(EDWARD)

You could say I have had a lot to think about. I am sure it sounds easy to anyone else, pick Bella. That's what I want more than anything. If it was up to me I would already be with her. Knowing that I have messed up with Levi so bad, I don't want to do this to my other baby. It's not his or her fault that I don't love his mother.

Bella is my life and my world even if I went years without seeing her. She walked in my door like she had never left. Of course she was sad; she had lost her teenage figure, but in return had been given a look that any women would die for. Her eyes were still the most beautiful chocolate brown. Her hair was shorter, with a reddish tent to it. She was no doubt the most beautiful person to walk the planet, and at one point was mine. She was, no she still is my everything. My life.

Mattie, she saved me, from being in pain. Well she thought she did anyway. To her it looked like I was better, but on the inside I was a dead man. Lets be honest, she is a total jerk to me and everyone she talks to. She only cares about herself, something that Bella never did.

I knew what I had to do, after my Bella left with our son, I ran out of the house and got into my car. A few minutes later I am at my old house, I got out and started to the door. When I got in the house I quickly made my way to the kitchen.

My mom seen me and then quickly ran to me. "Oh how is my ever so handsome son!" she said why stirring some cake batter. I remember how when I got the letter from 'Bella' saying she didn't love me, how when I told my mom how un-shocked she was. In fact she said, 'oh well, I knew it would come sooner or later.' I didn't speak to her for days.

"No so good mom." She looked at me and smiled like she knew why I wasn't good.

"Well, what's wrong baby?" I had an awful time not staring at her.

"I heard from Bella mom." She stopped stirring; she looked at me with anger in her eyes.

"You need to stay away from her Edward, she hurt you remember. Plus you have Mattie and lets face it, she is way better for you anyway. She has so much more to offer you."

Then I saw red "NO, MOM. Bella was not the one that hurt me, you did!" The she got angry.

"You may not speak to me that way! I am your mother! I don't care if you are 19, 26 or 180, you are my son!" I was shaking my head no.

"You are not my mother. A mother would not switch a letter, keeping me from MY son, and the one woman I am meant to be with. A mother would love with whatever I want. For almost 9 year I have lived through hell, because you. You watched me fall apart, and you could have stopped it. You are the reason I fell apart. You stopped being my mother the moment you switched my letter." She wasn't crying, she just looked at me.

"Edward, I told you from the start. I DON'T like Bella! She isn't right for you, nor is she good enough for you. When I found out she was pregnant I was not going to let her ruin your life."

"NO MOM, you didn't stop her from ruining my life, you did it for her. Bella is all I ever wanted. She is the only one I want. She is my life." With that I ran out of the room and my dad grabbed me by the arm.

"Let go of me" I growled.

"Edward, I had no idea" I just nodded at him, and walked out the door.

I got in my truck and just drove. I didn't know where I was going, and I really didn't care. I just need to be alone. I pulled over at a small park. It was almost 1 in the morning, but i don't care. I went and climbed up on the monkey bar and sat on top on them thinking about when Bella and I set up.

You see, Bella and I were always best friends everyone knew it. We were like the trustiest of friends, the ones that not many people find. Even back then I knew I would easily give up anything to be with her.

I remember sitting up here with her, we had just met. A group of kids talked her into getting up there, we were only 6. She was too scared to get down. So I climbed up there with her.

She looked at me, and I looked back. That's the moment I knew.

"Edward, promise you will never leave me?" I told her I wouldn't.

"Edward, you're my best friend." We have been ever sense.

I loved her from the start; I didn't just one day fall in love with her. I never started to love her, because I just did. There was never the 'you made me fall in love with you when you did this,' it was just there from the start. I can honestly say I was born to lover her.

Over time it just growers stronger and stronger.

It was now pouring down rain, and I was thankful for that. It hid my tears well. I was soaked from head to toe, and was freezing. Knowing that I might have lost her forever I couldn't car about how wet or cold I was. Nothing seems to matter.

I didn't know, you better believe if I would have known I would have been there every step of the way. Every tear, every laugh, and every moment in between.

When I was reading the notebook of how she felt about me, I knew she was angry. Reading how much she loved our son, I couldn't help but fall deeper and deeper in love with her.

The choose was made from the moment I got her letter. My heart just forgot to tell me mouth.

I knew what I wanted to do, but I just didn't know what the right answer was. Then my son's voice came to me.

"There might not always be a right or wrong answer, there might not always even be an answer, but there is always the right answer to what your heart wants."

Quickly I jumped off the monkey bars and ran to my truck.

I know what I have to do.