HAHAH i'm leaving it there. Ney is such a character that I need to end her plot nicely.
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