A/N: I know that it has been forever since I have updated this story or any of my other Criminal Minds stories and for that I am sorry... My muse hasn't let me worked on much of anything except for Harry Potter and Sons of Anarchy! The good news is that I am finally back with a new chapter of this story and I plan on updating some other Criminal Minds stories... Enjoy!

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Dave looked up when he heard footsteps and let out a sigh of relief that Aaron was finally there. He knew that he could wait by himself but he felt better having someone with him because otherwise he would have gone crazy. "Thank you for coming, Aaron."

Aaron shook his head. "No thanks needed, Dave. How are you holding up? Have they told you anything yet?"

Dave sighed and ran both of his hands through his hair and down his face. "They rushed her straight into surgery because her appendix perforated. The doctor that is doing the surgery did let me see her before he took her in. I prayed for the first time in several years that she would make it through this. I need her to make it through this, Aaron. I need to make up for all the hurt and pain I have caused her over the last twenty years. If she doesn't make it through this I am not sure that I want to keep on living in a world that she isn't in. My God how I fucked things up! If I could go back in time twenty years I would. I would change everything if only I could."

Aaron shook his head as he looked at Dave with solemn eyes. "It doesn't do any good to live in the past, Dave. The only thing you can do now is try to move forward. I get that you want to make up for the last twenty years to Erin but while you are doing that make sure that you don't live in the past. May I ask even what happened twenty years ago? I know some but only what Gideon told me and I don't think even he knows everything."

Dave groaned. "What happened is that I fucked up royally, Aaron. I listened to someone who I shouldn't have. Erin and I had been together almost a year when a fellow agent told me that he saw her with another man. Me being the stupid ass that I am believed him and cheated on Erin with someone else and then when I went to Erin's house to break it off with her I compounded the problem by taking the woman I slept with, with me and pretty much threw her in Erin's face. I said a lot of shit that wasn't true and that I never should have said but damn it I was hurting. I should have known better that Erin wouldn't cheat on me. Not only did I lose her but I murdered our unborn child. What kind of man am I, Aaron? How can I do this job if I have no qualms about killing my own unborn baby? It doesn't even matter that I didn't know she was pregnant. In the end it is still my fault that she lost our baby."

Aaron sat down beside Dave and squeezed his shoulder in support. "You can't blame yourself for what happened twenty years ago, Dave. It was a tragic accident that you couldn't forsee happening. Do you blame Erin for losing the baby?"

At that Dave looked at Aaron in horror. "Of course I don't blame Erin for losing our baby, Aaron! How could you think that?"

Aaron smirked slightly. "You just proved my point, Dave. If you can't blame Erin for losing the baby then you can't blame yourself. After all Erin is the one who fell asleep with the candles still lit and the oven and stove on. If you don't blame her for that then you can't blame yourself either. Everything happens for a reason, Dave. Maybe all of this happened twenty years ago so that now you can get your lives straight and finally be the people who you were meant to be when together. Everything that happened twenty years ago was a series of tragic incidents and nothing you or anyone else can do can change that. Right now you need to be strong, be there for Erin, and make sure that she knows how much you regret everything. There isn't a damn thing you can do other than that."

Dave sighed but finally relented. "I know that, Aaron, but it doesn't mean that I can't dream that I could change it. The hell Erin must have went through and she was all alone. She shut everyone out for a long time. Well everyone except Gideon apparently."

Aaron chuckled slightly at the jealousy he could detect in Dave's voice. "You have no reason to be jealous, Dave. There was nothing ever between Jason and Erin. In fact if there would have been then it would have been like incest. Don't you know that Jason is Erin's adopted brother? Well something like that. Jason's father got together with Erin's mother when they were both in their teens. They have always been close."

Dave's eyes widened at that. "No, I didn't know that. I always wondered why it seemed that he would call Erin when we were away on cases. I guess now I know. Do you have any clue how long this surgery could take?"

Aaron shook his head and sighed. "I am not sure since her appendix perforated, Dave. They will have to make sure that they get everything out of her so that she does not end up getting a really bad infection afterwards. From what I understand it can take anywhere from an hour to four hours. Do you want something to drink while we wait?"

Dave thought about it a minute and then reluctantly nodded. "I wouldn't mind a coffee or something to drink, Aaron. I'm going to need as much caffeine as I can get because I don't plan on leaving this hospital today or tonight. There is no way in hell I am letting Erin stay in the hospital overnight by herself."

Aaron smiled and stood up. "I will be back shortly with some coffee for both us. Give me a call if you hear anything and I'll get back here quicker."

Dave didn't respond he just watched as Aaron walked away. Once he was alone he leaned his head against the wall and whispered "If you get through this, Erin, I will spend the rest of my life making up for all the pain I caused you. I will spend the rest of my life showing you how much I love you, have always loved you, and will always love you. You just need to get through this and come back to me baby. I can't live in a world that doesn't have you in it with me."

A/N 2: Yay this chapter is finished! Hope you all liked the update... Click the button and let me know what you think!