Chapter Ten Shadows Of My Mind
When Castle had gone back to his room with help from the aids, he was feeling somewhat lost that something was missing from today's session. He asked his nurse Anna Belle to have Dr. Middleton come see him when, he has the chance today.
Otherwise he needed to take another shower with help from his aids, he was still some what off balance with his right leg, hip and in the groin area.
They were able to help him clean his body mostly, but it was his mind that needed the most help.
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Anna Belle went to see Dr. Middleton in his office going over his notes for other patients that he needs to see during the next few days.
She knocks on his door, to let him know that it's her in the first place. He tells her to come in. He looks up from his notes, to ask on what is up right now.
"Dr. Middleton, Richard Castle wishes to speak with you about today's session with his wife."
"I have a feeling, it has something to do with expecting too much out of the touching session in the first place."
"I think you have hit it on the nose Doctor, and he needs to discuss it anyway with you."
"Very well Anna Belle, I will go talk with him right now." He gets up from his seat placing his notes into his brief case.
Castle was sitting in his usual chair looking out the window, having to be such a clear day, despite having to be cold for a late January afternoon.
Dr. Middleton knocks on his door, to let him know that he's here by his request.
He takes the chair in the corner to sit next to Richard Castle with his note pad to take notes on the session.
"So tell me Mr. Castle, how do you feel after today's session with your wife Kate?
"I was asking too much with this first session, I am feeling somewhat lost that there was something missing."
"How so? He says.
"Maybe I should of waited Doc, until I was more physically able to move better from the injuries, that I had suffered from the attack.
"Did you tell this to your wife about this?" While making sure he heard the question.
"No, It was after she left that I started to feel indifferent with my feelings, and how I was able to perform for her, she did most of the work in that aspect of it with the sex acts."
"And you think that she acted this way, because she felt that maybe she didn't want you to disappoint yourself in that area for the first time?"
"Yes, very much so, Dr. Middleton, and besides, It's only been a few days that I have started to feel better with both my mind and body."
"Would you want me to speak with your wife Kate about it, before we decide on the next course of action?"
"Please, if you can!, but in the mean time, I will continue to write and take my medications, until things start to get better.