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Chapter Nine:
Someday
****** NOTE*******: This chapter takes place during Revenge of the Sith when Anakin is visiting Palpatine at the Opera and he learns Grevious's location. Keep that in mind while reading! Thank you that is all!
Two weeks later…
Padme opened the door to her apartment silently and gazed into the dark night. Her visitor stepped into the dim light of her apartment and received an embrace immediately.
"Oh Obi-Wan, I'm so glad you're here," Padme whispered to him sounding relieved.
"What is the matter? Is there something wrong?" Obi-Wan asked with concern.
"Please come in," Padme said motioning Obi-Wan away from the door and towards her living room. "Why don't you sit down on the sofa and relax. Can I get you anything to eat or drink?"
"No," Obi-Wan said sitting down. "Don't you think it is a little late for me to be paying a visit? I was under the impression that there was some sort of emergency. Where is Anakin?"
"He left," Padme sighed. It seemed to her he always had some excuse to get away from being at home with her lately. "He won't be coming back home tonight either."
"He left? He left to go where?" Obi-Wan asked puzzled. He knew for certain that the Jedi hadn't assigned Anakin anything that would keep him from being home.
"Your guess is as good as mine!" Padme said as she let out a sigh and shook her head.
"He leaves you alone like this often?"
"Well he was here last night, but he has been leaving more and more frequent as of late." Padme said with sadness and disappointment. She couldn't help but wonder if it was due to the news of the baby that repelled Anakin from seeing her more often.
"Is that why you called me over? Are you feeling lonely? You aren't afraid are you?" Obi-Wan asked with more tenderness than his voice normally carried.
"Well a little bit of both I suppose, but that isn't the reason I called you over. I called you about something else…" Padme trailed off as she absent mindedly ran her hands through her mahogany curls. "I am worried about Ani and how he has been behaving lately. There are some things that I still don't understand. I feel like he has become a different person! Am I just crazy or do you notice this as well?"
"No, I follow you. I have been noticing that Anakin has been behaving rather suspicious lately. Once again, I feel like he is on edge. I am also becoming a little unnerved about all of the time he spends with Chancellor Palpatine. When I ask him about it, he becomes incredibly defensive," Obi-Wan gave a concerned look to Padme, who was now pacing around the room. "Do you know of anything that may have happened to Anakin that would work him up like this? And Padme, please sit down with me and stop pacing! You are going to dig a hole in the ground if you keep that up!" Obi-Wan teased.
Padme gave him a sour look at his ill timed joke and sat next to him. Refraining from commenting about his silly pacing remark, Padme responded, "Well Anakin has been having nightmares again."
"He is having them again? I hope he had the sense to talk to Yoda at least, because he sure hasn't told me about them! What are they about this time?"
Padme's eyes looked away from Obi-Wan and she shifted uncomfortably on the sofa. Padme had been hoping to not mention anything about her pregnancy to Obi-Wan, especially tonight. She still had some plans for this evening and news of the baby would just spoil it all. "They are about me again. He had another dream where he lost me."
"Lost you? You mean in another affair?" Obi-Wan asked slightly baffled.
"No, but I would really rather not discuss this."
"Why not?" Obi-Wan inquired mildly surprised. It was unlike his friend to hide anything from him.
"I'm just tired of talking about Anakin's nightmares that's all. It only results in more suspicions, implied accusations, and arguments. It's frustrating to deal with the knowledge that someone who claims to love you doesn't trust you. I don't know how love can exist without trust. The man I agreed to marry has become a stranger to me right before my very eyes it seems! I don't know what to do anymore…" Padme said burying her head in her hands.
"Why haven't you told him any of this? What are you afraid Anakin will do to you? He won't kill you if that is what you are afraid of. All that would really happen is that you would hurt his pride and his feelings but that is not a terrible crime either. After all, Anakin isn't a baby, Padme, he needs to learn to deal with loss. We all have to go eventually, in one way or another," Obi-Wan said reaching out and taking Padme's hand as she lifted her head. Obi-Wan looked deeply into her eyes. "You know, Padme, Anakin is not the only person that is changing drastically! I remember a time years ago, when you were unstoppable! Nobody could tell you what to do or how to feel! What is happening to you Padme? What has made you become so submissive, especially to Anakin? Where is that spirited young queen that I fell in love with so many years ago?"
Padme wanted to lower her head in shame, but her eyes were locked to Obi-Wan's. Everything he had said was true and it awoke in her a new spirit full of feelings that had remained dormant for years. She had been so focused on the changes that Anakin had been undergoing, that she hadn't even realized that she was changing for the worse! It was as if she had been hypnotized by Anakin or that his words had cast a spell on her! Since when did she let this boy tell her how to feel?! Padme felt so irritated with herself! Why had she just sat back and allowed Anakin to walk all over her under the façade of love?!? Ooh she was so infuriated! She wanted to walk right up to Anakin and – and – wait a minute… Suddenly she registered the last words Obi-Wan had spoken to her.
Obi-Wan smiled as he watched the metamorphosis taking place right before his eyes. He could read every emotion and feeling that she had by the looks that passed over her face. It was nice to finally see Padme becoming herself again. She was finally casting off the cloak of grief and deceit Anakin's actions had given her, which had been so greatly suppressing her lively spirit.
Suddenly Padme spoke. "Wait a minute, Obi-Wan. You loved me?"
"Yes I loved you – actually I still do – I don't think I ever stopped, even if I tried. Then again I never really wanted to really try to stop loving you. Maybe I never stopped trying because I foolishly believe that someday there may actually be hope for us," Obi-Wan said beaming.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Padme exclaimed. Obi-Wan couldn't tell if she was upset or excited.
"I was going to, but when Qui-Gon died… And after I had tried to find you and tell you, but I realized that I wasn't the only man that had eyes for you. I am surprised that you weren't engaged to Anakin at age thirteen by the way he spoke of you. I guess I became just a bit too selfless, and I allowed my Jedi life be my primary concern. I never did stop thinking about you though and all that could have been."
"Could have been? Why could have been?"
"Well you belong to Anakin now" Obi-Wan responded.
"I belong to Anakin?! Of course I don't belong to Anakin. I am a person and not some possession! And as a person, I have the privilege of choosing who I want to be with!" Padme said hopping into Obi-Wan's lap. "And guess who I choose?" Padme whispered playfully as she kissed him softly on the lips.
The kiss froze him. Obi-Wan wanted with all of his might to leave, to stop this before he had affair with his best friend's wife; however, Obi-Wan found that he did not have the will power to resist Padme, not tonight. Despite all of the warnings that screamed to him in his head, he lifted Padme's chin and kissed her back passionately. The kiss started slow and somewhat uncertain, as if the two of them were unsure how to proceed. It only took them a few seconds before they threw caution to the wind and cast aside the guilt and regret that may follow their actions. She wrapped her hand around Obi-Wan's back, pulling him closer. His hand burrowed itself into Padme's hair to support the back of her head. The kisses then came hastily, almost desperately when Padme allowed Obi-Wan entrance to fully explore her mouth. When their tongues battled for dominance, things began to happen rapidly. Obi-Wan leaned Padme back so that he could get a better range, as he began searching Padme's neck for that special soft spot. Padme's small moan that confirmed his discovery snapped him back to reality. He now realized that he was leaning over Padme from tipping her back and was practically on top of her.
"Wait – no" Obi-Wan's hoarse sounding voice choked out. "I can't do this – we shouldn't…"
Padme's eyes shone with surprise and confusion. "Why not? Obi-Wan I love you. This is all I will ever want. I don't care about anything else, I just want to be with you."
"I know, darling, but not tonight – someday maybe but not now, not tonight. It would ruin everything," Obi-Wan said sadly.
"But Obi-Wan, I know now that I had made the wrong choice when I picked Anakin over you. I always thought that you were uninterested in me – that you didn't have time for love. I know now that we are in love, a stronger love than any love that I have ever had. How can you ask me to be with someone that I don't love?" Padme asked as Obi-Wan stood up.
"Stop it Padme," He said shaking her hand off his shoulder as he began walking towards the door. "You are not thinking clearly. Anakin is very unstable right now and he needs our support. He may be pushing us away now, but in reality he is really screaming out to us for help. You must stay with him, at least for now. You cannot say that you do not love him; you know that is a lie. You care for Anakin just as much as I do. He is a brother to me and a husband to you. It is our duty to stand by him or at least do as much as we can for him. If we give up on him now, there will be no hope for him. He may turn from us anyway, but we need to at least try to save him."
Padme shook her head. How this man could be so loving and wise was beyond belief. If he had chosen to join politics instead of the Jedi, the universe would probably not even be in this war!
Obi-Wan was reaching for the door when Padme grabbed his hand. "Obi-Wan please don't leave me. I do not want to be alone in the dark anymore. Stay by my side, just for tonight. Please?" Padme said in a soft, low voice, that was almost a whisper.
Obi-Wan could not refuse those pleading eyes as he turned around to face that innocent look. What was the harm? After all, the request seemed harmless enough.
"Alright, my dearest, I will stay, but only for an hour."
"How about until I fall asleep?" Padme's angelic voice negotiated.
"Alright until you are asleep, but no longer," Obi-Wan said as he followed behind Padme, as she led him toward the bedroom. Obi-Wan stopped her and shook his head. If Anakin walked in for some reason, the situation would be a lot more difficult to explain. Instead, Padme walked back over to the living room sofa with Obi-Wan and sat down next to him.
"Are you sure you are going to be comfortable sleeping on the couch? I mean you could sleep in your bed and I will sit here for a little while," Obi-Wan offered as Padme cuddled up against him.
"No. I have waited long enough to be with you and I plan on getting as close to you as you will let me!" Padme said wrapping her arms around her Jedi like he was a teddy bear.
Obi-Wan smiled as he put his hand behind her head and onto her shoulder. His thumb thoughtlessly caressed the exposed skin slightly above the straps to her silky blue nightgown. It was a beautiful night outside. Speeders and ships flew by, casting specks of light across the living room floor. A cool breeze from an open window drifted into the room and Obi-Wan felt Padme shiver under his fingertips as he held her.
Obi-Wan shifted Padme against the sofa as he removed his Jedi robe and wrapped it about her. Padme could have never wished for a more perfect blanket. It smelled of Obi-Wan, laser fire, and some far off places whose adventures whispered pictures and images into her mind of far off places. It was not long before these pictures whisked her off to dreamland, where the man next to her stood with an outstretched hand that offered for her to join him.
The minutes passed slowly for Obi-Wan. Lost in thought he had hardly noticed that the beautiful woman beside him had fallen asleep, ending part of the bargain and allowing him to leave. Despite the calm peaceful aura the room held, his thoughts raged inside his mind restlessly.
Where is Anakin? Surely he would enjoy spending time with his wife if he was only here for her! What could he possibly be doing that he deems more important than being with Padme?
His stomach churned as his thoughts turned to Palpatine. Could Anakin be with him? Should he go look for Anakin? What if he was in some kind of trouble?
Obi-Wan made an attempt to stand, but Padme held fast to him and mumbled something in her sleep that he couldn't decipher.
Maybe I could stay for a few more minutes. After all, she is sleeping so soundly. Obi-Wan thought as he relaxed his head upon hers. He closed his eyes and once again caught scent of her hair. It smelled so welcoming and inviting. Like a sunny meadow filled with wildflowers…
No, it wasn't a meadow, it was a river bank. A young Padme was sitting next to him dipping her toes in the water and laughing. She wore a sunshine yellow top with short sleeves and little intricate beads that depicted flowers all over the top. The blouse was somewhat low cut and exposed her breasts ever so slightly, letting his imagination run wild. Her skirt was knee length and the color of earthy brown, which complimented her chocolate eyes. He smiled at her admiringly, as she splashed him playfully. He laughed and splashed her back, then held her hand. When he wiped away the water droplets from his face, his other hand brushed his Padawan braid. Obi-Wan knew that he must be dreaming, but the dream was too sweet to let it end now. He leaned forward to kiss Padme when he felt a strangely familiar presence. Obi-Wan whipped around suddenly. Qui-Gon Jinn was standing several feet away from he and Padme.
"Obi-Wan, come over here," His master called to him.
"But Master...," Obi-Wan's voice pleaded. "I want to stay here with Padme."
"No, Obi-Wan, you must come here. There is something I want you to do. I need you to train Anakin for me." Qui-Gon said gravely.
Far off in the distance, a small blond boy was approaching them. It was little Anakin, with his arms outstretched, as if he was expecting to be lifted into the air. Then Obi-Wan turned back to Qui-Gon and saw him disappearing.
"NO! Wait! Master, please don't leave!" Obi-Wan stood up and started running towards him as Padme stood and watched him with a terrified look on her face.
The worst part about the dream is that as fast as he ran to his master, he was going nowhere. It seemed to him that he was running in place. With every step he took, his master was fading more and more.
"Train him… train him…train him…" Qui-Gon's voice echoed.
Finally, Obi-Wan reached him, but as he did so his master disappeared entirely.
Obi-Wan turned back to Padme and saw her watching little Anakin running toward her; however, something was changing in little Anakin. He was aging with ever step he took and so was Padme. Now Obi-Wan sped back towards Padme. When he reached her, Anakin and Padme were now as old as they were when he was awake, yet there was something different about Anakin. The hood of his Jedi robe was pulled up over his face. There were tears in Padme's eyes as she gazed at Anakin.
"Obi-Wan," Padme's voice quivered as she gazed fearfully at Anakin, "Help m-m-me!"
Padme ran to Obi-Wan and buried her face in his arms.
Anakin was pacing now. With each step he took fire arose from his footsteps. It spread quickly in a ring around them. There was no escape. Anakin's eyes were fixed on Obi-Wan with the same intensity as the raging fire that was consuming everything that was good. The grass and trees disintegrated to ashes. The beautiful river dried up and was now filled with fire and molten lava. All that was a work of beauty and full of life was consumed until Obi-Wan no longer recognized where he was. Who had created this monster before him? Was Anakin like this because of his training? Where was the little boy that had been running towards them? Would he ever come back? How could someone so evil come from someone who had once been so innocent?
"Give her back to me. She isn't yours she's mine! I DON'T WANT YOU TO TOUCH HER!!" Anakin yelled lunging at him.
"ANAKIN STOP!" Padme screamed, as she turned from Obi-Wan's arms and stood before Anakin, stopping him in his attempt to attack Obi-Wan.
"STAND OUT OF MY WAY!" Anakin shouted, as he began to choke Padme with the Force and then tossing her aside like a broken doll.
Obi-Wan ran to Padme, but Anakin blocked his way, and put his light saber dangerously close to Obi-Wan's neck.
"Anakin, let me go! Padme needs me!" Obi-Wan pleaded.
"NO! YOU WILL NOT TOUCH HER AGAIN!!" Anakin said raising his blade.
Where did so much fire and destruction come from? And it came so suddenly. It was terrifying. Obi-Wan drew his blade. He had no other choices. He would have to fight the fire with his own fire.
"ANAKIN!!" Obi-Wan screamed out from sleep. He sat up drenched in sweat and was breathing frantically. It took him a moment to register where he was. Sunlight was streaming into Padme's living room. Padme was still sleeping; her head was nestled on his chest. The shout had sent her tossing. It wouldn't be long before she, too, would be waking.
"Mmm… Obi-Wan are you ok? Did you say something?" Padme said stretching, "What time is it? Oh my gosh it's morning! Obi-Wan you said you wouldn't stay this long!" Padme said turning to face him with a smile.
"I guess I just drifted to sleep," Obi-Wan said helping her up with one hand as he quickly wiped away the perspiration from his forehead with the other. "I really must be going now, Love."
"Alright, if you have to," Padme said frowning as she began taking his robe off of her. "Thank you for this and for staying. Please drop by as often as you can." Padme kissed his cheek as they walked toward the door. "Obi-Wan?"
"Yes?"
"I love you."
Obi-Wan paused monetarily before he, too, confessed, "I love you too. I will be back soon."
"I look forward to it," Padme said. "Take care of yourself alright?"
"I shall try my best," Obi-Wan said running his hand through her hair and then kissed her goodbye.
Padme watched him leave, closing the door sadly behind her. She turned and after a few moments, began to get dressed and ready for the day. When she returned home from the Senate, Anakin was there. He seemed to be staring blankly at the ground. Instead of questioning him, she greeted him warmly. At one point during the conversation, Anakin asked her a strange and unexpected question that she was unprepared for.
"Was Obi-Wan here?"
The question was not shouted and did not contain any hostility. It surprised Padme, and so she answered it honestly.
"Yes, he was here this morning. He is worried about you."
