A/N I don't not own any of these characters. This all Belongs to Kazuya Minekura. Sorry for grammar mistake
Hey, well were camping out tonight. I'm by the river right now. It is very pretty. I might go swimming later. Sanzo didn't get me any food before we left, and I'm starving. He just shrug me off when I asked him about it. I wonder what Gojyo cooking hmmmm. Damn it all to hell. All Hakkai and Sanzo do is kiss and kiss and kiss and well other stuff. I rather not talk about that. I swear it's freaking annoy how they ignore Gojyo and I. It is dinner, I have to go, write later.
Well it is late and everyone is asleep. Gojyo cook some fish for dinner it was alright but it was not like Hakkai cooking….. Speaking of him Sanzo is all over him again, it was very, how you say? Disgusted, so Gojyo said we should go for a walk. I agree right away. We had a nice long walk. Here what we talk about. "You still writing?" ask Gojyo, I nodded. "And you?" I asked "yeah" *silence* "How do you really feel about them Goku?" "Confused, angry, I just don't want to do Gojyo!" Next thing I knew I grab on to Gojyo shirt and cry into his chest. "Hey hey it's ok shhh" He said while holding me. *sniff* "Why couldn't I be the one to help Sanzo? Why Hakkia why did he had to take him away? Why? If I wasn't so stupid this wouldn't have happen!" Then Gojyo did something that surprised me he hug me and wipe away my tears. "Shhh is not your fault it not ok?" I look up at him "Yeah, it is I mean; I am always the stupid monkey who doesn't know what he talking about. If I would had just pay more attention to Sanzo, we all be happy and you would be confessing your love to Hakkai." "Goku, it's not your fault things happen. It is part of life, as much as I want to be with Hakkai, but I can't. "But Gojyo" "No buts, as much as we both hate it. I guess we have to deal with it…*Sign*. I nodded as I wipe away my tears. "I guess we should go back now" he nodded. We went back and saw Sanzo and Hakkai in each other arms with their shirts off. Nice, right in front of us too. I mean how we are supposed to deal with it, if they are doing everything right in front of us. Yes I am glad they told me, but, ok I am not in love with Sanzo, but he is like a father to me. When he is ignoring me, I feel like I am nothing to him and Hakkai was always nice to me, but, now it feel like he doesn't care about me. It is just hard because I as happy as I want to be for Sanzo, but I can't. He freed me and I can't help him. Why should I be happy for them when they treat Gojyo and I like crap? Seriously. I said good night to Gojyo and I went up to a tree to sleep up there, as, Gojyo went to his sleeping bag. I'm sleepy right now so I will write later.
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