She stood tall, feeling the gentle breeze against her skin. Her hands were sweating as she gripped the window pane, decreasing the effectiveness of her hold. Her bare feet ached against the edge, knowing they had the power to end everything.
Just a push, a nudge, could stop her pain. She wouldn't ache for him anymore when he left for weeks at a time. Maybe she could see him all the time if she did it and became a hollow. Maybe that would make him love her.
Her cheeks stung with the painful salty liquid that poured from her eyes. She released one hand from the window to wipe her tears away. She was so weak.
Her head spun as she looked at the ground. She could barely see it from her height, but she knew it was there. She wondered if falling from this height would hurt, or if she would die from a heart attack out of anticipation. Either result was desirable at this point.
She gasped as her left foot slipped, bringing her back inside. As she considered the prospect of jumping, she realized that a running start would be better, so as to direct her away from the building. After all, planes had to speed up before takeoff.
She walked backwards to the foot of the bed, her stare constantly directed at the window. She would jump. She would fly.
Just as she bent down to prepare for her launch out the window, a cool hand gripped her shoulder and spun her around.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?" Grimmjow's rough voice demanded. His signature scowl was present, his eyes twisted with the intention to startle her. He then followed her intended direction to the open window. It didn't take him very long to piece together her intentions.
"Jumping's stupid," he stated, pushing her aside to close the window. "There are better ways to die."
Natsumi was so surprised at his response, she couldn't reply. She wasn't even considering the fact that the sheer quantity of tears she had shed would have affected her ability to speak.
Grimmjow turned around to face her again, but the scowl was absent. He was serious when he stated, "I don't need to lose you yet."
Her eyes widened as Grimmjow closed his and walked past her to open the door. Before he left, Grimmjow turned to her and stated, "Think about that before you do something stupid again."
He walked outside and closed the door behind him.
Natsumi couldn't stand. She fell to her knees. She was stupid. She was selfish.
There was no point in trying to fly when Grimmjow made her feel like she was every time he was near her.