How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world.
- Anne Frank
Deidara sighed and looked over at Sasori's silhouette body, watching the outlining of his chest slowly raise and fall, and he soon fell into a restless sleep listening to the heart monitor's beeping like a lullaby of death.
Deidara was staring out the window in his hospital bed completely lost in his own thoughts when all the trouble started for him. The sun was bright outside and all he wanted to do was go out and take a deep breath of fresh air and watch the birds fly and sing.
Deidara sighed to himself and turned away from the window and looked over at Sasori who was sleeping peacefully. "You wake un?" Deidara was too bored to care if Sasori would get mad or not.
Sasori opened one eye and looked over at the blonde boy. "Yeah, I am, Why Brat?"
"I'm bored un." Deidara fell into the pillow behind him with a sigh.
The door was soon opened and a shy girl looked through the door with a bright blush on her face. "M-may I come in?" She statured out, her pale eyes staring at them with innocents yet a glint of evil in the soul could be seen if you looked hard enough.
Sasori smiled at her softly "Sure come in."
Deidara glared at her and the pink haired girl that walked in to the room to visit them, or more so Sasori. They normally ignored Deidara.
"Hinata, Sakura," Konan nodded to them in turn as she entered the room behind them, in her arms was a bouquet of white lily and blue cornflowers "It's so nice of you two to visit Deidara and Sasori every day."
"H-hi Konan." Hinata smiled weakly at her.
"No problem, it's the right thing to do after all!" Sakrua's pink hair flew around as she smiled brightly.
Sakura was wearing her normal short jeans and pink tank top while Hinata had on baggy blue pants and her normal jacket.
"Are you feeling any better today Sasori?" Hinata turned to him and fiddled with her figures and blushed a light shade of rose.
"Yes I am thanks for asking." All week Hinata and Sasori have been talking and flirting and Deidara was beginning to think that Sasori wanted to date that tramp instead of him.
But what's there not to like about Hinata Hyuga? She has long appealing blue hair that shines whenever it moves, smooth pale skin that looked too soft to even touch, her eyes are an eye catching pale lavender color with no iris. Also she is so shy and fidgety it's cute!
And what was Deidara? A normal blonde haired boy with only one blue eye, and a mutant freak with mouths on his hands and chest? Hinata is on the cheerleading squad and Deidara is in the art club. Maybe Sasori liked girls in miniskirts that have big boobs? Well he doesn't have big boobs but he could wear a miniskirt and pull it off!
Deidara tuned back into the conversation in time to hear Sasori ask "How was work with the volunteers?" and there was that. Hinata volunteered at the local animal shelter to help abandoned and abused animals. All Deidara did was try and blow things up all the time.
"I-it's going okay," she has such a soft voice that it's hypnotizing! "We finally have some design plans for the middle of the year dance." And did Deidara forget to mention she is their class president and she's good at it!
"Yeah Hinata has worked hard on it for a full month now! I helped of course." Sakura piped up then looked over at Deidara "Think your geeky club could help us out with the setting everything up?"
Deidara scoffed "Sure whatever un."
There was a pause of silence that was soon, too soon if you ask Deidara, was sliced open when Sakura asked "What are you a mental kid or something?" Deidara flinched at that but glared at the pink haired girl anyway.
"What un?" You could see steam coming from Deidara's head he was so irate.
"S-Sakura that's not very nice." Hinata touched Sakura's arm lightly.
"What?" She looked at the blue haired girl funny "You were wondering the same thing." With a shrug she turned back to Deidara "You always say un or hm at the end of everything. So are you mental and can't speak correct or just stupid?"
She was a snob. Deidara really wanted to hit this girl right now "No. It's an impediment." He said it through clenched teeth as his glare shot the girl on fire in his head.
"Could have fooled me." She turned and smirked at Sasori and they started a three way conversation of flirting while Konan walked over to the fuming blonde. Konan had been glaring at the pink haired girl from the doorway as well.
"Don't let her get to you Deidara." She smiled and sat the flowers beside Deidara, throwing away the wilted ones, "I think it's cute the way you say things like that."
"Thanks u-" Deidara shut his mouth to stop his "mental issue" from showing and hid it by asked Konan a question "Do you know when we get out of here?"
"You can both leave tomorrow morning. Pain and I will be here to pick you up and I got you something." Konan handed Deidara a bag that he hadn't notice her walk in with it.
He looked inside and blinked a few times before smiling and hugging her tightly "Thanks Konan, you're the best!" He bit his tongue in hopes of not slipping up. Konan grinned at him and told him how he was going to dinner with her after he got out; she was going to cook it herself. A home cooked meal would be nice epically sense all he got to eat was this hospital bland food.
Konan had brought Deidara a change of clothes for him to wear and his clay so he had something to do. Deidara hid his stuff under the bed and talked to Konan while keeping an eye on his two neighbors who are still flirting with his boyfriend. Sometimes Deidara believes that Sasori forgets that they are dating.
"So do you want chicken or stake?" Konan asked after explain how she was taking just Deidara to dinner with her at her house, that was also Pain's house, and he would stay the night with them afterwards.
"Either's fine with me. Thanks Konan, it means a lot." Konan smiled at the poor boy as she walked out of the room claiming she would be back the next day sometime in the afternoon.
"My dad it getting me a new car tomorrow for doing such a good job at the school year so far." He could hear Hinata explaining with modesty, if that was even possible.
That girl didn't have to work a sweat for anything, all she need do is ask daddy and he gets it for her. Deidara has a job that he has to work at just to get clay to mold with and by lunch for school, because his mom sure as hell wasn't going to get him any of that stuff.
"Later Sasori!" Sakura cheered as she left the room with Hinata in toll, her goodbye was much quieter and reserved, Stupid bitch.
"What's with the sour look brat?" Sasori seemed to glare at him as he watch the blonde lean over the bed and pull out some clay.
"Nothing Sasori-no-Danna," Deidara said lightly, sure that Sasori had heard him, and started messing with his clay; rolling it around, flattening it, then shaping it into something before destroying it and starting all over again.
"You're tarring at that clay with a lot of exertion, brat." When Sasori said brat Deidara slammed his hand down on the clay to flatten it. Why does Sasori call him a brat all the time?
Maybe he just wants that perfect little blue haired girl to date him and not some freaky blonde. Deidara still refused to take his gloves off in front of anyone and it didn't help when he came in the doctors took them off and he is yet to get them back. Really Deidara has been hiding his hands from view ever sense he woke up.
Sasori already knew about the mouths but he is yet to see them and he doesn't know why Deidara is acting so self-conscious about them. In Deidara's thinking he stopped moving his hands and was now just looking at the clay with lost and unfocused eyes.
After a moment of silence Sasori spoke up again, only gentler this time "Hey brat?"
"Stop calling me that." It was so quite even Deidara doubted the words left his lips.
"What?" confusion was as clear as a crystal sea in Sasori's voice.
Suddenly Deidara felt exhausted, he was finding it hard to keep his eyes open and this sudden rush of sadness didn't help him any "just stop un." He hadn't meant to say un but he was too tired to care right now.
Deidara slid under the covers and turned his back to Sasori so all the red head could see was blonde hair and his shallow breathing. Deidara really didn't want to think about it anymore. All these thoughts that are over loading his head are making him depressed and it hurts for some reason. His emotions seemed to hit him all at once and he began to cry. Silent diamonds ran down his flushed cheeks that burned from embarrassment, frustration, and self-hate for being so weak. Suddenly the first stray tear was joined by others and soon a river was flowing onto Deidara's cheeks.
Deidara was careful to keep his breathing the same only every now and then letting out a shudder that slowly ripped through his body in an un-noticeable wave. He had a right to cry tho…or that's what he told himself.
His mother is always livid at him; he can't do anything right, and he fails at being a good son. He isn't flawless like Hinata; he doesn't have eye catching skin, glistening hair, deep eyes, or rosy lips. Deidara is a mutant freak, he can't even speak right! His own boyfriend didn't seem to want him anymore and they hadn't even been dating two weeks yet. But Deidara couldn't blame him tho. After all who could love someone as un-wanted as himself?
The worse of it is he live next door to Hinata Hyuga, who lives just a little past Sakura, the perfect girl everyone loves. Hinata with her perfect pale smooth skin, Hinata with her elongated, lax, ever shinning blue hair, Hinata with unfathomable lavender eyes that trapped men and women alike. He lives next to Hinata Hyuga with her full, strawberry, every-mans-dreams of lips and she has money, power, even that shy little act works in her favor to make her even cuter.
Yes Deidara Katsu lived next door to Hinata Hyuga and so that's all he was and ever would be. The guy next door, that blonde boy next door, that freak next door to Hinata Hyuga the schools most loved, most beautiful, most respected, most wanted person in this whole town, and she is the wealthiest girl as well. So who cares about the boy next door and his barely noticeable attributes? Apparently not even his own boyfriend, who was calling his name over and over again in a very aggravated voice. Deidara did not trust his voice to stay even long enough for a snarky reply or even a word, scared that if he even opened his mouth a whimpered would come out; Deidara chose to stay inaudible and ignore the boy who he liked so much.
"Stop ignoring me brat!" Sasori was infuriated with the way the blonde wasn't paying attention to him. What had he done to make the boy so mad….or was he depressed…either way he had no idea what he did to make him this way or if it was even him!
Sasori watched Deidara as he shivered slightly. When he woke up four days ago Deidara had been so happy he was brought to tears and kept saying how he was glad that he was okay. Now he wouldn't even talk to him? This all started when Hinata and Sakura started visiting him Sasori realized after thinking it over for a bit.
What Sasori thought of made him smirk and relay his thoughts playfully to the blonde "Are you jealous of Hinata and Sakura?" At the way Deidara stiffened slightly Sasori took it as a yes and chuckled to him-self before continuing on "Is it because I pay more attention to them then you Dei-Dei?" The way he emphasis Dei-Dei sounded sarcastic even tho he meant for it to sound affectionate.
When Deidara didn't reply or show any sign of listening Sasori thought a little longer on the matter. What all had Hinata and Sakura done while over at the hospital? They didn't really pay attention to Deidara so could it be he feels like no one notices him? No, Sasori doesn't believe Deidara would get so upset with something like that. If you thought about it, it almost sounded like Hinata and Sakura were showing off what they had and could do; did Deidara feel inferior to them? That was a possibility, a very logical reason at that. Deidara doesn't like being seen as lower then someone; Sasori knew that for a fact for Deidara himself had confronted Sasori on it during their first date before the movies. Also now that Sasori thought about it they insulted Deidara…a lot.
Sakura's words came flying back to him "You always say un or hm at the end of everything. So are you mental and can't speak correct or just stupid?" And the fact that Sasori didn't say or do anything might have made Deidara mad; he was Deidara's boyfriend after all. Maybe sense Sasori hadn't said anything Deidara might think he agreed with Sakura on that and that would end badly for him. Sasori didn't want Deidara to think that he liked the other two girls more but that' probably what Deidara thought considering he had basically been ignoring the blonde and flirting with Sakura and Hinata. Deidara thought that he didn't like him anymore thanks to his actions; he hadn't even realized he was doing it till now!
"Look brat," Sasori stopped himself. He didn't mean to sound so mad, that's just how his voice came out; plus insulting him wasn't going to get Deidara to talk to Sasori. "Look Deidara," He tried again but with a softer tone, "If I did something to upset you, you have to tell me." His voice was stern at the end.
Deidara blinked a few times, Sasori really was trying to figure out what was wrong with him. He moved his hands and wiped away a few stray tears from his burning face. He wouldn't turn around; if he did Sasori would see that he was crying and would think lowly of him for being so weak and like fucking little girl. So he opted for steading his breathing and saying though a calm even voice that to Sasori sounded like the finest silk "Really Sasori, nothing's wrong ye-" Deidara cut off his impediment and bit his lip nervously hoping Sasori didn't notice.
Sasori caught this and spoke up "You know you shouldn't worry about changing yourself over what others say," He grumbled out then sighed "I think it's adorable." He said the last part softly and more so to himself then Deidara, tho the blonde heard him with strained ears.
Deidara would never admit it but those words made him feel a lot better even if Sasori did sound annoyed at him. "I'm not letting anyone change me un." That was all he said to inform Sasori that their words didn't matter to him, even if that was a lie.
Exhaustion was eating away at both boys as they hid under the cavern of warmth feeling a little better now that the problem had been slightly solved, even tho Deidara still felt like shit when compared next to Hinata Hyuga, and the two closed their eyes and soon both their breathing shallow out to slow motion as their bodies took rest.
While Sasori slept in peaceful darkness Deidara's dreams where filled with the memory of when he first moved to his home during grade school.
A small boy with long blonde hair and deep blue eyes was holding a stuffed bird and was standing alone looking up at the large house he was now calling home. His dad, mom, and a bunch of big guys were moving everything into the house while he stood out of the way.
A girl with short blue hair and a kind face came up to him, she was shuffling her feet nervously "H-Hi I'm H-Hinata Hyuga, Y-your neighbor." She explained.
"I'm Deidara Katsu," came Deidara's childish voice and he grinned at the girl in front of him "Nice to meet you un." He held out his hand and she took it hesitantly.
"W-would you like to be my f-friend?" the little girl asked with only a little fear in her voice.
"That's would be awesome un. I could show you my art sometime!" His grin got bigger as he spoke and the girl smiled softly at him.
"What type of art?" She ask as she searched for a conversation with her new friend.
"Explosions!" He cried throwing his hands into the air out of excitement "Art is an explosion. One second there and the next it's gone! True art is fleeting yeah." He explained to the girl who only nodded and smiled at his excitement.
"I-I would like to see t-that." She told him.
The two became fast friends but by middle school things seem to change.
A teenage Deidara was sitting on the cement railing outside swinging his legs back and forth mindlessly as his friend Hinata sat on the steps poking her figures together in a nervous habit.
"So you really like him then un?" Deidara asked again as he peered down at his friend as she got all red in the face. He was wearing simple blue jeans with a black shirt. Ever sense his dad died the two stayed after school like this to talk.
Hinata went all red in the face as she stammered out "Y-yes," then she voiced a hard cold fact that made her stare at her feet "But he d-doesn't even notice me." Her voice held remorse "I'm to p-plain." She told her best friend.
Deidara jumped down and landed in front of her "Don't say that yeah. I'll help you get this Naruto kid to like you un!" He grinned at her. Secretly he had been harboring a crush on Hinata for a year now and thanks to this he could show her how he would be the best boyfriend and get out of the friend zone. Psh and people say the friend zone is like the mafia (if you know what that is from then you are awesome! )
"H-how do you plan on doing that Dei-Dei?" Hinata was the only one Deidara would not get mad at for calling him that.
"It's simple un!" He told her "Date me to make him jealous and notice you!" at the confused look, along with a bright blush, he got he went into a further explanation "This school goes crazy over gossip and new couples right hm?"
Hinata nodded and finished what he was explaining "So then h-he would hear about me and maybe I c-could talk to him or something."
"Yeah, at least then he would know your name un." Deidara declared as he held out his hand to Hinata "Hinata Hyuga would you do me the honor of being my girlfriend?" he asked her with a grin. He was someone who acted on a fleeting impulse after all, plus he was in the zone right now.
Hinata took his hand and smiled at him sweetly "Sure Dei-Dei as long as you'll do the honor of being my boyfriend." She then hugged him, which he gladly returned, as she whispered in his ear "You're the best friend anyone could ever ask for."
"Boyfriend." He corrected with a wink and the two laughed as they walk home hand in hand.
Two months later tho the two got into a huge fight when Hinata found out that Deidara wasn't doing it to help her get Naruto but to have her for himself.
Deidara and Hinata are in the park lot alone while arguing. "Why didn't you just tell me you liked me!" she asked or more so begged him.
"Why is it such a big deal! I don't understand why you like that moron." Deidara growled back. All he did was try and kiss her and it lead up to this huge fight! I mean what hell, that's so messed up.
"You didn't have to lie to me!" she told him trying to keep her voice from rising any higher.
Deidara was not trying to hide how angry he was. You could tell by the way his voice kept rising in volume. "I didn't lie! I asked you to be my girlfriend didn't I?" Deidara was feeling desperate. He just wanted his friend back by now.
"I thought it was all so I could get Naruto. Not because you actually liked me." Her stuttering had stopped a while into the argument. Deidara learned that if she didn't stutter she was mad or upset beyond repair and need to be alone with her thoughts.
"Why don't you like me un?" Deidara demanded once the silence had gone on too long. He was no longer yelling but his voice was low and sounded close to despair.
"Because you are not my type Deidara." She said firmly after a while.
"So you prefer idiots?" Deidara snarled out.
Hinata looked hurt and Deidara regretted what he said but not as much as he regretted what happened next "No Deidara, because I don't like freaks with weird speech impediments." It was low blow and it hurt to hear it from his enraged friend or now ex-best friend.
"Fine. I never liked how much you stuttered and I hate your low self-esteem you spoil brat!" Deidara ran away. He should have tried to fix it but he didn't and he didn't know how to handle all this rage so he ran. He ran all the way to his father's grave and through a fit over what happened before he broke down in tears as he realized he had lost his best and only friend. From then on Deidara would stay away from people and stick to himself. What 14 year old need friends anyway?
Deidara woke with a startled jumped as he slammed up and gasped for air. He touched his face and felt that his cheeks were wet. He felt like a panic had token over his body. He was shaking violently, his breathing was harsh, and he couldn't stop crying. He choked on a sob and curled into himself, hugging his knees like they were his life line. He wasn't sure where he was and he honestly didn't care. He also had no idea why he was so worked up.
Deidara jumped violently when he felt a hand on his shoulder. With wide eyes he looked around and saw that the hand belonged to Sasori, who was now wearing a very worried expression, suddenly he remembered everything and he tried hard to get his barring together.
"Deidara," Sasori question quietly.
Deidara whipped at his eyes furiously with his wrist before answering in a shaky voice "Y-you shouldn't be out of bed un."
Sasori sat beside the blonde, who looked away and out the window to see it was still dark out, maybe around midnight. Sasori moved Deidara's hair behind his ear so he could see both of his eyes, even if they are turned away from him, Deidara let out whimper from the back of his throat at the motion and flinched slightly. His dad use to do that when he was upset and his mom would copy it only to hit him and tell him to be a man.
"I told you I'm fine un." His words came out fiercer then he had intended it to.
Sasori didn't say anything but he did sit beside Deidara and hold him close and soon Deidara had fallen asleep again leaning into the warmth of his touch. Sasori didn't fall asleep until after he was sure Deidara was fast asleep.
When Deidara woke up the next morning he slid out of bed and put his cloths on, happy that Konan brought him some gloves to wear, and quickly got ready. He put his clay in a pouch he attached to his back pocket. Deidara smiled as he looked at the room and flipped it off.
"Flipping off a room could be consider insanity Deidara." His head whipped to the door where he saw Hinata standing.
"You being here is considered being a bitch Hinata un." Deidara growled out.
"Maybe so, but I wanted to wish you off and be safe and don't crash into any more people." She told him with a wave of the hand and walked over to Sasori's sleeping body and woke him up as Deidara glared at her but said nothing.
"S-Sasori, they said you could be released from the hospital today. I came to p-pick you up." She explained.
Sasori raised an eyebrow. "What about Deidara?"
"I already have plans," Deidara said stiffly. "Konan will be here soon for me."
"S-see you should come on and get r-ready." She turned to the door and as she walked out and called over her shoulder "I'll wait for you out here."
"Deidara is it really okay?" Sasori was stern with his words.
Deidara waved his hand as if to push it way. "Why would I care if you hung out with some friends. I mean that is all she is right?" Deidara raised an eyebrow at him.
"Yes." Sasori thought for a moment "Why would she be more? You are my boyfriend." Sasori explained to the blonde.
"True." Deidara grinned then Konan walked through the door.
"Do I need to take you back home Sasori?" Konan asked nicely.
"No I'm going with Hinata." Sasori said shortly as he finished putting on a shirt and walked past Konan.
"I already checked you out Deidara so we can leave now." She explained.
"Thanks for this Konan," Deidara walked beside her in the halls "It means a lot to me that you are doing this."
"It's no problem. Now then we will go to my house and you'll stay the night there before going home." She told him in a way that left no room to argue. Deidara didn't mind tho because he really didn't want to go home to his mother.
So when Deidara got to Konan's simple blue bug he sat in the passenger seat and was quite most of the way to Konan's house. She soon broke the silence after 10 minutes. "Deidara is Sasori treating you okay?" she finally asked, not being sure how to say 'hey are you jealous that Sasori isn't paying attention to you and do you want me to talk to him an beat some sense into him for you?'
"I don't feel like we are dating un." Deidara answered honestly with a shrug and looked out the window. He didn't really mind, he just wanted a little more affection from Sasori. Just a little more, is that too much to ask for?
"You know Deidara," Konan stated softly as she turned into the familiar town they called home "Pain wouldn't show any affection towards me when we first started dating. It took time for him to get use to the idea of having someone to hold and to figuring out his emotions before he even held my hand." She smiled fondly at the memory.
"I'll give Sasori all the time he needs un. It's not like I'm forcing him to be all obsessive over me." Again Deidara was nonchalant about it, and surprisingly Deidara honestly wasn't worried about anything. Why would Sasori ask him out if he didn't like him after all? So worrying is useless and can't help anyone. Its wasting breath, time, and hurts you in the end. No Deidara would just stop thinking about it and let things run their course as they are supposed to.
Konan quietly showed Deidara to the guest room after she parked the car in the driveway. Deidara was now sitting on the bed and staring out the window. He had been doing that a lot lately, just staring out at the world and thinking, actually most of the time he wasn't even thinking he just stared. No thoughts came to mind the only thing he could do was watch as the world seemed to move without him, leaving behind in a confused haze.
A light knock on the door brought the blue eyed teen out of his thoughts and looked to the door where a smiling Konan's head had slipped through. "Dinners ready." She said simply and Deidara got up and followed her.
The kitchen was small but comfy, a circular wooden table sat in the center with four chairs, Pain at one end, Konan beside him, and Deidara sat across from him. The matching china was filled with green beans, which Deidara proceeded to cover in salt, Chicken breast, and mash potatoes that have white gravy on it. Each crystal glass was filled with a different substance, for Deidara water, Konan had what looked to be wine, how she got it Deidara would never know, and Pain had coke in his glass.
They ate in silence for what seemed like hours but was only a few minutes in reality, Pain broke it first with and awkward look on his face. "Do you like living with your mom?" him being concerned was odd, and seemed humors with his piercings everywhere on his face.
Deidara raised an eyebrow and swallowed the mash Potatoes in his mouth before answering in a very calm but skeptical voice. "I don't care for it much un. I'm not unhappy if that's what you are asking."
"How would you feel about moving out of your mother's house and living with us?" Konan asked her blue hair looking brilliant in the low light of the room.
"I wouldn't care un," Deidara started slowly "But I'd hate to bother you like that."
"When you joined are group you became family. We've done similar things for the others." Pain explained with a wave of the hand.
Deidara was silent for a long time before voicing what he had to say. "I don't really care what happens un."
Konan smiled brightly "The room you are staying in now will be your personal room starting tonight and I'll take you home tomorrow to pack." With that the rest of dinner went by with little chit chat of unimportant topics.
Soon Deidara took a shower then left for his room and went to bed, tho he didn't fall asleep. Looking over at his clock he saw that it was two in the morning.
Deidara looked out the window and only to see a creepy Sasori standing outside it and tapping on the window. Deidara quickly got up and opened the window so the brown eyed teen could crawl through the window and into Deidara's new room.
"Deidara I'm sorry. I was thinking and I realized I was a total jackass to you and I should be a better boyfriend." Sasori was slurring his words in his rush to speak.
Deidara sniffed him then crossed his arms "Sasori are you drunk?" he raised an eyebrow.
"No," a pause "maybe a little," he slurred then smiled "But that doesn't matter I need you to know I love you!" He pushed Deidara to the bed and they both fell while Sasori was kissing Deidara, Deidara found himself annoyed.
"Tell me when your sober and maybe I'll believe you un." He pushed Sasori off of him who soon passed out. Deidara is going to yell in his ear when he wakes up just so his headache is worse. Stupid Sasori, getting drunk….wait why was he drunk? Whatever Deidara would have to ask later tomorrow seeing as how Sasori was already passed out.
That morning Deidara woke up to something warm pressing against his back he looked over his shoulder and saw red, it took only a few moments for him to remember last night and groan in frustration before getting up and changing into an outfit that better suited the day.
Deidara had a habit of wearing colors that expressed how he was feeling, tho most didn't notice that, he would keep different colored wrist bands on him for incase his mood changed throughout the day. So He know wore a gray shirt with a bleeding heart on it in bright red, faded blue jeans with an angry red belt holding them on his slim hips and black head band along with his eye scope. He put his hair up in its normal ponytail and put his eyeliner on.
When he finished Sasori began to move so Deidara went over and got close to his ear screaming "GOOD MORNING SASORI UN!" Sasori then proceeded to fall of the bed and hold his cranium. Deidara didn't care; he was feeling animosity towards Sasori for last night's stunt.
"Morning brat." Sasori growled then blinked. "Where am I?"
"You showed up at my window last night drunk and decided to proclaim you love me only to push me on the bed and start kissing me violently yeah." Deidara crossed his arms as he replayed the information to Sasori and waited for it all to sink in.
Sasori only blinked "oh."
Deidara rolled his eyes and started to walk away before Sasori took his hand and dragged him back "What did you answer when I told you that?" Sasori asked the blonde who made a tick noise with his tongue and rolled his eyes.
"I said I'll believe you if you say it sober yeah." Deidara was plain and blunt with this and again started to walk away, but Sasori held tight to the boy's hand; which caused Deidara some pain.
It was very surprising to Deidara when Sasori pulled him back and kissed him softly. After a while Deidara kissed back and Sasori let go of his hand, Deidara took this opportunity to (pause for dramatic effect.) push away from Sasori who looked at him with confusion.
"I have to leave to get my stuff and fully move into this room un."
"Move into this room?" Sasori repeated looking confused.
"Yeah I'm moving in with Pain and Konan 'cause my mom sucks un." Deidara shrugged as if it didn't bother him that other people saw his mother un fit to be his mother.
Deidara left and Sasori sat in the room tell he came back with Konan the later looking extremely pissed.
"What did your mom do?" Sasori asked as Deidara sat the last of the three bags in his new room.
"Laughed and said by, she even helped me pack un. Konan seems pissed that she laughed as I was leaving and pulled out some alcohol, yeah." Deidara said as he put cloths into the drawers and the picture of him and his parents on the night stand.
"Deidara," Sasori paused "I'm sorry about your mother." He ended awkwardly.
Deidara really didn't care, the whole thing made him feel oddly numb. Deidara new his mother better than anything and he knows that she was doing what she believes is best for him. She really is a good women, she just has an odd way of showing. "Don't be I don't care un."
It was a month after that that Deidara saw on the TV that his mother had committed suicide. The funeral was small and short and soon Deidara was staring down at both his parents' graves in the rain. Deidara still only felt numbness but soon he looked to the sky and smiled. At least now both his parents were happy, so it was a bitter sweet end for them.
"Deidara, let's go." Sasori called out making Deidara turn and smile at him; Sasori in his black trench coat holding a black umbrella in one hand and the other outstretched for Deidara to take and hold on to.
Deidara pulled his gloved hands out of his pockets and put it into Sasori's as he began to walk away from the yesterday, live in today, and into tomorrow with an open heart. "Thanks Sasori, for coming with me. un"
"No problem brat." Sasori growled through his clenched teeth, he really did hate the cold. "I do it because I love you."
"And I know you'll never leave me un." Deidara smiled and kissed Sasori before they reached the car. Sasori dropped the umbrella and kissed back, wrapping his arms around Deidara's neck and his hands in Deidara's soft blonde hair.
Yes, Deidara was happy with his new family, new life, and new friends who cared about him. Deidara was happy, his parents are now happy, so I guess this means the ending his happy; even if it could only be made that way though death.
Death….it's an oddly comforting yet freighting word. The thought of leaving and no longer suffering is a nice thought, but it is also scary to think that one day your body will be no more, one day you'll be in the ground and honestly who would remember you once you're dead?
It's sad to say but in the weeks to come Deidara didn't even think of his mother, he didn't remember and that in its self is a frightening concept. Yet life goes on and people live, people die, people come into this world and people leave it, you move on to different things for life will never stay still.
That's a good thing tho because Deidara is no longer the person next door; no, Deidara is now the boy with a happy family and bright future, he is the boy who overcame things and moved on. Deidara is Deidara, he will always be himself. The best thing is that there are people who love him for that. So Deidara will keep on moving on with his life and live for what he loves with who he loves and he will no longer be just the boy next door.
~~~ The end….sort of ~~
Okay so I know most aren't going to read this but I think you should.
"Much as we may wish to make a new beginning, some part of us resists doing so as though we were making the first step toward disaster."- William Throsby Bridges
Frist off I want to thank everyone for reading this and telling me to keep going with it, really I would have never gotten this far without all of you. And I'm sorry I lost inspiration with this and ended it early but I really don't care for this story anymore and you can't write what you don't care for.
The reason I say sort of with ending is because a story can never end unless your life ends, so this is merely were I'm closing the book and ending the chapter. Even after you die sometimes your story still goes on as you are thought of and grieved over by the living. The words of those of who have long passed can encourage others to live and get through things so I encourage you to live a life worth living and one that will make people smile. Show people to not only realize the bad but the good in the world and rejoice in the beauty that is there yet so solemnly seen.
Remember that you are worth something no matter what others say, you are special. Don't let others bring you down and smile because it'll make them mad and show that you are better than them. I ask, no beg you not bring others down. Don't make fun of or hurt people; be the good in the world that you and so many others want to see. "How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world."- Anne Frank. Be friend to those who are friendless and help bring light to those in darkness, be open minded with people and don't judge them. "Every wall is a door.- Ralph Waldo Emerson"
(Arriving at one goal is the starting point to another.-John Dewey)
If you are someone who needs a friend or would like someone to talk to than by all means contact me cause I enjoy meeting new people, making friends, and helping when I'm needed. Sometimes all you need is someone to listen to you and I will be that person if you're willing to talk.
"We all have our masks, things we don't want to see, but break mine away, and you'll see the true me."
- Meagan Nichols (A close friend of mine.)
Have an amazing day full of sunshine and smiles (I know that phrases gets annoying but it's my signature thing.) and Remember you're not someone next door. You are you and you will always be you no matter what anyone else says!
"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. The old skin has to be shed before the new one can come."- Joseph Campbell