New School. New Life, New Feelings
Chapter 10: Standing on the Edge of Everything I've Never Felt
Disclaimer: I should just refresh everyone's mind to the fact that I sadly own nothing of FMA or Any music put in here.
A/n: I realize I haven't thanked any of my reviewers or readers. I apologize for seeming snobbish and all. Thank you for taking time out of busy schedules and all that to read my story. It means a lot to me that you like it. And now on to the story...
I woke up feeling oddly cold. It was around five on Monday morning. I was going back to school today. Silently I stood and looked around. I was back in my room alone. I'm guessing Roy brought me here. I couldn't sleep again so instead I decided to get ready for school. I brushed through my hair while looking in the mirror. I saw someone different than I was a few weeks ago. Then I hadn't even known I was gay. Now I was in a relationship with Roy Mustang. He was like my other half. I needed him in order to live. This was new to me. I had never needed anyone like that.. Not even mom! Now it was like I was a different person completely and everyone was so accepting of it. I'm not even sure why I started liking Roy. Maybe it was his smile, or his voice. Maybe his infectious care for me. I felt it right away. As if he had waited for me and finally found everything he had searched for. I had never felt that way about a girl let alone a boy. Now all of the sudden my universe revolved around my boyfriend of about a month. I stared deeper into the reflection of my golden eyes. They was something I hadn't known. Maybe t was me healing. I was broken when we came here, as was Al. Maybe now we were becoming better. Learning we could keep going without her.
I realize that people may be forgotten after death but that the ones who loved them never truly forget. She's still alive in me. My thoughts were interrupted by the ringing of my cellphone.
" Hello," I answered it.
" Ed, It's me Riza. I stole your number from Roy. Can I come over for a little to talk?" She asked.
" What about school?" I retorted unsure about time.
" Ed look out your window," She giggled.
I went to my window and looked out. Instinctively I look into Roy's window and saw him sleeping.
" Stop molesting my brother with your eyes and look down," She laughed.
I blushed and was about to ask how she saw me when I looked down. She was standing in show that came up to her knees.
" Apparently there is no school today or tomorrow for that matter seeing as it is still snowing," She sighed.
" Come around to my other window and I'll throw down the ladder," I stated.
" Ladder?" she asked.
" Long story. Just do it," I ordered.
I threw the ladder out the window and she climbed up it. I helped her in and she smiled as her feet hit the ground. I pulled the ladder in and shut the window.
" I guess I should have told you I don't like heights," Riza looked at me.
" Wait here and I'll get some food. Put your wet stuff on the heater. You can borrow a pair of pants from my top draw," I smiled and disappeared.
She shut the door to change. Silently I bustled around the kitchen and gathered a whole bunch of snack food that we probably shouldn't eat in the morning and some juices. Riza came down to help me bring it up.
" Oh you got the good stuff," She smiled at the food.
I grinned and nodded. We shut my door behind us and settled on my bed. Riza looked down and then sighed.
" Ed, I just wanted to say thanks for yesterday. I'm really sorry. No one should have to see that. It was really messing Roy up and I'm glad you helped him. I just have this feeling he'll need you more than anyone," She shut her eyes.
I hugged her gently and she returned it. It was warm like the hugs Winry gives me. The sisterly ones that make you feel happy. I smiled as I thought how attached I was to all these people. I was lucky.
" Hey, It's no problem. I want to help Roy. Believe it or not I love him so much. He really is so important to me," I smiled.
" I know. that's why I can count on you. I know that he's in good hands," She looked tearful.
" Riza, What are you not telling I am here for you to so don't think I won't help you," I looked at her.
" I... I... Oh Ed, It's just that. I', not sure how much more I can take. It seems like I'm useless compared to him. People see us and they see Roy and his little sister. They don't see Riza. Now that mom is hurt and I couldn't help it's taken it's toll on him. Everyone will want to help him and no one will really want to help me. The only one he wants is you Ed. Yet he'll get calls from people and flowers and cards," She sounded ashamed of herself.
" Riza," I sighed.
" I just feel like I am breaking and who will pick up my pieces? Who will fix me? I hat e how selfish it sounds but I need someone too," She cried out.
I placed and arm around her shoulder and held her. She snuggled against me.
" Riza. Winry, Al, Roy, Havoc, Breda, Cain, Chiezka, Even that man Hughes care for you. I care for you too. We have so many good memories together, all of us. I bet you that when they find out they will all try to cheer you up just like Al and Winry did today. Riza we all love you," I hugged her.
She sniffled and grabbed a cookie. I smiled and took that as a sign she was okay. We sat and ate from the snacks. It was like a real sleepover with friends. We watched T.V. For an hour and then went downstairs. Al and Winry sat at the table with the phone.
" We're calling everyone for a snowball fight," Al smiled.
Winry stood and came around the table. She looked at me and Riza and then put an arm around each of our necks. I knew why and so did Riza. We leaned into the embrace. It was her way of comforting us after what happened.
" I'm talking to Roy," she smiled.
Riza sat next to Al and he hugged her too. I gave her an "I told you" look. She smiled and started talking to him. I gathered my shoes and went outside. My body was cold seeing as I was wearing my pajamas. That thought just registered and I blushed as I realized what that meant. Roy had changed me. I made my way across the street and knocked on his door. He opened it with a quizzical look at me. I walked past him and into his room. I went straight to his closet and pulled out a jacket. He smiled at me.
" Hey shrimp. I was just talking to Winry," He smiled.
I ignored the shrimp comment and went to him. I placed my arms around his chest and put my face in his neck. He hesitated and then put his arms around my shoulders. I inhaled taking in his scent. It was sweet and overwhelming. I held back tears as i held him tightly. He patted my head and smiled when I looked up at him.
" I missed you too," he smirked.
Instead of commenting I reached up and kissed him. It was gentle as his lips moved against mine. It was a simple I love you kiss. The words didn't need to be said.
" You must be freezing," he pulled me to his bed and pulled the blanket on me.
I shivered but tried to hide it. He smiled and put his arms around me.
" Hey, Shrimp?" He asked.
" Yes, Bastard," I smirked.
" I love you," He sighed.
" I love you too," I smiled.
He kissed me again and moved me so I was straddling him. His lips captured mine as his heart held mine captive. I smiled against his lips and closed my eyes giving myself over to the feelings running through me. I was standing on the edge of everything I've never felt.