Hi guys and welcome back to Rekindled! Other than a massive thank you for the support on the last couple of chapters, I haven't got much to say, so let's crack on!
Friday-Kendall POV:
That morning I went to visit Kelly like she said, and we had some more basic discussions. "I've decided what I want to change PE to" I said, causing her to raise an eyebrow at me. "Can I swap it to music? After the lesson yesterday, Mr Bessant wants to help teach me the guitar, which was so cool!" I continued, and she nodded.
"Of course Kendall, I'm happy to see you so excited about a subject" she replied, and I nodded. "And are you still happy with Biology and Geography?" she asked, and I just shrugged as a response.
"Not sure, I haven't had a lesson yet, but I have biology today 3 and 4 so I'll let you know" I replied, and she nodded.
"Perfect. Any other issues? How living with Jennifer and Katie?" she asked and I beamed a massive smile.
"It's so nice! Katie a funny girl, acting all tough, I think she's sweet on the inside. Jennifer's amazing! She gave me an old phone and got my bank account back, can you believe it?" I asked, causing Kelly to chuckle.
"Sounds good." She said, just as the bell went. "Well, you best be off, and I'll see you at 13:20" Kelly continued, and I nodded. To be honest, I was thankful the bell went off when it did, as I was worried she would start to pry into more personal aspects. I wasn't ready to have a conversation with her about friends or anything, as I hadn't really made any so far. I was hoping to change that today, and it all began with me speaking to James.
I walked into English, hoping that I shared the lesson with him and, lo and behold I did, along with Camille, finally a chance to meet her properly. Not sure where to sit, I looked around the room, until I met Camille's eyes, which lit up as she waved me over to the table. I smiled, fully accepting the invitation, and sat next for her for the fifty minute period. While I was awkward at first, with James avoiding all eye contact, and not even speaking to me… ok, so it remained awkward the entire period, and by the sounds of it, it would continue into second, as both James and I had Maths. With the walk to class being just James and I, I decided to try and make conversation.
"Some lesson huh? How the hell am I supposed to know what the author is trying to say" I joked, trying to get a response out of James, but all I got was a "huh, yeah" followed by silence. I made many other failed attempts at talking to him, before we reached the lesson, and they continued all the way throughout. I mean, he wasn't completely silent, he did help me a few times when I was stuck, or he did ask me to help a few times, but other than that, the fifty minutes was spent with us getting the work done. When we left the class for break, I decided this would be the best time to talk to him.
"James, can we talk?" I asked, but when I only received a disgruntled sound from him, I grabbed him by the wrist and dragged him to the side of the corridor.
"Kendall, what the hell? You made it pretty clear that you didn't want to talk to me" he snapped, and I could see the anger and hurt in his hazel eyes. He was clearly still in pain from our last encounter, and seeing those videos definitely made that clear. He tried to walk away, but I grabbed his wrist before he could.
"I'm sorry ok? I'm sorry I shouted at you. I was being selfish, and was only thinking about myself" I said, and he just rolled his eyes.
"You think that's going to make up for it? You think that you can just say sorry, and we can move on from this?" he replied, his time pushing me back before walking away, making sure I couldn't stop him. With little options left, I resorted to the one I hoped would work.
"I saw the videos James!" I shouted down the corridor, and I saw his whole body visibly tense up, as he stopped in his tracks. "Everything was on the computer you gave me. I saw the video of me opening the letter about New York, I saw the video of us at Camille's and I saw the video of me moving into your house." I continued, this time him turning to face me. "It made me realise that I'm the lucky one in this. James, I don't remember anything, but you remember everything, and you have to face me every single day, knowing that you lost the person you fell in love with. I can't imagine the pain you're going through, seeing me walk around not knowing a thing about anyone." And I could see the tears forming in his eyes. He didn't say anything, but just stare at me tears strolling down his face. "I'm sorry" was all I could say, before turning and walking away. Clearly, he didn't want to be friends, or he would have said anything.
"Kendall wait…" ok, so maybe did want to be friends. "I'm sorry as well. I loaded all that stuff onto you, and it wasn't fair to expect you to feel the same way" he replied, and I turned back to him.
"I mean, I did keep badgering you about it" I joked, and he managed to chuckle through the tears.
"Ok, fair but still, I shouldn't have been mad at you. I mean, I wasn't your fault that you died and can't remember anything. Can we just forget about it all, and start afresh?" he asked, extending his arm out, and I took it, shaking his hand.
"Sure. Let's start afresh" I replied, a small smile forming on both our faces, obviously happy that this was resolved.
"So, do you want to sit with me a lunch? I know Dak and Carlos said that you're weren't ready to sit with everyone, but I didn't know if you just wanted to sit with me or…" he started to ramble, and I chuckled.
"I'll sit with everyone. I think I owe them an apology as well." I replied, as James led us out into the quad. Everyone was sat round their usual table, chatting and having fun, and I couldn't help but feel I was intruding into their friendship group.
"Hey guys!" James said, as he took a seat next to Jo, not that anyone noticed as they were all staring at me.
"D-Do you mind if I join you?" I stuttered, which caused Dak to slide over and tap the space next to him. Thank god it was Dak, as I already felt a bit more comfortable. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I haven't been entirely fair on you all" I said, as everyone continued to stare at me. Jo was the first one to speak up, as he took my hand over the table.
"Dude, don't worry about it. You've been through a lot yourself. Just chill ok?" she said, and I nodded. It seemed like conversation picked up where it had left off, with those guys talking about their lessons.
"What did you think of English Kendall?" I heard Camille ask, causing everyone to turn their attention to me.
"Yeah, it was alright. A bit confusing but other than that all good." I replied, causing them all to nod.
"And you had maths after that?" Camille pressed a little further, and my face kinda lit up.
"Yeah, that was quite fun actually! I mean, it was difficult, but… I don't know, I liked the feeling of getting the answer right" I replied, and it looked like everyone's jaw had dropped, their mouths all forming an 'o' shape. "What? I don't like it when you guys stare at me like that" I joked, pulling out a snack from my bag.
"You've never said that about maths before. You've always said that it's pointless, and that you're never going to use it again" Logan replied, and I was a bit hurt, but tried to play it off, shrugging my shoulders. Conversation continued, Logan telling everyone about his double history period, which I was quite excited to hear about actually. He would mention something that he studied, and I would immediately ask him more questions about it, causing the table to remain in a little bit of shock the whole time.
"Geez Kendall, you should swap to History as a specialism" Carlos joked, and I shook my head.
"I spoke to Kelly about it, and said it was too difficult. Listening to it is fun, learning it not so much. I did swap PE to music though" I replied, causing the group to slightly gasp.
"But PE was your favourite lesson!" Camille exclaimed. "You always talked about how much you loved it, and couldn't wait to go" she continued, and I shook my head.
"Not anymore. After that lesson, I couldn't do it anymore. I was constantly being tackled and tripped to the ground, it hurt" I replied, playing with the sleeves on my top. That was one of my nervous ticks.
"You'll be joining me in Music. Any particular instrument?" I heard Lucy say, and I smiled.
"Yeah, Mr Bessant gave me the old guitar in the instrument closet, and said I could keep it. I was hoping he could teach me to play. I was practising last night, but I'm still not very good" I replied a half smile on my face, as I thought back to me in the backyard trying to read the instructions.
"Don't worry about it, it takes years of practise. I'm still learning now" Lucy said, and I was intrigued.
"You play guitar as well?" I asked, the whole table descending into their own conversations.
"Yeah, but I play electric, that one's acoustic. It's the same principle though" she replied, and I smiled.
"Maybe you could teach me sometime? I mean, if you don't mind" I asked, and she nodded.
"Cool" was all she said, as she smiled back. Conversation pretty much continued like this the whole time, with the group asking questions, and me responding to them, causing them to look shocked, or even gasp a few times.
"Yeah, I finished the report last night. I loved writing about the battles, and with Logan's bits of information, it really helped"
"gasp"
"Yeah, but I don't know if I'll use Facebook that often, it seems like I could get easily distracted. Same with YouTube actually"
"gasp"
"Ice hockey? The coach asked me about that yesterday, and said I was on the team but I didn't want to be anymore. If it hurt that much falling into grass, I would hate to think how painful it would be to hit the ice"
"gasp"
"But you loved ice hockey! You loved skating around, and messing about on it, we all did" Carlos gestured to the rest of the guys on the table. "Even Logan!" Carlos added, causing Logan to reply "hey" before gently slapping him on the arm.
"Sorry guys. But I suppose I could come and watch? When's training?" I asked, causing Carlos to shake his head.
"We have training tonight, and then we were all going to hang out if you want to join?" James asked, and I nodded.
"Sure, I'd like that" I replied, just as the bell went for the lesson.
"Kendall, you've still got double biology, right?" Logan asked, almost as if he expected me to change it.
"Ur, yeah?" I replied, causing him and Camille to smile.
"Cool, you can walk with us" he replied, as the three of us made our way to the lesson. I sat with the two of them in the lesson as well, and it seemed like we were covering DNA, and how it's produce or cloned? I'm not quite sure, but there was a lot of G's, C's, A's, and T's and we had to learn what one's went together. We also 'learned' about Vivo and Vitro cloning but I say 'learned' very lightly. Logan seemed to grasp the concept fairly easily, and while Camille was struggling as well, I think she got it by the end. But I just couldn't grasp it. When the bell went, I let out a sigh of frustration, as everyone else packed their stuff away.
"Ok class. We're going to have a small test on the things we've learnt this week. That includes in anatomy we did last lesson, and the stuff we did today" Mrs Taylor shouted as everyone began to leave the class.
"Kendall, are you coming? Class is over." Camille said, still packing the last few bits in her bag.
"Nah, you go ahead. I'm going to ask Mrs Taylor for a little bit more help. I'm still struggling a little with it" I replied, causing Logan to smile, and her to shake her head with a smile on her face.
"I like this new Kendall. We'll see you in physics?" Logan said, and the word 'new' felt like a knife slicing against my skin.
"Yeah, see you later" I replied, with a gulp as the pair of them walked out of the class. "Mrs Taylor? I was wonder if you could help me out a little more" I asked, as she walked over to me.
"Of course, Kendall. But, are you going to be ok for this test?" she asked, and I nodded.
"Yeah, it's weird. I know stuff about Biology, but I don't know when I learnt it. I'll just study everything, and then I'll be fine" I replied, and she chuckled.
"Alright, but about the anatomy part, little is known about the phoenix, so do you want to continue to study the human anatomy?" she replied, and I just shrugged my shoulder.
"I'll look what's on the phoenix, and in the test if there something I know, I'll answer it, if not, yeah I'll stick with the human" I replied, and she smiled.
"Ok, so what do you need help on?" and from then on, I spent the rest of lunch going over everything in the lesson. I explained what I thought it meant to her, and she corrected me if I was wrong, but mostly she smiled and nodded, telling me that I had grasped it well enough. She recommended a few websites and sent me a link to them, saying that if I was still struggling to check them, but she said that I had got it. Checking the time, I saw that I had about 10 minutes left of lunch, and I was starting to get a little hungry. I told Mrs Taylor that I was going to get some lunch, and thanked her for the help before rushing to the cafeteria. I saw the line was still huge, but I had no option but to wait in it. The lunch lady from yesterday spotted me, and gestured to one of the paninis on display. I nodded, not really bothered what was in it, and I saw her tuck it away for safekeeping. Moving in the line was slow, but when the bell went, most people seemed to scramble but a few people, including me, waited. I eventually got that panini, thanking the lunch lady loads before running to Kelly's office. I was definitely late at this point, and felt so bad about it. I panicked, rushing into Kelly's office, and she just looked at me no emotion present on her face.
"Kelly, I'm so sorry! I was just so hungry and the queue was so long, but…" I began to ramble, but Kelly put her hand up.
"Kendall, it's fine. Mrs Taylor already emailed me saying that you would be late. She said that you spent most of break with her and that she was very impressed with you" Kelly said, and I smiled at her. "I've also spoke to Mr Bessant, and he's happy for you to join his music class, which is great." She continued, and I smiled. "Anything else you want to talk about?" She asked, and I shook my head.
"Not really. I'm happy at the moment, I feel like everything is going well." I replied, causing Kelly to smile. While these 10 minutes seemed good in theory, in practise it was slightly awkward, mostly because it was just me and Kelly. Ok, so we had stuff to talk about, but I wasn't sure if she was interested half the time, or was just putting on that face to make me think she was. Luckily the bell went, and I made my way to Physics, seeing that most of the group was joining us. The lesson today was on the electromagnetic spectrum, which I thought was going to be pretty simple, but it turns out it wasn't. Most of the lesson I tried to focus, but the rest of the guys on the table seemed to give up pretty quickly, pissing about instead.
I may have snapped at them a few times, when I was trying to read something causing Lucy to say "God you've never been this interested in Physics before," again only adding to the pain I felt. IT was the final lesson of the day, and that was rather enjoyable as well. It seems James and Carlos didn't share this lesson with me, as it was one of their specialisms, so they had it earlier today. We spent the lesson learning randomly about different storage devices, and what could and couldn't be put on them. Despite what you think, we didn't use the computers once, which kinda upset me. When the lesson ended, the group met back up at the bench in the quad, and everyone was ready to head to the ice rink.
"You know, I might head to the library. Mrs Taylor's given us a test, and I wanna revise for it" I said, causing the whole group to gasp again.
"Woah, you've never revised for a test in your life" Camille said, followed by Carlos.
"And you wouldn't dare miss out on hockey practise!" and while they all spoke, I could feel a small bit of anger rising inside of me.
"Damn Kendall, you've really changed" Jo was the final one to speak up, and that's when I snapped.
"Thank you guys so much, for constantly reminding me that I've changed, or I'm different, or that I was someone else before this! Thank you so much for constantly comparing me to someone that I used to be. Well, I'm sorry that you can't have him back, and that you're stuck with me. I'm sorry that I don't want to play hockey, and I'm sorry that I wanted to study for my test. Thank you so much for reminding me that I'm some freak who doesn't remember anything! I'm so sick of being compared to what I used to be like, and I can't help how I am now! So would be please just shut the fuck up about the old me." I yelled, stunning them all into silence, but anger was only the primer for my actual emotions, as once I finished yelling I broke down into tears, crying my eyes out as I ran away from the group towards the boy's toilets, the one place I was hoping I could get away. I locked myself into one of the cubicles, and cried without any embarrassment.
I heard the main door open, and someone ask "Kendall?" followed by a load of footsteps, leading to right outside my door. "Kendall come out" James voice continued, as he rattled the door.
"James, just leave me alone" I said, and he sighed.
"Oh no. We've had this before and this time I'm not going away until we resolve this. All of us resolve this. Please, just come out and talk to us" he continued, and I shook my head.
"No, you wouldn't understand" I replied, still slightly sobbing into my hands, and he didn't budge one bit.
"Why are you just assuming that? Of course we're not going to understand if you don't explain" he continued to reason, and I finally unlocked the door.
"Fine, but everyone needs to listen to me ok?" I asked, and he nodded. Walking out of the toilets, everyone was stood around waiting each of them wearing a look of sympathy on their faces. I took a deep breathe and began to speak. "I saw all the videos and pictures of you all together, and you all looked so happy. Every time you mention him, I remember how happy you all were with him, and how you're now stuck with me. Every time you compare me to him, I remind myself that I'm not one of your friends, but he is, and I feel bad because I can't give him back to you. I feel like I'm stopping you all from being your happy little group again" I sobbed, causing all the girls to tear up slightly.
"Kendall, we're so sorry!" Camille was the first one to speak up, pulling me into a hug. "We didn't know that it was upsetting you"
"And don't you dare think you're stopping us from being happy!" Jo spoke up next, as she joined the hug. "I suppose it's just difficult for all of us to get used to, but we can try, I promise"
"Thanks guys, and I'm sorry I shouted at you" I replied, causing them all to chuckle.
"It's not the first time you've done it. I mean, you did it yesterday as well after history, so we're used to it" Dak joked, and I chuckled slightly.
"Come on. Let's go to hockey, and you can watch. If you don't like it, I'll go with you the library and help you study" Camille said, and I nodded.
"Ok, but just this once" I replied, as we made our way to the rink. I don't know if anyone else noticed, but when we started to walk, I was under James' arm, which was obviously something that he and Kendall used to do. I however, was slightly uncomfortable with it, and tried to get out, wiggling myself free of his grasp, which he quickly took notice of, and see me free. I blushed slightly, and stayed by his side, hoping that he wouldn't initiate any more physical contact.
When we walked into the rink itself, I noticed everyone starting to shiver, with Jo adding the statement of "It's always cold in here" in which Logan sarcastically replied "It's an ice hockey rink" so Jo flipped him off. I didn't really notice any change, and proceeded to make my way over to the stands, eyeing the rink. I could see some of the team had already gathered, as James, Dak, Carlos and Logan made their way into the changing rooms. The girls accompanied me, sitting down and talking to each other like they'd usually do, while I pulled out my phone and tried to send a text to Jennifer, asking if I could stay out late.
Texting on this thing was difficult! I mean for the letter 'C' you needed to press the key three times! After the frustration of the phone, and ridicule from the girls, I sent the text just as the guys came out in their hockey gear, and I couldn't help but think how buff they all looked, especially with their jerseys on. Trying to ignore the feeling I was getting, I checked my phone once more, to see that Jennifer had texted back.
'Ok, just give me the address where you end up, and I'll pick you up whenever. Stay Safe xx' and that text made me feel all warm inside. It was nice knowing that she cared for me. Anyway, we must have watched them for an hour and a half, and the whole time, I was hiding behind my hands. This was one vicious sport, with all them hitting the ice at least once or twice, some people hitting it more and more. I also kept imagining someone falling over, and another person chopping their fingers off, so that didn't help.
James was slammed into the barrier surrounding the rink, Logan face planted the ice, Carlos was tripped over and also face planted the ice, and everyone seemed to pile on Dak for some reason, making my distaste for this sport worsen slightly. Like I said, an hour and a half later, and 'training' was finished. All the girls rushed down to the barrier to greet the boys and I followed behind.
"So, what did you think Kendall?" James asked, with a rather smug look on his face.
"I think that was horrible, and I'm surprised that none of you have broken any bones" I replied, causing his smug look to fall.
"Come on, at least skate on the ice? I can get your skates" he replied, and I shook my head.
"No way. Nuh uh" I replied, causing his face to drop once more.
"Come on, please. Just once, and if you don't like it, I won't make you do it again?" Carlos asked, and he was pulling some kind of puppy dog face, one that made him look irresistible
"Uuuuuuugggghhhh. Fine. But only this one!" I protested, seeing Carlos' face light up when I did so. James skated off instantly, heading for the changing rooms, and also instantly returned with a pair of skates. I slipped them on, all the guys watching me with massive anticipation as I did so which did put me on edge slightly. Walking on said skates was difficult enough, but as soon as I stepped on the ice, I knew I couldn't do this. I did try to protest, believe me, but they all wouldn't let me back out. Getting onto the ice, I instantly gripped onto the side of the rink, using it to propel myself around. Not that it helped so much, as I still slipped a lot, and even fell over a couple of times, which resulted in James helping me up.
"Come on Kendall, just skate!" I heard Carlos shouted, and this only angered me more.
"God, thank you so much for that helpful advice, I should have thought of that sooner!" I retorted very sarcastically, a tone he picked up on. I tried letting go of the barrier, only to fall over and over and over again, each time causing more and more and more pain, and more and more embarrassment as everyone laughed at me. "Fuck it!" I shouted, grabbed into the barrier, and hoisting myself back to the exit.
"Wait, where are you going?" I heard James shout, as he began to skate over to me.
"I'm done. I've been on here for like 30 minutes, and I've spent all of that time falling onto the ice, in which everyone laughed at me. So, I'm done. I've given this a try, but it's not for me" I replied, finally stepped off the ice, and undoing the shoe laces. Slipping out of that boot was the most comforting thing I've ever experience, wiggling my toes about before slipping my shoes back on.
"But…" James began, and I shook my head.
"But nothing James. I said I'd come to the rink, and I did, and I also said I'd give it a go, and I did. So, I'm done" I replied, causing him to roll his eyes and huff out.
"Fine" he replied, before turning back to the guys. "Come on, let's go get changed! We're done here" he shouted to them, causing them to let out a moan of their own.
"You can stay if you want. I'll just head to the library and study, then head off" I replied, causing him to turn his attention back to me.
"But I thought you were hanging out with us tonight?" James replied, a tone of sadness in his voice when he did so.
"I don't mind. I don't want to be a bother, and that's all I feel like I've been today" I replied as I pulled myself off the floor, both shoes tied and ready to go. "I understand if you don't want me to hang out with you" I shrugged trying to maintain my cool, when internally I knew everyone hated me.
"Kendall, of course we want you to hang out with us" I heard Lucy's voice from behind, followed my Camille speaking up next.
"Yeah, you haven't been a bother! This is all just new to you" she continued, followed by Jo.
"Please Kendall, even if it's just for a few hours? And we won't force you to do anything you don't want to" she finished, and I smiled small.
"Ok, but honestly, you guys continue here, and just come get me when you're done. I don't want to stop you from having fun" I replied, causing James to nod.
"Ok, we'll be about half an hour" he replied, and I nodded.
"See you then"
So there we are! A longer chapter this time, all about Kendall reconnecting with his friends! So, he and James finally had their little moment, and everything is finally out in the open! Finally, they are friends again! We also had some turmoil with everyone comparing Kendall to his old self, but that was also resolved. And finally, we had Kendall trying to ice skate but funnily enough that didn't end very well for him. I wonder what the next chapter will entail... Maybe this is where the Kendall/OC comes into play...
A massive thank you to Guest, RainbowDiamonds and Winterschild11 for reviewing the last two chapters and I hope this satisfied the need for Kendall and his friends to reconnect. Like I said in the last chapter, this is where I realised that I was actually being quite harsh on James and everyone, so that's changing!
I will see you all on Monday for the next chapter of Water Under the Bridge, but until then,
TTFN :D
