Chapter 10
Mark awoke in the middle of the night without her next to him. He looked over at the clock to see it was 2:30. "Were the hell did she go?" he grumbled wiping the sleep from his eyes. He looked around the room and saw her by the window, her body bathed in the moonlight. (a/n: the window is one of those ones that you can put pillows and shit there and sit. hope u know what i mean.) she was sitting and starring out the window as if she were in a trance. she didn"t even notice him until he wrapped his large arms around her and asked,"What's the matter baby girl?"
She looked up into his green eyes for a second before she looked back down and ontinued to look out at the night as she spoke. " Just thinking about the past i guess." she said in a voice that was barely above a whisper.
He looked down at her and saw the pain that filled her eyes. " You know im here for you, right?"
She seemed to be getting frustrated now and let everything out on him."Why, why do you want me? Why are you trying so hard to fix me mark?"
"Because your beautiful and funny and smart and whether you know it or not you deserve someone who will make yo happy." He replied bending down and resting his chin on her shoulder. She laughed bitterly and looked up at him with tears in her eyes. " hey everythings gonna be okay baby girl. I wont let anyone hurt you anymore." He turned her and pulled her into a hug, letting her cry on his chest as he comforted her. She didn't cry very long and when she stopped he pulled her away a little and asked her,"Ya wanna tell me which part of the past ya were thinkin about baby girl?"
"Not really."
" It helps to talk about it ya know?" he said.
She looked away from him as if looking into his eyes hurt too much. " Mark i just dont want you to know everything, i dont want you to think less of me." She said, desperately trying to make him understand why she couldn't talk to him.
He tilted her chin up so that she would look at him when he told her,"That'll never happen darlin."
She jerked her head out of his hand and walked a few feet away from him. "Really? Cause the shit i coud tell you would make your skin crawl mark. The shit i could tell you would make even a big guy like you shiver."
He was becoming just as frustrated and angry as her but on the surface he was trying to remain calm for her sake. "Baby girl why are you trying so hard to push me away from you?"
"Because i can't handle getting hurt again mark and im not willing to take the chance that i will because i know myself. When i get hurt i really get hurt mark and i just dont want that pain anymore."
"I would never hurt you."
" Maybe not intentionally but i ,of all people, know that anyone is capable of hurting someone mark. Besides it's a whole hell of a lot easier to hurt someone when you don't know them." She tried to explain to him.
"Who says I dont know you."
" I do mark."
"I know how many tattoos ya have, I know that ya love it when I suck on your pulse, I know that ya hate it when people try to make ya do something, I know that ya love it when i hold ya when you sleep, I know that ya love the beach, and I know that ya love how much i want ya every minute of everyday. I know that ya hate mornings. I know that ya love music and your a great guitar player. I know that ya love motorcyles and i know that your great in bed, for a fact. I know that ya got a mouth on ya that could put a rattlesnake to shame. " he smirked but his face quickly turned serious as her looked into her eyes. " and i know that whatever ya keep bottled up inside of that pretty little head of yours is just dying for a good listener, and the last time I checked darlin, I was a pretty damn good listener."
she looked away in defeat. suddenly feeling the burning need to say everything that she never thought she could, she opened up to him, " I'm a killer mark. I don't deserve you, I don't deserve to live."
he cut in, "baby girl ya did what ya had to do, and ya deserve the world cause i say ya do."
" just listen remember."
"sorry"
" just because the police ruled it self defense doesn't mean i never thought about it. everytime she beat me. everytime she let things happen to me." she cisibly shivered and shut her eyes tight as if she were remembering something. " i always thought about it and now i can't help but think there could have been another way. maybe things could have happened differently. i let her do this to me, maybe if i had been stronger or if i had been a better daughter none of this would have happened. I can't help but think that maybe i deserve everything i got. I just don't know. it hurts so bad mark. The questions of what if, their always there and their never gonna go away. The grim reaper on my shoulder, i got it because she made me a killer, because everyhting i am she made me." she went silent and looked down at the ground.
" my turn?" he asked when he saw that she wasn't talking anymore.
"shoot."she said, still unable to look into his eyes.
" it's not your fault, at the time it was the only solution and now your wondering if ya could have changed things. ya can't and its no good to hold onto them. Your not a bad person just cause ya had a hard life baby girl. it makes ya better. okay?" he aked lifting her chin. he needed to see that she understood. needed to see some form of sparkle inside of her brown eyes.
"when did you count my tattoos?" He laughed at her and she smiled, " yeah okay."
he leaned into her ear, " you'd be surprised what i notice when your tight little body is underneath me." she gasped at his words and the feel of his uge erecton digging into her stomach. " oh and you've got ten tats" he said before he lifted her naked body up causing her to instantly wrap her legs around his waist as he led them over to a wall. " ya know tomorrow night im gonna torture ya, tomorrow night im gonna make love to ya, but tonight..." he leaned down close to her ear so she could feel his breath on her skin. " im gonna fuck ya til ya can't walk right." he shoved his entire length into her abrutely, automatically moving at a fast and hard pace fueled by her screams as he pounded into her. he kept going until she reached her orgasm and after, determined to make her cum as many times as he could. " mark!" she screamed
" what baby" he whispered, " you like me like this, pounding into your sweet little pussy."
" umm huh." she whimpered, not being able to form words from the intense pleasure. he quickened his pace more until all that could be heard was the sound of her screams,his grunts and their bodies slapping together. The odor of sex filled the room and e felt her start to pulse again. He changed the direction of his efforts causing her to scream incoherent words in his ears. he felt himself getting close and pulled out of her, placing her on the ground on her hands and knees and re-entering her forcibly. " oh god baby girl" he pushed into her with all his might as his body shuddered violently and they both let out screams as they came together. he slowly pulled out of her and turned her over, showering her face neck and shoulders with kisses until he got to her lips and softly but passionately kissed her. he picked her up and put her into the bed, climbing in beside her and holding her closely. "go to sleep darlin, i got ya andim not lettin ya go."
she looked up at him and touched his face, " I trust you mark." with that sheclosed her eyes and drifted off to sleep, her face buried into his chest listening to the sound of his heart beating. Mar just watched her beautiful face as she slept until he could no longer hold his eyes open.
ok there ya go. i know it took me a while to update so sorry bout that. alrighty then. i'll write more soon and please review. thank you.