A/N: The original title for this chapter was Green eyed monster… but it turned out so much more different than I expected… it is actually very angsty. Especially as I remember how I felt the first time I was expecting a baby… My were those uncertain times… and I was over 20. Imagine the magnitude of these feelings as a teen; it must be daunting. It is also very short compared to the rest. Anyway, review! Don't be shy!

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Mourning

Status Update

Jade West: You were wrong for that… You know who you are. Mood: Wazzed

Tori Vega: I'll be watching you

Beck Oliver: You told her?

Jade West: She's my partner…

Beck Oliver: Seriously?

Tori Vega: Get off her slap page.

I turned my head toward Tori. That update had been three weeks old now. Things have started to happen between us, and the honeymoon stage is pretty much over. I guess that is what happens when you are pregnant at sixteen, you really just want to check out and live someone else's life. "What time is the appointment?" I asked a little annoyed after looking at my update.

"It's right after school, You're coming this time right?" She said a bit hopeful that I would try to participate.

"Why do you always… Fine, I'll skip rehearsal tomorrow." I sighed I was tired, so tired.

"Look, don't do me any favors, If you don't want to go, FINE don't go." She said sitting up on her bed and glaring at me.

I stood up and grabbed my bag and walked out of the wide open door of her bedroom. I marched right down the stairs and straight out of the door not looking back.

I felt guilty, yes. I loved her, yes. But Tori was not the same. She was NOT my Tori, and she was NOT my Walter. She was a stranger.

I got in my car and drove somewhere, anywhere. I stopped at a graveyard. Those places fascinated me. I went into the mausoleum and looked at the dates. I stopped in front of Imogene Blankenship's memorial. I wondered what her life had been like; she was only sixteen when she died. She had lived her entire life in just the sixteen years. A life that had ended on my birth date. Right now I felt bad, I felt like crying because I felt like my life was ending, yet I was alive. Where Imogene had probably not been able to say she had love, or children, or hope for her future because her future had come to an end. Mine was full of hopes, and dreams that I could feel slipping away and I was starting to regret something that I shouldn't regret.

I don't want to resent Tori, but I do… right now I do, until the next time I see her, and she's happy to see me too and my body begins to ache for her… that good ache. I sighed and rested my head on Imogene. I looked at my pearphone and sent a quick text.

Me: I love you

Tori: I'm sorry

Me: I'll be there… OK?

Tori: I know

Status Update

Tori Vega: Doctor visit number five… let's take a peek at the baby girl inside. Mood: Excited

Cat Valentine: Yay! Bring lots of pictures!

Andre Harris: I always wanted to see one of those

Tori Vega: I have always wanted to see mine…

Rex Powers: How come your girl ain't never on the slap no more?

Tori Vega: Hell if I know.

I went to see Imogene often. I mourned her, and what could have been. In turn she helps me put things into perspective. This is where I was when I read that update. I had forgotten the appointment. I looked at my watch; I had thirty minutes till she had to be in the room. "Crap."

I grabbed my bag and ran to my car. Up to this point, nothing had happened as we had planned it. Tori still lived with her parents, and they were successfully keeping us apart. Not that I was trying much to do anything more than just exist. I had to think of what I was going to do in four months time, when this whole new person dependent on me would be here and I would need to help with providing for her, because in truth… Our parents really shouldn't be doing that for us.

I raced the streets and stunned myself by making it to the doctor's office in just 15 minutes. I ran inside, and she wasn't in the waiting room. "Is Tori Vega still here?" I asked the lady at the desk.

"She just went in… you can just sit… Hey!" I didn't wait to listen to her I pushed through and tried to find her. I knocked on some exam room doors and listened for a come in. Three rooms were not she.

In the fourth room I heard the distinct sound of a baby heart monitor and an "Oh mom look!"

My heart twisted in my chest. I was missing it. I opened the door and there she was. The baby bump exposed and covered with gel. She looked at me and smiled. "Look at our daughter."

I came closer and Holly moved away so that I could get a better look. Tori was crying, and I am sure she felt as overwhelmed as I was to see that little girl moving her tiny arms and legs. She is complete. With ten fingers and ten toes I see them I count them all. "How do you know she's girl?" The ultrasound tech asked in an accented voice.

"Just a hunch." I say softly as the tech goes to check.

"Yes, is girl." She confirms.

Tori laughed as our baby reached for her umbilical cord and put it in her mouth. I smiled and whispered to myself. "I need a job."

Status Update

Tori Vega: My girl disappears at night… wonder what she's doing? Mood: Suspicious

Jade West: Stop it…

Tori Vega: I want to know!

Jade West: I'll show you… but you have to let me be after I do.

Tori Vega: Is it scary?

Jade West: Depends on how you look at it.

Tori Vega: Okay … It's a date.

A date… we haven't had one of those in a long time. I picked her up and helped her to my car. She looks around my car when she sits. It was something I used to do every time I got into Becks car I wanted to make sure nothing was out of place. I took a deep breath and sent out an apology to beck through the wind. Then I sat in the driver's seat and headed to see Imogene.

"Jade… really?" She asked clearly creeped out about being in a mausoleum at night.

I stopped in front of Imogene "This is my friend, Imogene. She died the day I was born. I come here and she helps me put my life in perspective. I talk to her and I realize my life is just perfect the way it is." I said looking at her now.

"You are talking to a dead girl, instead of talking to me?"

"Tori…"

"Jade! You're cheating on me with a Corpse!" Now she was being ridiculous. I walked out of the mausoleum I didn't want an argument to ruin this peaceful place for me.

"Jade… you are here, more than with me… I MISS YOU!" those words hurt me… because I saw her every day. I saw her and missed her every day I hadn't realize I hadn't been there with her and that she missed me too.

"I just…" I cried… I didn't care anymore my make up was running my nose was running I wanted to run. "This is too much for me."

"Jade, I live my life hiding the one thing I am happiest about. In a few weeks for sure everyone will know. And I need you now."

"I know… I…"

"You have to let go of this guilt!" She said. I hadn't realized that was what it was. "This isn't a shame, not anymore. It can't be a shame or the baby will feel it."

I watch Tori grow frustrated with me. "I was so stupid…"

"And now it's over! You are no longer ignorant of what is going on. Let that go so that we can move forward. "Imogene is dead, she lost her life sixteen years ago. You are still here. It doesn't end because of a baby. No one in this world understands what you are going through more than I do."

Those words make me feel as though a weight had been shifted. We now shared the burden. Not just me. Not just her… both of us. "Okay." I said softly, "Lets get out of here." I didn't know if I would be back to the mausoleum, but I left there lighter than I had walked in. As if I had buried my concerns with Imogene.

I dropped her off at home around eleven, and she kind of looked at me, wanting. And I would have stayed if I didn't have something I had to do. "Okay then, I love you." She said with a pout.

I kissed her softly and waved goodbye to her from the door then turned and headed for my car. If I didn't hightail it I was going to be late for work.

Status Update

Jade West: Goodbye sweet Imogene, May you rest in peace. Mood: Mournful