Rachel's POV
I was thanking it was Saturday; I'd see Finn on Monday night. I had a lot of time to think.
In my mind and heart, it was very clear what I wanted. What I was facing was more difficult.
I had to be sure that I could be a normal girlfriend. A good girlfriend for Finn, he deserved the best.
The rape changed me, before I had a lot of dates and had sex with a few people. Sex never was too much important to me, because I never had sex with the one I loved.
The first and only man I ever loved was Finn and I wasn't sure that I could give more than kisses. After Jesse, sex had a big deal.
But I loved Finn and I wanted to be with him.
Gosh, it was going to be difficult, I needed to think.
Finn's POV
I went home a little stunned with all the information.
Rachel loved me too, but she was raped. That could ruin any chances of being with me. And I wanted her more than anything.
If she decided to be with me, I'd be the happiest man alive and I'd work my whole life to make her the happiest human. But if she decided to.. say no to that, I'd understand.
It would break me, destroy me, but I had to understand.
I looked at the mirror and saw the hickey in my neck. I smiled remembering the kiss; it felt so good to have her lips on mine, her taste was so sweet. I felt my pants getting tighter. God, I couldn't deny, I wanted her in every single possible way.
By now.. I was sure my balls were blue. I was too excited.
Focus, Finn. I didn't know her decision, but in my heart.. I felt she'd take a chance on us.
And I was willing to do anything for her. Anything. Even not have sex. For the rest of my life. It would be hard because she was smoking hot, but if this is what she wanted or needed. I'd do.
We were meant to be together.
Forever.
Rachel' POV
Sunday morning. I woke up a little dizzy, because of the wine. I ended up sleeping on the couch thinking of Finn.
I spent the day viewing our life together, how'd be. And I liked what I saw, really much. The two of us growing old together, having a amazing life..
That's what I wanted. It was so simple.
My insecurities were bothering me. But these plans, these future.. it was what I wanted.
I needed to try. I couldn't spent my whole life wondering 'what if?'. We loved each other and I'd make it be enough.
In the next night, I'd tell him my decision.
Finn's POV
I spent my Sunday thing about Rachel; then I went for a walk and had dinner in one restaurant near home. I slept early, I wasn't.. excited at all, I was going to see her in the next after noon and she didn't text or called me.
In the next day, I woke up with my phone buzzing. I took it from my nightstand and saw it was a message from her.
'hey, don't pick me up, we'll meet at theater, I made my decision. Xo.'
Ok, it was a good or a bad thing? Great, I was freaking out.
She made her decision, so by the end of the night, I'd be happy or really sad.
She didn't want me to pick her up, it wasn't good. I guess.
Shit, I was babbling thoughts in my own mind. I spent the day nervous, anxious. The time stopped, it felt like years.
But at last, it passed. I went to the theater and Rachel wasn't there yet.
Okay Finn, breathe.
"Finn!"
I turned to see Quinn coming in my direction.
"So? Did you talked to her?" she asked, excited.
"Yes."
"And?"
"She loves me too."
"Really?" she smiled "So are you together now?"
"Er.. no."
"No?" she frowned. "Why?"
I froze, I shouldn't tell her, should i? Rachel took to long to tell me that secret, it wasn't mine to share, so..
"She got nervous, she asked some time to think." I wasn't lying.
"Time? You love her and you..-
"Quinn, she needed to think. We're going to talk tonight, she made her decision." I cut her.
"Oh… ok. When she tells you her decision, tell me."
"Sure." I nodded.
She smiled and went to talk to someone. I was looking at the door, and then she entered.
I couldn't help myself and smiled; she came to me and kissed me on the cheek. Fuck, it wasn't good.
"Hey." I said.
"Hello Finn. We'll talk after the musical, I came with a cab can you give me a lift?"
"Of course. Where do you want to go?"
"I don't know, but don't worry, I'll figure it out."
"Alright."
She was beautiful, as always. Her eyes weren't puffy, so she didn't cried. It made me happy, I didn't want her to cry. Or suffer.
"I'll see you later." She blew a kiss and left, I watched her sighing.
I went to the dressing room and slept for 1 hour, woke up and changed my clothes, then went to the stage, Quinn and Rachel were talking.
"Hey." I waved.
They smiled and we heard the audience clapping, the curtains were opening.
After the show, everybody was leaving and I was waiting for Rachel at the girls' dressing room door.
She showed up and smirked.
"Can we go?"
"Sure." I nodded and held out my hand.
It was a test, if she took it, I'd be a little relief, but if she didn't..
"I think we have to talk before do anything." She whispered.
Crap, she was going to break up with me. Even if we didn't started something official.
We went to my car and I said to her.
"Where are we going?"
"Can we go to one restaurant? Eat pizza, maybe? I'm hungry."
"Okay."
I drove to one pizzeria and we sit in one table in the corner, the waitress came quickly and wrote our orders.
"So.." I started as soon as the waitress left.
"Well, I made my decision. And please don't interrupt me, it will be difficult, but I'll open my heart."