Chapter 10

Alex lay on the table nervously awaiting the doctor. She glanced over at Olivia who was sitting by her side; she could tell by the look on her wife's face she was nervous as well. Alex was now six weeks pregnant and she was to have her first ultrasound. She was just six weeks when she miscarried one of her babies when she was pregnant with Jase. She only hoped everything was going okay with this pregnancy. She could feel Olivia's hand in hers while she absent mindedly traced patterns across her stomach with her other hand. Alex smiled to herself; one of her favorite parts of being pregnant was how Olivia couldn't keep her hands off her belly. She knew how Olivia felt though, when she was pregnant with Henry Alex felt like Olivia's belly was a magnet drawing her hand to it every time she was near. She was drawn from her thoughts when she heard the door open and Dr. Mason walked in.

"Good morning Alex, Olivia." She began doing all the routine checks and making notes in her chart "How are you feeling so far?"

"Pretty good. I'm a little tired but I know that's normal."

Olivia cleared her throat "I think you're leaving something out aren't you?" Alex gave her a confused look "Morning sickness?"

"It's not that bad." While it was bad Alex wasn't one to complain so she had told Olivia that morning not to worry about it.

Olivia couldn't believe what she just heard "Not that bad? Alex you've spent almost two hours on the bathroom floor every morning for the past two weeks." She turned her attention to their doctor since Alex wasn't going to volunteer any more information. "It usually starts around five am and lasts for about a couple hours then she starts feeling better, but I've popped by her office around lunch and noticed she still doesn't look so good. I'm just worried she's going to get dehydrated or something."

Dr. Mason smiled "Well dehydration is a possibility but as long as you continue to push fluids the rest of the day you should be fine, but if it gets any worse or you have trouble eating or drinking I want you to call me. Okay?" Alex nodded. "Alright you know the drill. What do you say we take a look at this baby?"

After Alex pulled her shirt up she took Olivia's hand and squeezed it. It was obvious Olivia was nervous but trying to stay strong for her. Alex knew they were both nervous considering what happened last time, but as soon as she had the procedure done she had a good feeling about this pregnancy. Alex was watching the doctor's face for any hint of something being wrong but when she realized the doctor wasn't giving anything away she turned to face her wife. She loved Olivia more than she'd ever loved anyone and it surprised Alex. She had never thought she would be able to love someone as much as she loved Olivia. She also never thought she would find someone who loved her as much as Olivia did, she had never been loved so completely nor had she ever felt so safe and wanted.

Olivia smiled as she looked at Alex; she thanked her lucky stars every day for Alex as well as their sons. She always thought her life would revolve around her job she never expected to fall so completely in love with someone as she did with Alex. She had never really subscribed to the idea of a soul mate but when she met Alex she began to reconsider. When Alex left she knew for a fact there was such a thing as a soul mate and Alex was hers. Olivia had never been more connected to a person than she was to Alex. Olivia chuckled to herself when she thought about how corny it sounded but they really where one another's other half, they made each other whole.

They were both so lost in each other they barely heard the doctor "Well everything looks and sounds good."

Both ladies began crying when the rhythmic sound of their baby's heartbeat filled the room. They both turned their attention to the screen and began laughing when they saw the baby. "Everything's okay?" Alex asked when she finally found her voice.

"Yes everything looks good so far. Nice healthy heartbeat for both babies." The young woman smiled and waited a second for what she had just said to sink in.

Olivia was the first to recover "I'm sorry did you just say both babies?" The doctor smiled back at her and nodded. "As in two?" Olivia asked again still not sure she'd heard correctly.

The doctor pointed at the screen "Yes two babies. Here's one and here's one, actually their identical twins. Congratulations!"

Alex was sure she had stopped breathing, she was pregnant with twins. She was torn between being excited and worried that history might repeat itself. She looked to Olivia "I love you."

"I love you too." Olivia said as she placed a gentle kiss on Alex's lips.

Alex looked back to her doctor "Are you sure everything is okay? I only made it six weeks last time before I lost one of my babies. Will it happen again?"

The doctor gave her a sympathetic smile "Alex we can never say for certain if someone is going to miscarry but everything looks good. So just continue to do what you've been doing maybe try and get a little more rest." All three laughed at the remark "I know it's going to be hard to do with two toddlers running around and the job you have but you need to at least try."

Alex couldn't take her eyes off the ultrasound picture in her hand as she and Olivia walked hand in hand to their car. "I can't believe there are two of them!"

"I know. Can you imagine how the boys are going to react when we tell them we're having a baby, and then their faces when we tell them there are two babies?" Olivia stopped suddenly and Alex turned back to see why. She noticed the faraway look in her wife's eyes and how she seemed to have paled slightly. Alex stepped closer to her.

"Liv, baby, are you okay?"

Olivia was snapped from her thoughts when she felt Alex's hand on her cheek "I'm sorry."

"What's wrong?"

Olivia smiled "Nothing I think it just sank in that we're having twins and then I realized that when their born we'll have four kids age four and under."

"Wow I hadn't thought about it like that." Alex climbed into the passenger seat of Olivia's mustang; she loved this car it was so Olivia. She turned to face the woman sitting next to her "Are you not happy its twins?"

Olivia's jaw dropped and her eyes went wide "No Alex, I couldn't be happier that we're having twins. I guess it just became so real. I'm thrilled we're getting two babies maybe it wasn't meant to be the last time but I think this is supposed to happen. I know our life will get even crazier than it is now but I can't imagine it any other way."

The next morning they had plans to take the boys to the museum. Casey had told them of a children's program they were having that day and since Olivia was off they decided to go. She was just getting breakfast on the table when Henry came running into the kitchen "Mommy! Mama's sick!"

Olivia looked down "Where is she?"

Henry was already running back toward the downstairs bathroom "She's in there." He looked up and made a face "She throwin up. It nasty Mommy."

Olivia had to chuckle at her son "Okay baby. Go play with Jase and as soon as Mama feels better we'll eat." She walked into the bathroom "According to Henry you're throwing up and it's nasty."

Alex chuckled lightly as she leaned back against the wall "I was helping him wash his hands when it suddenly hit me. If I wasn't so sick I would've laughed at the expression on his face."

"Do you still feel like going to the museum?"

"Yeah I'll be fine by the time we leave. Besides if I wait for it to be over I won't leave the house for the next couple months."

Alex leaned back in her chair and propped her feet on her desk. Her most recent case had absolutely drained her. Between the death of her victim, Lainie, and then the defense attorney trying to get her witness Nardalee deported Alex was glad to see this case come to an end. Nardalee had also made her rethink what she was doing. She loved her job, she loved the fact that she was able to help people who had things done to them that most people couldn't imagine. At the same time she was beginning to think it was time for a change. She had just nodded off to sleep when she heard a knock on her door. She smiled and told her visitor to come in.

"You really should see who's out here before you tell them to come in." Olivia said as she walked over and leaned in for a kiss. She slid onto Alex's desk and placed her feet in her lap before removing her shoes and began to gently rub her wife's feet. "They're swollen."

"I know I've been on my feet all day but I can't believe they're swelling already. When I was pregnant with Jase I didn't start swelling until later in the pregnancy."

"Yes but now you're pregnant with two babies and you're also working long hours and on your feet most of the day. I know we've made it past the three month mark but are you sure you're not overdoing it?"

Alex sighed as she relaxed into Olivia's touch. "I wanted to talk to you about that." Olivia looked concerned. "Don't worry I'm fine. Olivia I want to talk to you about something."

"Sweetie you can tell me anything, you know that."

Alex took a deep breath "I want to leave the DA's office." If she wasn't so tired she would've laughed at the look on her wife's face.

"Why?"

"This case made me start thinking. Liv there are horrible things happening to people all over the world, not just here."

Olivia smiled "Nardalee got to you."

"She inspired me."

They sat quietly for a few minutes before Olivia decided to speak again "So if you leave the DA's office what are you going to do?"

"I talked to a friend of mine from law school who works with the international criminal court. She said she could get me a position with them."

Olivia began to panic; she knew that people who worked for the international court were based overseas. Olivia quickly stood and began pacing the room "No Alex, you can't."

"I'm sorry?" Alex was confused at the way Olivia reacted.

"Alex you're pregnant with twins never mind the fact that we have two little boys at home, and what about us? Alex I can't live without you and if you're gone I'll only get to see once every few months. I can't live like that." She quickly wiped her eyes to stop the tears.

Alex stood and walked over to where Olivia was pacing the office. She pulled her wife into her arms and held her "Hey what are you talking about? I'm not going anywhere."

Olivia pulled back with a confused expression "I thought you just said you were considering taking a position with the international court?"

Alex smiled "I did but I never said anything about leaving the country. Liv they have an office here in the city as well and I can also work from home since I won't actually be in court. That way it'll be easier with the pregnancy I won't be in the office for hours on end and on my feet in the courtroom. I also miss being home with the boys. They're growing so fast and I feel like I'm missing out."

Olivia breathed a sigh of relief. She knew she had overreacted but just the idea of Alex leaving the country, not to mention to work in some of the most dangerous parts of the world, scared her to death. "Sorry I overreacted." Alex smiled and kissed her which allowed Olivia to relax even more. "I feel the same way too, I feel like I'm missing out on so much with them."

Alex winced as she slipped her shoes back on "Well how about we go home and spend some time with our kids this evening? Maybe we can let them know about their new little siblings."

Olivia grinned ear to ear "Really?"

Alex laughed "Yeah, besides I'm starting to show so we can't keep it secret much longer." She smiled as Olivia helped her into her coat but winced again as she took a step. She squealed when she felt Olivia slide her arms under her legs and pick her up. "Liv!"

"What? You're obviously in pain and it's a long way to the car so I'll just carry you."

Alex rolled her eyes "Olivia put me down. I'm not being carried from my office to the car. I would never hear the end of it."

Olivia kissed her quickly then sat her down "Okay we'll walk slowly then." They walked out of the office hand in hand. They used to be careful about displays of affection in the work place, they still were to an extent, but Olivia just couldn't seem to walk next to her wife without holding her hand. At first people would stare at them but not anymore, now it was an occasional glance or a smile. Now she didn't care who looked, she belonged to Alex and Alex belonged to her.

That evening after dinner all four members of the Cabot family were sitting in the floor laughing and playing. Olivia looked to Alex and silently asked if now was a good time. Alex smiled and nodded. "Hey guys come over here and sit with me and Mama for a minute."

Alex had to laugh at how they sat down, Henry in front of her and Jase in front of Olivia. They knew their boys loved them both but it was common knowledge that Henry was his Mama's boy while Jase was definitely Mommy's boy. "Okay so me and Mommy have something to tell you."

"What?" Henry asked with an intrigued look.

Olivia reached for Alex's hand and squeezed it "Mama's going to have a baby."

The brothers looked at each other for a second then back to their mothers "Mama has a baby in her tummy?" Henry asked with wide eyes.

"Actually," Alex said as she began smiling even wider "I'm having two babies." She held up two fingers since Henry was beginning to understand the concept of how many.

Henry's eyes grew wide "Two babies?" Alex and Olivia both nodded. "When? Will it be a boy or a girl? We can I see them?"

Alex and Olivia both laughed at the excitement on their sons face. "See what spending his early years with an attorney got us? Nonstop questions."

"Uh, no, that's the detective coming out in him."

Olivia took hold of Henry's hand "They won't be here for a while, probably near the end of summer. We don't know if it's boys or girls yet, we'll find that out in a couple months though." She reached up on the table for the ultrasound picture "Here, you can see them here but their still really little."

Both boys crawled onto her lap for a look "They tiny."

Alex looked at her youngest who was still quiet. Jase was the quiet one of the family, granted once he warmed up to you sometimes he would rattle on forever, but most of the time he liked to sit back and watch. Alex joked he was going to be a detective someday. A thought that scared Olivia out of her mind. When Alex asked her what she would do if one of their children announced they wanted to be a cop, Olivia always said the same thing she would support them but up until then she would pray they would choose another profession. She reached out for Jase's hand "Jase, you haven't said anything. Are you excited about the babies?"

He smiled and crawled over to sit between her legs and pointed at her stomach "In your tummy?"

Alex placed her hand on her slightly swollen stomach "Yes they're in my tummy and they'll stay there till they're big enough to come out."

She threw her head back and laughed when he quickly grabbed her t-shirt and pulled it up "I see. I see."

She placed his hand on her stomach then pulled Henry to her and did the same with his hand "You can't see them they're inside, but in a few months you'll be able to feel them moving."

After a little more playing followed by bath time they were finally able to get the toddlers to settle down and go to sleep. Once they were in bed Olivia lay down and rested her head beside Alex's belly "Hey little ones. How are you tonight? We told your big brothers about you and they are really excited to meet you. Your Mama and I are excited to meet you too but don't come out too soon. We'll wait until you're ready. We love you." She placed two light kisses to the tiny bump before rising up and facing her wife. She felt her own tears well up when she noticed the tears in Alex's eyes "I love you."

"I love you too." Alex ran her fingers through Olivia's hair, she was so happy she was growing it out again.

"When is your last day at the DA's office?"

Alex grinned "Today."

"What?"

"I know I didn't talk to you but even before I began considering the ICC I was planning on leaving anyway. I just didn't want anything to go wrong this time and my stress level was through the roof, plus like I said I was really missing the boys. I know I didn't talk to you first and I'm sorry but I had a feeling what your answer would be if I asked you."

Olivia gave her a chaste kiss "No need to apologize and you're right you knew exactly what I'd say. I'm a little sad I won't have an excuse to go see you in the middle of the day but as long as you're happy I'm happy."

"Thank you." Alex quickly flipped Olivia and began kissing her with everything she had.

Olivia moaned as she felt Alex's tongue against her lips, she gladly allowed Alex entrance. Once their need for air outweighed their need for one another they separated "I'm guessing the hormones are kicking in?"

Alex laughed "Well yes but mostly because I love you." She quickly sat up and pulled her shirt off then pulled Olivia up to her and pulled her shirt off as well then pushed her back down on the bed. She leaned over the edge of the bed and pulled Olivia's favorite toy from the bottom drawer "And now I'm going to show you how much I love you."

It wasn't long before Olivia was panting and calling out to her wife "Alex, Alex, Alex." She could feel Alex's lips as she kissed her way across her chest. Olivia knew she wasn't going to last much longer.

Alex rose back up and began kissing the brunette beneath her. "Open your eyes Olivia."

Olivia managed to open her eyes but quickly closed them and her back arched as she felt Alex turn the toy to the highest setting. "Oh God Alex!" she managed to whisper out.

Alex knew Olivia wasn't going to hold on much longer "Liv baby you have to open your eyes." Olivia managed to open her eyes one last time. It took her breath away when she looked into the blue eyes she loved so much. "I love you." Alex whispered.

That was all it took to send Olivia flying over the edge, she was grateful when Alex pressed their lips together in an attempt to prevent her from waking the boys. After they had both came down and were barely awake Olivia settled in against Alex, resting her head on the blonde's chest. "Thank you."

Alex kissed the top of her head "You never need to thank me. I love you and I love showing you exactly how much."

Olivia placed a final kiss to Alex's shoulder "I love you too." They settled in and were quickly drifting off to sleep; safe in each other's arms and comfortable in their love for one another.

A/N: Thank you again for the reviews, I'm glad you enjoyed the last chapter. The end of this chapter is the most explicit thing I've ever written that I think turned out okay, so please be gentle. I hope you liked this one. Next up, we find out what their having!