Chapter Ten; Slowly Loosing My way

Warning; Self Harm, maybe sensitive to some readers.

some distasteful lanuage

Starkiller went to tattooine, and killed Agen Kolar, after dueling the skilled Jedi master for three hours and being beaten half to death by locals, who has a afinaty for the Jedi Master, and the duel was close to the teeth at many times, after handing Kolar's lightsaber to his Master, he was ordered away once more, but this time he wasn't told exactly where to go, just to stay somewhat close, So after consulting with the then one and a half months pregnant Juno, they decided to depart for Naboo, Juno had expressed a intrest in the seaside areas of Naboo, so they departed for naboo.

Two Months After Departure; On Naboo, In the Rogue Shadow, Juno's Quarters. [Juno's POV]

Its been the darkest three months of my life, everything seems to be blurred out, with darkness and I just can't cope, so when Galen leaves me alone which isnt very often; I release my pain, he is slowly suffocating me, just like this darkness consuming me, its the most horrible thing I have ever felt, its like Im sinking to the bottom, slowly, yet with a deep meaning. Vader also scares me nowadays, he is the only person who can make me loose Galen, he could send him on a suicide mission and I'd be powerless to do anything, He could kill him, himself, or worse brainwash him against me, or make him kill me. I shudder at the thought, Galen told me a few weeks ago that the only thing that can hurt him... Is me, things just aren't coming together. Maybe I should just leave, run away on Naboo, raise the baby alone, I think maybe that would be whats best for Galen. Galens visions are getting worse, there like sezures, his past definately haunts him, ever since Ive been assigned to him, his had the same problem, sometimes he mentions thing from what he thinks could be the future, he thinks the Emperor will find out about him, his master and his-self will try to murder the Emperor, they will fail and that he will die in the assault, yet be cloned back to life? I don't think that would ever happen, I think its the force energy of his parents or something causing the visions, yet he claims the clones of him in the future will have visions of us now, and the... baby.

On the death star; Vaders Quarters [Vader's POV];

The plan is at hand, Starkiller will soon become too powerful for me to control, he may try to kill me for my position, I must act before that happens, I didn't betray everyone who ever cared for me just to die a apprentice, I will Rule the galaxy as I promised Padme, I would. Starkiller was the wrong choice for this, I needed a boy that was indeed powerful but not so powerful he has a chance to betray and murder me, I needed a boy that I had complete control over but now with Starkiller I can sense he has loyalty to someone or something other than the empire and me.

On the Rogue Shadow; Starkillers Quarters; [Starkiller's POV]

Juno is now three and a half months pregnant with my child, yet I still don't feel fatherly or even excited, well I am slightly excited, I guess but now Juno's hurting herself and last time, it got really bad, I was worried out of my mind, if I 'actually' existed I would take her to a consellor but then again I dont think she wants to talk, I've never dealt with this before but I get the feeling that she doesn't wish to talk that she's trying to sort herself out on her own, I admire that but I wish she'd let me in, I know all this must be difficult for her but if she was to let me in, and just talk to me, I'd understand and she'd wouldn't feel so alone.

Juno's Quarters; [Juno's POV];

I lay here resting as I do for most of my time now, I'm beginning to show my pregnancy slightly now, in another month it will be obvious to most people, lets just hope Lord vader isn't in that catergory. As soon as Vader finds out he'll piece it all together, well Galen is the only man I'm around, its only me Proxy and Galen, when I first found out in medical part of the ship with Proxy playing doctor, I was shocked maybe even tramatised comes to mind, I certainly wasn't expecting to be well... expecting.

Ever since that point things have been going down hill, when I told my Mother, she was so joyful, so excited, yet I have no joy. No excitement, No anticipation... Nothing, When I told my Father, he told me, that I have to Marry Galen, so the baby isn't born a bastard, I dont get the point, I'm with Galen that should at least be enough? Shouldnt it? Galen seems excited, happy, joyous. Everything I wish I could be.

[THIRD PERSON]

Then as Juno was alone blood was split, to accompany the tears being shed, she just couldn't come to love her baby in this state of mind, her mind was cloaked in deceptive darkness, dragging her down, slowly, she is indanger of loosing everything, her job, her life, her baby and her Galen. The only thing she didn't care about loosing was her child, when really the baby should have been the one she was most afraid to loose, because not only would she loose her baby, the emotions from it would be so strong that she wouldn't cope and she'd fall even further into the void she was loosing herself to. It isn;t healthy for her to behave so dangerously, it isn't just her and Galen anymore... the child needed them too, both of them, Galen and Juno, no matter how many murders Galen commits or how many cuts Juno inflicts on herself. their baby needs them, and already is depending on them...