Chapter Ten
DEMI'S POV (THE SAME NIGHT)
Sighing I turned my head to face the clock only to see 2:30 flashing at me. Naya is sleeping her naked body snuggled into my side one of her hands resting protectively on my stomach. Now that my bump is huge I can't sleep on my tummy like I always do so I can't get comfy but then I'm never comfy any more, I'm too hot and I'm starting to get cold feet about the babies, don't get me wrong I love them and I know Naya is going to be a fantastic mom but can I, can I do this.
The more I thought about it then the more I found it hard to sleep. Dropping a kiss to Naya's head I slipped out of the bed replacing me with my pillow before covering my naked with my red silk robe. Slipping out the room I headed down the hall and stopped at the nurseries going into our son's room. I could help but smile resting my hand on my bump as I ran my other hand along the top of the crib while I made my way over to rocking/nursing chair in one of the corners.
I'm not going to lie everybody knows I have Bi-polar which in itself it can be difficult to figure out and sort through your emotions but add being pregnant on top with all these extra hormone, without trying to sound like a stuck up bitch its hard as fuck. Sometimes it feels like I'm in an ocean of emotions swimming but the more I swim the more I sometimes I feel like I'm drowning. It doesn't happen all the time most of the time I'm like any other pregnant woman but some days it gets the better of me.
I was so deep in my thought I never noticed Naya leaning against the door frame wearing nothing but her robe. In fact I never noticed her there until she made her way over sitting on the stole and running her hands up my thighs from my knees making me jump and open my eyes.
"Christ you scared the fuck outta me." I said panting wide eyed one of my hands covering my now rapidly beating heart which only seemed to beat faster when I noticed she too was just wearing a robe.
"Sorry darling, are you okay, what has you up at this time of the night?" She asked looking worried as she rubs circles on my thighs.
"Nothing really just thinking, nothing important." I said with a small smile.
"Hey don't lie to me Demetria, talk to me what's going through that beautiful head of yours?"
You see this is why her ringtone is Gravity she keeps me grounded. She sees shit for shit and isn't afraid to call it pretty much like me. Naya she seems to know when I need a kick up the ass, sometimes I seem to forget it's better to let things out than keep them in, I'm sober now so numbing the emotions any more but sometimes easier said than done.
"I'm scared." I replied barley above a whisper my eyes watering with my words.
"What of baby?" Her voice already soothing me.
"This the babies, you're gonna be a brilliant mom you did all this but what if I can't this what if they gets just as screwed up as I did and do all the shit that I did I put my parents through hell, what if they have bi-polar and I'm you realise I'm not good enough for you." I started tears rolling down my cheeks, everything that had been floating around my mind just seemed to come spilling out. I've never really been any good at having a filter between what I'm think and what I'm saying, gets me in some shit sometimes.
"Hey, hey I don't want to hear you say that ever again you are perfect just the way you are and you most certainty aren't screwed up. Sure you've had your problems but you got past them you're the strongest person I know. Its takes a lot of guts to ask for help and take responsibility for your own actions. Look at you now your one of the top selling artist more fan than bloody Bon Jovi. You…are…amazing. As for not being good enough I think you will find it's the other way around, you are everything I ever wanted and so much more and having a family with you is the cherry top of my world you three are my world." She said removing her right hand from my thing cupping my cheek running her thumb across said cheek her left hand staying where it was.
"Come on lets continue this in bed." She said extending her hand for me to take which I did. She then lead me through to bed where we snuggled up, me with one leg and an arm draped over her my head on her shoulder and Naya's arms wrapped around me well one was the other she was using to run her fingers through my hair.
"I love you." I said.
"I love you too baby girl, you know you can talk to me about this stuff anytime like I said it's not going to make me think any less of you."
"I know it's just… not everyone is as understanding as you some people have told me too basically to stop wearing my ass as a hat… How'd I get so lucky to get you?" I asked my fingers tracing patterns on her bare chest my eyes starting to drift close.
"We're both lucky, now get some sleep we have to look bright eyed and bushy tailed tomorrow for our Ellen interview."
"Goodnight baby." I replied. Oh yeah I forgot to say Naya and I both have an interview with Ellen DeGenerous tomorrow a very, very good friend of mine. Where I will be performing the song that I have been working Nightingale.
"Goodnight Angel."
(THE NEXT DAY)
Our morning was a mad dash between me bent over the toilet and getting ready for our interview. Once we were ready we grabbed our things and hopped in our own car because unfortunately after the show Naya has to go to set but that does give me the opportunity to go and do a little shopping. There are a couple of things that I need to get however I will tell you all about that after the show.
Anyway once we arrived at Ellen's studio parked and meet up again we headed inside almost immediately being carted into our dressing room so that hair and make-up could have at us. I know I say I love this part the hair and make-up and all the outfits but today it's just annoying thankfully we don't have to get redressed. I'm wearing a pair of black maternity pants and a white button up oxford shirt and my signature penguin suit jacket. Naya on the other hand is wearing a beautiful red thick strapped dress with black panels at the side, black heal and her hair curled. Damn my girl looks fucking sexy.
"Babe…Demi…Demetria." Naya said grinning looking up from her cell phone. Ooops I got caught staring.
"Wh, what?" I stuttered.
"You were staring." She smiled. But I decided to say nothing instead I just smiled and leaded over and kissed her cheek a blushing finding its way to my cheeks.
It wasn't too before Naya was called to the stage so I watch from back here. When she was talking about the babies she's like a proud Mamma with this sparkle in her eyes. They talked about a few things some serious some not making us all laugh, even telling Ellen that I have her huge picture she gave me on the wall in my office and I still use my pillow. Soon enough it was time for me to join them on the show so when the music started out and Ellen stood up and started dancing I began my walk over to the chairs dancing away hugging my fellow gay blonde when I reached her.
"Demi my friend it's to see all of you, your looking good." She said as we took our seats.
"It's good to see you it's been too long." I said taking the seat next to my girl taking her hand in mine.
"It has that now tell me what is it like to be having a baby and to be shacked up with this lovely lady?" She asked.
"I love it, I've never been happier, scared as hell to be mom but I've never been happier." I smiled feeling Naya give my hand a squeeze.
"So tell me how are you finding be pregnant some woman say they love it some say they hate it."
"Well morning sickness should be called night and day sickness, cravings are just plain gross sometimes I get to hot and people random strangers feel like they can come up and touch your bump, which makes me even more thankful for Mark but I'm kinda getting used to it really depends really."
"How did you two get together how did this all happen. It's no secret you both like the girls Demi your have plasters across magazines but you've always said Hell yeah I dig chicks and Naya you to but how did this all happen?" I knew she was going to ask this, I don't want to lie but do I really tell the world Wilmer hit me.
"Well uh." I started looking at Naya silently asking if she mined me telling the truth but she gave me a smile and a nod as a go ahead.
"My ex and I were arguing because I was breaking up with him and uh he slapped me and Naya my knight and shining armour stepped in. later that night Naya came over for one of our movie nights and I was sitting at the piano singing when I stood up and she kissed me. It sort of developed from there where in a sort of silent relationship then my dad died and she came with me. She kept me grounded and helped me sort through things and then one day I was having a sort of bad day it was three weeks after the funeral?" I said turning to Naya once again making sure I had the right week once again getting a node.
"Yeah three weeks after the funeral we were going to mine and Chasing Cars came on the song we play at his funeral. I kind of decided it would be easier to ignore what I was feeling but we or I was in the car and the song came on and it all sort of caught up with me. Naya never left my side not once even when I was a babbling idiot that night we decided to make it official well for us we waited to tell people for a little while."
"I'm glad you're talking care of her Naya but does that mean you've been to the haunted house?" Ellen asked making us laughing.
"Yes and when she says it's haunted it haunted. That thing text we saying defiantly numerous times and kept turning the bedroom light on and off, I ain't cool with that."
"Now in a minute Demi you're going to be singing for us a new song that has been released today and all the proceeds are going to charity." Ellen said asking if she was right.
"Yes, all the proceeds are going to Cast for recovery who helped me with my recovery and in honorary of my dad I started the Lovato scholarship with them where I pay for one person treatment at a time. The Songs called Nightingale for my dad and a friend who died when I was younger you guys will be the first to see it live well hear it, it doesn't go on sale for another hour." I said smiling.
"She hasn't even let me hear it yet." Naya added.
"That's mean but in all honesty good on you it's a very Nobel thing to be doing you're defiantly a good role model but first we couldn't have our favourite people come here and not give them something." Ellen said before some guy came on carrying the biggest basket of things I'd ever seen how he can carry that I beyond me. "This is for little Daya I love Ellen onesies and whole other pile of baby things t-shirts for you guys when no one other than me in it and some other things in there for you guys from Portia and I." Ellen said as well all stood up.
"Awww thank you." Naya and I said taking our turn to hug the host.
"Naya Rivera and Demi Lovato everybody, Here's Demi with her new song Nightingale so please folks go out and buy it." Ellen said while I got ready to sing Ellen and Naya standing beside each other an arm around each other's waist.
"I can't sleep tonight
Wide awake and so confused
Everything's in line
But I am bruised
I need a voice to echo
I need a light to take me home
I kinda need a hero
Is it you?
I never see the forest for the trees
I could really use your melody
Baby I'm a little blind
I think it's time for you to find me
Can you be my nightingale?
Sing to me
I know you're there
You could be my sanity
Bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale
Somebody speak to me
Cause I'm feeling like hell
Need you to answer me
I'm overwhelmed
I need a voice to echo
I need a light to take me home
I need a star to follow
I don't know
I never see the forest for the trees
I could really use your melody
Baby I'm a little blind
I think it's time for you to find me
Can you be my nightingale?
Sing to me
I know you're there
You could be my sanity
Bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale
I don't know what I'd do without you
Your words are like a whisper cutting through
As long as you are with me here tonight
I'm good
Can you be my nightingale?
Feels so close
I know you're there
Oh, nightingale
Sing to me
I know you're there
'Cause baby you're my sanity
You bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you'll be my nightingale
Oh
Mm, mm
Mm"
NAYA'S POV
Wow, holy fuck I don't think there is a dry eye in this place. That was beautiful especially after that verse 'I don't know what I'd do without you, Your words are like a whisper cutting through, As long as you are with me here tonight, I'm good'. The part where she went oh and raised her arms above her arms a little higher above her head with every oh they look in her eye the way she sang it the look on her face she looked beautiful it was stunning.
After the show we got someone to put the basket in my car before we left sharing a kiss before we went our separate way. Of course I had to tell her how proud of her I was and the song was amazing Nightingale my new favourite song.
DEMI'S POV
I was nervous about the performance but I couldn't ask for it to go any better. After the show Naya and I said our goodbyes before she headed to work then I headed to tiffany's to get a necklace made up. It was a sort of pendant for heart pendants with mine and Naya's birth stone and the babies will be one on either side but I will get them added closer to the time it's just better to get it done now.
Today, today is a good day.
A/N – The song at the end Nightingale is one of Demi's songs my favourite song in the world followed by her sing warrior. Hey guys just want to say thanks for all the support hope you all are liking the story so far, for all the favs and follows. A very special thanks to A Fannamedsam and Guest for the reviews you guys are freaking awesome….. As always any questions just PM me hopefully it won't be too long to the next update.