Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back up
Like a wake-up call.
I was staring out my window trying not to beat myself up because of the fact that I couldn't read the book I was supposed to. What am I supposed to do? How can I move on and be anything in my life if I can't read? It was thoughts like these that were running through my head when she called. Her voice has always had the power to pull me out of whatever I was thinking, and making the world ok, even if for that small moment, she was just that special and amazing to me.
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know, what I didn't know.
I have always wanted to know why people do some of the dumbest things for love, and now I know, because love makes your mind do things you never thought you would do, get things you never thought you would, say things you never thought you would, and feel things that you don't feel everyday. I can't believe that I couldn't see that the person that would make me feel that way was right in front of me the whole time, my best friend since we were little, and her name is Marley Rose, the most amazing girl I have even met.
Because you live and breathe,
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live girl,
My world,
Has twice as many stars in the sky.
Just her being alive makes me a better person. She makes me want to be worthy of her, she makes me believe in myself when I feel like giving up. She helps me learn how to read, and she doesn't judge me. She understands me, and her being around me makes my whole world so much brighter.
It's alright.
I survived.
I'm alive again
'Cause of you, made it through every storm
What is life? What's the use?
If you're killing time.
I somehow made it through high school. I made it, I did it. Now I can go and see if I'm good at anything, but if you ask Marley, she'll tell you I can do everything. It's because of her I graduated high school, she pushed me when I didn't want to be pushed, and she's just so amazing to me in every way. If it were up to me, I would just stay here with her wasting time. When I'm with her; nothing else in the world matters. It's just me and my Marley.
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I want to fly looking in your eyes.
I'm so happy I found her when I did. She's an angel, wither she believes it or not, she is to me. She was there for me when they told me I had dyslexia, and she helped me get over it as best I could. But when they told me, I felt like there was nothing I could do, I felt like that was the end of my life at school, that I let my parents down, I was the most stupid person in my family. But when I was with her, she made me believe in myself, and her eyes made me want to do everything she told me I could do and more.
Because you live and breathe,
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live girl,My world,
Has twice as many stars in the sky.
Because you live, I live.
I was so nervous for tonight. Marley and I had been dating since high school, and I knew she loved me, but I was still so worried. What if she said no? What if she said she and Jake started dating again? What if she said she wanted him? She was my world, and because she lived, I lived, I couldn't lose her, not now, not ever.
Because you live, there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give you what you've given me.
Always.
I just thought back on when we were in high school, I never gave up on her, even when she was with Jake. I knew she was meant to be mine, even though I had lost that fight, I knew someday I would win the war, and Marley would be mine.
I took her by the hand and looked her in the eyes, "Marley you are just so amazing. You make every day worth it. I want to give you everything you've given me, but the only way I can even try to do that is if we spend together forever. So, will you marry me?" I asked her as her eyes started tearing up.
"Yes," she whispered through her tears as she gave me the most beautiful smile in the world. She was officially mine forever, what was I worried about?
Because you live and breathe,
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live girl,
My world,
Has twice as many stars in the sky.
On our wedding day, as we were dancing, it felt like there was on one else in the room. She was the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen. I twirled her around and I felt so much more alive than ever before. She was my life and I don't know who I'd be, or where I'd be, if it wasn't for her. She made my world brighter than the sun itself.
Because you live and breathe,
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live girl,
My world,
Has everything I need to survive.
Because you live, I live.
I live.
We were in the hospital and I was sitting in the chair next to the bed. I heard a tiny little cry and walked over to the little crib on the other side. I picked up my little daughter and smiled at her.
"Hey baby girl. What's the matter? Huh? Why are you crying? You should have no reason. I mean you're just as beautiful as Mommy. Do you want me to sing to you? Huh? Would that make you feel better? 'Hey baby. Daddy's gonna take you to the zoo today to watch the monkey's swing and go oh, oh, oh. At the zoo today. Hey baby. Daddy's gonna take you to the zoo today to watch the elephants go brrrrrr! When they bathe their babe.*"
Marley slightly chuckled and I turned around to see her smiling. "You're so crazy Ry," she said.
I walked over with the now sleeping Olivia and said, "But that's why you love me, right?"
"Yes, but that's why I love you, give me my baby," she said as she stretched her arms out slightly to hold her.
I put little Livi in Marley's arms and kissed the top of her head, these two wonderful girls are all I need to survive.
Song: "Because You Live" by Jesse McCartney as suggested by: Guest.
Next Song: "I'll Follow You Into The Dark" as suggested by: JustAlicia
Thanks for reading! Leave your suggestion for a song, it just might be the next chapter! c:
* Lullaby made up by Kellin Quinn for his daughter, Copeland.