Author's Note: I am SO SORRY that I have not updated this in awhile! I haven't been in the best of moods lately. But I am feeling a bit better, so I'm updating! Yay!

So a few things I'd like to say

1) CNovak929, your comment about the last chapter made me laugh so badly! Ahaha, it was so good :)

2) Stephaine March is coming back on SVU on february 17th!?what!? Can we please discuss how many this is? Please? I kinda wish that Diane Neal would show up, but hey, I like Stephaine March too. She's a great actress and she has the same birthday as me. Can't complain! Besides, my philosophy is Novak and Cabot,whether separate or together is (greater than) Greyleck. I'm sure that a lot of you can agree! :)

3) There's only one more chapter after this one! Hopefully you like it, but I must add a warning. Self-Harm is presented in the first part of this chapter, and may be triggering. Please read with caution. Also, Kim is like...I can't really explain it. But I definitely gave her some personality and some background story, something Wolf and the producers/writers have not done yet! Ooooh, maybe we'll get some background on Greyleck the week before Cabot comes back!? Like, why is that happening? Is Greyleck going back to DC to deal with personal issues? Ooooh, now I'm excited! Ahaha, but anyway, hopefully you like this chapter. :)

Read and enjoy,

-blueskies723

A few weeks later, Casey was still an emotional wreck. She was becoming worse as she wasn't ready to be a witness in her ex-boyfriend's case in two days. In the past four weeks, she ended up being self-destructive. Olivia doesn't understand how Casey could unlock the liquor cabinet with the lock, but she does. Almost every day, Olivia had to get the large bottle of alcohol out of a drunken Casey's hand and lock it back up in the cabinet.

But when Olivia was sleeping on a mid-July day, instead of hearing a drunken Casey, she heard a sobbing Casey.

She thought that Casey was just crying, but Olivia decided to check on her friend. She sat up, got up from the bed and slowly left her bedroom. She was still half-asleep, but she knew what was going on. She knew that it was around 2 in the morning, and that Casey didn't have a bottle of rum on the coffee table in front of her.

But Olivia wished she did, because it was better than the recent alternative.

When Olivia walked to the front of the couch, she noticed that Casey had a pair of scissors in her hands. Then she noticed the blood.

"Casey!"

Casey was still crying as Olivia ran over to her. She reached out and tried to grab the scissors out of her hands.

"Give me the scissors!"

"Leave me alone!"

Olivia gave Casey a tiny pinch on the hand that held the scissors. Casey yelp, loosening the grip of them. Olivia quickly took the scissors out of Casey's hands and chucked them across the room.

"Why-"

"Why did I do that?" Olivia asked "The same reason why I have to take away the alcoholic beverages from you when you're drunk."

Olivia sat down next to Casey on the couch, touched Casey's arm. Casey flinched, moving her right arm to her left shoulder.

"Casey, I only want to see how much damage you caused on your arm."

"I didn't cause any damage" Casey lied, but when Olivia gently grabbed her arms, she didn't fight. Olivia brought Casey's arm in sight, seeing that the cuts she created her long and shallow. That was a small relief for Olivia; at least she didn't have to bring Casey to the hospital.

"Is it okay if I clean these up?" Olivia asked. Casey nodded.

"Stay here, I'll be right back."

She got up and ran to the bathroom, grabbing hydrogen peroxide, antibiotic cream, and band aids. Olivia was sitting next to Casey on the couch only a minute later. When Olivia dabbed Casey's arms, she noticed that her friend didn't care about the sting of the hydrogen peroxide. She found that odd because the last time Olivia nursed a wound, Casey would have been a baby about the whole situation. She would have cried, flinched, and she even smacked the whole container of hydrogen peroxide on the floor. Of course, this was before disbarment and Mark Callerini.

"You must think I'm crazy" Casey said quietly "You must be thinking 'How could she possibly do this to herself?'"

"You're not crazy, Case. All I'm thinking about is why you did this" Olivia asked "I'm also wondering why my friend isn't spilling hydrogen peroxide all over the floor like last time."

Casey weakly smiled, remembering that moment. She ran too fast in her heels when she and Olivia were trying to catch up to the hot dog cart for lunch. She fell on her knee and the sidewalk gave her a nasty scrape on her left knee.

But then she came back to the present.

"I'm not sure how to explain it" Casey whispered "Maybe I was missing Mark beating the shit out of me, so now I'm harming myself. I loved him, you know. How can anyone believe that someone you love can be such a horrible person?"

Olivia finished rubbing the antibiotic cream on Casey's cuts. She heard what Casey said, she just didn't know how to reply as she stuck the band aids on Casey's cut up arm.

Usually, Olivia would have left Casey home by herself but now everything was different. She would risk having a drunk Casey fumbling around her apartment (not that it happened yet), but she couldn't risk having her hurt herself again. What if she cut too deep? What if she cut near her wrists? Olivia shivered at those thoughts, as she drove herself and Casey to the precinct.

Minutes later, they walked into the squad room. Munch was sitting at his desk, and noticed that Casey was with Olivia.

"Hey Casey" Munch said, looking up from the newspaper he was reading. He didn't read the newspaper for the "political crap" he commonly referenced to, but for the advice column and the comics. At least they were no conspiracies.

"Hi" Casey said. Olivia turned to her and pointed to her chair at her desk.

"Sit there and don't move"

"Fine"

"Can you keep an eye on her, Munch?" Olivia asked, turning her back to Casey.

"Sure, I can do the duty of Casey sitting"

Casey laughed at his corny joke, and the both of them talked as Olivia walked towards Cragen's office.

She swung open the door and saw Elliot, Kim, and Cragen there. Elliot and Kim were standing next to each other, while Cragen was sitting at his desk.

"We need to talk" Olivia said, shutting the door.

"Can it wait?" the captain asked "I'm a little busy with these two trying to figure out our most recent case."

"Unless you want Casey trying to slit her wrists, I guess it could wait" Olivia said sarcastically. Elliot's eyes almost popped out his sockets.

"What do you mean slitting her wrists?"

"I think she needs seriously help" Olivia explained "See, I don't mind if Casey is a fumbling drunk in my apartment."

"She's drinking every day?" Kim asked

"The last time I checked, Casey's well being was none of your concern" Olivia snapped, walking pass Elliot to Kim.

"Don't get defensive, I was only asking a question."

"Well she's not your friend, so don't ask it."

"But she is one of my witnesses" Kim snapped as she got closer in Olivia's face "Don't you dare try to question me about my job, Benson. I think you have been doing that more than anyone here at this precinct because you can't get over the fact that I took your best friend's job! Let me tell you about that, I'm sick of it!"

She got out of Olivia's face and stormed passed her and Elliot.

"I'll be in my office if anyone actually gives a shit about anything other than their friends around here" Kim snarled as she opened the door. She slammed the captain's door shut; even one of the captain's pictures fell to the floor. The three of them looked at each other until the captain said something.

"Kim's right, you know" he said, ending the silence "Now, what about Casey?"

"Last night I saw her cutting herself" Olivia said, ignoring the fact that she made Greyleck angry "She's been self-destructive, and I think she needs therapy..."

"Except you don't want her to see the same therapist as you" Elliot said.

"Captain, is there any chance you can call Huang and see if he can recommend a therapist in the area?"

"Yeah, I can do that and have him watch Casey for the next few days while you do your job" Cragen said "I don't think Munch can watch Casey as long as you think he can."

"Thank you" Olivia said.

Both detectives walked out of the captain's office.

"I think you need to apologize to Greyleck" Elliot suggested, knowing that he was going to start an argument between them.

"Why do I need to apologize?" Olivia asked with her angry tone appearing "She needs to apologize for being in my face about Casey!"

"This is what she was talking about. You're so protective of Casey now, and you were protective of her when Greyleck rudely talked about Casey. So what? Yes, she was rude and hard to get along with at the beginning, but now she's not bad" Elliot said as they continued walking with Olivia "You never gave her a chance because all you were thinking about was how Casey was a better prosecutor, a better friend. Hell, if you gave Greyleck a chance, she could be just a good a friend and prosecutor to you just like Casey was."

Olivia didn't say anything. Instead, she let Elliot's words sink into her head.

"You think about that while I look through these files with Fin, okay?" Elliot said as he started to walk away. She watched him walk towards Fin, knowing that Elliot was right. When she walked passed her desk, Casey called out to her.

Olivia ignored her and walked out of the squad room.

Kim heard a knock on the door. She thought that it would McCoy, Elliot, or the captain. She even thought that Casey was a possible person walking through that door when Kim said "Come on in", but she was surprised to see Olivia walking in and shutting her office door.

"Kim, I'm sorry-"

"No, it was my fault" Kim said, looking back down at her paperwork "I was out of line."

"You were out of line for one minute. I was out of line for the past nine months" Olivia confessed.

Kim shut the folder of paperwork and watched Olivia sit in the chair next to her desk.

"I never gave you a chance" Olivia explained "I was still wrapped up in my own little world where Casey was still the ADA, and that no one else could possibly take over her spot. I shouldn't have gotten my friendship with Casey get in the way of our relationship as co-workers."

Kim nodded slowly, not knowing what to say. She was still shocked about the fact that Olivia was apologizing to her. In the nine months that Kim worked here, she never got the chance to hear Olivia's soft side.

"I should have known that it would be hard for you" Kim said "Casey was and still is a very good friend of yours. It's hard for you like it was hard for me to leave Washington DC"

Now Olivia was shocked. Kim was opening up to someone in the squad, and it was hers.

"Losing someone is very hard. I know because I didn't expect my ex-husband to divorce me. But he did, and I only wanted to get away from him as soon as possible because he would remind me of all the memories we shared together. Maybe that's what Casey did. She lost contact with you because she didn't want to be reminded that she worked here and that someone else took her job. Now I know why the both of you have been judgmental towards me."

"But I didn't mean to be-"

"You say that now, but would you have said that nine months ago when I started?" Kim asked "I heard that Casey wasn't the first ADA here at SVU. Didn't you give her a hard time at the beginning as well?"

"Elliot and I both did..."

"And somehow, you found it in you to give Casey a chance. Just like you expect me to give you a chance now that you realized that you made a mistake."

"You're not giving me that chance, are you?" Olivia asked quietly.

Kim only smiled.

"Now, I may be a bitch but I'm not as bitchy as I was nine months ago. I say that we go out to lunch somewhere? How about you?"

"I'm starving" Olivia said as both of them got up from their chairs and left Kim's office.