Ello everyone, sorry about another long delay, and about a short chapter...
Bad week again. Boo.
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We Love Like Vampires- Sparks The Rescue
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Chapter 10- I Never Chose This
As I stood in the woods with Seth, I felt like a complete idiot, because, I am in fact a… coward.
"I-I-I dunno… S-seth, really, do I have to?" I stuttered, why do I choose now to be afraid?
What happened to my never ending fearlessness and craze, it seemed to have gone missing. I've gone soft damn it. Seth nodded his head, dread visible in his eyes, he looked like he was sick to his stomach. I had to do it, if it was what would make him happy, I would. Because I didn't like that look on his face, it made me feel sick as well. I stared forlornly at the forest floor, not at all ready, filled with doubt.
"How?" I asked, not quite sure of what to do.
The pain coursing me is absolutely crushing, it honestly hadn't hit me until now, I am a fucking werewolf. I am beyond freaked… shouldn't I have flipped out earlier? Why is this happening now? Maybe I've been a bit enveloped in all the joy of imprinting, not right now though, now I was having a complete meltdown.
"Candace, Hun, you okay?" His words made me take in everything, much more rapidly…
No, I so was not okay. I am a hormonal, teenage, freakin shape shifting girl. No, this was the furthest from 'okay' I could possibly be. My legs couldn't carry the weight anymore, and th next moment, I felt them collapse out from under me. So here I was, crumpled up on the floor, useless and tired, sobbing uncontrollably. Seth was just a tad too late to catch me, but the scratches would go away in a matter of seconds, this was just one more reminder, that I truly am a mythical creature.
"Shh. Shh. It'll be okay." He murmured, wrapping his arms around me from behind.
His words, meant to be soothing, but resulted in the exact opposite, they made me snap instead of calm down. Being a teenage girl, fifteen to be exact, automatically made me prone to bitching out. Which didn't help in the slightest, because whenever I got angry, I just exploded into a massive ball of fur and teeth. My life, officially, sucks ass.
"What the hell do you mean!? It is most definitely not going to be okay! I am a werewolf in case you've forgotten, how has that ever qualified as okay? My life is ruined beyond repair!" My hands shook violently, I had no control.
From where I was standing, it was very similar to a being a bomb, all you needed was a little flame, and there you went exploding into oblivion. Stress, in my case, served as all the flame I needed, inducing the rupturing of skin instantly. Which I was always in sufficient supply of, so it made this infinitely harder, than it had to be already.
"It. Is. Not. 'Okay'." I hissed through clenched teeth.
My whole body trembled and before Seth had the time to realize what was happening, or move away… I exploded, the fiery anguish and anger ripped up my spine. The bitter pain and unfamiliar reality of this situation tore at my heart. The white furry demon of a creature within me came out, and I hated it, I hated myself, I was a monster.
I hear groans from behind me, where Seth laid on the ground, knocked down, a bleeding gash in his shoulder, there were also bloody patches in his hair and on his arms. His eyes were squeezed shut, until he pushed himself off the ground, his face showed shock, and pain. I had hurt him, I couldn't believe myself. At that moment, I did completely the wrong thing. Instead of helping him, seeing if he was ok, I did the exact opposite, I ran off into the forest.
I didn't know where I was going, but I had to get away from there, away from what I've done. I ran, trepidation coursing through my veins, my heart pumping, each beat painful, a reminder that I didn't deserve to live. My feet carried me farther than I thought possible, or maybe it was because my thoughts were elsewhere. That was until someone else's accompanied my own.
"Hello," the sound rang timidly through my head.
"Uhm, hi… Who is this?" I responded, I slowed to a walk, I was far away enough, and I honestly didn't feel like running into a tree.
"This is Brady. You must be Candace." I just grunted, extremely un ladylike, yes, but that is not the point. But then again I don't have a point.
"Seth is looking for you," he paused, waiting for an answer, which he would most certainly not be getting from me.
"He's worried sick, he didn't phase, because he knows you want privacy. And I'm sorry for invading that, but I'm serious. He isn't mad, so you can stop running. Come back please?" I sat in the middle of the forest, internally dying, wishing I could take the last hour of my life back. No cliff diving, no accidental phasing and no almost killing of my boyfriend.
"He's a wolf, strong, it's not possible for you to kill him." Brady tried to comfort, but did not succeed, my eyes were wet, the tears that seemed awkward to shed in this form finally fell. Rolling off my fur and onto the dead leaves and snow. Wait, snow? How far out am I precisely?
"Uhrm, based on how long you've been gone, and the fact that there is snow, I'd say you're getting pretty close to Canada." Canada. Wonderful. I'm in the forest, in Canada with no idea how to get back and no clothes, no phone and no one to bring me back. Fuck my life.
"Candace, hold up, I'm gonna try to get you some help. I'll be back." With that he was gone.
The moment that Brady phased out, the wind blew a foul smell into my face, it was odd and unknown to me. Sickly sweet, with a sour tinge to it, it came from my left, where the trees were thicker and concealed. I growled, the wolf in me was signaling to fight, why? I couldn't fight, I didn't know how, I couldn't even phase correctly. Shit!
"Don't attack, I come in peace." Said a voice like a bell, coming from above me.
I looked up, only to see the unusual image, of a supermodel in a tree. She hopped down gracefully, holding her hands up in front of her trying to show she meant no harm. The perfectness of the girl showed what she was, the enemy, a vampire… fuck, fuck, fuck, I don't know what to do.
Her eyes, not the bright red from the legends nor the deadly black that symbolized hunger, but golden like the vampires that had our tribe has a treaty with. I didn't need to fight, thank you God! She stared, her nose wrinkled, just like mine. She smelt horrible, like she bathed in horrible perfume or something. Ick.
"It would be easier if we could talk, here." She held out a pile of clothing, it still smelt like her, but in a slightly diluted manner.
I grabbed it between my teeth, and trudged off behind a bush. I was now so unsure of myself, my nerves were still on high alert, so I couldn't get calm enough. The only thing I could do was wait, so I did and thought of calming things, like the ocean, like my mother. And of all the things that didn't piss me off, and eventually, my body returned to me. The feeling of being human again was odd, it felt like you were being pushed back into your shell. And the only way to feel comfortable again is to phase back into a wolf.
I slipped on the yellow sundress and matching panties, thank God again, underwear! I step onto the snow as it melts beneath my feet, over to the girl, who bounced up and down in her six inch stilettos. Her pale white skin, spiky black hair, and glowing golden orbs, were undeniably things to be envious of.
"My name is Alice Cullen," She began.
Looking at me, her eyes distant, she started pacing in front of me, shooting glances at me every couple seconds, as if I were to take off running or something. I waited, not knowing what exactly I was waiting for.
"You really could have hurt Seth, be more careful please?" She looked at me, waiting for my response, how dare she!
"I didn't ask for this!" I exploded, she remained calm and shook her head, giving me a glare.
"Oh, but you did. You remember that shooting star? You wanted to be with Seth forever, and that's what you get. You aren't aging and neither is he, there is your forever. Happy?" She replied acidly.
Oh my gosh, did a wish upon a star actually come true? Was she serious?
"Werewolves, shape shifters, magic in themselves, they often provoke the magic that is otherwise dormant in the world. So you got your wish, and Seth got his. But you need to watch what you're doing, because you did ask for it. You are going to have to work a lot harder, because this wasn't fate. I came to warn you, not be a bitch, sorry." All I can do is stare at her, I hate this, I hate myself, why in the world did I ask for this? And what have I taken away from Seth by doing this?
"Seth made a wish too?" I wondered, she said his had come true as well, what was it?
"He wished to imprint on you and that's all I know, because I can't see your futures, but I noticed yours disappear... He is very much in love with you, from what I've heard. Seth is a friend of mine, so he actually told me. So yeah, that's all." She finished casually.
Completely dumbfounded, that's how I felt. Not confused though, I just didn't know what to say. Quickly she pointed to the east, and told me to go in a straight line until I hit the Makah reservation, by the time I looked back at her, she was gone. Ugh, creepy. I slipped the sundress over my head along with the underwear and wadded it into something that could fit into my mouth. It was awkward, standing in the woods, totally naked, not completely knowing how to phase…
If calm thoughts brought me back to human form, then maybe angry, hurtful thoughts had the opposite effect. I thought about Seth, lying bleeding and helpless on the forest floor, and how I had run instead of helping him. My hands were already shaking violently, good I thought gloomily. Then I thought about how I had asked for this, how it's my fault that Seth got hurt, and that I am standing naked in the woods not able to change into… and I exploded, the anger was enough, the heat rushed throughout my limbs and the tearing sense of release was back. I was now out of that shell. a fucking werewolf, I concluded.. Well, isn't that just wonderful.
I picked up the clothing in my teeth and took off running in the direction Alice, I sneered the name inside my head, had pointed out. I didn't like that girl, she obviously didn't like me either.
It took me about an hour, Brady phased back in about halfway through, and he saw the whole thing on replay, I snarled and growled the whole way, wanting nothing other than to rip Alice Cullen to shreds… bitch.
I ran, like I had on my way to God knows where, but this time, I ran with a purpose, I just want to get home and sit in the woods, practicing phasing in and out of human form. Not that it was gonna be fun or anything, but I believed the vampire bitch. And if I did in fact ask for this, then what the hell, I ought to work hard on trying to fix it. I reached the edge of La Push, only to be greeted by Jacob Black and Leah Clearwater.
Shit, I am so dead.
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