Yes/No
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"How do you like this week's assignment?" Blaine asked as him and Kurt walked out of the choir room and down the hall. "I think it is just so romantic. Mr. Schue deserves to be happy, you know? Singing your feelings is something that I'm a fan of, so it should be easy coming up with something."
"I'll agree with you on Mr. Schue deserving to be happy, but this week's assignment is so unnecessary." Kurt shook his head. "If you love someone and want to marry them, you should just tell them your feelings. I really don't feel like singing about love and marriage all this week."
Blaine was a little taken back by this. Kurt was always the hopeless romantic, and hearing him not want to sing about love was strange. "Who are you, and what have you done to my boyfriend Kurt?"
"Funny," Kurt said, rolling his eyes. "I'm sorry, but all the lovey-dovey stuff is so annoying, and just ask her to marry you. We know you are going to eventually get married in the end. The future is just terrifying."
Blaine studied his face and saw that he was getting upset, so he simply just dropped the subject. The two got their books out of their lockers and walked to the car in silence. When they reached the car, Blaine couldn't help but say something. "Kurt, I know you think the future is scary, but we've talked about it before. I know that it's getting closer, but I'm here to talk about it when you are ready."
Kurt sighed and leaned back against his car. "I know you are, but I still have a semester left before I have to think about any of that. I know that we are going to be together forever, but next year is just something I don't want to think about until it's here."
"The NYADA letters for the finalists are going to be sent out soon," he pointed out, suddenly knowing that this was what it was about. "Is that what this is about? I've told you this before. You are going to get the letter for an audition. I know it."
"You say it with so much confidence that I sometimes believe you, but I know it isn't true. You say I'm amazing and there is no way I won't get in, but you are my boyfriend. You are supposed to say that. I appreciate it, but I don't need you to tell me things that most likely won't happen, because when they don't you will just feel like you have to baby me. I can handle this myself."
Blaine was taken aback, just staring at his boyfriend in shock. He was so cruel and mean to him, and he honestly couldn't believe it. Kurt rolled his eyes. "I'm going to catch a ride with Finn. I'll see you later."
Blaine stood there for a good ten minutes, just staring after Kurt. He didn't know what happened. During Christmas break they were fine, great actually. He spent the holidays at the Hummel-Hudson household, and it had been amazing. After they returned, Kurt had put up this wall, snapping and tearing Blaine down whenever he had a chance. It hurt, but Blaine just pushed it off because he knew it was because Kurt was terrified of NYADA and his future.
He didn't know how much longer he'd just let Kurt yell at him and treat him bad. He was just trying to be supportive, and it backfired on him every time. Kurt wouldn't talk to him, and it was disappointing. He loved Kurt with everything in him, and to lose him because of this, it was unacceptable. He would keep pushing and trying to get Kurt to talk to him until Kurt officially told him to stop. He was going to keep them together and strong. They needed to talk.
-1-
"Hey, Blaine." Blaine looked up to see Artie and Mike approach him. He was having a bad day, seeing that Kurt wouldn't look at him and all he could think about was what he could possibly do to make it up to him. He was happy to have a distraction for a little while.
"Hey guys, what's up?" he asked, shutting his locker and turning to look at the two boys. "I know those faces. What do you need?"
They laughed and it turned into nods. "We have a number," Mike admitted. "'Moves Like Jagger' mixed with 'Jumpin' Jack Flash.' Nothing big is needed from you, just background vocals. We need guys and you were the first to come to mind."
Blaine raised his eyebrows and smiled. It was would take his mind off of things that was for sure. "I'm touched. Honestly, I'd do anything to get my mind off the problems in my life right now, so you got yourself a guy. I can probably get Finn, Sam, and Puck."
Artie looked happy at that. "Sounds good. We are doing the number in the auditorium after school today. See you and the others there. Thanks Blaine." They turned but quickly stopped. "Black or Red V-neck shirt with black pants."
Blaine nodded and watched them leave down the hallway. He set out to find the other three, "Finn!" He called getting the boy to stop. "Are you free after school because Mike and Artie have a number and they need guys to back them up."
He shrugged and seemed to think about his plans. "I'm free after school. Wait, we aren't doing any dancing are we?"
Blaine laughed. "No, we are actually just the background singers. Red or black V-neck and black pants. Be ready in the auditorium after school. We are singing a 'Moves Like Jagger' and 'Jumpin' Jack Flash' mash up."
"All right. I'll see you after school then," Finn said before walking down he hallway. Blaine did this to the other two boys and Puck was in, but Sam had Synchronized Swimming practice…Blaine didn't ask, but he was sure it had something to do with Mercedes.
As Blaine was walking to his fifth hour, he saw Kurt standing at his locker. He slowly walked up to him, preparing for whatever the conversation would hold. "Hey."
Kurt shot him a glance, but turned back to his books. "Hi." It was so quiet that Blaine barely heard it. "I have to go to the library."
"Kurt," he said, gripping his arm. "I need to ask you a quick question. Please just put whatever you have against me to the side right now. I have this number, and I need a red V-neck. You know me, so you know I don't own one. Please tell me you do?"
Kurt swallowed and met his eyes, they softened a bit before he nodded. "Yeah, I can go get it for you right now. I have study hall." They looked at each other for a minute before knew that was all he was going to get.
"Thanks, you can just put it in my locker. I have to get to class, so I guess I will see you later." He faked a smiled before turning and headed to class.
He could only hope that they could talk again soon. If Kurt was running away, or just speaking in one or two words, this would never get solved. He sighed. There was nothing he could do now.
Blaine walked to his locker after getting out of his last class a couple minutes early and opened it. He almost forgot about the red shirt, but seeing it sitting on top of his books made him remember the favor he had asked of Kurt. Blaine smiled and saw the paper on top of it. Slowly, he unfolded the paper to reveal the beautiful, elegant handwriting. Handwriting that he knew too well.
Blaine,
I'm sorry. It's that simple. I wasn't myself yesterday and I pushed you away. I hope you can forgive me. I know I should be doing this to your face, but I don't know when I will see you. I will be saying this all again, but I just want you to know that I feel bad seeing you hurt. I want to make it up to you if I can.
I love you.
Me.
Blaine smiled and folded the paper back up, slipping it in his pocket. He would make sure to talk to him as soon as possible. As he walked to the bathroom to change, he pulled his phone out and sent a quick text to Kurt.
To Kurt: (3:11 PM)
I love you. 3
-2-
"Kurt?" Finn said, walking into Kurt's room. "Can I talk to you about something? Rachel tried to talk to me, but she won't understand what I'm going through like you will."
Kurt looked up from his moisturizing routine to look at his stepbrother. He never came to him to talk, so this was surprising. Plus he wasn't talking to Blaine, so he had time. "I guess I could spare a couple minutes." He stood up from his vanity and moved to sit down next to Finn. "Is this about your dad?"
"Yeah," he said quietly. "I've grown up my whole life thinking he was this big hero, but it was all just a big lie. I know that your mom wasn't like that, but she died too and you loved her. The thing is, I thought I loved my dad, I really did, but who I loved was just a fake."
Kurt shook his head. "Finn, he's your father, of course you felt love for him. I know the whole drug thing was hard for you to take in, and I understand. You didn't even know your dad like I knew my mom, and you had an image of who you thought he was. Now that you know the truth, your opinion is different."
"Exactly. He was a fake and I wasted all those years trying to be like him, trying to live up to what I thought he did. Now I never want to be like that, ever. I don't want to turn out like him."
"And you won't," Kurt assured him. He reached up and rubbed his shoulder. "You are a good person, Finn, and you have your mom, my dad, Rachel, and me to keep you from doing anything that you'll regret. Your dad is still your dad, and that's not going to change, but you can change how you view him. Instead of wanting to be like him, you should try to turn out better than him."
Finn looked at Kurt, a barely there smile. "If I don't have him to look to anymore, who do I have? He has always been my inspiration to do something good with my life. I've always wanted to be like him. Now I have no one."
"I know of three people you can look up to, and one of them happens to be who I look up to. First, we have your mom. She is such a strong and caring lady. She raised you by herself and always put you before herself. She made sure that you thought of your dad as a hero, because if she would have told you about what really happened, who knows where you would be now, maybe not in glee."
Kurt paused to let Finn think about that option before continuing. "Second, we have who I look up to: my dad. He really loves you, Finn. He thinks of you as his own son and wants nothing but the best for you. He is such strong and loving person that I don't know why I was so lucky to have him as my dad. He didn't care about me being gay. He loved me for me and wanted us to stay strong as a family even after my mom died. He doesn't judge, and he does what is right for him and for the world."
By the end of that Kurt had tears in his eyes, but he sniffed them back before finishing. "And lastly we have Mr. Schuester. Personally I think that you should think long and hard about this option. He is a perfect role model for you. He cares about you and wants you to do your best. He is nice and has been there for us since our sophomore year. He made a compromise with his life to help others and I think that is something inspirational. He is caring and giving, and he puts all of us before himself. He's a great mentor."
"In the end, you'll always have someone to look to for guidance. You have many, but you may have not known you did. I look up to my dad and Blaine. They help me through the tough times and are always there for me and love me no matter who I am or what I do. That's more than I could ever ask for."
"I made up my mind," Finn said after a couple seconds of silence. "My inspiration is you. I know it's cliché, but you are my brother, Kurt. You help me more than you even know and I want to just make you proud to call me your brother. I know I wasn't a great brother at first, but I have changed."
Kurt was speechless and very touched. Finn laughed at his face. "You said I could look to many people and you are one of them. You are the strongest person I know and I want to be just like you, minus the gay part. Not that there is anything wrong with it! It's just that I'm sorta in love with Rachel! She is my other inspiration too, along with Mr. Schue. They all help me, but I just want you to know that I look to you too."
"Thank you," he said softly, as Finn pulled him into a big hug. "I'm very touched by that. Just know that you can talk to me about anything, but preferably not when I'm moisturizing. Now up and out you get. I have to finish."
Finn laughed and stood. He paused before hugging Kurt quickly. "You are very crazy with your skin." He turned to leave, but stopped. "Thanks for the advice. I hope we can do this more. Know that you can talk to me about anything too."
Kurt turned his head and shot a smile his way. "You're welcome. I would love to do this more, but just remember when I'm working on this." He gestured to his face. "It's first priority." Finn nodded and left with a laugh, letting Kurt get back to his skin.
-3-
Kurt smiled when he walked down the hall the next day. Blaine was standing at his locker, looking down at his book. The older boy was a little nervous, seeing they hadn't talked in a couple of days, but he knew that Blaine forgave him for acting like an idiot. They just hadn't had time to talk to each other.
Kurt took a deep breath and walked up to his boyfriend. "Hey."
"Hey," he said sweetly, smiling as he looked up from his book. "I haven't seen you in a while, let's not make this a thing. How are you?" He placed his book in his bag before turning and giving his full attention to his boyfriend.
"I'm good now that I'm with you." He sighed and looked down. "I'm sorry, Blaine. I'm sorry about freaking out on you on Monday. I was just having a bad day, and I was stressing. I said things that I didn't mean. I love having you take care of me when I need you. You care, and you were just trying to be supportive. I shouldn't have acted the way I did that is for sure."
Blaine smiled, and that eased him. "I forgive you. I'm not going to lie to you though, hearing you say that you don't need me that was one of the worst feelings in the world. I know you are strong and I know you can take care of yourself. You do it all the time and I admire it, but once in a while I want you to come to me with your problems and just vent to me. I do it to you all the time. You practically take care of me and I want to do the same to you. That's what boyfriends do."
Kurt smiled and took a step forward. "I love you, and I feel that if you have to keep taking care of me, you'll just run the other way. I just can't let that happen because you mean too much to me."
"No," he said, shaking his head. "I'm not going to run the other way, if anything I'll run towards you. I want you to come to me. I've seen you at your worst. If I wanted to run, I would already be gone."
"I know that, but I sometimes forget. I know how much you care about me, and I know that I care about you. From now on I promise on all my designer clothes that I will always come to you first. No matter what I'm feeling or how insecure I am, you are the one I will come to. Are we okay now?"
"We are," Blaine said, sliding his hand in Kurt's. "Now let's go to glee club." They walked hand-in-hand down the hall to the choir room. Once seated next to each other, Mr. Schue stood in front of all of them.
"All right you guys, this week has been a success and I thank you all for your help," he said brightly.
"Mr. Schue," Rachel announced, raising her hand and standing up. "I know that this week's assignment is over, but I really have a number I want to do. May I?"
"Yeah, of course Rachel." They watched as Rachel began singing 'Without You' to Finn. Kurt admired how much that Rachel seemed to know when Finn needed her.
During the number, Kurt felt Blaine's eyes on him and then felt him lean over and kiss his cheek softly. It was nice to know that they could figure things out in rocky situations. Kurt smiled and looked down. He glanced up, keeping his eyes locked on Blaine. He was so lucky to have him in his life. Blaine noticed and they locked eyes. Kurt smiled once before turning back to the performance.
-4-
Kurt was humming 'We Found Love' as he floated on his back in the school pool. They had just witnessed and took part in the grand proposal that Mr. Schue did for Miss Pillsbury. It was very sweet and cute, and something that made Kurt think about what kind of proposal he would want. Thank goodness she said yes, because Kurt knew Mr. Schue would be devastated and he had gotten his hair wet in the chemical infested water.
He should have gotten out, but it was peaceful right now, asides from the boys dunking each other underwater and rough housing in the deep end. He was fine being by himself, just relaxing his body. Kurt was startled when someone grabbed his waist and pulled him closer, but he knew that it would only be Blaine.
"What are you doing over here?" Kurt asked, standing up in the water so he could hear. "Shouldn't you be down in the deep end rough housing with the boys?"
"I could be down there, or I could be right here with you. Seeing as we haven't seen or talked to each other much this week, I thought you'd want to see me. If you don't want the company, I will just be going." He moved to swim back down the deep end, but Kurt grabbed him.
"You aren't going anywhere." He wrapped his arms around Blaine's neck and his legs around his waist, feeling perfectly comfortable that no one was going to say something. "Wasn't Mr. Schuester's proposal just so romantic? I almost cried."
Blaine laughed and slid his arms around Kurt's body. "A change of turn from the beginning of the week I see. It was cute though. I loved the number we did. He paused before singing, "We found love in a hopeless place."
Kurt laughed and shook his head, burying it in Blaine's neck. "You should have sung the lead of that song. You know we haven't been in a pool since the beginning of summer."
"Wow, we haven't, have we?" He pulled away. "So how about we have some fun this time around instead of trying not to get your hair wet."
Kurt thought about it then pushed him under. When Blaine surfaced, Kurt was laughing. "Cute, but you know that I'm going to have to dunk you now."
"No you aren't. I don't think so." He pulled away from him and started to swim away, but Blaine was quicker. He pulled him and pushed him under. "I hate you," Kurt said, coming up.
"You don't," he countered, leaning his forehead against Kurt's. "You love me with all of your heart and wouldn't be able to function without me."
"You're very sure of yourself," Kurt teased. "Now, I want you to kiss me. Will you?" He wrapped his legs back around Blaine's waist and caressed his cheeks with his hands.
"Are you sure?" Blaine asked, making sure it was okay. Kurt nodded and waited until Blaine finally closed the space between their lips. Kurt leaned into him and kissed him until they both needed to breathe. "Wow, what brought that on?"
"You in your cute little swim outfit. I love it." He pulled at the striped tank top. "I'm getting pruney. How about we get out, dry off, get changed, and then go to BreadStix? My treat. I wanna take you out to apologize for how I acted earlier in the week."
"Then after, can I take you back to my house and we can hang out? My mom and dad aren't going to be home tonight for some business conference in Indiana. You could stay over and we could just have some alone time. I can't remember the last time we had some."
"I say that sounds amazing. Come on; let's go. I'll have to pull out an excuse to my dad, but I'm pretty sure that I'll be able to." Kurt pulled him out of the pool and to the locker room, not being unnoticed by the girls.
"Get some, Anderson," Santana yelled after them. Kurt shot her a look before going through the locker room door. When they were safe inside, Kurt backed Blaine up against one of the lockers, kissing him long and hard.
When he pulled away, he smirked at the look on Blaine's face. "Just a preview of tonight."
Blaine hurried after him, and they got ready. Kurt couldn't say that he didn't check out his boyfriend while he was changing because he totally did. Blaine wasn't a saint either, so he didn't feel as bad. They managed to get dressed somehow, but finally left the school, ready for the night together.
