Hey everyone! So, this is where it starts getting dark. Everyone has a past we'd rather forget. In this
case it's Blake's. This chapter is a bit of an emotional rollercoaster, and covers some really hard
topics. I also want to put out there a trigger warning. One, Blake has a mildly bad habit when she
wants to forget and some forced things that happened between her and Adam are discussed,
and if you are sensitive to that, please don't read this chapter.
Chapter 17: Yang:
"I still don't understand why you thought it was a good idea to answer every question on that algebra test by circling the 'x' in each triangle and writing 'here it is'." Weiss said to Ruby as we walked to our dorm. Ruby and I had been called to Professor Goodwitch's office because of Ruby's stunt, and Weiss had come along to both support and berate my sister. "I told you, the test said 'find x', so I found the 'x's." Ruby defended. I actually understood what she meant, but that didn't mean she was right. It was a smartass stunt that would have been acceptable coming from me.
When we finally got back to the dorm, Blake was just finishing up baking brownies. "Yay, brownies! You are awesome Blake." Ruby cheered. "These are for actually for me, I don't think you'll like them." Blake said, hesitantly looking at the brownies. "Can I try just a bite?" Ruby pleaded. "Sure, but you won't enjoy it." Blake said, giving her a small piece. Ruby crammed it into her mouth, and her eyes went wide before she vomited it into the trash can.
"That's what I expected." Blake sighed. "Oh my Dust, not even Weiss's first brownies were that terrible, and she burnt them to a crisp. How did you manage to make normal looking brownies taste like…I can't even think of what to compare them to." Ruby groaned. "Secret ingredient." Blake smiled, putting three brownies off to the side and the rest in a bag. "Well it tasted like you baked a bunch of dead leaves into it." Ruby complained. Blake ignored her and laid on her bed, eating the brownies.
I picked one up and sniffed it. It smelled like chocolate and an old cat toy. "You are a bad kitty Miss Belladonna." I chided, realizing what she had done. She didn't care; she just took the last brownie from me and ate it, then relaxed on her bed. Her eyes were already glazing over. "She baked catnip into the brownies, didn't she?" Weiss sighed. "Just you're regular monthly reminder that Blake, is a cat." I said. "Sparkly." Blake whispered, her brain long gone into some kind of high.
"How long do you think that high is going to last?" Weiss asked, looking at Blake with mild anger. "I have no idea. I've never seen her on catnip, and I didn't know it would even affect her. I would assume she has some idea of how long it lasts, and since tomorrow is the weekend…it might be a while." I sighed, annoyed at the fact that she just went and got high without any shame. "Maybe there's some reason she did this? I mean, Blake's never irresponsible, and this isn't exactly her kind of thing to do." Ruby theorized. "I kind of agree, there has to be a good reason." Weiss said.
"Is there anyone we can ask? None of us really know much about Faunus." Ruby asked, poking Blake with a pencil, who was completely dead to the world now. "I have an idea of what I can ask." I said, getting down on all fours and reaching under Blake's bed. I grabbed the metal covered book, and sat next to Blake, reaching into her cleavage. "YANG! You can't just molest her while she's high off her ass!" Ruby shouted at me. "Oh please, what's the fun in touching her if I don't get touched back?" I scoffed, pulling out the small key she hid on a chain.
"I want to go on record, reading her diary is a bad idea." Weiss said as I unlocked the book cover. "For you, yes it is. But I actually have her permission, hence why I know where the key is." I told her. "Why would she give you permission? Ruby isn't allowed to read mine." Weiss continued. "Because it has her personal details. If something ever happens to her, I'm supposed to get her information for the doctors, or call her parents." I clarified. "Blake has parents?" Ruby asked. "Everyone has parents you dolt. Although I must admit I'm surprised they're around, given she never calls them." Weiss chided.
Let's see, I could call her parents, the number was right here…but that would get her in trouble. Being as organized as she is, she had the whole front thirty pages tabbed for emergency information and such. And thankfully, tab 23 was listed as 'catnip'. I flipped to the page and started reading. Basically, catnip put her into a hallucinogenic high and made her dead to the world. She wrote she only did it when she was under extreme stress, and preferred brownies. One brownie lasted four hours. It was six now, so she would be high until 6:00am. Okay, good. She would just be gone for the night. But the question was, WHY!? I flipped around until I found her last entry, and read it.
"I dreamt about him again last night. Even after a year and a half, he still haunts my nightmares. I still cannot believe my father was going to marry me off to him, even if he was my first love. I was too damn young. Tomorrow is was our marriage date, the day I'm supposed to marry the bastard, but thank Oum I don't have to now. Adam can burn in the lowest depths of hell, I have Yang now. And she's a million times better than that bull fucker."
"Well, she's only going to be out until tomorrow morning. She's probably just going to sleep hard or something, but it doesn't say she'll die or anything." I told them. I locked the book up and put it back, and then I gently tried to slip the key back down her shirt, only to have her grab my arm. "Yaaaaang. I'm a naughty kitty." She said, completely out of it still. "I know you are. Can you let me go now?" I asked, while Weiss and Ruby looked both shocked and confused. "Nuuu! You're gonna lie down and snuggle me." She cooed. "But it's only six thirty." I argued. And she started to cry… "I'm going to bed early, so just be quiet I guess." I told the Whiterose pair, sighing as I lied next to Blake and let her snuggle me. "I'm glad I have my Yang." Blake purred. Yes, literal purring.
Around seven-thirty Blake was about as dead to the world as a corpse and sleeping like a rock. So I managed to worm myself free from her and went to dinner with Ruby and Weiss. "Do you think we should bring her something back?" Ruby asked as we walked to the cafeteria. "She's not waking up. She'll make breakfast tomorrow. Besides, it's ice cream night, and she's been a bad kitty so no ice cream for her." I said, still mad that rather than talking to me, she just baked catnip brownies and get high as a kite. It was like she didn't trust me with whatever she was upset about.
"I wonder if Blake has those little spiky hair things on her tongue. She likes ice cream, but I don't think it would be easy to eat with those if she had them." Ruby questioned curiously as we walked. "She does not. Trust me, she's had her tongue in my/YANG!" I began to answer, only to have Ice Queen scream at me. "What Princess?" I growled. "Don't say such things, especially right in front of your little sister." Weiss growled back.
"First off, fuck you. Second, fuck you. Third, I was going to say mouth. Even Ruby is not naïve enough to not know Blake and I kiss. Kissing is a perfectly normal thing, and even you two do it. And I let you, because for some reason she loves you. Now, back on topic. Blake does not have the spiky hairs on her tongue. She does however have fangs, and they sometimes make it hard for her to eat because she bites her bottom lip." I ranted.
"Yang, be nice to Weiss. She's just being over protective. And Weiss let Yang dig her own graves. Don't yell at her until she actually does something wrong. She does occasionally know how to not say bad things, and usually has good answers during those few moments." Ruby sighed. "Wait, if she has cat ears, how can she have fangs? Faunus only get one trait." Weiss asked. "They only get one major trait. Blake's trait is her ears, but she also purrs and has fangs. She also has a lot of cat-like tendencies. If you look at Velvet, she has those rabbit ears. But she also loves carrots and hops around a lot. Faunus are very misunderstood." I explained to them.
"Since when did you become an expert on Faunus?" Weiss scoffed. "Since I'm dating one and don't want to be an ignorant bitch? I love Blake, but she's different from the three of us and some things are just…well different. I don't want to accidentally offend her or hurt her by feeding her something she can't eat or something because I'm ignorant, so I've been studying how Faunus work. You'd be surprised what a girl will do for love." I told her. "I think its good Yang knows how Faunus are. If anything happens to Blake, she can help her better." Ruby smiled.
"GIVE ME THE PANCAKES REN OR SO HELP ME!" Nora shouted as something flew past me and shattered on the wall. "Nora, you are making a scene." Ren said calmly. "IT'S A SATURDAY! I CAN MAKE ALL THE SCENE I DAMN WELL PLEASE! NOW GIMME THE PANCAKES!" she kept shouting. "Someone's on the rag." I muttered, watching the event in front of me as I poked at a sausage with my fork. "I HEARD THAT YOU BLONDE BIMBO!" Nora shouted at me, throwing a muffin. "SIT THE FUCK DOWN AND SHUT IT! DON'T EVER RAISE YOUR VOICE TO HER!" Blake screamed, aiming Gambol Shroud at Nora in its gun form. The cafeteria suddenly went dead silent, everyone watching the pair.
Nora huffed and sat down pouting, and Blake put her weapon away and sat next to me, holding her head. Everyone went back to their food, and we looked at Blake. "Before you say anything, kindly fuck the hell off or I will make it my sworn duty to execute the both of you." She growled, obviously in pain. "Headache?" I asked. "Headache I can deal with. This is more like some invisible grim whacking me in the face with an axe about 100 times a minute." She answered. "That's what happens when you get high as a kite and pass out." Weiss scoffed.
In a second Gambol Shroud was back out, and aimed at Weiss's right eye. "Your face is a bit asymmetrical. Would you like me to scar the other eye?" Blake hissed. Weiss was so taken aback she couldn't even say anything for a good 10 seconds, then just got up and walked off. "I got Weiss. You fix Blake." Ruby said, rolling her eyes and following Weiss. "Let's take a walk kitty. And no, it's not optional. You have a lot of explaining to do." I said, grabbing her arm.
We went up to the dorm roof and sat on the edge, looking out over the school. "Alright kitten, start talking." I said calmly. Except she didn't. She just sat there, motionless, and didn't say a thing. I waited, and waited, and waited. "Look, I know whatever it is, it's hard. But you're already on extremely thin ice. You didn't talk to Ruby, you didn't talk to a professor, and worst of all you didn't talk to me. Instead you got high off your fucking ass and passed out. Now I don't what who this Adam guy is, but I know you were in some type of arranged marriage, so talk." I demanded.
"You read my diary!?" she screeched. "I didn't have a choice! You made catnip brownies without telling anyone a fucking thing and laid on your bed like you were giving up! Which you pretty much did! For all I knew you were trying to commit suicide by catnip! So yes, I looked up what catnip did in your diary. And I considered calling your parents, but I decided to read your last entry and see if I could figure out anything. You didn't leave me with much of a fucking choice." I growled.
She said nothing. Blake and I had had tiffs and even a fight over her not sleeping when Torchwick was around still. But this wasn't a fight. She just sat there and took it like it meant nothing. I waited more, and got nothing. "You know what, fuck it. Do what you want. You don't wanna talk, fine. I don't even care anymore. You do you Blake, just don't expect me to do you either." I said, and walked away towards the door. I didn't even bother making a pun when I realized the doing her part I said.
"Yang, please don't." I heard her say, but her voice…she was crying. Part of me wanted to go comfort her, but another part wanted say she brought it on herself and just go. But I just couldn't do it. I punched the door hard enough to break the skin on my knuckles open and went back over, sitting beside her again as I watched the blood drip off my hand. "Please don't hurt yourself." She said, still crying. "Well what should I do Blake!? I feel so fucking helpless right now! I want to help you! But I can't do a fucking thing because you won't talk to me!" I screamed.
"Yang, I know you're frustrated. I don't blame you, I would be too. But this is way harder on me, and I don't even know where to start. I want to explain it all, but it hurts so badly. Just please, don't leave me." She continued. "Well, I don't know anything except for the guys name, Adam, and that you had some sort of marriage arrangement. So start at the beginning. Where you met him, why you wanted to marry him, that kind of stuff." I suggested.
"Alright, I'll try. His name was Adam Taurus. I met him when I was ten. I had just joined the White Fang as an official member, and I got partnered with him. He was a good guy, and he was protective of me because back then I wasn't even close to how skilled I am now. I'll admit, I was smitten with him. But he saw me as nothing more than a friend. My feelings went very much unrequited. Then when I was 12, I entered heat for the first time. My dad, being the head of the White Fang at the time, pulled me from the front lines for very obvious reasons. Adam wanted to know what was going on, so he came over to see me.
During heat, my scent changes. I know you can't smell it, your nose isn't strong enough. But Adam noticed, oh did he notice. And suddenly I had his full attention. Obviously my dad didn't let him stay long, but he did allow us to start dating. It was a good run, but Adam…he changed. I don't know when it first happened, but I noticed it when he made his first kill. We never killed! But Adam…he killed a person. I was 16 when it happened. Our parents had already sat down and had a nice chat about us. My dad was head of one White Fang branch, his dad was head of another. If we married, it would be a nice political and romantic fairy tale.
Once I saw Adam kill, I knew I couldn't stay. But I couldn't leave either. I was stuck in a relationship I didn't want to be in, with a guy who had lost his mind. One night I was home, trying to figure things out. Adam came over, and broke in through my window. I told him it was over and as you can expect, that didn't go over very well. It turned into a verbal fight, then a physical fight, and he overpowered me. We ended up on my bed…and he…he stole me." She explained, sobbing by the end.
I didn't even know what to do. Or what to say. How do you even begin to console someone who's gone through that? I just did the only thing I could think of: I grabbed her in a tight bear hug and let her sob into my shoulder under she couldn't cry anymore, and she hiccupped and sniffed. I felt terrible for making her bring it all up. But at the same time, it was very clear she had never dealt with it, and she had to get past this or it would haunt her forever.
"I'm sorry Yang. I'm so sorry. I should have been yours. I should have been anyone else's, but he took that from me. Please don't hate me." She said, breaking down again. "Blake Belladonna, do not EVER think you have to apologize for what happened. It is not and never was your fault. That's not a first time, that's a fucking crime. So unless there was someone between me and him, then I was your first. I am glad I was. Please don't ever think that I think less of you for what happened." I told her.
"It's so hard Yang. Deep down I know it's not my fault…but I can't chase away the thoughts that I provoked him somehow. Maybe my outfit, or my perfume, or something that made him do it. Maybe I'm too sexy because of my make up or something." She said, still in pain. "You did nothing. Men who do that, it's not about sex. It's about power. He was trying to show you that he had extreme power over you. And unless you get control over this, he still has that power." I explained.
I kept holding her, and eventually she laid her head in my lap and let me stroke her hair while she purred. "So, do you know what ever happened to him?" I asked, looking out over the campus. "Remember back when the school got attacked, and that guy with the red hair almost cut your arm off?" she asked. "I remember. I greatly enjoyed beating him until he was unrecognizable." I growled. "Consider that your revenge on him, since he's sitting in a prison now." She giggled. "That was him!?" I shouted, completely shocked. I had beaten the fucking bastard to within an inch of his life just because he stabbed her. Had I know about all this, I would have thrown that last punch and ended him.
"You're wishing you had killed him, aren't you?" she asked, looking up at me. "Can we convince a judge to have him hung drawn and quartered?" I asked, on the edge of exploding into flames. "It would be nice to see him hanging from a rope, but the rest would be pretty messy. Besides, isn't it better that he's in a cell for the rest of his life being miserable?" she suggested. "I suppose so. Still, I would have had more enjoyment in throwing that last punch." I shrugged.
We finally got back on good and happy terms and went down to the dorm. We stepped inside and closed the door just in time for Weiss to tackle Blake, pin her down, and hold Myrtenaster over her threatening to carve her face up and scream obscenities. Despite her small frame, it took both Ruby and me to keep her from slicing Blake up and we still had to shout for Pyrrah to come over and use her polarity semblance to take that damn sword from her and keep it away from the glyphs she was spawning everywhere.
Finally Ruby got tired of the fight and did the one thing no one liked. She blew her whistle and kept blowing until we were all on our knees covering our ears and screaming stop. It was twice as bad for Blake too, for obvious reasons. "I am so sick of this bullshit!" Ruby screamed, throwing the chair to the desk, which shattered against the wall next to Pyrrah, who shielded herself just in time. "You all need to get a grip on it!" Jaune shouted, coming in from across the hall. And everyone except for Blake and me immediately began fighting and shouting again.
"ENOUGH CHILDREN!" Professor Goodwitch screeched, storming in and using her telepathy to pin us all to a different place. "I agree students. This is a lot of fighting for just one team. Especially if it is not on the battlefield." Ozpin said. "I want an explanation for all of this before I personally sign the expulsion papers for each and every one of you." Goodwitch growled. "We should start with Blake then, since it starts with her past, but it's not pretty." I suggested. Blake was hesitant, and understandably so, but ended up telling Ruby, Weiss, team JNPR, Goodwitch and Ozpin.
"I see. I can understand how this all spiraled out of control. I can also see how this can also affect you all. I think that, given the circumstances, punishment will not be a good idea. Not because you don't deserve it, you do. But there is no point in punishing teenagers who are trying to handle such a complex and difficult issue on their own. You do the best you can with what you have, and unfortunately this was handled badly all around. But these are mistakes anyone can make, and it's best to simply learn from them." Ozpin said, and then sent everyone but Blake and I out.
"Miss Belladonna, I know this is a difficult subject for you, I must insist that for the good of everyone, and most of all yourself, that you see a psychologist and a therapist. This is an issue you have to overcome, or it will eat you from the inside out. It has already almost split up your team, and worse almost ruined your relationship with Miss Xiao Long. I suggest you talk more with her also. And Do to the nature of your relationship, please note that if you get caught doing something together, the punishment will be severe." He told us. "Welp, no sex I guess." I drolled, popping the P in 'welp'. "I did not say no sex, I said do not get caught. Have a nice day." He smirked.