Just Follow the Rules

Jacob POV

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I quickly found out that relentless sex wasn't as fun as I thought it would be.

The first three weeks after Nessie and I began trying for a baby were rough and that was an understatement. I knew this whole process wasn't going to be easy but I had no idea what kind of work when went into starting a family especially when the odds were so against us.

Of course, Nessie and I took all of Doc's measures really seriously and we were making sure to be as healthy as possible. I was taking my vitamins every day and didn't even think they would do any good but I was surprised to feel better almost after one week. I was sleeping better and woke up with more energy than I used to have. We cut out all the chemicals in the house and we were even using different kinds of shampoo with more natural ingredients. It all seemed kind of frivolous to me but if those were the rules, then we were going to follow them.

I had to make sure to keep Nessie on a healthy diet and we went shopping for only the best stuff. Forks didn't have any specialty healthy food stores so we had to make a trip to Seattle once a week to stock up. We went to the market and got fresh vegetables along with all natural grains. The stuff tasted like shit but I was going to eat it because I really wanted this to be successful. I was peeing like a fucking jackrabbit with all the water I was engulfing and it was kind of weird to go to the bathroom upwards of fifteen times a day, but they were Doc's orders.

Nessie and I went to see Doc every week and got our blood tested to make sure that there weren't any irregularities. We were both healthy and now all we had to do was wait. It was kind of strange to think that with each day, we could be creating a baby. I knew that the odds were against us but Nessie and I were going to try until our six months were up.

I thought that with the relentless sex, everything would become more mechanical and we wouldn't have as much of a connection as we did before but I was pleasantly surprised that our love making only turned more passionate. I know that sounds really girly but it was true. With each time, it amazed me that we could possibly be creating something that would bring immense joy into our lives plus, it was just as good as ever so that was a bonus right there.

Nessie was doing all she could to stay stress free and healthy. She grumbled the entire time I shoved blood down her throat but it had to be done. We weren't taking any chances and the blood was going to make her stronger but she relented when I explained why she had to drink it. Once a day with dinner, I put the blood in a silver cup for her and she hesitantly drank it all. It took her about an hour to finish but she did it everyday.

The hardest part about all of this was Nessie's cycle. So far, it had been regular but it was hard to track when the best time of conception would be. Well it was hard for me. Alice and Nessie had some sort of system that seemed to work for them but it confused the hell out of me. I didn't even pretend to know what the hell they were talking about with all that nasty girl stuff but I knew it was important.

I got why Nessie didn't want to really tell anyone that we were trying to have a baby because once they found out, it was like a constant surge of talking. Everyone seemed to have some method that would work better than someone else's and I swear, my brain was about to explode with all the information I was getting. I only listened to Doc because he was the only one with freakin' medical experience but that didn't stop people from trying to get us to try their way. My dad was trying to put some wired Indian charm on us that I wasn't too sure about and Charlie was making us eat the fish he caught. He said that it would help but I don't think he knew what he was talking about. Emmett was making Nessie do some strange exercises that I was skeptical about but he was convinced that they would work. I drew the line when Jasper tried to get Nessie to take some sketchy medication from Mexico that supposedly worked for the Aztecs. If the FDA hand't approved of it, it wasn't going in Nessie's mouth.

I didn't know how people were going to take the news but everyone seemed really excited. We told them to not get too excited because there were a lot of factors that went into all of this but they were excited nonetheless. We decided to just tell everyone the truth and lay it all out in the open. We invited everyone over so that they could ask Doc their questions and get some answers that we couldn't give them. Rachel and Alice were going crazy with excitement and had already planned a baby shower just in case. Bella was like a Nazi and was ruthless when it came to following the rules Doc had set for us. I still had a mark on my hand from when I tried to sneak a pizza. She wasn't too happy about that and made sure I wouldn't do it again. She was over our house more than I wanted her to be but she was just trying to help us out so I understood. She would always scold us for not drinking enough water or sleeping better. She was really scary when she wanted to be.

Embry and Seth were taking over the pack for now so that I could decrease my stress level and not have to run around the state. I went out a couple times because Doc said I needed some exercise but I didn't overdo it. I thought the wolves might be a little turned off that Nessie and I were going to try for a baby. I didn't think they would approve of our blood being mixed but they were more excited than I thought they would be nad were great encouragment on some occasions. On others, they were just as bad as everyone else and tried to give thier opinions on things. I hadn't snapped at andyone yet but I could tell that it was coming. All of this information was weighting me down and the only people I should be listening to were Nessie and Doc.

Our house was filled with pregnancy tests and when Nessie dragged me to the grocery store to buy some, I was shocked to see how many different brands there were. Nessie made sure we got multiples of every single one just to be safe. Doc said that it would take at least a week after she conceived before we would know so she was just now starting to take the tests. The entire hall closet was sotcked with EPT's and Frist Response and other nasty pee sticks that almost made me throw up every time I saw them. Couldn't they find a less nasty way to tell if a woman was pregnant? Who the fuck created this system?

I wasn't surprised when they all came back negative and I hoped that Nessie wasn't getting too depressed with seeing all those symbols. She told me that she was doing fine but she wasn't as good an actress as she used to be and I could see the pain in her eyes every time she came out of the bathroom with another negative test. There wasn't much I could say to console her because I didn't really know what to say. There was a fine line between encouraging and giving false hope and I wanted to make sure that she was realistic about all of this. I had looked online, searching for women who had gone through the same thing as Nessie. Of course, there wasn't anything about a half-vampire trying to get pregnant or anything but I figured that she would be going through the same emotions as a human woman. I printed out some of the articles and gave them to Nessie. I don't know if she read them or not because she never talked about them but I hoped she did.

As much as we wanted a baby, it might not happen. There was a better chance of it not happening but we were still going to do the best we could. We could just hope that this would go our way and even though we didn't quite know what would happen, we were keeping our spirits high. If we just followed the rules, I was convinced that this would happen for us.

To make matters worse, Edward still hadn't given us his blessing. He wasn't even speaking to Nessie or me and barely even spoke to Bella. He just snarled anytime there was baby talk and if Bella didn't hold him back, I would have thought that he would kill me whenever I came over. I knew what he was worried about Nessie but Carlisle was trying to convince him that Nessie wouldn't be like Bella was if this did happen. He didn't voice his opinions on the matter but it was evident that he wasn't happy about it.

That's where I was headed now. I had to talk some since into his stubborn brain because all the stress wasn't good for Nessie. She cried all last night when she called him and he hung up without saying a word. I had to make him see that this could be a good thing.

I pulled into the driveway of the Cullen's and walked in without knocking or ringing the doorbell.

"Hey doggie." Emmett said as I walked into the family room.

"Hey. Where's Edward?" I asked, getting straight to the point.

"Out at the cottage with Bella. How's the baby making going?" Jasper asked.

"Good I guess. Nothing yet." I shrugged.

"Is she taking her vitamins? Because I went over yesterday and…" Alice began.

"Yes Alice. We're following the rules." I groaned.

"Ok, just trying to make sure you're doing everything right and what about you? How are the fishes?" She giggled.

"I told you, I'm nice and healthy."

"Yeah, yeah, don't get a big head." Jasper snickered.

Esme walked into the family room with a plate of cookies and my eyes watered over, "I thought you might come over Jacob. I made you some cookies." She smiled and held the plate up for me. The mouthwatering aroma engulfed my body and the smell was almost better than sex…almost.

"Thank you so much." I said as I took a bite of the best cookie in the world. I devoured three in seconds and made my reach for more.

"Jacob!" I head a screech from behind me, "I know you're not eating cookies. How many have you had?" Bella asked sternly.

Shit.

"Uh…one." I said with a mouthful of cookies.

"Liar. Spit that out." She held out her hand but I shook my head like a child, "Jacob, I mean it. Carlisle said that sugar decreases sperm count. Spit it out."

I made a move towards the door but she was there before I could move, "I mean it Jacob."

She hit the back of my head so hard, I had no choice but to spit out the cookies in her hand, "Come on Bella. Just one more." I complained.

"Absolutely not and if I catch you eating anymore, I'll kill you."

"That won't be any help in accomplishing our goal would it?" I said under my breath.

"Shut up Jacob." She giggled and went to throw the cookies away.

"Where's Nessie?" Rose asked as she came down the stairs.

"Out with Andrea. She should be home in about an hour. I actually wanted to talk to Edward. Where is he?" I asked no on in particular.

"I don't think that's a good idea Jacob." Bella said sensitively.

"Why?"

"Because he's being a bitch lately." Emmett snapped.

"Emmett, don't say that about your brother." Esme scolded, "He's just a little stressed."

"No, he's a bitch who never has anymore fun." Emmett crossed his arms.

"Well I still want to talk to him about some things."

"He went for a run but he should be back soon." Bella said.

"I'll wait."

I sat on the couch and waited for Edward while Esme tried to sneak me cookies. I only got two before Bella caught on and wailed at me. I just had to laugh at the looks on her face because she was the same ferocious but cute Bells that I remembered. Carlisle was at the hospital so I was spared from his lectures that we always had whenever I came over. I played Xbox with Jasper and listen to Alice's fashion choices for a baby until I heard the air shift and Edward walked in but when he saw me, he tried to run back out of the door.

"Edward!" I shouted and ran after him.

It took me a little while, but I caught up with him about two miles outside of the house.

"What do you want Jacob?" He all but snarled at me.

"I need to talk to you about the shit you're putting Nessie through." I began.

"I have nothing to say to either one of you."

"Why? What did we do?"

"This whole baby…thing isn't a comfortable subject for me and I don't want to get more upset so I suggest you leave." He growled but I didn't move.

"You have to get over whatever the hell is going on in your head because we want this so we're going to try." I said calmly.

I knew how to deal with Edward and when he was in his rage stage, the best way to talk to him was to use logic and make him see reason instead of trying to fight him. He was so stubborn that he always thought he was right so that would get us nowhere.

He chuckled, reading my thoughts, "I hate that you know me so well."

"I do too. That means we spend too much time together." I said lightly.

He let out a long, unnecessary breath, "I know I should be happy for you two and I want to be but, I can't get over my fears Jacob. I'm sorry."

"She's your daughter Edward. You can't shut her out." I yelled as he made a move to leave.

"I know that Jacob but I don't know what else to do." He said softly, "You were there. How could you let her do this after what happened to Bella?"

"It's what she wants and it's what I want. How can I deny her?" I shrugged.

"This could go very wrong Jacob and I could loose my daughter. My only child." His voice cracked and I moved closer.

"I know that Edward but I will try everything I can to try and not let that happen. This might not even happen." I said truthfully.

"There isn't a way to save her if it does. We can't turn her like we did with Bella. It wouldn't work." He hung his head.

"I know that but you can't just shut her out like this. She cried the entire night after you hung up on her."

"I just…can't act happy for her like everyone else when I know what the outcomes could be."

"Hasn't Doc talked to you about how this might not even be the same thing as Bella?"

"Yeah, but that still doesn't quill my fears."

"I don't really know what to tell you because I can't be positive myself but I can tell you that she really wants this. I know you can see it in her thoughts."

"She really does." He agreed.

"Can't you at least try to see the positive in this?"

"I'll try Jacob but if anything goes wrong, I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive myself, or you for that matter." The look in his eyes told me that he would kill me if Nessie got hurt.

"I will Jacob. I won't hesitate to rip you to shreds." He snarled and I backed up.

"Ok Edward. I understand but you have to make this right with Nessie. She needs you."

He calmed down and nodded, "I know. I didn't mean to hurt either of you but I guess I just have to get over it if you two are adamant."

"Will you please talk to her? She's afraid of disappointing you."

"I'll make sure I set this right. She shouldn't feel bad for my stupidity."

"Thank you."

The rest of the day went by in the same way as usual. I didn't go into the garage as much as I used to but went every morning so that I could keep an eye on the place. I had a feeling that someone was stealing but I didn't know who. I went over the books several times in the past couple of weeks and even though it was a small amount, it was still missing. That was unacceptable. It wasn't any of the wolves because our mind connection let me see through their lies. I told them to keep a look out because someone was taking money that didn't belong to them. I hadn't been keeping a strict eye on my employees but I was now since I knew someone was stealing.

I sat at home and made Nessie some whole-wheat pasta with chicken and mushrooms for dinner. I thought she needed some vegetables so I decided to make green beans. I was putting them in the pot when I heard her car coming up the driveway.

"Jacob?" She called out.

"In the kitchen babe." I replied and stirred the beans.

"Are you cooking?" She asked wrapping her arms around my waist.

"Yes, I made us a nice healthy dinner."

"Isn't that sweet of you. What's the catch?" She giggled.

"I'm just trying to do the healthy thing. Bella almost killed me this morning when I ate a cookie."

"She told me about that. She texted me a pretty heated message while I was at the library. She actually put it in all caps so you know she was mad." She laughed.

"It was just one cookie." I shrugged.

"Which in Jake language, one means four."

"You don't know me." I retaliated and we sat down for dinner. She drank her blood without hesitation and I think I finally broker her down enough to not complain about it.

We ate for about ten minutes before I heard a sharp rap on the back door.

"Go away!" I shouted.

"Boss, it's me." Colin's voice came from behind the glass.

"I know, I can see you. Go away." I yelled again.

"Jacob, stop that." Nessie hit my arm and went to go open the door, "Hey Colin. You want to stay for dinner?" She asked and I groaned.

"Sure, what are we having?" He asked happily.

"Pasta and chicken, mushrooms and green beans." She replied.

"Oh…uh. I think I'm going to go over Embry's for dinner then but thanks."

I chuckled, "It wouldn't be too horrible if you guys ate a little healthier." I said.

"We don't need to. Actually, Seth sent me over here to make sure you took your vitamins." He said.

"He could have called." I pouted.

"No, he said I have to sit and watch you take them. Where are they?" He asked and began searching the kitchen.

"In the third cabinet." Nessie pointed.

"Come on." I groaned.

"What? I'm tired of forcing them down your throat." She said.

"They taste like pee. I don't want to." I said childishly.

"Open up Jake." Colin came towards me with two giant pills, "You have to take them."

"Come anywhere near me with those things and you'll be running patrol, everyday for the next year." I snapped.

"I see I have to call Brady over here so he can hold you down." He laughed and pulled out his phone.

I snatched the pills from his hand and gulped them down before he could even do anything. I sipped the water and shuddered the entire time I felt the pills slither down my throat, "I hate you all."

"It's for the best." Nessie laughed, "If anything, you'll be a lot healthier even if this whole pregnancy doesn't work." She said and her face fell a little bit but she picked it back up before anyone could tell.

"Well, my job's done. Have a good rest of the night." He said while running out of the door.

"You're running patrol tonight." I shouted after him.

"I'm off."

"No you're not. Be there." I laughed when he shouted his gripes at me.

"Maybe he had a date tonight." Nessie scolded as she took my plate to the sink.

"Too bad. He made me take those pills so he has to patrol."

"You're the Alpha." She shrugged.

"That's right." I wrapped my arms around her and kissed the back of her head.

"Don't get too cocky oh husband of mine." She giggled and turned in my arms to place a kiss on my chin.

"I'll see what I can do."

We sat down to watch a movie but Nessie was typing frantically on her laptop the whole time. I think she was working on her novel and I was happy to see that she was still inspired to write. She told me that all the craziness with the baby making was getting her creative juices flowing. I would find her going at it on the laptop for hours but whenever she realized that I was watching, she would close it like she wasn't writing anything but I knew her better.

"Hey, when is it time to start up again?" I asked as the movie ended.

"Start up?"

"With the baby?"

"Oh, let me check." She hopped off of the couch after closing her laptop and went to get her little wheel thing. She came back to sit on my lap and rotated it somehow.

"Well I'm going to take a couple pregnancy tests tonight but we can start back up again in three days." She said.

"Ok." I nodded.

She got off of my lap to go take her pregnancy tests but I knew they would be negative. I didn't know how I knew, I just did. I didn't feel like she was pregnant and I know that sounds weird but I just didn't have the feeling so I knew it wasn't a success this time. I didn't know if I would feel it if it did happen but I just knew that now wasn't the time. She was so excited bouncing out of the family room, I didn't want to burst her bubble so I kept my mouth shut.

She didn't like me to be anywhere near her when she took the tests or after because she said it was private but I knew she wanted to cry on her own. She was trying so hard to keep up her mask but it was cracking with each passing day and that killed me. I was scared that she might go into some depression if this continued but I had to keep the faith. We still had five more months and I knew it would happen. It just had to because I didn't know if I could pick up the pieces if it didn't.

It broke my heart to watch her walk down the stairs with red stained eyes and blotchy cheeks. She didn't say anything but came to snuggle up next to me with her head underneath my chin. I knew we had to talk about this or she would never tell me what she was thinking.

"It was negative?" I started lamely. I didn't know what else to say.

"What do you think?" She sniffled.

"I'm sorry babe." I kissed the top of her head.

"I just feel like a complete failure. I've always been good at things but why is it that the thing I really want most, I can't do?"

I didn't have an answer to her question because I truly didn't know.

"Just give it time. It's only been three weeks."

"I know but each day, our chances get less and less. By the time the five month mark comes, it won't even be worth it anymore."

"Don't say that." I replied sternly, "We're going to try until our time runs out if that's in six months or a year, we're going to keep trying."

"I wish I were as positive as you. I just see all that won't happen for me."

"We'll get through this, no matter what happens." I kissed her head again.

The phone rang and she didn't want to get up to get it so I kept my hold on her while she sniffled into my shoulder. The answering machine picked up the message and I heard Edward's voice come through the speaker.

Nessie, this is you father and I was just calling to tell you that I'm sorry. I never meant to act so coldly towards you but you have to understand where I'm coming from. This is hard for me and as much as I want to be happy for you and Jacob, I can't get those images of your mother out of my head. She almost didn't make it and if you came even close to that, I might not make it…

Nessie got off of my lap and ran to pick up the phone.

She and Edward spent the next hour having a father-to-daughter talk. She cried for a little while but whatever he said, seemed to calm her down considerably. She was even giggling at the end of their conversation but I didn't want to intrude on their talk so I tuned Edward out on the other line.

"Thank you daddy. That's exactly what I needed to hear." She paused and looked at me, "Ok, I'll tell him. Good night. Love you too." She replied and then hung up the phone.

She bounced over to me and sat down. My arm immediately went over her shoulders, "What did you two talk about?" I asked.

"Nothing, he just told me that it was going to happen."

"He told you that huh?"

I was kind of mad that he could give her false hope like that. It would only make it harder for her if it didn't happen.

"Yeah, he wouldn't tell me how he knew but he just said he had evidence that it would so I'm going to trust him." She nodded trying to convince herself.

"Then I'll trust him too." I huffed.

"He said you need to be taking more vitamins. He said it was all your fault that I'm not pregnant yet." She laughed.

"Why is it my fault?" I asked in an annoyed voice.

"He said no daughter of his could fail at anything so it was has to be you."

"Figures he would blame me." I huffed.

"He said he'll be over tomorrow to check what you're doing because it's obvious you're not following directions."

"I promise I have."

"We'll see tomorrow."

Ok, so a couple cookies wouldn't kill me would they?

We both went to bed that night considerably happier than the past couple of nights.

When Nessie went to school the next day, I went into the garage to check up and pick up some mail. I walked into the reception area where there were a few people waiting for their cars.

"Hello Mr. Black. We weren't expecting you today. How are you?" Brittany asked sweetly.

"Fine and you?"

"Good, I don't even know why you're our boss. We do fine without you." She giggled and I think she meant to be funny but that wasn't how I saw it. I just raised my eyebrow at her until she quieted down.

"Do you have any mail for me?" I asked.

"Yes, as a matter of fact I do." She went behind the desk and pulled out a couple of envelopes, "Nothing too much, just a couple of bills."

"Thank you, I'm going to be here for a while so if you need anything, I'll be upstairs."

"OK." She replied.

I went through that garage and checked out the cars everyone was working on just to make sure things were going smoothly. Colin and Brady were head of the appliances division and were off doing a maintenance repair. I checked up on some of the younger employees who had just started working and was surprised that they were doing a fairly good job. I was happy that I didn't have anyone like Johnny Bananas or Emmett around who would break everything but even if I did, I was just going to have to train them until they got it right.

I saw Jasper on the other side of the garage with Rose and they were fixing an older car that I hadn't seen before so I went over to check on it.

"Hey guys. What's this?" I asked as I circled it.

"A classic 1964 Mercedes. She's a beauty isn't she?" Jasper beamed at the black car.

"Who's is it?"

"I don't know. Some old guy dropped it off this morning. It just needs an oil change but I couldn't resist checking under the hood." Rose said as she wiped the oil off of her hands. She was wearing a short skit that barely covered her ass and a shirt that almost made her twins pop out. Typical Rosalie. I noticed some of the wolves ogling her but they went right back to work once I caught them staring. I would have to be sure to have a talk with her about dress code.

"Just don't break anything. I don't need to pay for a car that expensive." I pointed.

"Whatever. I know how to do a car dipshit." Rose snapped.

"Ok, ok, just keep it safe."

I went upstairs to my office where Andrea was putting away some files and Embry was sitting on my couch, eating a sandwich.

"Do you ever do any work?" I chuckled as I walked it.

"I don't have to. I did that last time. Now I can be like you, only come in when I want." He snickered.

"Embry, he's your boss." Andrea scolded in a whisper.

"No, he's my brother. I can say stuff like that."

"So what if I fired your ass? Then what?" I asked as I say behind my desk and Andrea gave me some papers to sign.

"You can't fire me."

"I know but I wish to God I could." I said.

"No you don't. Speaking of firing, did you find out who's been stealing?" He answered seriously.

"No but I'm going to find out because another five hundred went missing last week."

"Maybe it's a robber." Andrea suggested.

"I don't think so. Emmett's been patrolling the place the past two nights and he said it's all clear. It has to be someone who works here." I huffed.

"We'll find them Mr. Black, don't worry." Andrea patted my shoulder.

"It's Jacob, Andrea." I chuckled.

"At home, it's Jacob. At work, it's Mr. Black." She giggled.

"Whatever you say."

I went home after about another hour and walked in the house to the smell of vampires. Three of them to be exact.

I went into the family room to see Emmett with his feet on the table, Edward playing the piano and Jasper watching TV.

"What the hell?" I shouted.

They always barged in whenever they wanted but I was usually home when they did so I wasn't that mad. I just had to make a point.

"Oh, hello Jacob." Edward answered.

"Does everyone have a key?" I asked and hit Emmett's feet so that they fell off of the table.

"Yeah we do. For emergencies." He snickered.

"Why aren't you guys in school?"

"We only go three times a week. That's the beauty of creating your own schedule."

"And I thought you were at the garage." I pointed to Jasper.

"Rose wouldn't let me fix anything else so I left."

"Is this an emergency?" I snarled.

"A pregnancy emergency, yes." Jasper said and jumped off the couch, "We're here to make sure you follow the rules."

"What do you think I've been doing for the past month?" I threw my arms in the air dramatically.

"Well it's obviously not working." Emmett said.

"Carlisle said…"

"Fuck what Dad said, this will work." Jasper pushed me into the kitchen, "Have you been wearing boxers?"

"That's personal." I snapped.

"Nothing's off limits Jacob." He snickered.

I spent the next hour having a "guy chat" on what I was doing wrong. We went through everything Doc gave me to study up on and they made sure I was taking the right amount of vitamins along with drinking my water. I swear they were more into this than their wives were but I understood where they were coming from. Emmett kept going on and on about having a boy to play with around the house and I could tell that Edward was coming around to the idea of having a grandchild but I was being realistic. I tried to convince myself that this would happen but what if it didn't?

Stop it Jacob. Don't think that way.

As long as I followed the rules, this would happen.

YES YES YES....SO THERE IS CHAPTER TEN. I KNOW THAT THERE IS A LOT OF FRUSTRATION THAT COMES ALONG WITH FAILED PREGANCIES SO EXPECT LOADS OF DRAMA IN THE NEXT COUPLE OF CHAPTERS ALONG WITH SOME TWISTS. NOTHING TOO MAJOR, JUST SOMETHING TO SPICE UP THE PLOT (YOU KNOW HOW I LOVE ME SOME TWISTS)

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