Chapter Ten

Letting go is hard to do

The sound of Lisanna's voice and laugh was literally driving me up a wall. I can't believe that's she's bluntly flirting with Natsu in front of Markus and I. Like is this seriously happening right now? This alone time with Natsu was supposed to be special since it was going to be our last time having any alone time for a while. Like I can't believe that this is happening right now.

"Natsu that is so funny." Lisanna giggled.

"I didn't really say anything funny." Natsu sighed. I can see that he was just as annoyed as I was.

"So all of the dragons that raised the dragon slayers just disappeared? All at the same time? And neither of you don't know what happened?" Markus asked.

"Yep, that's what happened. None of us knows what happened to our dragons, we went to bed and when we woke up the next morning our dragons were gone." Natsu said.

"And what was your dragon's name?" He asked.

"Igneel." Natsu answered looking down. Natsu doesn't talk about Igneel or the relationship he had with Igneel. I do know that Igneel raised him and he's pretty much like a father to Natsu. I don't know what happened to Natsu's parents or how he even met Igneel. Now that I think about it, I don't know much about Natsu's past.

"I find that incredibly interesting that all of the dragons disappeared all at the same time and not a single one of you know what happened to them." Markus said.

"Yeah, can we talk about something else?" Natsu asked.

"Well actually Natsu, I was hoping we can get going now." I said looking at him.

"You're ready to leave?" He asked.

"Aw come on just stay a little longer." Lisanna said.

"Natsu and I have some studying to do for our Magical Logic exam." I said, forcing a smile on my face.

"Magical Logic is a senior course, correct?" Markus asked. This kid was super annoying.

"Yes, and we have an exam this Monday that we need to study for, so we have to get going." I said getting up. Natsu got up too and Lisanna grabbed onto his arm.

"Please don't go. We were just having fun." She said with her bottom lip poking out.

"Sorry, wherever my lady go I go too." He said. That made me blush.

"But Markus wasn't done asking you more questions." She said. She was being persistent. It was like she couldn't stand the thought of us being together, makes her feel like she really has no chance to at Natsu anymore, which is something she should already know.

"Markus and I can meet later and talk but for now I just want to spend some time with my girlfriend alone." Natsu said.

"Okay I get it, you two are together you don't have to keep rubbing it in." She grumbled.

"Excuse me?" I asked.

"Oh nothing. Come on Markus let's get going." She said rolling her eyes.

"But there's still so much to talk about." Markus said sounding disappointed.

"You heard Natsu, he rather be with his girlfriend." She said in a mocking voice.

"Lisanna what the hell is your problem?" I had it with her.

"What do you mean Lucy?" She asked.

"Why can't you accept the fact that Natsu is with me and that he will never be with you? He's not interested in you that way! I bet you and Markus aren't even together and you're only using him to make Natsu jealous, but guess what it didn't work." I exploded.

"Lucy baby, calm down." Natsu said.

"No I won't calm down! She needs to get the picture that you and she will never be together! She needs to understand that and truly move on, instead of ruining our dates by trying to make you jealous with fake boyfriends." I said.

"Markus and I are really together." She protested.

"Yeah right! You went on and on how you would never stop trying to be with Natsu and that you loved him and he's the only guy you ever wanted but now you've turned around and started dating someone else?" I was beyond angry. She took away the little time I had left alone with Natsu.

"I'm over Natsu." She whispered.

"I didn't know you were interested in Mr. Dragneel that way. Is that why you dragged me down here? It was no surprise or coincidence running into them here wasn't it?" Markus asked. Lisanna looks like a deer backed into a corner.

"No of course not Markus, I had no idea that they would be here. And yes I did have a little crush on Natsu but it's not like that anymore, I'm with you." She said.

"A little crush? Really Lisanna? It was just a little crush?" Natsu asked.

"Wow I feel so stupid." Markus said getting up from the table.

"Markus wait please, it's really not like that I swear." Lisanna said as he was getting up. Markus kept walking he didn't want to hear anything she had to say.

"It's shouldn't have went down like that, I'm going to go talk to him." Natsu said getting up from the table as well. He went after Markus. Great! What else could go wrong right now? This day is ruined.

"Are you happy now?" Lisanna asked looking at me furiously.

"I never wanted to hurt his feelings. He actually seems like a nice guy. Don't waste his time if you're not actually in to him." I said.

"Who the hell do you think you are? First you take the guy I ever loved away from me and now you're telling me I can't date?" She said sounding furious.

"I never said you can't date! I want you to move on Lisanna! I want you to find someone that's going to make you happy but I don't want you using guys to make someone else jealous. Especially if that person isn't even interested in you in the first place." I said. She was turning red in the face.

"How dare you!" She shouted.

"Natsu and I are dating, we are together and I'm going to stay with him as long as he wants me and there's nothing you can say or do to stop that, so just give it up and go try to be actually happy with someone. You deserve to be happy." I said softly.

"You took away my happiness." She said.

"You need to be quiet before you start rumors." I said looking around at the kids that was listening in to our conversation. They were all whispering around us and texting on their phones. Oh great.

"Oh you mean how you took away the only guy I ever wanted to be with?" She was egging this on. She wants the entire school against me.

"I can't take something away that never belonged to you. Stay away from Natsu and I, I mean it Lisanna. No matter how hard you try you can't break us up." I said.

"Watch me try." She said with a smile. I looked at her as she smiled at me. I wanted to punch that smile off her face. I thought we got this all sorted out a month ago but I guess now. I can't believe that she's still going to try to be with Natsu after he's made it clear that he doesn't want to be with her and he's dating me right now. What the hell is her problem?

"I'm done talking with you." I said getting up. I placed money on the counter for Natsu's and I food.

"Oh is that so." She said still smiling.

"Yeah I need to go find MY boyfriend so I can spend as much time as I can with MY boyfriend. You have a good day." I said smiling back at her.

"Why thank you Lucy, you have a great day too. Enjoy Natsu while you still can." She said deviously. I walked away ignoring her threat. I really miss the old Lisanna. The old Lisanna that I knew was sweet and nice and always went out of her way for people. She's always been some sort of a little sister to me. The way she is now is not normal and I can't believe that trying to be with Natsu would make her this way. I sighed and left the café. Natsu was outside with Markus talking with him.

"Is everything okay?" I asked walking up to them.

"Yeah everything is fine, right Markus?" Natsu asked.

"Right Mr. Dragneel, I mean Natsu. Thank you so much for talking with me." He said.

"Lisanna is still inside, I really think you two should talk things out." I said.

"You're right. Thank you so much Miss Heartfilia." He said.

"Just call me Lucy, Markus." I said with a smile.

"Yeah, right. Sorry. I guess I will go talk to Lisanna now. I'm sorry if we ruined your date." He said bowing to us. What's up with this kid? He walked off back into the café.

"This has been the most awkward lunch date we've ever had." Natsu said.

"I'll say." I said agreeing with him.

"Come on, we still have a whole day ahead of us." He said grabbing my hand.

"What about studying for our test?" I asked.

"Like you said, I have nothing to worry about I'm going to do just fine." He said with a smile. I smiled back. I love you Natsu Dragneel. I said this in my head while he led me away from the café. I'm really am lucky to have you.

GPOV

Damnit I lost Erza. I'm still so confused, there's so much I need to ask her. I can't believe what just happened back at my house. Erza kissed me, like she actually kissed me. I knew that Erza loved me and even cared about me, I mean she is one of my best friends. But I never thought she loved me that way. She's never ever showed interest in me that way. I can't say that I completely hated that kiss because I didn't. It made me feel funny. But a good funny. I just have to find her so I can get some sort of explanation.

"Hey Gray!" I turned around and Natsu and Lucy was behind me. It looks like they were coming from Sal's.

"Oh hey guys what's up?" I asked. They were holding hands and it was still a little weird for me to see them together like that. Especially since we haven't really seen each other in a month.

"Not much, you look upset is everything okay?" Lucy asked. The way she look concerned for me made my heart flutter. Snap out of it Gray.

"Yeah everything is fine, have you seen Erza?" I asked.

"No we haven't. We actually just got done eating lunch at Sal's and we were studying in the library before that so no we haven't seen her." Natsu answered.

"Is she alright?" Lucy asked.

"I'm not sure. If you two run into her would you please tell her I'm looking for her?" I asked.

"Yes of course. I hope you find her soon." Lucy said.

"Thank Lucy. I guess I will see you two around." I said smiling.

"Yeah, see you later man." Natsu replied.

"Yeah see you around Gray." Lucy said with a smile. And then those two walked off. I'm so proud of myself because I handled that quite well. It didn't hurt as bad as I thought it was going to. I guess I'm finally moving on for good. But that is the least of my concerns right now. I really need to find Erza.

"Where can you be?" I asked myself. I thought really hard before making my next move.

"The training grounds." I whispered. It was like a light bulb went off in my head. Where else does Erza goes when she's upset? She always go to the training grounds to work on her technique or to let off steam when she's really upset. I should have immediately thought of the training grounds but I wasn't thinking. I just want some answers. Before I knew it was on school grounds, I knew the training grounds wasn't too far from the school. But there she was. She was sitting on a bench right before the training grounds. She was crying. I took a deep breath and then went to go sit next to her.

"Why you come here?" She asked through her tears.

"Why are you crying?" I asked.

"Because I'm the idiot who fell in love with her best friend." She whispered. I had no idea she ever felt this way.

"This doesn't make any sense Erza. I never thought you harbored feelings like that for me." I said.

"Gray I've always loved you. I loved you so much and I wanted nothing more but to make you happy." She said. I don't know if I can take any of this and I'm still so confused about all of it.

"Erza, you've fought for me to make it work with Lucy, you fought for me to work it out with Juvia. You was so pissed off with Lucy and Natsu when they started dating because you thought it would hurt me. If you're in love with me then why did you push for me to make it work with other girls?" I asked.

"Like I said, your happiness means the world to me. I just wanted to encourage you do what made you happy." She said looking down.

"I just don't get this and it all feels so sudden." I said.

"I know, I'm such an idiot." She said. I grabbed her hand and held it.

"You're not an idiot." I whispered. She looked up at me.

"I can't say that I understand what's going on here because I really don't, this all just feel rushed and sudden and I'm not sure how to feel about it. But one thing that I'am sure about is that I'm not ready to start another relationship right now. My heart can't take it and it needs a break. I'm sorry if that hurts you but it's the truth." I said still holding on to her hand.

"I waited this long, and I can continue to wait for you." She said. I looked at her and she smiled. My heart raced at her the sight of her smile. What the hell? Am I really interested in Erza that way? The thought of her kiss earlier made my heart race faster. I can't believe that this is happening right now. Before I knew it I was leaning into her face, I brushed my lips softly over hers and she leaned in closer to me to seal the kiss. She placed a hand on my face, and I clenched my hand into her hair pulling her closer into me. She wrapped her arms around my neck. This felt weird but right. I didn't want this moment to end. She pulled away, breathing hard. I was trying to catch my breath too. It felt like electricity was jolting through my body.

"Wow." She whispered.

"Yeah that was um, amazing." I said, my lips were still tingling from the touch of hers.

"Erza, Gray?" My heart sunk in my stomach. I turned around and saw Juvia glaring back at me with terrified eyes. Oh no.

"Juvia, I was just I, I'm so sorry." Erza immediately said.

"I'm sorry." She said and she quickly turned to leave.

"Juvia, wait!" I called after her. I quickly got up to go after her, Erza was right behind me. Shit, I can't believe that just happened. That was literally the worst timing ever. I felt like the biggest jerk on the planet.

"Juvia please!" I grabbed her hand.

"Let me go." She was already crying.

"I'm so sorry, it's not what you think."

"Then what is it? Because I clearly saw you and Erza making out just now. But I'm not upset, we're not together anymore. You can do whatever you want." She said wiping tears off her cheeks.

"Juvia please, let's talk about this."

"There's nothing to talk about, sorry to ruin the moment for you." She said.

"Juvia I never meant for this to happen." Erza pipped in.

"I don't need an explanation. I will see you two later." She said sadly. She walked off and I really felt like the biggest ass ever. I can't believe I just hurt her like that.

"I really think I should go talk to her, alone." I said to Erza.

"I understand." She said looking down. I kissed her forehead and then went off to be with Juvia.

JPOV

I could hear Gray calling after me but I don't have the guts to turn around and face him. I'm trying to be brave and not freak out about what I seen but I can't help it. I feel like I've been punched in the gut. I didn't mean to walk in on them like that. I only wanted to go to the training grounds and to practice what I missed in Magical Combat. I was supposed to meet Gajeel out here and he was going to show me everything I missed in class because I was sick. I didn't expect to see Erza and Gray and I definitely didn't expect to see them making out. I shouldn't be upset though. I broke up with Gray, and he has every right to be with anyone who wants to be with. I just didn't think it was going to be Erza of all people.

"Juvia please just wait up." I heard him call after me. I stopped and turned around, maybe I should hear him out. I should also tell him about me being pregnant. I know Erza said she was only giving me a week until she tells him herself but now the thought of her breaking that news to him makes my blood boil, I want to be the one to tell him and I'm going to tell him now.

"Juvia, I'm so very sorry." He said.

"There's no need for you to be sorry Gray. I broke up with you remember? I have no right to be upset with you." I said looking down.

"I still feel like I have to apologize. Erza and I aren't together if that's what you're thinking. We only got caught up in a moment that's all."

"You don't have to explain, I understand." I said.

"You're not upset?" He asked.

"I'm not thrilled, but like I said I can't be upset about it, I broke up with you." I said.

"I know, I just feel like the biggest jerk in the world Juvia, the last thing I want to do is hurt you." He said looking down.

"It's okay Gray, I promise that I'm okay." I lied.

"Wow you're handling this great, it's like you've finally got control over your emotions." He said.

"Well I got bigger things to worry about now, and I can't be freaking out about stuff like this." I said.

"What's wrong? Anything I can help with?" Gray asked. Oh shit, should I tell him now. He deserves to know, he would be so upset if he found out about it and I wasn't the one who told him.

"Well, there was something that I want to talk to you about." I said.

"What's up?" He asked.

"Well, I haven't been feeling well lately, I've been sick a lot actually." I said looking down. My heart was racing, I couldn't look at him while I told him this.

"Is everything okay?" He asked sounding really concerned.

"Well, um sorta, not really I'm -"

"There you are! I was looking all over for you." I was cut off by Gajeel.

"Gray, what are you doing out here?" He asked, he sounded so hostile.

"Juvia and I were talking, do you mind?" Gray asked.

"Actually I do mind. Juvia and I got some schoolwork to get done." He spat back. Oh no this was not happening right now.

"Can you just give us five minutes please?" Gray asked.

"No, hit the road iceboy." Gajeel said.

"I'm not going anywhere." Gray protested.

"You don't want to piss me off, it's not pretty when I'm pissed off." Gajeel warned him.

"I'm not afraid of you. I suggest you just go cool off and let me finish talking with Juvia." He said standing his ground.

"Gajeel its okay, I really do have to talk to Gray about something important." I said giving him a look. He instantly understood what I meant because he grunted and walked off.

"I will see you in a few." I called after him. He waved a hand in the air signaling that he heard me.

"What the hell is his problem?" Gray asked.

"Oh nothing, he's just Gajeel." I said with a small smile. That knucklehead is always causing problems. But I know he was only trying to protect me. Underneath that rough, tough guy act he really does cares.

"If I didn't know any better I would say that he likes you Juvia." He said sounding jealous. He has no right being jealous after I just saw him sucking face with Erza.

"Are you jealous right now?" I asked.

"Of course not. You broke up with me, you do whatever you want." That kinda hurt. I wasn't expecting him to say something like that. I want him to fight for me, and show me that he cares.

"So you and Erza, um are you two a thing now?" I asked the image of them making out was still playing over and over in my head. I still can't believe that happened. I never thought Erza felt that way for Gray, she's been trying so hard to make it work between Gray and I that I never would think in a million years that she felt that way for him. Or was it Gray that came on to her? That would explain why he just let me go so easily when I broke up with him. All this time I thought it was Lucy and it was really Erza.

"No we're not. And I don't want to talk about Erza with you." He said coldly. He was making me nervous, I can't believe that I was going to tell him right now.

"I'm sorry." I said looking down.

"Juvia, what's going on you are starting to freak me out now." He said.

"Well, like I was saying, I haven't been feeling well lately." I started.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"No, not really, I'm-" I was starting to get cold feet. I couldn't get the last word out. So I looked down at my stomach and placed a hand on top of it and looked up at him. His eyes started to bug out of his head, I think he understood my silent message. Gray isn't dumb and was always quick to pick up on things.

"No, you can't be serious, are you sure?" He frantically asked. I nodded my head, I couldn't find any words to say, my heart was pounding so hard and fast that I could hear it in my ears.

"You're, you're, pregnant?" He asked.

"Yes, I think so." I whispered.

"This isn't funny Juvia, you need to be sure about something so serious like this." He said.

"I took multiple pregnancy tests Gray and they all came back positive." I said. My voice sounded so strange to me.

"I can't believe that this is happening right now. This can't be happening right now! Pregnant! You're pregnant!" He shouted.

"Hush, before someone hears you." I said quietly.

"I just can't believe this right now." He said.

"I don't know what to do Gray, I'm so scared and I don't know what to do." I was determined to not cry but I feel it coming.

"What do you mean you don't know what to do? You can't have that baby." Those words punched me hard in the gut. I wasn't expecting him to say something like that.

"What?" I choked up.

"We have to go see Porlyusica, she can fix this." He said frantically. Porlyusica is a medicinal wizard who practices healing magic. She's a very close friend to Master Makarov and handles the health needs for the students and wizards that belong to Fairy Tail. She is basically the Medicinal Advisor for the Fairy Tail Guild and for Fairy Tail Academy.

"You want to get rid of our baby?" I managed to get out.

"Are you actually considering keeping it right now? We're not even full fledge wizards yet and you want to have a baby? How are you going to finish out your senior year with a baby? It's going to be hard for you train or do anything being pregnant and then having the child. I can't believe you are even thinking about keeping it. We're going to go see Porlyusica right now!" He said grabbing my hand.

"Let go of me!" I said snatching away from him.

"I'm keeping this baby." I said placing my hand over my stomach again.

"You can't be serious right now?" Gray said, he looked horrified.

"Yes I'am, even if I have to raise her or him by myself I'm keeping this baby rather you like it or not!" I said.

"Juvia please don't do this. Think about you right now." He said.

"I can't think about myself right now. I'm thinking about this child." I said.

"I'm not doing this right now." He turned and started to walk off.

"Gray, please we have to talk about this." I called after him. He kept walking, he didn't even turn to look at me. What am I going to do now? I'm so scared. I started rubbing my stomach softly.

"Don't worry little one, rather you have your dad or not I'm always going to be here for you. I will always be here to protect you. We are going to get through this." I cooed softly to the growing child inside of me. The tears softly started to run down my cheek. Oh Gray.