A/N- Im so sorry that I havent updated in a long time but life has been really hectic and I havent been able to get into the characters the way that I would have liked to ... but Im slowly finding my inspiration... and thanks to J-Chan! She totally fell in love with the characters and has always had something to say thats given me a hundred new ideas... so this chapter is dedicated to her!

"how are you feeling?" Hank asked pouring some water for Shoko.

"not bad really, after I woke up it was easy enough to heal myself"

"heal yourself?" he asked handing over the glass.

"yeah" Shoko said slipping some of the water "I can control my body on a cellular level, its weird I know, but I can shape shift and make my body do things it normally shouldn't be able to"

"really?" Hank asked looking over the charts at the end of her bed.

"Well at least since you woke up your vital signs have been normal, but there's something odd about your charts"

Shoko put down the glass knowing what he was about to say "what's weird?"

"The charts say that your body was deteriorating very rapidly like you were aging it ten times the normal rate"

"I know Hank, and if they run the same tests, they'll find out that all the signs of aging are gone like I suddenly stopped growing any older" she paused for a moment before continuing. "I'm very old, but I control my body very well I stop myself from aging. Even in the depths of a coma I haven't aged myself to death, I stop eventually"

Hank just nodded shocked by all of the information "wow" was all he could say.

"You know, I get that reaction more often than I'd like, it's sad really, I mean no offense."

"I understand" Hanks said raising a hand to silence her "you have a wonderful ability, which might if I will took a sample of your blood to run some tests on?"

"No, go ahead" Shoko said, baring her arm for Hank. "They have already drained me for what I am worth." She smiled to herself, before remembering her dream. "Hank do you think I could get some privacy?"

Shoko formulated her plan as Hank left the room "I'm going home… hello Japan" she said silently as she unhooked herself from the IV in the monitors. She quickly began to throw together her things and took the shape of a female student as she left the room. She quickly headed upstairs into her bedroom in the mansion. Upon entering, she took the shape of Remy knowing that he was still at the hospital when she got into her room. She quickly jotted down a letter and left it on the bed knowing that she didn't want to leave loose ends. She gathered all of her things then took the shape of Hank McCoy and left as quickly as she could, when she passed a group of students. They asked her what she was doing with everything reply was "Shoko asked me to take some of her things to her at the hospital."

Soon enough, she was at the airport in her true form.

She was going home.

Logan knew something was wrong, because they still wouldn't let him see Shoko and she had already woken. when Shoko's room was void of medical staff Logan snuck in and was surprised to find the room empty.

"Where is she?" Logan growled as he walked out and bumped into Beast "she's gone Hank"

"where did she go?" Hank asked taken aback.

"I don't know I'm going home to look for her"

Hank only followed as he went with Logan to the x-mansion Hank was quiet as they approached Shoko's room Logan hadn't even open the door before saying "she's not here."

"How do you know?" Hank asked skeptical.

"Her scent, Hank" Logan said inhaling deeply as he opened the door and stepped inside. "It's gone" as he inhaled again, he noticed the scent of cherry blossoms had been replaced by the smell of the hospital. The clean sanitary smell of the hospital Logan noticed the letter on the bed and began reading it

Dear Logan,

I'm sorry to do this to you but I must go home. I came here looking for something you could not give. You cannot give me yourself. You could not give me the man you once were. You cannot love me. I fear I have found only your contempt. I shouldn't have come. I knew the trials I had to face and alas they were too hard. I thought if I came here. I would find something special. I would find the father of my children and the love I wish I never lost. I will not tell you not to look for me because I know you will, but know that nothing but your memories will help you find me.

Love,

Shoko

Logan put the letter back on the bed and stared at the wall for a moment. He clenched and unclenched his fists for a moment, unsure of what to do next. Logan turned to look at Hank a look halfway between anger and sorrow crossed his face.

"She left, she ran away and left"

Hank looked at him with a blank expression on his face. Unsure of what to do or say he spoke quietly. "Are you going to look for her? Or did she ask you not to?"

"I think... I think she wanted me to look for her, she said, only my memories would lead the way." He looked away ashamed. If Hank hadn't of known better, he would've thought he saw tears in Logan's eyes. "I think... Wait I know." Logan said as he sat on the edge of the bed burying his face in his hands. "I know this is all my fault. My fault her children grew up without a father, my fault she spent a lifetime looking for love, and lastly my fault that I couldn't be that man she loved."

"Ask Xavier, ask him to use Cerebro to find her"

"what good would it do? what if I'm still not what she wants?" Logan said.

"But what if you never find out?"