I ran.

I ran as fast as I could to the office.

She can't be gone. Not after everything she said.

I'll always be here to protect. Always.

Waiting for the elevator to go up was causing my stomach to drop and my palms were sweaty. I could feel Sonic tighten his grip on my hair and I heard him whimper.

Finally the doors opened and I ran out into the office. It was just Steven and Klaus but I needed their help.

"Guys!" I had to take a few deep breaths to steady myself as the run finally caught up to me.

"Ursa is missing!" There was no urgency within Steven as he just stared at me, but I knew Klaus would understand. He stood up and made his way over to me.

"Leonardo, please calm down. Tell us everything," Klaus said calmly.

"Ursa didn't come home last night. I thought she was with you guys so I went to bed thinking she would be there in the morning, but when I woke up, her things were gone. All of the new clothes we got her were still there. Her armor was gone and she left Excalibur's case behind." I tried to tell them the best I could. Her armor and Excalibur were the only things she ever put any importance on. She knew she couldn't travel around the city without Excalibur being disguised in the case.

"Hmm," Klaus placed a hand on his chin. I could see he was in deep thought before he spoke. "Last night, she seemed quite different. Her tone was harsher than normal and she looked upset. I've never seen that look in her eyes before. I tried to convince her to let me take care of her arm that was injured somehow, but she left before I could even get close. I did try to look for her, but after a while I thought it was for the best to leave her be. I see now it was a mistake." Klaus looked down as if he felt guilty for letting her go.

"You couldn't have known Klaus," Steven tried to reason. "Are you sure she isn't just on a walk or something? I'd be pretty pissed off at the bullshit Zapp pulled yesterday."

"No!" I yelled while standing up. They didn't get it! They didn't know her like I did. "Ursa wouldn't just leave! She… she even told me she wouldn't. She gave me her word, as a knight!" I looked to Klaus. He had to understand. Someone who stood by their word no matter what, Klaus knew what it meant. Klaus stood up and nodded towards me.

"Leo, is there anywhere in the city you think she could have gone?" Klaus had a determined fire around him.

"Ah," I tried to think of something. I had already stopped by the diner and Vivian said she hadn't seen her. "I don't know. I've only taken her to a few places in the city and I've already checked most of them." Klaus nodded as he called in Gilbert to tell him he was going out to help search. I couldn't help but stand back in amazement as Klaus called Zapp while he had Steven call up Chain. He even called K.K. in hopes she'd be able to help.

"Of course Klausie. I'll drive and ask around," I could hear K.K. say before she hung up.

"Leo," Klaus looked towards me. "We'll look together. You're eyes can track her aura can't they?" I looked down at my hands in shame.

"I-I don't know why but I can't seem to find her. It's like, she was erased from existence." I could feel my shoulders shake as tears started to form in the corners of my eyes. I felt terrible, like it was my fault that she was gone. Had I done something? Did I not do something? I tensed as I felt Klaus's hand on my shoulder. I looked up to see the fierce determination on his face.

"We'll find her."

Ursa's POV

It was dark.

As I sat there in the darkness, I stared at Excalibur that I had dug into the ground some feet away. This dark area was on the edge of realty, between the human world and the Alterworld.

This sword was a symbol of hope, a beacon of light. It could destroy one of the world's most dangerous monsters, and yet I can barely pull it out of its sheath. The memories of the past were only more scars to add to my mind.

I used to be able to hold my head high, fulfill my duty without a second thought. When did I stop?

"Wake up silly head."

The voice jarred me awake from my daze as the brightness caused me to close my eyes. Upon opening them, I was shocked at what I saw.

The sun? But how? I was in a field beneath a tree.

"Hey." I turned my head to see a young girl standing there. Her eyes were closed and she tilted her head with a look of concern.

"Ursa, you can't just go sleeping under a tree like that. It's autumn, you could catch a cold." The girl giggled as she sat down beside me. Her hair was bright, as if spun from sunlight and her skin was fair from her years indoors. She wore a dress proper to her status, the child of a middle class family. Her smile radiated warmth and her laughter seeped into my muscles, causing me to relax. But it was all in her eyes…

"Lady Catherine."

"Hmm, what is it Ursa?" She turned to me.

"Are you sure you should be out here? You're still recovering," I couldn't help the words that escaped my lips. Catherine started to laugh and I could only look on confused.

"You're such a silly knight." Her laughter began to fade as my vision changed to that off a blood soaked field. I could feel the warmth of blood run down my face as I stared down at her innocent face. She was smiling up at me, her All Seeing Eyes looking straight through my soul.

"Maybe, we'll see each other again," she said, her voice hoarse. With one last glance, she allowed her eye lids to fall and she became still.

"NOOOOO!" The scream ripped through my throat as I held onto the small body. I hadn't cried since my brother gave up himself for me. Even all the other All Seeing Eyes of the Gods, they never impacted me like she did. She was so young.

Why?

Why would they curse this poor child? She didn't deserve to suffer. To be their puppet.

I had never screamed harder than that day. It was when I realized the truth. The truth behind immortally. No matter how hard I would fight and get injured, even with my lungs crushed and limbs broken, I would be pieced back together. I still don't know how I survived the fight with the blood breed.

I just want to die.

Eventually, the painful visions disappeared and I was left alone once again in the darkness. Alone with my curse and sword. Sighing, I turned away from the sword.

"I know why you hate me, so why don't you choose someone else?" I spoke out loud, almost hoping the sword would respond.

"Someone…" My mind drifted to Klaus. He exemplified everything that someone worthy of a holy article should have. At yet, Excalibur rejected everyone else who touched it. It didn't harm Leo and Klaus because of their traits and trustworthiness. If they even had darkness, Excalibur ignored it. Even then, it wouldn't allow either one to draw it from the sheath. Unlike my rejection, it would exhume a light the time that everyone tried to withdraw the sword. I still didn't understand everything about the sword, but I knew there was some sort of consciousness hidden within.

"Lady Catherine, I remember now. I felt so lonely after you passed on. It was my fault you died, I wasn't there to protect you. It caused doubt in my mind and Excalibur began to reject me. I don't know if I can go through with that pain again," I said to the void, tears falling down my face. "I do want to stay…"

"So why don't you?" I blinked to find myself back in the field, Catherine standing before me. Other figures appeared behind her and I stood up in fear. My heart pounded as I tried to figure out what was happening.

"Ursa, it was never your fault." Catherine started, staring at me with big green eyes. That must have been what they looked like before she obtained the All Seeing Eyes of the Gods. "We never blamed you. I , never blamed you. We all understood that you felt a pain beyond anything we could imagine," she said as she closed her eyes then opened them again to reveal the All Seeing Eyes. A vision of Leo and Klaus searching around for something and yelling came to my mind.

"What?" I didn't understand. Why were they searching for something? What did they lose?

"They lost you," Catherine said. "You've made an impact on their lives Ursa, as you had done to all of us." She let out a sigh and scanned her eyes across the ground as if searching for something herself. Wringing her small hands together, she bashfully continued. "I'm the one who is sorry. I should have noticed that you were in pain. Whenever you went off on your own, I let you go because I thought you needed room. You had so much to deal with and I thought-" Catherine choked out a sob. "I thought you just needed space, but now I know I was wrong. I should have ran after you, I should have comforted you. You always try to hold the world on your shoulders because you believe you're the only person who can due to your immortally. But you don't have to!" Catherine yelled at me, her pleading eyes full of tears. "You don't have to be alone anymore! You have these people," the vision showed Chain, Steven, Zapp and K.K. searching too. "You have these people who care for you. You may have only known each other for a short time but that's enough to create a bond that lasts a lifetime." With Catherine's outcry of emotions, I could barely control my own.

Even in death, she seemed to be able to understand me better than I could myself. It was true that every time I left I wanted to be comforted like I watched so many people do for each other. But because I was a knight, I was supposed to be strong enough to deal with my emotions on my own. That was how the darkness was born.

"I-" I couldn't speak. Everything was hurting and pounding. I could feel a thunderous roar in my chest.

"You don't have to be afraid," Catherine held onto my hands. "I believe that one day, you will get your greatest wish. This I know," Catherine smiled as she slowly backed away. "I- we, will always be here for you Ursa, just like you were always there for us. It's your decision, but I believe in you," with one last smile, Catherine and the other disappeared.

"Ursa!"

Leo's POV

"We mustn't give up," Klaus said. We had been all over Hellsalem's Lot and found nothing. Nobody had ever seen a woman of Ursa's description and nobody else on the team had any luck. I was afraid that she had completely left the area.

Damn it! What's the point of having these eyes if I can't help her! I thought bitterly, tightening my fists.

"I had noticed recently that she had been dropping her guard more." Klaus said as he continued to walk forward. "She has opened up to me on various things that seemed to bother her, but she never out right said there was something wrong. When I finally did ask, she froze and ran away, as if afraid for help."

"But you couldn't have known. It's my fault because I should have been able to see it. Something nagged me in the back of my mind, telling me that something wasn't right with her," I admitted.

"You can't shoulder all of the blame. I saw it too, so I feel partially responsible as well, but we can't let that keep us down. We will find her, she needs us. If you had something of hers, do you think you would be able to track her possibly?" Klaus asked.

"Yeah, well only if the thing had value to her," as I spoke, Klaus took out a beaded chain necklace that held a cross pendant much like the one she had on her armor.

"I had been meaning to give this back to her, but every time I tried she seemed to find a way to disappear on me." I was surprised and held out my hand to receive the necklace. It was faint, but there was a defiant small glow to it. My eyes zoomed in and I could see Ursa. She was in a dark area, somewhere on the border. There wasn't any other life there. I wasn't certain how we were going to get there, but we were sure going to.

"We're coming Ursa."

We eventually found the area and Ursa was in the middle of the desolate spot. She was kneeling besides Excalibur and was resting her head on the hilt.

"Ursa!" She jolted from her state and looked wildly to us. I ran towards her, but stopped a few feet away. Standing up, she watched me with red, swollen eyes.

"How could you do something so careless?!" The words escaped me before my mind could really register what I was saying. "You idiot! Do you have any idea how concerned everyone is for you? I was worried sick when you didn't come home and then Klaus says you were hurt!"

Ursa's POV

I was surprised at their arrival but more shocked at Leo's words. He seemed rather hurt by my actions and shook as he tried to control his emotions.

"I'm sorry," was all I could muster.

"Don't say that!" He yelled, looking at me with tear filled eyes. "Cause you're not the only one who is sorry. I should have known that you were in pain. I-" I cut him off by hugging him. I tried to concentrate all my warmth and happiness into the hug to make him know how much it meant to me to know that he cared. I pulled him back and looked into the All Seeing Eyes of the Gods.

"I am sorry Leonardo Watch." Leo froze and we stood in silence for some time before he spoke again.

"Hey," his voice changed from the slightly angry and upset tone to something else. "You just said my name." I jumped back upon realizing my mistake and bowed in the hopes that it wasn't an offence.

"I am so sorry Sir Leonardo!" It was quiet for some time. I wasn't sure if I wanted to look up at his face.

"Eh… I liked it the other way," he said. I looked up to see that smile on his face that I always enjoyed. I began to cry as the tears finally burst through my barrier. "Ah! Ursa!" Leo patted my back as I continued to cry.

"I'm just glad to see you're alright," Klaus finally spoke up. I looked at the taller male with tears streaming down my face. Something overcame me and I just wanted to run to him. He seemed to notice or somehow just knew and held his arms out. I crashed into his chest and the sobs just kept coming.

This tightness in my chest, the weakness of my legs, and the fluttering in my stomach confused me as it didn't seem to match the tears. I was so happy to have them there, and yet I couldn't stop crying.

Catherine. Thank you.

3rd POV

As Klaus led Ursa away due to her uncontrollable sobbing, Leo picked up Excalibur and made his way to follow. He paused when he sensed something behind him and looked to see a girl standing there. He was shocked to see the All Seeing Eyes of the Gods in her eyes. She smiled at him.

"Please take care of Ursa for us," she said as many other figures appeared behind her. They also carried the eyes and Leo could barely believe what he was seeing. "We're counting on you!" They disappeared almost as quickly as they appeared. There was a tingling feeling in his eyes as he too, began to cry. These tears were not his own, but the tears of all the carriers of the All Seeing Eyes. He could feel their love for Ursa and made a promise.

I promise that I'll keep her in the light.

Sorry about the POV changes, but during these really personal times, I kinda feel it's needed.

Guys, if you ever do feel a darkness, depression and sadness, it's important to recognize it and you shouldn't be afraid to get help. Dan Harmon (Rick and Morty co-creator) made a really good, recent comment about this when someone asked about dealing with depression.

Not everyone is so cut and dry as Ursa and it takes way longer to help with these emotions, but I think it's important to always try. Ursa was defiantly a character who needs someone in her life. Even if you take out the immortally and made her mortal, she is still like every other person in the world. We all have our darkness, but when you try so hard to repress them and they finally explode, bad things can happen. Which is kinda what happened to Ursa. This overwhelming burden, no matter how much people said they would be there for her, just became too much. She wouldn't keep seeking help, so it eventually ate at her to the breaking point. But now that Leo and Klaus understand that she is really hurting, I'm sure they will be there for her.

So don't be afraid of your darkness. It's apart of you, but it isn't the only thing. You all have so many wonderful parts that make you, you. So keep up those smiles, take on the day.

That all said, I didn't make this chapter for like this particular reason. I made it cause I think that is one of the most important aspects of Ursa's character that I feel like she had attempted to work with, BUT she didn't properly deal with it. She kept skirting around, saying she's fine, when really she wasn't. We think of immortals as not being human, which yes in a way they aren't any more because mortally is one of the things that defines us as human. So you'd tend to forget that you have human emotions and you have a breaking point. This is a character trope that we encounter, but to be honest, I don't think I've ever seen them experience such deep, dark depression. A character probably exists like that, but I think cause immortally is a hard thing to work with, people avoid them.

So I hope yall enjoyed the chapter. I have come to really care for Ursa. She's become one of my many ocs that I actually like. I didn't want to get to heavy with sad details as I know there are alot of people who are affected by that. But yeah.

Love and Peace