Dying

By: RemmysGal

Chapter 10

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The events of dinner flew through Victoria's mind later that night as she lie in bed in the room Remus and Molly had prepared for her.

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Remus was the first one who entered the kitchen. He chuckled slightly when he saw Victoria slumped in her chair.

"You all right?" he asked, sitting next to her.

"Look at me. Do I look all right?" she said.

"You look fine." Remus said. Victoria laughed hollowly.

"Yeah, I'm fine," Victoria said sarcastically. "Is Harry here?" she looked up at Remus. He nodded. Victoria shook her head. "I can't do this, Remus. I haven't seen the boy in sixteen years. Technically speaking, I haven't seen anyone in sixteen years, and I fell like I've just been thrown back into the world I thought I had left. For good."

"There's nothing to fear here. Everyone's open-minded. They would have to be, to be in the Order."

"That's another thing: Am I expected to be in the Order?"

"If you want to," Remus said. At that moment the kitchen door opened and Molly entered, followed by four redheaded children and two others. They all sat down at the table and stared quizzically at Victoria. She glanced at each of them, but her gaze came to rest on the one boy with messy jet-black hair and glasses. Hair and glasses that were so familiar. As if that wasn't enough for her to faint, one look at his emerald green eyes sent her into the world of unconsciousness.

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"You'rewhat?" Seventeen-year-old Victoria Rokaway asked. She was sitting Indian style on her bed in the seventh year Gryffindor girls' dormitory. Her question was directed at fellow seventh year and best friend Lily Evans, who was sitting across the room on her bed.

"Dating, yes," Lily Evans replied calmly, a smile playing on her lips.

"James Potter?" Victoria asked.

"The one and only," Lily responded, grinning.

"Okay," Victoria said, getting up and walking over to the window. She looked out at the snow-covered grounds for a moment, and then turned sharply back to Lily. "Don't you hate him?"

"Hate him? James? No," Lily said.

"Oh, he'sJamesnow, is he?" Victoria said cattily.

"Well, yes, it wouldn't be very good if we were out on dates and I called him 'Potter' all the time, would it?" Lily asked, her eyebrows raised.

"Well, no, but if I recall correctly," Victoria said, grinning evilly, "you said, and I quote 'I wouldn't go out with you if it was a choice between you and the giant squid.' Did the giant squid break up with you? I bet he's really not good at snogging, all though," she looked thoughtful, "all those tentacles might be a plus in some…situations."

"Victoria!" Lily screeched. "Stop!" Victoria laughed.

"What made you change your mind?" Victoria asked, when she stopped laughing.

"I don't really know. He seems so different, almost…human. He's changed."

"I've noticed."

"And why are you interrogating me? You're the one dating his partner in crime," Lily smirked.

"Because I never hated Sirius with the passion that you hatedJames," Victoria said.

"Well I don't hate him anymore." Lily said simply. Victoria looked at Lily. Her green eyes were sparkling, and she was truly happy.

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"Victoria?" the voice was fuzzy and distant. It sounded like she was underwater. Victoria opened her eyes. There was a warm washcloth on her forehead and she was lying on a bed. Remus Lupin's face came into focus. He was standing over her looking concerned. Molly Weasley was sitting next to her patting the washcloth on her forehead.

"Wha?" she mumbled. Remus smiled.

"You passed out," he said.

"How?" Victoria asked.

"Shock," Molly said.

"Shock from what?"

"Seeing your godson," Remus answered. Victoria groaned.

"Oh, god, Remus, he's James all over again," she said weakly. Remus nodded.

"Except for the eyes," he said, "Lily's eyes."

"Where is he now?" Victoria asked.

"In the kitchen," Molly answered, "eating. He's quite worried about how you are, actually. Hasn't a clue who you are, but that boy's so caring, he's anxious to meet you."

"When can I see him?" Victoria asked.

"Right now, if you want," Remus said, "he's just outside." Victoria slumped back into the pillow. "But you don't have to," he continued, "we can wait until you're feeling better."

"I don't think I'll feel better until I meet my godson," Victoria said, and sat up. "Where is he?"

Remus smiled lightly. "I do believe he is right outside the door, using Extendable Ears to listen in on out very conversation."

"Extendable Ears?" Molly screeched. "I thought those two had kept their rubbish in the store! Oh I'll have their heads!" and Molly rushed out of the room. She paused after she opened the door. "Oh, hello Harry dear, yes, go right inside" and she continued walking.

A tall boy that looked so much like James Potter entered the room. He had the same jet black messy hair that James had, the same round glasses, and he was about as tall as James was. The only things that separated him and James was that James' nose was a little longer, and of course, the green eyes. His clothes were too big for him and he looked very nervous; curious, but nervous. He apprehensively walked a little closer to the bed where Victoria and Remus were seated.

"Hello, Harry," Remus said and smiled warmly at him.

"Hello, Professor," Harry said in return. He then turned to Victoria. "Is it true? What they're all saying?" Remus stood up.

"I think I will leave you two alone for a while," he said and walked towards the door. Victoria panicked. She didn't want to be left alone with a boy she hadn't seen in almost sixteen years. But Remus walked out and closed the door behind him.

"What are they saying?" Victoria asked Harry.

"They're saying…they're saying that you're…you're my…godmother," he stumbled. Victoria nodded. "So it's true? I never thought I had one," Victoria's eyes welled up. She gave a choked laugh.

"Of course you have one," she said soothingly. "I'm Victoria Rokaway. I went to school with your parents, Sirius, and Remus. We were all friends."

Harry nodded. "I'm Harry. I just turned sixteen."

"You look just like your father, Harry," Victoria said, "you seem brave like him too,"

Harry nodded again. "Can I ask you something?"

Victoria smiled. "Of course," she said, "you can ask anything you want. I think I owe you an explanation anyway,"

Harry smiled a little. "They're also saying…that you and Sirius…you were…supposed to get married." Victoria frowned a bit.

"Yes," she said softly. "We were supposed to get married. But things happened so fast, and I assumed things without knowing the truth, and I left. I left everything. If I knew what I was doing, I would have never left. I would have never left you. But you don't really think when so many things come flying at you." Harry nodded; he knew how that felt.

"Can I ask you something else?" Harry asked again.

Victoria laughed. "Sure," she said.

Harry smiled. "Can I, um, give you a hug or something?" Victoria smiled.

"Of course," she said, and held out her arms, embracing the boy she should have never left behind.

They didn't realize how bad they both needed each other.

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Author's Note: Hello everyone! I know, it's been so long since I updated, but I had to rewrite this again and again cause I didn't know just how to make it work between Victoria and Harry. I hope it's okay.

Anyway, this will be my last update for a while. I'm going on vacation Saturday for a week. Then Field Hockey starts, which takes up ALL of my time, and then I start my sophomore year in high school, which everyone says is the hardest. So I don't know how soon I will be able to update. I hope you will be patient with me like you have been this whole time as I fall into my crazy life after summer.

I'd like to thank Lina and Mio for reviewing this whole time. And thanks also to gemini.

Until next time…

Much Love,

RemmysGal