Chapter 10 I want to hold your hand
Carole stayed with the boys in Burt's room. She asked the doctors if she could get two fold out beds for the boys. She was going to keep eye watch on them and Burt. There was no point in going home with Kurt constantly worried about Burt, and Finn constantly worried about Kurt and Carole praying for miracles. None of them would be able to sleep anyway.
Carole got one of the doctors to look after them just so she could go home and grab some stuff, Kurt was too upset to cry any more and Finn knew that his mother would be back so he stayed put to support Kurt.
Carole got home as fast as she could, she grabbed some toiletries, food from the fridge, a travel mug to put in some water for the boys with two cups, she got a couple of blankets and stuffed it in Finn's backpack which was always too big on him anyway, and put on her back, she grabbed a couple of magazines, not that she could read them anyhow, some crayons for the boys and put them in the car.
Carole knew she shouldn't speed, but she couldn't help it, she was frantic about the possibilities of Burt's life, and to get to her boys as soon as she could. Carole would never do that again though because she almost crashed into someone on the way to the hospital and it gave her the biggest scare, but she was alive.
Carole got out of the car and ran inside with the backpack and extra bag. She thanked the doctor for minding the kids and dropped the stuff in the room's corner. Kurt finally looked up at Carole with the most saddest look she's ever seen on a child; Finn had fallen asleep curled up on the bed that was put next to where Kurt was sitting.
Carole pulled Kurt into a hug and stroked his back.
"It's okay Kurt, let it out, you'll feel better," Carole could see Kurt was trying not to cry but he finally gave in.
Carole had insisted that Kurt sleep after he stopped crying.
"But…what if he wakes up," Kurt choked.
"I'll let you know Kurt, don't worry, I'll keep an eye on him,"
"Ms Carole don't you want to sleep?"
"I will when you wake up, how about that? We take turns,"
Kurt nodded.
"Okay, and Ms Carole?"
"Yeah Kurt?"
"Thank you,"
Carole let out a tear.
"Your welcome, he'll be okay Kurt, he has to, just keep on hoping," Carole tucked Kurt inside the blankets she brought over on the other bed, and then put the other one over Finn. Kurt nodded and fell asleep after Carole kissed his cheek one more time.
Finn woke up half an hour later when he heard his mother crying.
"Mommy?"
Carole sniffed a little and wiped her face.
"Yes sweetie pie?" Carole glanced down to her son still covered in the blankets.
"Are you okay mommy?" Finn looked up at her concerned.
Carole sighed.
"No Finny, but I'll be okay soon, go back to sleep,"
"I can't, I want to do something for Kurt…" Finn whispered so as not to wake Kurt up.
"Sweetie, do you know if Kurt has any friends we can try cheer him up with?"
Carole knew they both thought about Blaine at the same time, she was hoping he would think of someone else. She could only think about Blaine…
"What about Blaine? He always cheered Kurt up," The answer was obvious, but not going to happen.
"I know hon, but Blaine….Blaine's mother took him out of Day Care centre, not long after Kurt didn't come back, and you and I both know, his mother would not agree to let him come to the hospital,"
"His mother is mean," Finn pouted.
"Yes, Finn she is," Carole agreed.
"Mercedes?" Finn questioned.
Carole hadn't thought about Mercedes for a long time.
"Are they close friends?"
"Well… they were, but Kurt told me they weren't friends anymore when I asked why she wasn't at Kurt's sleepover,"
"She might be our last hope, I'll call her tomorrow, go back to sleep Finny, it's going to be a long day.
Finn nodded.
"I love you mommy,"
"I love you to son,"
Finn fell back to sleep, glad they found a plan for tomorrow. It was so sad just watching Burt drift away...and try to fight for his life. Kurt had talked to his father, begging him to come back, Carole found out from Finn. Tomorrow was a school day, but she was hoping she could call them and ask Mercedes's mother to come help, she knew Mercedes was a sweet girl, and if anything, Kurt needed more support than ever. She has no idea what caused them to break up their friendship, but she'll found out tomorrow.
Kurt woke up when a familiar voice came inside. Mercedes, what was she doing here?
"Cedes?" Kurt whispered as he fluttered his eyes open, trying to remember what had happened. Then he saw his father in the bed above him with the oxygen mask on and started sobbing again. His dad was connected to a machine as well.
The girl came around and hugged him, he didn't refuse, he missed having his friend, because Finn was more of a brother to him, and it was hard to gossip, or talk about why he was feeling upset, sometimes Finn was just overprotective, although he did love that about him. Kurt had a slight crush on him but no more than what he had felt for Blaine.
"My mom told me what happened, you okay Kurt?" Mercedes put an arm around him.
"No…I want my dad to wake up cedes, what are you doing here?" Kurt asked confused, wasn't it a school day today?
"Ms Carole called my mom to ask if she could bring me to cheer you up, she didn't like seeing you so upset, the principle said it was okay, since I was upset anyway, and they thought that if I went to see you, I would feel better, and the principle felt bad about your dad too…,"
"Why were you upset?" Kurt felt bad for not keeping contact with Mercedes, and was glad that she and him were talking again.
"Sam…punched another boy for shoving me into the dumpster, they were bored because they didn't have you to pick on, so they came to me instead, and I really missed you Kurt, and I'm so so sorry for not helping you,"
Kurt pulled Mercedes into another hug.
"It's okay, I just wanted you to be safe, and I didn't care what happened to me,"
"It wasn't fair though Kurt!"
"It's not fair for them to pick on you either, and… wait…are you and Sam bestests of friends now?"
Mercedes blushed.
"He said he liked me Kurt, he thinks I'm cool, and I felt bad, because there was no one there with you, and then I started crying for not helping you, and I missed you and then the principle called me into her office and told me Ms Carole had asked for me to come, Sam is in the naughty chair at the moment, but he isn't a bad kid," Mercedes explained.
Kurt smiled a little.
"Sam sounds nice,"
"He is, I mean he was mean to some people, but once we became friends he only picks on the bullies now, they are scared of him because he's tough, and is on the football team,"
"He's cute too," Kurt grinned, remembering the recent but attractive bully with blonde hair that looked like he lightened it with Lemon juice, and he had green eyes, and he was pretty tall and strong for their age.
Mercedes giggled.
"Yeah he is!"
Carole watched smiling to see Kurt a little bit happier. You could still see the pain in his eyes, but he clearly missed having a friend to talk to. So that was one step further to miracles.
Finn yawned loudly making the two friends look over at the boy still in the fold out bed.
Finn rubbed his eyes with the back of his hands.
"He sleeps through everything," Kurt told Mercedes who nodded.
"My cousin is like that too,"
"Boys," Kurt shook his head.
Mercedes agreed. It had to be a boy thing.
"I'm hungry," Finn groaned.
"Hey Finny!" Mercedes waved.
Finn beamed at her and waved back.
"HI!"
"Good afternoon to you too little man," Carole chuckled.
Kurt rolled his eyes and continued holding his father's hand looking sad again and sighed. Kurt was in deep thought as Mercedes teased Finn for waking up so late.
Oh yeah, I'll tell you something I think you'll understand
Kurt was singing. The hospital room went quiet. Mercedes was stunned at Kurt's voice and went quiet.
When I say that something…I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand …
….I wanna hold your hand
Mercedes wanted a copy of it and whispered to Ms Carole if she could video it. Carole showed Mercedes how to use the record button on her phone, and she let her hold it as Kurt watched his father and sang.
Oh, please, say to me … You'll let me be your man
And please, say to me
You'll let me hold your hand
Now let me hold your hand
Kurt sniffed and pulled his chair closer to Burt. Kurt stared into his father's eyes that were currently closed.
A small crowd was looking in sadly at the scene. Some filming it as well. Kurt was oblivious to all the attention as he sang to his father.
I wanna hold your hand…and when I touch you I feel happy, inside
It's such a feeling…that my love I can't hide… I can't hide
I can't hide
Carole stared at Kurt and Burt and let a tear flow down her cheek.
ah you, got that something
I think you'll understand
When I say that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
There was such an emotional atmosphere, people were holding back tears or getting out tissues as they watched Kurt sing to his father deep in thought.
I wanna hold your hand
And when I touch you I feel happy, inside
It's such a feeling…That my love
I can't hide
I can't hideI can't hide
Yeah you, got that something
I think you'll understand
When I say that something
I wanna hold your hand… I wanna hold your handI wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your ha-a-a-a-a-a-and
Kurt looked up when he noticed the silence and gasped at the people in the room. Suddenly they all clapped including the nurse and offered Kurt a kind smile. Mercedes quickly handed the phone back to Carole, and asked if she could get it to her mummy. Carole agreed she would send it for her.
"You have real talent kid, your father would be proud," The nurse smiled softly at him and moved on to her destination.
The other grown ups that appeared nodded and one Asian boy with a bandage around his arm nodded in agreement. He gave Kurt a thumbs up before leaving with his mother who took him away.
"She's right Kurt, you're amazing," Carole praised.