This is the story that started it all. This is the first piece of fanfiction that I ever wrote. It was literally awful, trust me, and the positive reviews I got on it inspired me to continue writing and I feel like I have become a better writer for it. The story was so awful that I took it down awhile ago, but I still liked the idea of this part….so I reworked it…reworded it some….and hope I made it better. This was my take on the ending of 5x02 and the love story scene, I feel there should have been just a few more minutes to the episode. So here it is….

"It's a love story" Deeks mumbles as he drifts off to sleep.

"What?" asks a very shocked Kensi as she lay her head down next to his. Kensi lays there for several minutes silently, just watching him sleep. After everything that he has been through recently she can't help but be thrilled that he's still alive and here with her, she has to fight the urge to reach out and touch him to make sure he isn't a figment of her over active imagination. After about thirty minutes the need to touch him becomes so overwhelming that she feels a constricting tightness in her chest and it feels hard to breathe, she finally gives in to temptation and runs her hand gently down his stubble covered cheek. He looks like he needs the sleep so she decides to leave and let him get some rest,she's just starting to get up off of the sofa when her movement awakens Deeks.

"Kens….please don't go, just please don't leave me." He suddenly jolts straight up on the sofa and looks panicked.

The look of stark panic on his face, and the pleading tone in his voice break her. She has never seen her self-assured, cocky, and sometimes annoying partner this way before. Trying to brush it off with a casualness she certainly doesn't feel she says, "Ok then sofa hog you're gonna have to move over a bit cause I'm not gonna sit here all uncomfortable and while you get your beauty sleep all night long."

Deeks rearranges himself on the sofa and makes room for her in front of him. She lays down next to him so that her back is against his warm, solid chest; the rhythmic movements of his breathing are starting to lull her to sleep when he drapes his arm casually around her stomach and pulls her even tighter against him, "mmmmmmmm thanks for not leaving me" Deeks mumbles sleepily.

"Why…why… is it so important to you that I stay?...not that I'm complaining." Kensi is experiencing the full gamut of tumultuous emotions. She is so grateful that he still wants her around, for the past few weeks of his self imposed exile she has been feeling so guilty about the way she had behaved during the whole Siderov operation. She had figured after she left him tied to that chair in the auto body shop that he would never want to see her again. "You should probably be kicking me out of your house, not asking me to stay." She whispers tearfully.

"Kens…Kens…..hello…...earth to Kensi."

"Oh..yeah, no…. um I'm sorry I kinda drifted off there."

"I would never kick you out of my house…"

"Oh did I say that out loud? I didn't mean to."

"And the reason I want you to stay is….well I truly meant what I said the other day when I told you that you were the place that I went to, you uh… made the pain go away. Kens I haven't been able to sleep…like at all since this whole thing happened, and I swear I have tried everything….and I mean literally everything. Just hearing your voice earlier helped me sleep for awhile. I think that with you here with me I might be able to sleep. So please stay. Ok?"

Deeks feels her take in a long shuddering breath, the kind she does when she is either trying her best not to cry or hide the fact that she is already crying. "Hey? Are you crying? No, no don't cry Kens..please"

Kensi sniffles and wipes her tears.."I don't know how you can say that" Kensi starts crying again in earnest, the tears are streaming down her face and she doesn't even bother trying to hide her sniffling any more. "I left you, I left you there tied to that chair….God knows it was the single hardest thing that I have ever had to do, but you trusted me to save you and I had to leave you there. I was so damned scared, no terrified, I was so terrified that I seriously don't remember much of anything that happened until we came back to get you. I mean what if they hadn't waited for Michelle and had decided to shoot you in the head right then and there…that stupid vest wouldn't have done you a damned bit of good then. I looked in your eyes and saw the pain that I caused you when I left, Deeks I still see the pain, the haunted look in your eyes and I will never ever forgive myself for leaving you there and adding to that pain and suffering. Don't even try to tell me you'd have done the same thing because I know that's a lie, you NEVER would have left me there…ever. I tried to think of a way to bring you with me but it…it just wouldn't work and they…they wouldn't let me"

She lets out a strangled sob as she finishes her rant.

Deeks lets her cry in silence for a few minutes before he softly says "Kensi roll over and look at me.." When she makes no move to do so immediately he adds a soft "please"

Reluctantly Kensi rolls over took a deep shuddering breath before burying her face in his chest and continuing "to top it all off you had just kissed me on top of that hill and I ran away like some scared school girl….I well I just didn't know what to say or do. It was the single thing I wanted most in the world and it happened at the worst possible time. I spent the whole ride into town while I was following Michelle trying to digest what had just happened. It's a miracle I didn't wreck, and make things a bigger mess than they already were. Just when I thought I had it figured out they told me that you and Sam were being held by Siderov," she shudders at the mere mention of his name before she continues, "and tortured for information. Deeks I swear to God I have never, and I mean NEVER been so scared. Scared that I would never get to see you, to talk to you again, never get to hear you say 'touché', my god I was scared to death that I would never…ever get another chance at having a real kiss from you. A kiss where I wouldn't run away scared, one where I actually got to kiss you back and enjoy it. I've had such nightmares, nightmares where…well…..I….. I don't even really want to talk about them right now because you're here…with me…. and that's all that matters."

"Whoa….slow down a minute Princess." Deeks sits up and takes off his t-shirt to wipe her tears. Kensi grabs his shirt and pulls it close inhaling the scent that is truly uniquely Deeks. "Give me just a few minutes to process what you just said…cause to me it sounded like you wanted me to do this again." Deeks looks into her eyes as he leans in for a soft gentle kiss.

Kensi sighs and deepens the kiss some then retreats slowly kissing the corners of his mouth. "yeah…I wanted that…I really wanted that…and wanted to do this" Kensi presses her lips to his for another kiss, the first real kiss she has ever initiated and it…all feels so right. "mmmmm"

Deeks sweetly wipes the remaining tears from her face and pulls her head to his chest. "Shhhhh, rest now"

They drift off to sleep while wrapped in each other's arms.