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So here is the next chapter hope you like it. There is some adult type content in this one so if you have a problem with that stop when you think it's getting close. AS always thanks for the reviews they are the reason I write. I mean what is the point of writing if no one reads. If there are any request let me know and I I'll see what I can do. Who knows a little comment by you may turn into the main feature of a chapter if it's let loose in my brain.
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I look up from the blocks I'm building with Kelly as my phone alerts me to a new message. I smile as I open it and see it's from Naomi. In the week since my arrival home drunk, we had settled into an easy routine. She was at work for most of the day while I was at home with Kelly. When she got home we would eat together and just hang out being a family. We would tuck Kelly in together and then spend time talking or playing cards. It was nice, I felt like I was getting to know her better and she really is being so understanding.
I push the open message button on my screen and read the text.
Hey Ems our friends invited us out for drinks tonight mum offered to look after Kelly. You keen? If you are I thought we could make a date of it and do dinner first. Could be fun ;).
I reread the message considering the offer. It might be nice to spend sometime with Naomi outside of the house, see what she's like on a date. Then again the prospect of meeting friends scared me. Naomi had filled me in on our college friends vaguely during one of our evening chats. The task of meeting them and trying to reconnect with all of them seemed quite daunting. Along with this apparently I had known them almost as long as I had Naomi. The thought of having several people all with multiple years of memories of me when I was going to have trouble remembering their names didn't sound fun. On the other hand I had to do it sooner or later. Although a few small clips of my memory had returned a check up with my doctor had informed me that there was no guarantee when, or if the rest would. She did indicate that it was promising that bits had but that I needed to get back into life, bits may return when I least expect. Well that was easy for her to say she wasn't the one not able to remember beyond their teenage years. She also informed me to keep note of all the things that happened leading up to any memory retrieval because we may find a pattern. Certain situations might be the trigger to regain my lost time. My phone beeped again pulling me from my thoughts and I look to Kelly realising I had been zoned out for a minute. She's still fully engrossed in building the tower and bridge she decided she wanted to drive her cars over. I look down and see another message from Naomi.
Just so you know both Katie and I will be there to have your back and hold your hand if you need it. No pressure though and if you only want 2 do 1 or the other that's ok 2.
Apparently I had taken long enough to answer that Naomi had assumed I was worried. She was right of course. I couldn't help but smile at how sweet she was. I also loved the way she text. She had a phone with a QWERTY keyboard on it so tended to type out full words. I had discovered this as she had sent me a number of texts over the last few days checking up on me and Kelly.
"Hey baby" I say getting Kelly's attention. She looks up from her blocks expectantly knowing I've interrupted her play for a reason. "How would you like to go see Nana tonight?" I ask. I guess I've decided to let the fate of tonight hang in the decision of a two year old. If she wants to see her nana then I'll go on a date with Naomi and see where the night takes us.
"Want to see Nana" she says enthusiastically. "Nana got lollies, tells me funny stories"
"Ok good" Emily replies as Kelly goes back to her important task.
Dinner sounds good not sure about drinks can we play it by ear? What time are you home 2day?
I reply to Naomi's text. I use full words much like her because I have learnt she doesn't understand text language. If I use it to shorten my messages it takes five more trying to explain what I've said. I fiddle with the phone in my hand waiting for her reply somewhat nervously. Despite the time we have been spending together I feel like texting is the time both of us get most confident. Naomi always seems somewhat flirty in her messages something she seems to hold back a little when we are together. I don't think this is usual it's just a part of her trying to make me comfortable. I have noticed sometimes when we are together that she is visibly trying to resist the urge to do things. She looks quite cute doing it and sometimes I can't help but ease her tenseness by pecking her softly on the lips or taking her hand in mine. She must feel like a teenager all over again with all these feelings she's not sure what to do with. I have to say though I think I might be getting a little smitten for her too. I love our nightly time together just relaxing and I always look forward to seeing her after work.
My phone message alert sounds again and Kelly looks up this time interrupted from her play.
"Who is that Mumma?" she asks pointing to my phone.
"It's Mummy" I reply to Kelly. She seems to like this answer and comes to sit in my lap.
"What she doing" Kelly asks craning her neck backwards to look in my eyes. I bring my phone up and open the message eager to see what her reply might be.
:) Looking forward to dinner anywhere u want 2 go cause I'll ring and book a table. I know y u want to play it by ear, just so u know I never put out on a first date. Anyway hoping to get off early should be home by 2 I miss my girls. Feels like I barely seen Kelly it blows having to work extra time this week.
I smile and look back down at Kelly stroking her hair gently.
"Mummy's at work she said she might be home early though." I explain.
"I hope so" Kelly says a hint of sadness in her tone. "I miss mummy".
I don't know how to respond to that. Naomi actually works fairly short hours compared to most people. She only does four days a week and 6 hours a day. This week though due to an urgent assignment she's had to go in on her normal day off. She's also being doing closer to 8 or 9 hours a day. She had been extremely apologetic about this but apparently she was a top person in her field and had to finish a project that was due for publication next week. Usually her prestige worked to her advantage because of the fact she had offers from all over the world she was able to pick and chose. This meant she could normally do a shorter than usual working week but bring home a larger than normal pay. Or so she told me when I asked. She seemed quite shy about the fact that she was a big name in her field. I could tell her work was important to her but no where near as important as her family. The fact that Kelly was asking about where Naomi was now actually made me feel a little guilty. I mean Naomi had still been here to eat breakfast with us every morning and home to eat dinner with us every night. What had Kelly said when I'd been staying at Katie's and some days she wouldn't see me at all. It was clear that she was spoilt in terms of the time and attention she received from both me and Naomi. That of course was not a bad thing entirely the opposite. I'd always been adamant of the fact that someone else wouldn't be raising my child. It seemed I'd managed to achieve this. It pleased me that I could see some of the values I remembered having in this life I didn't remember.
"She'll be home soon baby" I say taking note of the time. Its almost noon so by the time Kelly and I have lunch and finish off the block tower it really won't be long. I take my phone and creates another message to Naomi.
Yeah cause that is exactly what I was thinking Naomi. How about our favourite Indian restaurant for dinner? Kelly says she misses u she hopes your home soon, want us 2 save u some lunch?
I send assuming that the fact she's finishing early means she's forgoing her lunch hour in favour of coming home early.
"Right Kelly what are we going to have for lunch?" I ask kissing her head as she's still sitting in my lap. She lifts her shoulder at me in an I don't know gesture, something I feel rather than see.
"Well would you like to help me make a pizza?" I ask hoping it will get her mind off Naomi for a bit if I let her help with lunch. She nods eagerly and I send her off to the bathroom to wash her hands as I check the message from Naomi that has just arrived.
All booked in at for a meal at 7. U do realise u just remembered something right cause I'm fairly sure our daughter didn't tell u about that restaurant. Lunch would be great. Tell Kelly I'll be home as soon as I can and that I love her.
Wow Naomi was right I hadn't noticed that, yes I had recalled a fact that I hadn't even thought about. Now that I did think about it seems the only thing I can recall is they make amazing chicken korma. That was better than nothing and I could already feel my mouth start to salivate at the thought of it. I decide to send one more text to Naomi before getting out the ingredients for our pizza.
Wow I did 2 can't wait for some korma considering that's all I remember. We'll save you some pizza see you soonish. :)
I send off, one last text from Naomi coming back almost instantly.
U always did know how to look after your women ;)
I can't help but smile at that as I take out the premade pizza base and all the toppings I think we might like. Kelly returns to the room and smiles brightly as I give her Naomi's message. I move a chair up to the kitchen bench for her and lift her up. We stand at the bench making decisions together about our lunch.
I look down at the DVD in my hand. It was the first time I had been alone in the house since I'd moved back in. Naomi had come home and we'd spent the afternoon together. She was now taking Kelly over to her mothers saying she'd be about an hour because she had a few things to grab on the way home. She'd left about 10 minutes ago and in that time I'd been sitting on the couch trying to decide if I was ready to watch this video. I was really tempted I wanted to see what I had to say to Naomi on our wedding day. At the same time I was reluctant. I didn't want other people telling me how to feel or behave. As Naomi pointed out this was in fact me, how could I argue with me telling me how to feel. Getting up off the couch I made a definite decision putting the disc quickly into the player and returning to my seat. Then I pick up the remote and press play before I can change my mind.
"Emily what are you doing?" comes Naomi's amused voice as the cap of the camera is taken off and a shot of her sitting on a bed in her wedding dress comes into screen. "I was thinking we could make a clip about today. About how we feel, I know there are photos and stuff but this is just you and me."
"Ems I'm never going to forget how I feel right now, I promise, do we really need to record something we'll be able to remember it together."
"What happens if you get old and lose your memory what happens if you forget who I am. I want our feelings today to be preserved so we can always remember."
"What about you Ems what if you forget?"
"I could never forget you Naomi Campbell-Fitch; man that sounds good doesn't it."
I see a lazy smile come across the face of Naomi on screen. Her eyes crinkle up and she looks adoringly at the camera, well probably at me but since I'm behind the camera who could be sure.
"But just because I love you so much I'll record one too" I continue.
"Good now if you want me to be able to tell you exactly how I feel you need to come closer." Naomi says and pats her hands on her knees. There is some shuffling and some fumbled camera movements before a shot of me sitting in Naomi's lap comes on screen. She has her arms wrapped tightly around me and one of mine was obviously holding the camera away from us.
"That's much better" Naomi says snuggling her face into my neck and kissing it gently.
"Right you want me to say something beautiful about today. First of all I love you more than anything and today was amazing. I'm not going to say anything cliché like it was the best day of my life. The reason is because everyday I spend with you is amazing. Being with you just gives me a happy warm feeling no matter what we're doing. I love that we confirmed that today that we are going to spend the rest of our live together, but I knew that the first time I kissed you. Since you and I have been a coupled everyday I spend with you has been the best day. I love you Emily Campbell-Fitch." Naomi finishes giving me a kiss on the lips.
"Sappy enough for you?"
"You're perfect, I know you like to pretend you're all tough and stuff but really you're just a big sap." I say laughing.
"Shh I've got a reputation to keep" Naomi moans peppering me with kisses.
"Right well how about you my beautiful wife say your piece so we can get on with the important things like consummating our marriage." Naomi says with a wide grin winking at me.
"Ha you're so sure of yourself who said you were getting any tonight?" I say teasingly causing Naomi to slap me playfully.
"Wife beating already babe most people wait till after the honey moon to start that" I joke again. Naomi just looks at me before capturing my lips in a kiss. Its nice seeing this seems me and Naomi really did have a loving and playful relationship.
"You're right I should record my piece so we can get onto more important things." I say pulling back from the kiss a little breathless. I lean a little closer to the Television and turn up the volume eager to hear myself speak.
"Naomi Campbell-Fitch despite the fact you're definitely not perfect you're perfect for me. I love you despite your annoying habits and strange tastes. I think that's what let me know that I really do love you, I would be smiling when you did something I would curse anyone else for doing. Um well seems I'm not as good at this as you are. Today was amazing but your right so is every other day when we're together. I'm a little bit tipsy from the champagne and I don't know what else to say but I love you. I love the way you look, the way you smell, the way you sound, the way you taste and the way you feel. I love you Naomi and I never want you to forget it. So don't ok no matter what happens you always remember now and here because right now I can't ever imagine wanting anything else but this us and whatever our life together might bring."
I watch as the television version of me finishes and leans in to captures Naomi's lips. Wow I can see why Naomi had given this to me to watch. It was clear as day that I loved her here, that we were a strong couple who really did share everything. It made me feel good knowing I mean it didn't really change anything. I still needed to slowly work my way back to Naomi but it was nice to know where I could get back to. That I had made a choice that the me I didn't know would make. Not that, that made sense because if I hadn't forgotten then I wouldn't be here trying to remember and therefore wouldn't have to make the decision. What I really mean is that it's comforting to see. I'm startled from my thoughts as more dialogue sounds from the television.
"Ems why don't you put that away so we can relax properly yeah?"
"Or we could put it over there and let it remember the whole night"
"You Emily Campbell-Fitch are naughty. We don't need to record anymore we can have each other whenever we want why do we need a tape?"
"It might be fun not like anyone else would see it and the thought of getting to watch it later is pretty exciting"
"Ems" Naomi says in protest. Then I watch as I pull a little face at her before kissing her lips and whispering something in her ear. Naomi nods slowly nervous smile spreading across her lips. There is some more moving of the camera before it's placed on what must be a tripod. I know Naomi told me to stop watching here but it wouldn't hurt just to watch a little more would it. I see myself move back onto the bed and Naomi and I begin to kiss. I only mean to watch for a short while I swear but it's just so beautiful and loving and it makes me feel happy knowing I've got that. Well that I can have that when I'm ready again. All of a sudden without me really noticing I'm not just watching kissing. Both of us are down to just our underwear and there are soft moans and wandering hands. Again I tell myself to stop but I can't. I watch as things escalate even further as bras are discarded and I'm lying fully on top of Naomi. It seems I'm leading the way as I kiss and touch her all over.
It's strange really here I am thinking that I wouldn't know the first thing about pleasing a women, watching a movie that shows I'm actually pretty good at it. Well the noises coming from the onscreen Naomi would suggest so. I watch intently thinking perhaps I might be able to teach myself something. Right now the me onscreen is sucking one of Naomi's nipples and it seems to be driving her wild. The on screen action is actually making me feel like I actually want to be doing that. I watch a little longer feeling myself become incredibly turned on by the action. Naomi has taking over the lead now and I'm the one having my breasts fondled. The tension on screen is obvious and I can tell that things are about to progress even further. My thought is confirmed when I see Naomi move down and remove my underwear removing her own at the same time. She then settles in between my legs and begins doing things I'd dreamt about after our kiss in middle school. After a few minutes telly me interrupts Naomi from her ministrations.
"Naomi, Noams" I say and she pulls away from her task.
"Babe that's fucking amazing but you're not the only one with a beautiful new wife who they want to make love to. Can we do this together babe?"
As an answer Naomi moves up the bed and kisses me on the lips. She then pulls away and both of us rearrange ourselves into a sitting position so we have optimum access. I watch as Naomi and I begin to make love together. As well as being incredible sexy, it's utterly beautiful. It's like we know instinctively what the other needs and wants. Soft warm kisses and smouldering looks are exchanged. We're leaned in close together and Naomi it whispering things in my ear as I can see we both must be getting close. Just as it looks like everything is about to reach its peak on the telly I hear the front door open. Fuck it Naomi where's the remote. Crap it not here, I can hear her making her way into the living room.
"Hey Ems" she says walking in stopping abruptly when she sees what I'm watching. I finally find the remote and push the stop button. It's too late though she's already seen it. I feel myself start to blush heavily.
"Sorry" I say looking down at my hands ashamed at what I'd been watching.
"Ems" I hear her say followed by a laugh. I look up surprised to see her smiling not at all angry.
"You don't need to be sorry. You're not doing anything wrong, just watching a home movie that I actually told you to watch." Naomi says.
"Yeah but you said not the watch that bit" I reply looking down at my hands again.
"Only reason I said that Ems is because I wanted to warn you, didn't want you to watch it without knowing and think I was trying to force something on you." Naomi explains.
"Ok" I say still highly embarrassed that she'd caught me. I could see the irony in being embarrassed that she's caught me watching the tape considering what the two of us were doing together on it.
"Right I'm going to go get ready for this date of ours; you think you can be ready in half and hour?"
"Yeah" I nod affirmatively.
"Cool" Naomi says going to walk away. "And Ems" she says causing me to look up at her. "I would highly recommend watching the end if you were enjoying what you saw, probably don't have time right now though because it goes on for a while."
With that she leaves the room to get ready for our date. I moved up off the sofa thinking I should really do the same. I was really looking forward to this date I just hope the hormones I felt coursing through my system after watching that video didn't cause me to do something I wasn't quite ready for.