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I love you

BPOV

It had been exactly three days since I had become sick. Thanks to Edward I was almost cured now.

As I dressed I thought about telling Edward how I felt about him. Telling him was risky. He might never speak to me again.

I had had a lot of time to think it out. I had observed Edward for the past three days and I had figured out very little.

He had been really caring, but at the same time he would get a dazed look in his eyes, like he was in another world. I dried my hair out and went downstairs.

The house was empty. Edward was not around. I wondered where he had gone at eight o' clock in the morning.

When I entered the kitchen I saw plate set out for me. I looked at the pan on the stove there were two bread toasts on it. I took them, buttered them and ate them quickly. I was ravenous.

I hadn't been able to swallow a morsel until yesterday. I washed the plate out and settled down on the sofa. The programs on TV were really boring. I just flipped through them.

Then I lay down and closed my eyes. The entire house was in silence.

My final decision came into my mind.

I was going to tell Edward how I felt about him. When he came back from wherever he was.

I dozed off.

…

I jerked awake. I sat up straight and tried to trace the sound that had woken me.

I listened hard. I was so sure I heard a giggle. Maybe I just heard wrong.

I lay down again. Now my decision felt really good. The way Edward had been treating me proved that he liked me too. He was probably too shy to say anything. I smiled at the thought of Edward being shy.

I heard Edward's voice. He was back!

That was probably what had woken me.

I sat up. Oh my god! I had to tell him now! I started up the stairs. My hands were sweating.

I looked at my attire. I was wearing jeans and a blue T-shirt. Definitely not the clothes I would have worn had I known what I was going to do beforehand.

I reached Edward's door. I knew I should knock but I foolishly opened the door. What I saw ripped my heart out.

I gaped open mouthed at what I saw.

I must have gasped because the girl and Edward turn to look at me surprise and embarrassment written in their eyes.

I turned and practically ran to the balcony. How could I have been so stupid! She must have been his girlfriend.

I felt my cheeks become hot. I had walked in on Edward making out with some girl and I could not get the sickening image out of my mind.

"Bella?" Edward said standing beside me. I felt hot tears prick my eyes. I couldn't face him. I felt betrayed.

"Bella I am sorry about that" he said touching my hand softly. I moved mine out roughly.

The sadness had left me and I only felt anger.

I turned and looked at him. He looked apologetic.

"Why are you sorry?" I asked him my eyes flashing.

"I should have told you about Nicole. It must have been a shock to see her without knowing who she was." He said smiled nervously.

He thought I was angry with him for not telling me about the girl.

"Edward I am not angry with you for that." I said quietly.

"Then why?"

I took a deep breath. I had to do this.

"Edward I am angry because I love you and you kissed another girl."

His eyes widened. I could see no emotion in them.

"I am sorry Bella. But I don't love you." He said coldly.

The words sliced through me. My heart which was already broken completely disintegrated.

I shut my eyes letting the words sink in.

"Okay Edward" I said softly and turned and walked to my room.

The moment I was in, the tears that I had been holding back fell freely. I sat on the bed trying to clear my head.

Edward flashed before my eyes.

I am sorry Bella. But I don't love you….

The words kept repeating themselves in my head. At that moment I knew how hopelessly in love I was with Edward Cullen.

I stood up and started throwing my clothes into my bag. I had to leave. I couldn't face Edward. Not after what had happened.

I slipped out of the house quietly.

When I passed Edward's door I could here him explaining what had happened, to the girl.

I walked a lot. When I reached the main road I had already received many stares. But I was barely aware of what was happening.

I caught a cab. On the way I called Jacob and asked him to get me a seat on the next flight home.

I leaned back and shut my eyes. I felt empty.

Jake I am coming back like you asked.

EPOV

I sent Nicole off. She was really upset about what had happened. I was still in shock from what Bella had said.

Now that I had thought about it I felt that I had been a little too harsh on her.

When I had passed her room I had heard no sound. I slowly climbed up the stairs and knocked on Bella's door. There was no answer.

I knocked again. No answer. I had to apologize to her for my behavior.

I did not love her but I needn't have been so harsh either.

I turned the knob and entered the room.

There was no one there. The bathroom door was wide open. When my eyes fell upon the open and empty cupboards I knew that she had run away.

I stared wordlessly at the empty room. I felt really bad now. Bella had left and I had no idea what to do.

Emmett was going to kill me. Shit!

I pulled at my hair in frustration.

I was so dead.

BPOV

I got off the plane. It had been a long journey but I had had a lot of time to think.

I saw Jacob waiting for me. My best friend Jacob who had been there for me ever since Jasper had left.

I hugged him the moment I reached him. He rubbed my back gently.

"Hey Bells." He said sensing that I was not happy.

"Hey."

He lifted my bags and put them in the car the moment we reached it.

My parents had left to meet Kelly's aunt. They would be back by next week.

I felt relived that I wouldn't have to answer Kelly's questions.

Jacob drove silently glancing at me now and then. I kept my eyes forward and didn't allow even the slightest bit of emotion show through my eyes.

I was home.

I had Jacob.

…

"What would you like to have Bella?" Jake asked. He looked at me like I had gone mad.

"Anything's good."

He said something to the waitress.

I had told Jake everything, from beginning to end. He had listened and had held me tight his arms when I had broken down again.

We were at a small restaurant now. Jacob had forced me to come.

Now when I thought about the whole thing again I realized that Edward hadn't done anything wrong. It had been me. I had misunderstood all his feelings.

He had wanted plain friendship and I had thought he wanted more.

I swallowed all my feeling and concentrated on having dinner.

I could never talk to Edward again. That I was sure.

I would never be able to stop loving him either.

When I came back to reality I saw Jacob looking at me weird.

I grinned sheepishly. My first grin since…

I felt better. I had Jake, Angela, mo and dad. I had all this and why should I worry about some guy who had just entered my life.

I closed my eyes and willed my mind to forget him.

It did.

I forgot him.

At least I tried to.

A/N: Thanks for reading and please review. I can write better when I get more reviews. Try out my oneshot "Forever and Always" too.