Forbidden Truth

Disclaimer: I don't own iCarly

A/N: This chapter continues with the present

Chapter 10 (Desire for a Mother)

Carly sat on a bean bag chair with her two friends, she was wondering where Spencer had gone off to. Freddie said he saw Spencer storm out of the building with Socko trailing behind him. She couldn't help but to be worried about him. Even talking to her dad, he said he couldn't be sure what was wrong, but hesitated even still when he said that. It was like he knew something was up, and he wasn't spilling.

"I always wondered if something was up with your family," Sam said as she slowly shook her head. "Remember when your grandpa tried to take you away to Yakima?" Carly narrowed her eyes and groaned, she didn't want to be reminded of that. She was still very upset with him, it was almost like everyone had something against Spencer. "Some father you have…your brother practically raised you your entire life."

"Yeah, well dad can't help that." It really wasn't his fault for getting transferred to somewhere else. It was fine though, Spencer took good care of her. She smiled and leaned her head back. "Did you know Spencer had continued on with law school?"

"Yeah, he mentioned that." Sam knew the story behind that one. Sasha found out he left law school to be an artist and quickly convinced him to finish school. That was at least a year or two ago. He kept it hidden as a surprise for Carly. Sasha was going to make sure to be a mother to Carly any way she could, even if it meant she could never be with her daughter. Freddie draped his arm around Sam's shoulders and smiled.

"Yeah, if I had to raise a sibling, I'd probably want a good job," Freddie commented. He didn't mean any offense to Spencer at all, but art really wasn't the best job in the world to use for money, even though he did pretty well with it. "Hey guys, earlier I saw that Sasha Striker girl…she was with Spencer and Socko." Carly raised an eyebrow and looked over at Freddie nonchalantly. She knew Spencer had started dating her a long time ago, but for some reason, she was never rally able to talk to her.

"They've been dating since the whole Pak Rat thing," Carly stated while waving a hand in the air. Sam was surprised that Carly actually knew that, but then again, it wasn't like it would matter if she knew about them dating or not. If anything, it made it easier if she ever actually knew they were her parents. "It's really not a surprise that she'd be around him and Socko."

"Has he mentioned anything about her to you?" Sam asked while sitting straight up. Freddie raised a curious eyebrow and wondered why she would be so interested in something like that. Carly frowned and shrugged her shoulders.

"Not really. He did mention that she went to the same school that he did, along with Socko. Also that her family annoyed the crap out of him." She didn't know why he didn't like her family. Whenever she asked, he refused to talk about it, under any circumstances. "So I guess they were at least acquaintances in school, at best." Freddie rubbed his chin and looked over at Carly, he remembered something about Sasha's family that he had read when reading about her a long time ago.

"I think her mother is the governor of California now. Michelle Rodriquez." Michelle had changed her last name when she ran for governor, she just didn't think the name 'striker' was very becoming for a politician. Carly stared at the floor and hummed a tune, Michelle irked her and she could never place a finger on the reason.

"I don't know why it is, but I never really liked her. I think it's just her policies I don't agree with."

"Heh, I wouldn't want her to be governor of my state," Sam said with a slight chuckle. It felt weird to talk about Sasha and her family to Carly, especially when she knew everything and Carly didn't even have the slightest suspicion. The only thing she ever wondered about was the fact that she looked so much like Sasha. She just chalked it up to being a celebrity look-alike. "Hell, I wouldn't want to be her daughter. I think my mother would be better than she is, and that's saying something."

"What does that have to do with anything?" Freddie asked while shaking his head at an obviously pointless statement. Sam shrugged and rested her head on his shoulder. She closed her eyes and sighed softly.

"Nothing really, just felt like saying that…"

"Of course you did." Freddie smiled and gently kissed the top of Sam's head. Carly looked at them and smiled, she thought it was so sweet that the two of them were dating now.

"It's still so weird seeing you guys as a couple," Carly chimed. Sam beamed and kissed Freddie on the lips, she loved him so much. Carly crossed her legs and clasped her hands together on top of her knee. "You guys think I'd make a good politician?" Sam pursed her lips together in thought and Freddie shrugged his shoulders.

"You're good with people," Freddie stated as a matter of fact. Carly did know how to use people and things to get what she wanted. Hell, she could use the power of iCarly to get anything and do anything she saw fit. How else could they have found Sasha Striker so easily, but through the power of iCarly?

"It was iCarly that made Sasha, the world's greatest Pak Rat player come challenge Spencer so long ago, remember?" Sam reminded them. "You're also good with words, good at getting people to agree with you and become friends, and good at leading. It wouldn't surprise me if you had some politics in your blood."

"I know," Carly muttered under her breath. "I always wondered if maybe mom was a politician…" Sam had to keep from laughing, she knew Sasha always swore against ever getting involved in politics. She had a business major and was well on her way to becoming a CEO working with some travel company. She had management and leadership material, and she fully intended to use that to her advantage. "Spencer never told me anything about her, really…"

"What's there to tell about anyway?" Sam's eyes shifted downwards and her brow furrowed. Carly slowly rose from her seat and walked over to the camera.

"Everything…I want to know everything about my mother. What she looked like, what she did with her life…who she was." Sam wished she could tell Carly, she really did, but she knew how dangerous that could be. Although, if Carly knew the truth, she had to wonder what the girl would do.

"All I even know about your mom, Carly…is that she is beautiful." Sam thought about her statement and frowned, realizing Carly thought her mom was dead, and that statement made it sound like she was alive somewhere. Carly's eyes widened briefly, she had caught it. She turned around swiftly and stared at Sam.

"My mom's still alive? She's out there somewhere?"

"Uh…" Sam's eyes shifted toward the side and she quickly pressed her lips together, she wished she could have just kept her big mouth shut. "I don't know. I've only…seen a picture…"

"You said she 'is' beautiful, not she 'was' beautiful. That means you think she's still alive." Carly walked toward Sam and narrowed her eyes. "Both my father and Spencer claim she's dead. Have they told you different?"

"No." Sam sighed and slowly stood up, she wasn't going to tell Carly anything more. She didn't want to fill her friend's head with anything that might never be. "They've never told me a word about your mother, and that's the truth."

"So you found her picture somewhere?"

"Yeah, tucked away in a box underneath Spencer's bed." Carly's eyebrows rose and her eyes narrowed. She deepened her voice and crossed her arms.

"You were in Spencer's room? Nobody is allowed in there, and he keeps his door locked all the time. How'd you get in?"

"Uh, hello? Me?" That was right, she had forgotten that Sam could easily pick locks and loved snooping around in forbidden areas. Freddie chuckled and stood up, he was finding this conversation amusing, but getting old at the same time.

"Anyway, if my mom's still alive out there, I have to find her. I have so many questions."

"I'm going to stop you there, Carls. I don't think that'd be a good idea. Actually no, I think it'd be a really bad idea."

"And why would you think that?" Carly placed her hands on her hips as the girls walked to the center of the room and Freddie started working on the camera. iCarly was starting. The girls ignored his countdown as he started recording.

"Because I just have a feeling if you tried to find her, you'd be mixing in dangerous territory that you really don't want to be involved in. Bad things can happen."

"My mom's out there, I want to know her. I want to know everything about her, and why…why she left me." Sam gazed sadly at her friend, she saw the sorrow and pain in her eyes. Sam knew she wanted a mother so badly, everything in her life just didn't mean anything to her without a mother. "Sixteen years without a mom, Sam. Don't you see how long that is? Don't you know how much pain that causes? If she's out there, I want to be a part of her and her a part of me…and I'll stop anything that gets in my way. Don't you understand?" Sam sighed in defeat and slowly closed her eyes.

"I know Carly, but for now…I think there's nothing we could do about it." The girls turned toward the camera and realized that it was recording, they hadn't realized that it was already time for iCarly. Sam gasped and glared at Freddie, she didn't know how long it had been recording, but she prayed nothing major had been recorded and no one important saw that.

"Hey guys, sorry about that! You're uh…just in time for iCarly!"

"Freddie, I'm going to kill you after this." Sam stated through clenched teeth. Freddie raised his eyebrows and looked at Sam with a bewildered look.

"What? What's wrong?"

So Carly now has an idea, and thanks to Freddie's cluelessness, it has been blabbed on iCarly. Next chapter, Sam and Freddie have a very serious discussion, and we see the return of Michelle. Though brisk.