Help, I'm Alive

~METRIC~

Jost walked, no, skipped up to us. "Time to go to the photo shoot. They want some pictures of just the couple so you guys will get off earlier!" Both the G's high-fived and Tom came out of his trance.

"Sorry, what did you say?"

"Dude!" Georg shoved him. "We get off early!"

A smirk cracked his confused daze. "Awesome."

"Now enough chit chat, let's get going."

As we rode the fifteen minutes to the place we were doing the shoot we all talked happily. The guys weren't going to make me wear the sweater and I didn't put it on until I saw all the screaming girls as we pulled up. I got out last and was surprised to see Bill waiting for me.

I took the offered hand and looked at him slightly shy from under my eyelashes. We walked in the middle of the guys. Bill stopped occasionally to sign some autographs but never once let go of me. Some girls shouted angrily at me but Saki held them back and Bill ignored them. Every time I flinched he squeezed my hand reassuringly.

Once we were inside I relaxed. "D you think it'll get worse?" I asked Bill quietly.

He shook his head sadly. "I really don't know. I hope not, you don't need it."

"Neither do you!"

As we smiled at each other Josh walked up. "Sorry Bill, but I have to steal your girl!"

"Ok. Take care of her!"

"You know I will." Josh winked as he drug me off to a small room to the side. "You were great in the interview."

"You think so?"

"Definitely! You handled yourself well."

"I was so nervous!" I giggled as I remembered how my hands shook.

"Well we have to get you dressed. Try this on." He shoved an outfit into my hands and pushed me into the curtained corner. "Tell me how it fits."

I looked at the two piece bathing suit in my hands and rolled my eyes. "It's a beach photo shoot, isn't it?" I called through the curtain.

"You got it hun!" He laughed and I groaned. "Don't feel bad love, your hot!"

"Thanks." I replied sarcastically.

"hey, just because I'm gay doesn't mean I don't notice these things!"

"Ok, ok." I quickly put it on. It actually fit quite well to my surprise. I opened the curtain. "How does it look?"

"Even better than I imagined!" He clapped his hands excitedly. "Now sit down!"

He poked and prodded at my hair, humming quietly to himself. Eventually I broke in. "so do you know how long this will be?"

"they guys are out there at the moment. In about forty-five minutes you'll be ready and you'll have a few pictures with just the group. Then you'll have pictures with Bill for as long as the photographer wants."

I smiled softly. "Joy."

We continued to talk nonsense for the remainder of the time as he did my makeup and hair. I learnt that he's been living with his boyfriend for two and a half years and that his parents fully support his sexuality. I also learnt that he's been doing makeup and hair for people since the summer he was in Grade Eleven.

"Finished!" He grinned triumphantly.

I looked at myself in the mirror and gasped. He was right, I did look sexy. "Thanks." I managed to squeak out breathlessly.

"no problem. Go get em tiger!" I giggled as I walked into the main room once again. I spotted the guys talking to a fairly tall, red-headed boy with a camera. Tom saw me first and his jaw literally dropped. Finally Bill looked over the photographer's shoulder.

"Oh my god!" I felt his eyes take in every part of my body.

Smiling shyly I asked, "Do you like it?"

"Definitely. I could kiss Josh right about now!" He laughed and pulled me into a hug. It was when both of our bare stomachs touched, setting me on fire, that I noticed he was only wearing trunks and sandles.

"No, no, no!" The photographer shook his head. "Where is the white bikini I told him to make you wear?"

I opened my mouth to speak but Josh had walked out and came to my rescue. "There is no way I was going to let her wear that piece of floss that you put out, Braiden." He sneered, putting his nose in the air and still managing to look in charge.

Just then it hit me like a ton of bricks. Braiden, red hair, camera. This was my ex-boyfriend. They had been arguing and he turned to look at me. "Are you OK?"

I shook my head to clear my thoughts. "Umm, hello again Braiden."

He looked shocked for a second before a wide grin spread across his face. "Sammy! I didn't even recognize you!" He tried to hug me but I stepped closer to Bill. "What, no hug?"

"No. I don't hug cheaters." I replied, trying to keep the venom out of my voice and my anger from re-surfacing.

"Come on Sam, that was over a year ago."

"Yeah. And I bet your still fucking her with someone else on the side."

Bill pulled me back into his body and whispered to me. "Shh love. It's OK. I'm here." He glared at Braiden. Looks like I ruined yet another one of his friendships. "Do you still want to do this?" He asked, just loud enough for me and the others guys to hear.

"Yeah. It needs to get done." I replied. Then to Braiden I spoke in a mono-tone. "Keep your distance."

He looked crestfallen and the twins and the G's looked at him with intense eyes. "Ok, fine." He gave in.

XXX

"Just out here." He led us to a beachy area. "Now I'd like Georg to stand here, leaning against this tree." The brown haired boy obliged. "And Gustav, if you could sit down over here." The blond sat at the back of the blanket. "tom, it would probably be best if you sat right here." The dreaded one sat nearer the front of the blanket. "Lastly, you two can sit here. Sam, if you'd lean a little against Bill's stomach. There, perfect. Now just have fun."

He snapped pictures of us laughing and eventually he told Georg to sit down and Gustav pretended, or at least I think he pretended to sleep.

After what felt like hours but it was really only one, it was time for just Bill and I to have pictures. They got several of us feeding each other and playing frisbee. We didn't notice the storm until it started to rain. Bill ran for shelter with everyone else. It hadn't rained yet this year and I loved it. I twirled, letting the rain drizzle over my body.

"Star!" He called. "Get over here!"

"It's only rain Bill!" I laughed and danced.

Soon Braiden got the idea. "Bill, go join her!"

He looked at him as if he had grown other head. "Are you serious?"

"Of course! It would be perfect."

Bill sighed before running out to me. I saw him and ran, jumping into his arms. I kissed him. Soon he was running around and laughing with me. We didn't even notice the flashes or that the guys had some out. Soon they joined us.

Finally we ran under the roof edge where everyone else was standing. Between gasps Bill laughed. "That was so much fun!"

"I told you." I replied. The water dripped from our hair. We looked intensely into each other's eyes. Allowing the other to read our souls, giving everything up through our eyes.

Another flash went off. "What the fuck?!" Bill asked, confused and blinking his eyes, trying to clear the spots.

"Sorry." Braiden blushed. "it was a must-have picture."

I rolled my eyes as we walked in to dry off. According to Jost we'd catch a cold if we didn't change soon.

XXX

"I'm going out to get some Frosted Cherios." I announced to the guys three weeks later. We were at yet another hotel.

"You'll be Ok by yourself?" Bill asked nervously. Since we came out with our relationship a few of the fan girls have been trying to plan ways to get us to break up. Some even involved killing me off. I've also been recognized abit.

"Yeah. I saw a small store just down the street."

"OK, just make sure you take your phone." Tom threw in his approval, making me smile to myself. I was almost like the little sister he never had in a way. I was the one person he could look out for on this tour without getting freaked out on.

I nodded and placed it in my coat pocket. Sure it was summer, but it was still chilly at night. "Anyone else want anything?"

"Salt and Vinegar chips please!" Tom smiled.

"Nothing, thanks." Gustav answered.

"Georg?"

"Umm, a few chocolate bars."

"Of course you need more chocolate Georgy!" Tom bugged him. He just rolled his eyes good-naturedly.

"And gummy worms please!" Bill threw in. I should have guessed.

"Ok. See you in about fifteen minutes." I walked out the door. I just needed to get out of there!

I walked to aisles of the small store, completely oblivious of the teenage girl behind the counter. I eventually found everything I needed and grabbed a couple energy drinks. I placed everything on the counter and flashed the girl a smile. She smiled back, but it didn't reach her eyes.

Then she asked me. "Are you Star?" I raised my eyebrows and she re-worded. "Are you dating Bill Kaulitz?"

I nodded my head. "Yeah, I am."

"Well I hope you guys do well together." She smiled again and I smiled back. She was so kind.

As I walked back to the hotel I thought about that encounter. All of a sudden I was grabbed from behind. "hey you filthy little slut. How could you steel my Bill from me?"

My eyes got wide. I tried to scream but someone punched me in the stomach. There was four of them. "Please." I begged.

But they didn't stop. They swore at me and threatened to do worse next time if I didn't break up with Bill. I managed to see two of their faces through my rapidly swelling eyes. One was the girl from the store and the other had dyed red hair and alot of peircings.

"Leave him alone." The girl from the store leaned about half an inch from my face. "Do you understand?" I tried to nod but it hurt so much. "Good." With that one of the other two kicked me one last time and they spit at me before leaving.

I hurt all over. I wanted to die. Come to tink of it, I probably would. Every time I breathed it felt like someone was stabbing me. I could only wish, then it wouldn't take so long to die.

I drifted in and out of darkness. They had taken me into the alley so nobody would see me, they left me here to die. I tried to scream, but my mouth felt like it was full of cotton. I remembered the phone. I prayed that it faired better than I did in the beating.

Slowly and painfully I pulled it our. I mentally cheered, it was OK. I dialed Bill's number which I had committed to heart. "Hello?"

"Bill," I muttered. "Help me."

"Star, is that you? Star?"

"Please Bill."

"Are you OK? Where are you?" I could hear the others in the background.

"Grab your coats!" Tom shouted.

"I'm going to get Saki and Tobi!" Georg said before the door shut.

"I'm calling Jost to tell him." Gustav spoke quickly I didn't hear the rest he said.

"Star!" Bill's voice was frantic. I could hear his worry and pain.

"Walk to the store, one of the alleys around there I think." I managed to get out. I breathed deeply and moaned.

"We'll be right there. Hold on baby!" He never hung up, instead I could hear his ragged breathing.

"Bill,"

"Yeah?"

"Hang up. I need to put my arm down. I hurt."

"I'll be there soon!" With that he was gone.

I listened to the city around me. The cars, the sirens, the shuffling feet. Yet nobody was there to help me. I was all alone, waiting. I started to realize how cold I was getting, lying in my own blood. Eventually though, I couldn't feel it any longer. I was floating away and my world went black.

Author's Notes:

Hey ppl! Srry if there r alot of mistakes... my good program quit on me! =/

thnx 4 all the reviews! keep em coming (i eat them up like chocolate! haha)

I'm thinking about putting song titles for every chapter. The performer or singer/band will be right under it!"

As promised, more drama has started! hope you like it... and i've got more planned for later on!

I finished Twilight! I absolutely loved it! Thnx agin to my BFF Bre 4 getting it 4 me!!!!!!!! Luv ya girl! i hate how they give you the first chappy of New Moon and it's a cliffy. So I might right something that continues from that, you never know!

Well I'm gonna wrap this up so I can post! thnx again 4 reviewing! We're almost at our goal!!!

~BECKY~