A/N: So here's the new chapter little later than the others have been but it was hard working out this one but it had been planned since oh about day 5ish but it was hard to do. Also to haha haha ha ha ummm read and see…? Also the usual stuff I don't own Hetalia and without further ado the next chapter…
[Lovino] 7:13 Msg:
Bastard, are you picking me up today? Or are you gonna make me fucking walk?
[Antonio] 7:15 Msg:
Crap sorry Lovi woke up late give me a couple min and i'll be over
[Lovino] 7:17 Msg:
Good job, idiot.
[Lovino] 7:19 Msg:
Oh and your taking Feli too
[Antonio] 7:20 Msg:
Ah yes mi tomate's lovely complements so early in the morning and okay that's fine
[Lovino] 7:22 Msg:
Hurry up and get here. If I hear Feli sadly sigh one more time I will take my anger out on you!
[Lovino] 7:24 Msg:
That or I'll make you take my anger out on the bastard that's making him this sad. Fuck potato eating bastard! Making my fratellino all depressed. He's doesn't even feel like eating pasta!
[Antonio] 7:26 Msg:
Que? Your hermanito always eats pasta are you sure he's going to be okay with all this? Also almost at your house
[Lovino] 7:29 Msg:
I honestly don't know... and Fuck you! Now we are going to be fucking late for school. Good job, bastard!
[Antonio] 7:30 Msg:
Have you ever been late before when i drive you ;D
[Antonio] 7:31 Msg:
Here
[Mathew] 9:13 Msg:
Al, my TA just told me that his friend Feliciano Vargas is very depressed, possibly suicidal. I think you have him in one of your PE classes if you want to try and talk to him about it.
[Alfred] 9:20 Msg:
Thanks for the heads up i don't have him till tomorrow but i'll talk to him about it. BTW is this that french student of yours? How do you know he's not just pulling for attention since you've been busy recently. (wink)
[Mathew] 9:23
Msg: Alright, if he still seems bad we should tell the school councilor. Also, I am ignoring that last part. It's not my fault a student has a very unhealthy crush on me.
[Alfred] 9:25 Msg:
Yea yea and it's not your fault you slept with him either is it? Anyways i'll let some of his other teachers know so they can keep an eye out ttyl bro
[Mathew] 9:27 Msg:
Al, I swear nothing happened that night! I don't even know how he knew where I lived!
[Alfred] 9:29 Msg:
Sure you didn't...
[Kiku] 12:08 Msg:
Lizzy! I just overheard Jones-sensei and Kirkland-sensei talking about Feliciano. They said he is suicidal! Are you still with him? Can you make sure he is okay?
[Lizzy] 12:09 Msg:
Shit are you sure he just took off to his next class crap what was his next class shit tell some people that you know can keep their mouths shut to keep an eye out i'll go look for him also if you see lovino let him know just in case feli slips past everyone i'll try to talk to ludwig during class next period but i doubt he'll talk back to me
[Kiku] 12:14 Msg:
Alright. I'm not sure what his next class is, but I will txt Lovino and anyone else I can think of to watch out for him. If Ludwig won't listen tell Gilbert.
[Lizzy] 12:15 Msg:
Will do
Ludwig,
I'm not sure why I'm writing another one of these I guess it's cause Lizzy made me but I don't see the point you won't read it anyways. Still I mean what I said I'm sorry I didn't mean for you to get angry at me but I guess that's what I deserve I have been a pretty crappy friend. Well I told Lizzy this was the last note I would try since it hurts to think it's only going in the trash so why waste the paper… Pretty stupid huh well if you do read this I'm sorry I don't know what else to do or say to change your mind about me but tell you how sorry I am things ended up this way… Even if you don't read this note or if you do and still won't forgive me I guess I should just say good bye it was nice being your friend I'm sure you'll find a better one eventually…
Feliciano
[Lizzy] 3:02 Msg:
Gil have you seen Ludwig or Feli anywhere?
[Gilbert] 3:14 Msg:
Sorry I was eating. I haven't seen Feli cuz my Bruder is still stupid, but lud is sitting next me. Why?
[Lizzy] 3:16 Msg:
Because Kiku told me today that he overheard mr jones and mr kirkland talking about feli and saying that he's suicidal and no one that i've asked has seen him since lunch
[Gilbert] 3:17 Msg:
WHAT! ARE YOU SERIOUS?
[Lizzy] 3:19 Msg:
WHO THE HELL WOULD JOKE LIKE THIS!
[Gilbert] 3:25 Msg:
Okay okay! I just told Lud, he is freaking out, he says he's gonna go and make sure Feli is okay.
[Lizzy] 3:26 Msg:
I just hope he is i've tried to call him but he won't pick up
[Gilbert] 3:38 Msg:
Lud just left, he's going to Feli's house. I'll let you know when I find out anything
[Lizzy] 3:39 Msg:
Please do
Calling Feliciano Vargas
3:37 call failed
Calling Feliciano Vargas
3:41 Call failed
Calling Feliciano Vargas
3:43 Call failed
[Ludwig] 3:46 Msg:
Feliciano answer your phone!
Calling Feliciano Vargas
3:50 Call failed
[Ludwig] 3:52 Msg:
Verdammt! Feliciano, please answer your phone. This is not a good time to ignore it!
Calling Feliciano Vargas
3:56 Call failed
Journal
Why does fate like kicking a person when they're down? Ludwig came over to my house today at first I wasn't sure why he was there but he had a panicked look in his eyes that said something was wrong I didn't find out what till Lovino got home and told me about the rumors going around school claiming I was suicidal… I'm not I can assure you just depressed, there is a difference. Anyways when Ludwig came into the bathroom I was just getting out of the bath (Trying to make my headache that I've had for the past few days go away. It didn't help.) so all I had on was a towel and the medication I was about to take for the pounding pressure in my head in hand. He paused for a moment (probably shocked by my lack of clothing) and then when he moved again it was to knock the pills out of my hand and question what I was doing and why I didn't answer my phone. I only told him about the phone since the answer to the pills should have been obvious seeing as the bottle read migraine relief. I just dropped my phone into the bath before I got in so it was broken I never received any messages or calls he seemed a bit relieved by that. I bent down to grab the pills this time he didn't stop me… I asked him what brought him here and he simply said rumors (huh go figure he'd pick now to listen to school rumors) after that he told me not to do anything stupid and then left… I know why he really came it was so he wouldn't feel guilty if I actually did kill myself. Ha what should it matter to him it's not as if he'd really care anyways he just doesn't want to be blamed. Sigh I can see where the rumors came from though life seems… worthless? (Good enough word…) I suppose I do seem a bit… who am I kidding I seem completely different than the old Feli even people I don't really know keep shooting me concerned looks. (It's getting annoying…) Oh well I don't have much else to say so I guess I'll go to sleep or something now even though it's only 7… Night.
Feliciano
Entry 34
I think I want to kill Gilbert. Why on earth did I think listening to something he says would be a good idea? Then again, I don't know what I would have done if what he said had been true and I'd done nothing to try and stop it. A world without Feli? I don't want to think about anything like that. I can't.
I don't really know why I believed he would do something like that. Maybe, I was just flattering myself. If I was it was subconscious. I don't remember think anything more than 'I have to stop him' or 'Please don't be too late'. I should know he wouldn't kill himself over something as stupid as... whatever it is that's happened between us.
I've been think all since yesterday and I still don't really know why I'm doing this. I don't want to end our friendship. I enjoy being with him. And yet, that's the same reason that I don't want to keep being his friend.
I've read every note I still have (most of them ended up with Feli) a good hundred or more times. That's basically all I did yesterday. Which is why I didn't write an entry. I didn't know what to write, I still don't.
Maybe I should let it go. Just tell him I've been stressed lately and I didn't mean to ignore him and... Just pretend nothing happened, go back to how it use to be?
I don't think I can do that. Just seeing him today made me feel like something was ripping or deflating or chilling? in my chest.
It's dumb of me to focus so much on everything with him, but no matter what I try and think about... it all goes back to Feli. So often that it's gotten hard to breath.I need to focus on something else, ignore how often I think about him. I want to stop thinking about it and yet, I can't. I don't know what would be better. What would hurt worse... staying his friend or never speaking again.
I've never felt this way.
[Gilbert] 7:32 Msg:
If tomorrow you're wondering why I have a bump on my forehead, Lud kinda smacked me upside the head. Apparently we were wrong about Feli and that somehow made Lud see him in nothing but a towel and that is my fault.
[Lizzy] 7:36 Msg:
Thank God i was so worried sorry about the bump but it was better to be safe than sorry in this case
[Gilbert] 7:41 Msg:
Yeah, still I think you should come over and play nurse for me.
[Lizzy] 7:43 Msg:
I would love too but i have to actually study for my AP bio midterm tomorrow. BTW do you know why feli wasn't answering his phone? It's not like him...
[Gilbert] 7:44 Msg:
Fine, just let me die from head trauma... i see how it is. Also, i think I heard lud mumble something about dropping a phone in the bath, i think he meant feli did that.
[Lizzy] 7:47 Msg:
Of course feli did sigh and i doubt ludwig hit you that hard but if it makes you feel better i'll kiss your bump tomorrow
[Gilbert] 7:50 Msg:
I think you should just kiss me, but I'll take what I can get.
[Lizzy] 7:53 Msg:
Haha how many times do i have to remind you i have a boyfriend be happy your even getting that
[Gilbert] 7:56 Msg:
Yeah yeah I know. Roderich the 'great guy'. Whatevr. You better pay up tomorrow babe.
[Lizzy] 7:58 Msg:
Of course Gil see you tomorrow and thank you for letting me know about feli it means a lot
[Gilbert] 8:01 Msg:
Of course, what are extremely attractive friends for?
A/N: We had no promises in this story so this idea was fair play, okay? Thank you every one for all the follows favorites and comments they make our days. XD Rate and review please. Till next time…