A/N: I'm not sure how well I've pulled this chapter off, I've just finished it and didn't spend long writing it which is sometimes a good thing because if I spend too long on a chapter I can change too much and ruin it! So, I hope you enjoy this! Please leave reviews, they really do make me happy :)

2 weeks later.

Addison sat on her deck drinking a glass of wine and watching the waves that evening and sighed softly to herself, hearing footsteps she looked around and saw Sam taking a few steps outside, she caught his eye and smiled tentatively, he looked at her blankly and turned around and went back inside, after taking a deep breath she slammed her glass down on the table beside her and stormed over to his house, opening the sliding door and slamming it closed.

"Addison…" he started.

"No" she snapped "No you don't get to 'Addison' your way out of this" she glared "Have I done something wrong? Have I done something so wrong that you can't even stand on your own deck if I'm outside? What have I done Sam, please tell me, because this isn't fair, I can't do this anymore, this isn't fair!"

"You are with Jake" Sam said firmly "He should be your priority, not me, we're over Addison, you left…"

"I did not leave! We both agreed to breaking up, that doesn't mean I left you, I will never leave you, no matter how hard you push me away I will never leave you, you're still my best friend, I, I have never felt as scared as I did when I was holding my hands over your chest trying to stop you bleeding out, you do not get to tell me that I can't be there for you, that I can't care for you, I thought, I thought you were going to die Sam" she sobbed "I thought you were going to die right there in front of me and not being able to see you, to know you're ok first hand, it is killing me so please, please just stop this, please, I can't do it anymore, you can't do this to me anymore"

"I don't know what you want me to say" Sam said hoarsely after a moment of silence, both of them staring at each other "You being here, it won't make anything better Addison, maybe it'll make you feel better but this, this didn't happen to you, this happened to me and I, I don't want you here, you just need to go home and, get over it"

Before she knew it Addison had reached out and slapped him hard, she took in a sharp breath and froze "I…" she choked out "I'm, I'm sorry, oh god, I'm sorry" she whispered, she carefully lay her hand on his sore cheek and looked down at the floor as more tears built in her eyes, as she looked up again to meet his own she stepped closer and kissed him passionately, after the moment of shock had passed Sam returned the kiss, holding her closely and moving a hand up into her hair, all of the months of being apart, the anger and sadness and hurt they felt poured out of them as they reunited, both of them letting their conscience disappear as they headed up to his bedroom.

~x~

Addison woke up with a gasp as she did most mornings having developed a string of nightmares since finding Sam bleeding out on his floor, she sat up and rubbed at her eyes and felt his body shift beside her in his bed, she looked down at him and he started to wake.

"Morning" she said quietly.

"You're still here" he mumbled tiredly.

"Yeah I, I fell asleep and, I'm sorry, I'll go" she moved so she was sat on the edge of the bed and hurriedly put on her clothes.

"I'm going to Florida" he said simply as he sat up "To see my Mom, and to take, to take Corinne's ashes, we're going to spread them somewhere"

"Oh" Addison said sadly "Are you ok to fly?"

"I was ok to have sex" he snapped slightly.

"Fine" Addison sighed, standing up "We need to talk about this, about last night…."

"Last night was a mistake" Sam said quietly, avoiding her eye "You have a boyfriend Addison, you should go to him, last night was a mistake, we were a mistake" Addison gulped back some tears and left his bedroom, slamming the door behind her.

~x~

"Sam?" Pete called out as he let himself into his friends house that lunch time "I bought some lunch, you here?"

"I'm upstairs, come on up" Sam called back, Pete climbed the stairs and walked into Sam's bedroom.

"Hey man, what are you doing?" he asked as he saw Sam packing a suitcase.

"I'm going to my Mom's for a few weeks, we need to scatter Corinne's ashes"

"Oh, you're staying for a few weeks?"

"I need a break from this place, I really just, can't be here right now, I'll call you"

"I could come with you" Pete suggested "Just for a little while"

"I don't know how long I'll be there, you have Lucas, I'll be fine on my own, I need some time with my Mom so…"

"I understand" Pete nodded "At least let me drive you to the airport"

"Sure" Sam agreed "That'd be great, thank you, will you take some of the stuff out of my kitchen that'll expire?"

"Yeah of course, we don't want you coming back to that smell" Pete chuckled "I'll go and get it all together, when do we need to leave?"

"About an hour" Sam replied "Thanks for uh, thanks for everything, since I came home…"

"Hey, you've done a lot for me too over the years, this is nothing" Pete laughed, Sam smiled a little and Pete headed back down to the kitchen.

~x~

"Hey, Addison's home, you gonna go and say goodbye?" Pete asked as he put Sam's case into his car "Have you even told her you're going?"

"Yeah, I told her" he nodded "We don't need to say goodbye"

"You sure?"

"Lets just go Pete" Sam sighed heavily, Pete nodded and went to the drivers side of his car, he watched as Sam looked over to Addison's house and sighed again before getting into the car, they drove off in silence and after a few minutes Pete smirked a little.

"What is it?" Sam asked "What are you smirking at?"

"You slept with her didn't you" Pete said simply.

"Wha...what?" Sam stuttered.

"Addison, you slept with her, that's why you wouldn't say goodbye"

"It was stupid, we were fighting and, it just happened, it didn't mean anything"

"Dude, seriously" Pete smirked "You think I'm gonna buy that?"

"She wants Jake, she's happy with him, I am not good for her, especially not now"

"Sam she isn't happy" Pete said softly "She hasn't been happy in a long time, I know her, you know I know her and she is not happy, she wants to be with you, she's still completely head over heels in love with you and if you haven't been able to see that over the past couple of weeks then, then you must be blind"

"She's not in love with me" Sam sighed "And I, I basically told her that we were a mistake so, if anything she just hates me right now"

"She doesn't, I'm sure she's pissed off cuz you're an asshole…."

"Hey I…."

"You were an asshole" Pete smirked "I get it, I get why you'd say stuff like that, you said a few things you shouldn't when I was with her and you wanted her, this is all of that all over again, you want her back and if I turned the car around right now and you told her all of this, told her the truth, then I can guarantee she'd end it with Jake straight away"

"Addison and I, we've never worked, we only end up hurting each other so what's the point? I just wanna go and spend some time with my Mom and, forget all of this ever even happened, ok?"

"Ok, fine" Pete sighed "If you think that's for the best"

"I do" Sam nodded, he looked out of the window and Pete shook his head in disbelief.

~x~

"Jake?" Addison said quietly as she stood in the doorway of his office that afternoon.

"Hey" he smiled "You ok? I didn't think you were coming in today"

"We need to talk" she said as she closed the door, Jake moved to sit on the couch and she sat down next to him, letting out a slight breath.

"You still love him" he said gently, Addison's head instantly shot up like a deer in headlights "I'm not blind Addison, I know, I've always known, I just took the opportunity to start something with you and, I probably shouldn't have"

"I did want to try with you, he was moving on and I wanted to move on too..."

"But you will never be able to move on from him, he's who you are meant to be with and if he makes you happy, truly happy, then you should be with him"

"I hate how nice you are sometimes" Addison said with a soft laugh.

"I know, it sucks doesn't it" Jake smirked.

"Thank you" she mumbled as she hugged him "For being there when I needed you"

"That's what friends are for" he smiled "You should tell him"

"It's not the right time, he's on his way to Florida to see his Mom and, we're not exactly on the best of terms"

"Well when he comes back then, he'll have cooled off, you're gonna be fine"

"I'm so sorry" Addison whispered "I'm so sorry I, I messed everything up. I'm so sorry" not knowing what to say Jake wrapped his arms around her and let her cry.

Chapter 11 to follow….