Then from out of nowhere Scotty spoke about how violent his father had been with him. He always wanted to please him but that never happened; but became a weak son not to strong one like his brother Mike had been. After being beaten a lot Scotty promised himself he would be strong and not this weak person, but couldn't escape it.
His own mother really wasn't there emotionally for him, leading him to yearn to be loved. Lilly could understand it knowing her own mother made a lot of mistakes but in the end really did love her. That was something she realized and had to remember that, not the drunken Ellen Rush she grew up with. The Velveteen Rabbit made her smile which brought back a good memory, which Lilly kept inside of her heart.
Scotty sighed" They weren't proud when I became a cop" as she touched his hand" You are the best partner I've ever had, especially how much you go to protect me".
He moved a piece out of her hair" Why did you become a cop Lil" seeing the internal struggles inside building up. The wall was raising but then she fought hard to keep it down, wanting to tell her deepest secret. While her mind told her no, Lilly knew Scotty was the only person that never saw her as a freak. When the story started to unfold he sat there holding her close feeling sick to his stomach that someone had hurt his girl long ago.
After wards she felt a wave being taken off her chest. Maybe talking about it did help but saw the look in his eyes telling her he felt bad for what happened. Scotty did in fact feel that way as he kissed Lilly's lips" That guy should be caught, but he doesn't know how strong you are".
Now trying to move on from the demons of their past, the two were later lying in bed together. As Lilly lay there on her side which listening to Scotty drawing in several breaths as he slept. He looked so peaceful before his breathing quickened. Lilly knew he still was scared of losing her forever, knowing his anger was the result from that.
In this very moment Scotty was calm while gently massaging her back. Now he knew being with her was took away those worries but how was he going to deal with not trying to jump the gun on their relationship?