Heya! :D Here's the chapter I know many of you have been waiting for. Hope you enjoy it! :) Also, Koki means 'Vast or strong' which is what Koki is and part of the reason I picked it for this character. And I'm sorry for leaving you in such suspense!
I don't own Inuyasha! (I wouldn't be single if I did.)
~Cold Heart I Love~
~Blast from the past:
I make my way up the stairs, undoing my hair as I see a shadow move in the corner. I turn around and almost fall to the floor.
"Hello Rin." He says, standing up as he gets up from the shadows in his black leather jacket, dark enough to almost match his dark eyes. His short hair is spiked in the front, longer in the back. It's a deep black, mixing in with the dark. He's tall and seems overpowering in the room. Fear has iced my insides and I take a step back as he takes a step forward.
"Long time no see." He says, smiling like a shark. I swallow and step back.
"Koki…"
"Nice to know you remember my name." His voice is harsh, like nails on a chalkboard and I retreat back, slowly so as not to attract attention to it. My mind is racing, searching for an escape route. "Especially since you've been cheating on me."
I cringe, ready for the pain. It comes in a quick slap, turning my head to the side and making my eyes water as my cheek stings. I turn to him.
"You broke up with me Koki…" I say, looking him in the eyes.
"That was just a fight." He cups my face in his hands and I cringe, trying not to show that I'm reaching in my bag for some type of weapon to use. "You know that I love you."
"Do I?" I ask before I can stop myself. His hands tighten around my neck and I drop my clutch as I claw at his wrists. He's keeping the oxygen from my lungs and I still gasp for it, needing it. He has a hungry glint in his eyes; he loves when I struggle.
"Why would you even ask such a question?" Koki asks, disbelief on his face. He loosens his grip slightly and I gasp for air. I look at the table beside us and spot a pen. I put my hands down and start reaching for it. "You know I love you. I've done everything for you; for us!" He holds me closer. "Why can't you see I do this for your own good? Why can't you understand? You never accept my love for you. You're always stuck in your books and writing with your stupid pens."
"You're wrong." I say, gripping the pen in my hand.
"About?" He asks, anger in his eyes.
"About the pen." I take it and stab his arm with it, hard. He drops me and I run towards the door, rushing to the hall. I grab the vase from the table and spin around, hitting him but barely making a scratch on him as he rushes at me, holding me roughly in his vise like grip.
"No!" I scream, his eyes burning coals into my own. Then, I'm pushed backwards tumbling down the stairs. Pain…burning sensations…harsh steps jabbing me…bruises…smack against the floor…black.
"You couldn't even take care of her in the house." A deep girl voice says.
"I love her. I'm not going to kill her." A guy voice says in return.
I try to open my eyes and see it's pitch black. I go to say something and see I can't do that either; there's a gag in my mouth. I try not to freak and focus on breathing. I find my hands tied behind me as I sit in a hard back chair. I can't move my legs either since they're strapped to the legs of the chair. I take breathes, refusing to freak out and cry. I try and focus on the conversation and hear footsteps coming towards me.
Someone lifts the bag from my face and I see a bright light and look up to see Koki. I feel my eyes water and I try not to squirm away from his touch as his hand caresses my cheek.
"Look at my angel…" Koki says in a loving tone. I look over his shoulder and see Kagura entering the room.
"Hello Rin." Kagura says with a sneer on her face. "You could've avoided all this if you would've just left Sesshomaru alone."
"Is that the guy you cheated on me with?" Koki asks. He slaps me, making my head spin. He takes the gag from around my mouth and I spit out onto the floor and look up at him.
"Me and Sesshomaru were never together." I say, my voice raspy from disuse. I look around and notice we're in a shed like place. No one can hear my screams, no one knows where I am, and I have no way to fight them back. I look back at Kagura. "Is this your idea of getting Sesshomaru to love you? He'd never even like you."
She slaps my cheek before I knew what happened and I feel stars shadow my vision for a while. When they're gone, I look back at her. She's baring her teeth like an animal.
"You don't know anything." She spits out.
"You're right." I say. "But I do know Sesshomaru."
Her slap is harder this time and I'm sure I taste blood in my mouth. My eyes water and a tear falls. "What do you want from me?" I sob out, looking from one to the other.
"I just want you out of my life and Koki here wants you back." Kagura says. "I told him I'd help him find you if he took you back to where you need to go."
"I was going to go home anyway." I say. "You crazies didn't have to kidnap me and tie me up!"
Koki slaps me again and the tears fall freely and I cry out, a quick squeal, and then he turns my face to his. "I did this for you." He says. "I love you Rin and I couldn't stand the sight of you with that bastard."
"You mean, you couldn't stand me happy." I say. He punches me, my cheek is filled with pain and I cry out, the tears streaming down. He puts his hands near my neck, squeezing, and I gasp out, sucking in what little air I can.
"You will not act this way towards me." Koki says, his face raging. "What happened to the Rin at home, who loved me back?"
"She realized what love is." I say quietly, rasping it out. He closes my wind pipe completely, out of rage, and Kagura uses her wind to push his away and I gasp for air.
"You can't kill her now." Kagura says. "I won't have anything pointing at me."
"I wasn't going to kill her." Koki says, going towards her.
"Sure looked like it." Kagura argues back. I look over at the table next to me and see a phone slightly under Koki's jacket. My phone! I see a flash of hope and I grab onto it, already devising a plan.
"Just get in there!" Kagura says, pushing Koki out the door. She turns to me and sneers. "Don't go anywhere." She laughs as she slams the door and I'm left alone.
I use my toes to scoot the chair, slowly but surely, towards the table. I scoot closer and closer and realize I won't be able to call him if my hands are tied behind me. I look around and sigh in frustration, tears forming.
Focus Rin! You may not have much time. Think!
I take a deep breath and start wiggling my hands, getting my fingers close to the knot. I pull at the ends, wiggling and tugging, twisting against the thick rope. I'm free and I can feel the blood from the rope burns but I grab the phone and dial Sesshomaru's speed dial, using my other hand to undo the ropes on my feet.
Just as he answers, the door opens, and I jump up and start running towards the back maze of shelves and junk, hoping for a back door.
"Sesshomaru?" I whisper into the phone. "Use the GPS on my phone to find me; Koki and Kagura have me kidnapped and-."
"Oh no you don't!" Koki growls, grabbing me from behind. I scream and drop the phone and it slides under one of the metal rack things. He throws me to the concrete ground and I cry out, knowing something will be broken.
"Clever Rin." Koki says with distaste and sarcasm in his tone. "Too bad you're still oh-so-stupid." He kicks my side and I cry out, turning into a fetal position. "I do all this for your own good."
"What kinda bullshit is that?" I gasp out through the pain. He lifts me up by my hair, one hand around my throat. I reach onto the rack behind me, tears falling from my eyes.
"Rin, what has gotten into you?" Koki asks in exasperation. "What happened to my Rin?"
"She finally got away." I say before I take the wrench from behind me and swing it around at his head. He's down in seconds. I hit his head area but not his temple so he's not dead but he'll be unconscious for awhile. I breathe a sigh of relief and get on my knees to grab my phone when a gust of wind lifts me up and slams me against the hard metal walls. I cry out and look to see Kagura stepping in from the door.
"Of course my stupid dumbass of a cousin would fall for whatever trick you did." Kagura spits out. "But I am smarter than that."
"Are you really?" I ask. She growls and drops me to the floor then pushes me back against the wall.
"Don't talk shit. You are in no position to you tramp." She growls out, coming closer. "You had your chance to go, and you wasted it."
"I wouldn't…say that…" I gasp out through the pain.
"Neither would I." Sesshomaru says as he enters through the door, sending Kagura into an alternate universe as her mind is blown.
"Sesshomaru… I was just-." Kagura starts to say.
"Save it." Sesshomaru growls out, his eyes red with a blue pupil. I feel fear slither into my very core and I fight to stay awake, pain making my vision cloudy and shadowed…
I see Sesshomaru change into a giant dog and wonder if I'm imagining it. He has silver fur and is huge, about the size of the giant warehouse like shed. I feel my eyes widen and I cry out to him.
"Sesshomaru!" I yell. "Don't hurt them! I'm fine." I say, coughing on my blood as it spits out on the floor. Kagura grabs Koki and is gone on a giant feather as Sesshomaru changes and comes to my side at once.
"Come, we must go to a hospital." He says, lifting me up bridal style.
"No." I rasp out, loosing consciousness. "Please not a hospital… I can't….don't like…"
"Rin, just sleep." He says in a soothing way, his lips pressed to my forehead. And then I'm out.
Beep…beep…beep…
I open my eyes to the bright lights and look around at the mint green walls, looking more like mucus, and the gray tile floor. I look at the machines and freak out when I see a needle in my arm.
"Hey now." Kagome says as she comes in through the door and shuts it, coming to my side. "Don't mess with that."
"I don't do needles." I rasp out through my sore throat. I touch my throat and hear the crinkle of the hospital gown.
"Well I don't do you dying." Kagome says. I look up into her swollen eyes and see she's been crying.
"I'm fine."
"Rin, you almost died." Kagome says, tearing up. "You were kidnapped and beaten… God Rin! How could you go through that and still be here?" She grips my hand hard.
"I've been through a lot. It's really not a big deal, Kags." I say, squeezing her hand back. "Just breathe. It's over and done with. That's the past."
"Yes, it was your past and that's what scares me. Rin…you went through that every day. I can't imagine the pain and suffering you've gone through."
Wow…and she hasn't even seen Ishi...
"Kagome… I'm going to be alright…" I say. "How long have I been here?"
"You've been sleeping for 7 hours and have been gone for 1 before Sesshomaru found you so…It's the afternoon."
"Oh my gosh." I say, thinking about all the time I've lost. I bolt up and immediately regret it as pain shoots up my side. I cry out and Kagome freaks.
"What is it? Should I call the nurse? Are you dying?" She asks, running around like a chicken with its head cut off.
"Kags." I gasp out, lying down slowly. "I'm fine. Just…in some pain." I feel the wrap around my waist and see I must have some broken ribs. My other hand has a wrap on it too, an almost cast but not, and I figure I must have sprained my wrist. My whole body is sore and I have a brace thing around my knee so I must've hurt that in some way.
"Do you know how lucky you are?" Kagome asks, coming to my side again.
"Yeah…I got a feeling…" I say, thinking of Koki and Kagura and shuddering.
"By the way, Sesshomaru has been here the whole time. He just left to answer a call from his father." She says with a knowing smile. I blush a little.
"Is he here?" I ask.
"Indeed." Sesshomaru says, as he enters the room. Kagome gives me a look and then slips out the door. Sesshomaru shuts it behind her and then comes to my side.
"How are you feeling?" Sesshomaru asks.
"I've been better." I say, giving the needle in my arm a look. It's as if I can feel it putting things into my system…and I don't like it. I look back up at him. "Thank you for coming to…well, you know."
"Was that guy there Koki?"
"…Yes…"
"What did you do to him?"
"I…maybe have hit him with a wrench…among other things…"
Sesshomaru cracks a smile but then it fades. "You are lucky."
"I know." I look out the hospital window in the blue sky outside and sigh. "But to be honest, I'm used to it, okay? This time was just more…serious." He goes to say something but I cut him off. "Listen I know, okay? I know you don't want to deal with somebody like me… I'm broken in a way and I understand, honestly I do." I look him in the eyes. "But please don't date Kagura. I gave her a whole rant about how you would never love her so please don't prove me wrong."
"Rin." He says, making me look at him again. "I am staying with you."
"…Okay but what I'm saying has nothing to do with if you're staying to see if I'm okay or not. This is about your future. I'll have to go back home soon and-."
"No."
I give him a look. "No? No what?"
"No you are not leaving."
"Sesshomaru…of course I'm going to have to go back home. This was just a summer thing."
"Your aunt abuses you too, does she not?" He questions.
"Who cares?" I say in exasperation, leaning back and turning away from him. "Who even cares?... This has happened almost all my life and no one has ever cared so why start now? I have nowhere else to go, Sesshomaru. I've been sent there and I'm stuck there until I graduate and I still have 2 years…" I feel a tear slip by and I wipe it away and open my eyes to see Sesshomaru standing in front of me.
"I care; my father cares; your cousin and friends care."
"That doesn't matter! It just…doesn't matter… This is my life." I say, gesturing with my hands down my body with a sad smile. "This is what I've dealt with, okay? I've dealt with it for a long time and I'm going to have to keep dealing with it because no one can help me."
"I can help you."
"How?" I ask with exasperation mixed with frustration that is clear in my demeanor and tone.
"You stay here."
"Sesshomaru…it's not that simple. My aunt is like sorta like my ex…as in, I won't be able to just get up and get away. She hates me but she'd rather have me be miserable than be happy and away from her."
"Rin." Sesshomaru says, grabbing my attention. "When I said I would stay with you and protect you, I meant from all that harms you."
"But you can't do that…" I say, a tear slipping down my cheek. "I'm so broken you can't fix me…"
He puts a hand to my cheek, swiping his thumb across to catch the tear.
"You…are not broken." He says, staring into my eyes. "I shall protect you, Rin. I promise."
I hold Sesshomaru's hand to my cheek as I cry. Please do… "Okay Sesshomaru." I say quietly, not letting him know that that will be nearly impossible.
There's a knock on the door and I let go of Sesshomaru but all he does is grab my hand in his as the door opens to reveal 2 police officers walking in and then shutting the door.
"Rin Wakahisa?" The female one asks, her blond hair in a bun at the base of her head.
"Yes?" I ask quietly, nervous.
"We'd just like to ask you a few questions about the events of last night."
"…Okay…" I say. The male with the beer gut looks at Sesshomaru.
"Alone." The guy says. I look up at Sesshomaru, who gives the guy a glare.
"I'll be fine." I assure him. He looks at me and I nod to show him I mean it. He kisses my forehead and then leaves. I look at the officers. "Am I in trouble?"
"No. We just want to ask you a few questions."
"Okay. Ask away." I say, watching at the man situates himself by the window and the woman sits in the chair on the side of the bed.
"Can you explain how you were kidnapped and how you were set free?" The woman asks, setting out a tape recorder out and holding pen and paper.
"Back before I moved here for the summer, I was abused by a boyfriend. When I moved here, he broke up with me. Well, then he started to text me, saying he was coming. As I was gone with Sessh-a friend, he broke into my cousin's house and then threatened me. I tried to run and he shoved me down the stairs and then I woke up in this shed warehouse place with him and his accomplice."
"Who were these people?" the man asks.
"Koki Mizuno and Kagura Date." I say, not a speck of guilt in me for telling them their names.
"Alright." She says, writing it down. "Okay, now; tell me more about what happened in the house before you move on to the warehouse."
"Okay…" and so begins the retelling of the incident, consuming most of my afternoon.
"Why can't I go home?" I ask the doctor as he stands at the edge of the bed with his stupid clipboard. He looks at me, with Kagome and Aunt Mae on one side, Sesshomaru on the other.
"Well, we are only looking out for your wellbeing." He says. I scoff.
"Having a needle in my arm and enduring your cafeteria food is so not helping my wellbeing." I say with a harsh edge in my voice. "Why not just say the real reason? You, as well as everyone else, is just making sure I don't go all depressed and suicidal."
"That is one reason, yes, but we are also watching your external injuries." He says. "I'm sorry. And visiting hour closes in 15 minutes." He leaves.
"Aunt Mae-." I start to say but she cuts me off.
"I'd sneak you out if I could Rin." She says, smiling with red eyes. I feel slightly guilty for being the reason she has those red tear stained eyes.
"I know…" I say. She comes over and kisses my cheek.
"Call if you need me." She and Kagome walk out, leaving me along with Sesshomaru. I can see they are pained to go before I turn my attention to him.
"Can you sneak me out?" I ask, with a plead in my voice. He smirks a little, his magenta stripes moving with his smile.
"No. You need to get better." He says.
"I'm fine."
"Do not lie. I can tell." He kisses my forehead again and looks at me for a minute.
"What?" I ask, wondering if my bruises are that bad for I haven't even looked in the mirror.
"I am sorry…" He says, anger clear in his eyes.
"It isn't your fault."
"I should've been there."
"Sesshomaru, you were there. You saved me. If you weren't there…I just don't know." I grab his arm and pull his down and put my hands on his cheeks and look him straight in the eyes. "Sesshomaru; you were there for me when I needed it the most. Without you, I don't know…I just don't know." I kiss his nose and smile. "Don't worry yourself to death. I'll be fine for one night."
He looks at me once more and then he's gone, and I flip on the TV, not to watch but to not feel so alone.
I'm running…down a long hallway. There are doors all over but they're all locked…except for the one at the end. I run for it, hoping and praying I get to it in time.
Just as I'm inches within it, someone grabs my waist and pushes me down. I cry out and spin around and see Koki, eyes wild, a dark shadow following him and turning the whole hallway dark.
"You can't run, Rin." He says. "For I shall always find you." He pulls something from his jacket that shines—a knife.
"I do this for your own good." He says, reaching down to grab my hair and pulling me up closer to the knife.
I scream and bolt up in bed, screaming then too. I break off into a sob and look at the crisp white sheets, making sure there is no red on them. I breathe in and out, trying to calm my speeding heart and hoping no nurses heard me. It's dark outside and I lean back against the covers, trying to reassure myself that it was all a dream and nothing to worry about.
I feel tears slip and I brush them away, knowing with a sad heart that my nightmare will never end…