" Fuck!" Rosabella sighed as she moved back and forth along the room, trying to think of so many things to say or do, pulling on her curled hair and trying to stay calm.
" Well we need to think or something to do, and kinda quick." George sighed out.
" Well no shit Smartie!" Rosabella snapped at the boy.
" I'll say it for her, sorry. She gets like this when she is really, really, stressed." Her friend said calmly.
Many things were going through the girls mind, flying through and blending back together. Her mind was making her whole body feel weak and she felt her knees quake a little as she moved towards a chair and allowed herself to sit down before she would fall over. So many emotions were flying through her body, one moment wanting to cry and the next wanting to scream. Rosabella could her the two boys talking to one another, but she could not understand a word that they were saying. She was focused on being stuck in her brain and hoping she would just stay in there for the rest of time.
" Did the two of you know that being an animagus runs in the family?" She looked at both of the boys.
" No." The both stated.
" Well my cousin and most of his side of the family all are or were." George's face started to shift a little.
" So? How the hell is that going to help us out here?" Adrian questioned
" You really do not understand me, do you?" She looked at the boy and smiled.
" What? What am I missing?" Adrian asked.
" You don't mean. . . do you?" George looked at the girl with a questioned expression.
" I'm one as well. Though I do have to say, I think that I would take home best dog at a show, I am one." She smiled and moved the hair out of her face. " Adrian I need you to go upstairs and tell Draco to meet me in our carriage in ten minutes. To not be seen by anyone because I want this to be special and to not be caught by Snape. I'll got out there in my dog-form and just sneak into the carriage on my own. I know that Draco can get in there without being seen and we'll knock some boots and everyone will think that it was us the whole time." Rosabella said, her face turning a little pale as she said the final words. Adrian nodded and moved towards the stairs.
" You have got to be kidding me! You," He said towards where the other boy had gone. "- get back here, this is not the way that it's going to happen. I don't want you to have to have sex with someone when you cannot even stand being around them!" George said.
" There is no other way George, what do you not understand about that. I have to do this so that we both wont be killed. Please, do not make this a personal thing for you. Go, before someone comes in and sees you in here." She sighed.
" No, this is a personal thing. It involves you and you are one of the things that I call a personal matter now." George moved closer to her and cupped his hand around her pale face.
" Well I'm sorry, there is no way to get around this. I'm already going to be getting in trouble for going with you and I do not want to get in even more trouble. I shouldn't have even gone with you in the first place, God, why am I so stupid!" Rosabella said, smacking his hand off of her face.
" Rose. . ." The boy looked at her, heartbroken.
" Just. . . just get the hell out of here!" She stammered.
" No." He whispered.
" I can't do this! This, you, are going to get me killed for loving you! I will die because of this and because of what the Malfoy family can do to me!" She cried out.
" No, I wont let them."
" I have to go." She said and fled the room.
Her head and heart were so broken from one another and she barley heard the boy enter carriage. Rosabella was nearly on the verge of crying when the boy came and sat down next to her on the bed and wrapped his arm around the girls thin body. She knew that he was saying something, but did not know what it was exactly that he had been saying. Her brain was filled with too many things to take in any more information. Draco was not really himself for the first time, not all hands on her and she did not understand why he was not trying to pull up her dress or pull up his shirt. When Rosabella came in to listen to what he had been saying, all she could do was let her jaw drop to the floor.
" I'm so sorry for all of the things that I have done. I mean, I was just worried that if I did not take control like that, well. . . well you would try and leave this marriage. I mean I now know that you can't, which makes me feel a shit load better, but still. I'm sorry." He stated.
" It's. . . it's alright I guess." She whispered.
" No, it isn't." He said and kissed her on the cheek. " We are going to be bound together till the day that we die, we have to be able to live together and for one not to be afraid of the other. I think that we should just re-start this whole thing over again. This time take it one step at a time and see where it goes from there. Agreed?" He asked.
" Agreed. . . I guess." She sighed. " How are you feeling Draco?" She asked.
" A little better, still pretty much like crap though." Draco shrugged.
" Well. . . do you want to go to the rest of the ball with me? If you are feeling up to it that is." She smiled as she moved away from the placed they have been on the bed.
" I'd love to." He smiled as he went along with her.
There were still plenty of people that were in the ball that saw the couple walk out of the carriage together and saw them walk, hand-in-hand, into the ball. They danced the whole night away, not fighting or yelling at one another, but having a good time and laughing at one another's dance moved. Every now and then Draco would slip a quick kiss onto the side of her cheek and would make the girl blush just a little when he did it. Though she felt like this was right for the moment, he heart was in a different place, craving something more then just made-up love. So many people looked at the couple and thought about saying something to them, but none did. Fred Weasly was the only one that was really stuck on the fact that she had come back to the ball with a different boy, that she was still not with his brother.
On the outside, the girl looked like has was having a great time with the boy, on the inside she was dying even slower then she had before. Knowing that she had blown it with the only boy that would ever love her without force, only for her, and nothing about family or blood. Rosabella was turn between what she wanted, to be good for her family and to make her family proud, and want she needed, the boy she shunned from her life and the one that she would love till the true day that she died. Rosabella knew that she would die without the boy, like humans do without air, it seemed like she was really going to die inside.
George and Rosabella did not speak to one another throughout potions anymore. Fred would come over from time to time and ask questioned about the paper that they had to write, or just to ask how she was. George would not even pass a glance over to her when they were talking, he seemed to just stare out one of the windows and never made eye contact with the girl, no matter how much she starred at him. George did not come and see her in the basement when she walked the halls or when she finished dinner early. He did not show up to practice quidditch anymore and every moment that Rosabella refused to talk to the boy, or when he did the same with her, it tore her up a little more inside. Everyone could see that she was depressed, but few truly knew why she was so upset.
" You want to go and practice today?" Adrian asked.
" No." Rosabella replied.
" Do you want to go get some butterbeers?" He asked.
" No." She stated.
" You wanna just stay in the common room all day and sulk?" Adrian asked.
" Yep." She starred at the fire.
" Why?" He asked.
" Because, it's all that I can do." She sighed. " If I practiced today I would most likely just allow myself to fall off of the broom and hope I got amnesia, making me forget all of the things that have happened since before school started. If I got some butterbeers I would have to pretend I'm bloody happy. I want to stay right here where I can just melt." She sighed.
" You know that he's not that happy either." Her friend questioned.
" Well he could come and find me sometime and we can share our depression."
" No really, you both are pretty fucked up all because you said that it was stupid to go to the ball with him and now you and Draco are an ' it' couple." He said angrily.
" I can't keep that silly little relationship going and you know that I cannot." She sighed.
" Common." Adrain pulled her out of her seat by the fire.
" No!" She said as he dragged her out of her corner. " Where are we going?" She said as she gave up.
" Anywhere. You are too pale and you need to get just a little sunlight." He smiled.
" It's winter, I'm supposed to be pale." She hissed.
" Just common and enjoy some time outside." He smiled as he pulled some of her winter clothing on.
It had recently snowed and had made a thick blanket of snow all over the school grounds. Many of the students were outside, playing in the snow like school children. Many buildings large snowmen and enchanting them to make them sing or do small dances. Rosabella refused to make one of those with her friend and stood and watched him rolls up the snow balls that would become the bottom, torso, and head of the oddly shaped man. He found some stones out from under the blanket of snow and placed them on the head of the man to make eyes and a mouth and looked around to quite a long time to sticks to make the arms for. The girl looked around and heard laughters coming from the other side of the front grounds. She moved out from where she had been to see a herd of gingers.
" Do not think about throwing that at me, Fred! No!" The baby of the family smiled as the boy threw the snowball at her and she screamed.
" Direct attack!" He laughed, high-fiving his comrade from behind a large snow mountain.
" This is no fair. I am a team of one against you two and Ron and Harry!" Ginny moaned as she made more of a wall to hide from her enemies.
" Oh well Sister. You will soon learn that the world is not fair!" George said blankly as he threw a snowball at his other sibling.
" Hey! We were out of this part of the war!" Ron laughed.
" Hey Ginny, why don't you go and ask Rosabella to join your team. I saw her go that way." Harry Potter said as he pointed in the direction of where the girl was stands, she froze for a moment.
" Great idea Harry!" Ginny said she she put her hands in the air and moved through the battleground.
" What?" She could hear the boy she loved say as she moved to her friends snowman and acted like she was helping her friend finish up with him.
" Hello guys!" Ginny smiled as she moved into view.
" Hi!" Adrian smiled.
" Ginny." Rosabella smiled faintly.
" Rosabella, ya wanna help me in a snowball fight? My brothers and Harry are really kicking my ass and I need someone else to be on my team and help me out. Ya wanna be that person?" She asked, looking very honest while she asked.
" Oh, Ginny. I would love to, but I mean, I have to help Adrian finish our snowman!" She said and pointed to the giant snowballs piled onto one another.
" Oh, that's fine Rosa, you go have fun and I'll meet you for dinner tonight!" He shooed her away from him, leaving her speechless and with no excuse.
She walked with the girl that looked a lot like her older brothers and moved quickly into place with the girl behind the wall of snow. She did not want to be there, be so close to the boy and not be able to say all of the things that she wanted to to him. Rosabella did not want to have to look the boy in the eye or even have fun with him. She knew that she had ruined every bit of fun that the boy was having the moment she walked into the battleground. But when the game really started up, she actually started to have a lot of fun, throwing the balls at either group of people and allowing some to hit her right back. She seemed to be a kid again inside.
" You will never take me alive!" She shouted out of her wall.
" Oh we surely will!" Harry Potter laughed back at her.
" Never!" She yelled.
" Are you children still doing this and you have recruited more people to join! Good!" A girls voice called through the grounds, Hermione Grangers voice.
" Attack!" Fred yelled and all of the teams came together and threw a few snow balls at the innocent girl.
" You children!" She laughed back and made a few snow balls and threw them back. " Well I just came out to say that Professor Moody wants to see you Harry."
" Me? Why?" He asked.
" I do not know, he just came into the library and asked me to get you. Ron, would you help me try and look for anything that could help Harry for his next challenge?" She asked as both of the boy got up and went to her side.
" Sorry guys, we'll have to finish this another time." Ron sighed.
" Yeah, see you guys at dinner, and I guess I'll see you later Rosabella." Harry waved.
" Oh, we're not just going to leave this here. Sorry to tell you that boy, you'll just have to face the winner later." Ginny said and threw one enchanted snow ball at the twins which chased them all the way around the battlefield.
" No fair, I didn't know that we could use magic!" George said.
" Well who ever said that we could. I'm just turning your sister into a terrible person, one breaking of the rules at a time." Rosabella smiled as she wrapped her arm around the other girl.
" How terrible!" Fred smiled. " We haven't been able to do that to her in how many years? And you are doing it all in one day!"
" I'm just that good." She laughed.
" Well you two better run now, because we are going to break the rules now." He laughed and took his wand out as the girls ran all around the school, running through the trees that they were allowed to go through.
" You'll never catch up to me!" Rosabella said to the air as she ran around, magically rolling up balls of snow and shooting them behind her.
" Wanna make a bet?" One of the twins voices called through the brush and trees.
" Yep!" She yelled as she can through the trees, deeper and deeper into the brush.
It became a game of cat and mouse really, running through traps and trying to find the other person before they had the chance to find out where you were. Yelling and screaming into the brush as they came so close to one another and breaking away at the last moment. Rosabella felt like a kid in a game of tag, running away from the person that was it. She felt so alive at the moment and did not know why she felt that way till one of the twins dragged onto her and they both feel into the snow, Rosabella on the snow ground and the twin on top of her, both laughing as they both caught a breath. The sky above them had become gray and started to spout out small white flakes of snow all around them.
" Got ya." The boy smiled, not moving from on top of her, but shifting weight off of her.
" I guess you did." She laughed a little.
" Well this is a little awkward." He laughed, moving the hair out of his face and allowing the girl to see he was blushing.
" And why would that be?" Rosabella smiled at the boy.
" Well because you're pretty much my unknown-to-anyone-else-ex-girlfriend." George let the smile fall off of his red face.
" I never wanted to break up with you and I didn't really think that I was breaking up with you. To be honest, I didn't think at all at the time. I just wanted to make sure that I- or you for the matter, wouldn't be hurt." She sighed. " I didn't want to hurt you or break up with you."
" So where does that leave us right now then?" He asked.
" Depressed and hating our lives? Or is that just me?" She asked lightly.
" Both of us." He sighed.
" Good to hear that it's not just me." She gave a faint laugh as she looked into the boys eyes for the first time in over a month and saw all of the sadness she had caused to him. " I'm so sorry for making you so upset."
" Are you really going out with Draco, for real this time?" He asked out of the blue.
" Um. . . yeah I guess so. So that when we get married we will be able to have a good relationship at home. No more abuse, no more yelling." The boy slowing moved off of the Rosabella and started to walk out of the woods.
" George! Wait!" She yelled after him, jumping up and following.